/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

All the artists I admire started from a very young age. I can't remember a thing about my childhood, I did nothing all that time. For lack of a better term, I feel like some NPC who has somehow achived self-awareness but still can't get out of that weird apathetic state.
I have no spark. I never had any passions to begin with. It's all I want, to lose myself in something like all these people with passion do, but I keep getting distracted by everything mundane and pointless. And when I try to lock my ass in a room to just spend hours drawing, it feels absolutely horrible, because I'm just stuck with myself and my terribly lacking abilities. I don't even feel that bad, I'm just a bunch of nothing. I just want to forget and start anew, man.

>>3486186
Goes for Hyper-anything fetishes in general, everytime I look back on all the pornshit after having distanced myself from it, the weirder it all seems to get.

PSA: Boobs are not the same size