/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>go through Keys to Drawing and get a bit through Drawabox, hated the latter
>tried both digital and traditional
>eventually give up, haven't drawn properly in about half a year but try every so often, never goes anywhere
>cannot draw from imagination, know I'm not expected to but all I want is to draw what's in my head
>even using references isn't good enough, I need to draw exactly what's in front of me
>even tried Dreams (PS4) to try and mash models together and draw them, but it's shit

and now here I am ordering clay so I can try to draw the clay models, which is wildly inefficient and no doubt stupid
what do I do? it feels so fucking hopeless