/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>3323257

>live in a shit world country
>No family, no connections, no money, i am not good at anything and the only thing i like is art and weeb shit
>Nowhere to study illustration , can only study graphic design at a shit institute
>I pirate books online to self teach myself fundamentals in drawing.
>i quite several times, very little resources back then, too much competition, i get frustated and deppresed
>i graduate from shit institute eventually
>can only find shit work in graphic design locally, i dont even have my own pc since i am that poor and can only work in house for shit pay
>find international freelance sites
>start illustrating for customers with my low level charging little but after a while realize is more than i make in the ad agency and i quit , i hated graphic design, i hate advertisement and i hate ofice jobs
>Shit world country goes full retard into socialism
>Everyone is starving but i make money in $ and devaluation doesn´t affect me as much
>WTF ART SAVED ME FROM STARVING WTFFFFFF I NEVER IMAGINED I COULD MAKE SOMETHING OF IT . HOW CAN THSI BE WTF

I Know i would have a very hard time still supporting myself if i move to another country, my only family is my father who is sick and i can´t pay for both of our expenses in another economy.

i am however very grateful that i am literally no starving to death thanks to art but i am in a corner because i am not sure how to move forward, i regret wasting my time in graphic design, i didn´t know i could pursue a better option, there was no online freelancing back then. There wasnt a lot of good books or courses online but now that there are i feel burned out, bored and too old for this.

I still try to study during the week, i am burning trough a few anatomy books and watch some of those cgma and schoolism courses, i know i am a scumbag for pirating, sorry, but the salary in my country is 1$ a month, pirating saved my life.

Pic is a random one from my practices folder