again, i really appreciate it, but i'm not really looking to get talked out of it...i'm just looking for an easy way to get it over with. i've heard everything you're saying before. i just don't really deserve to live.
no, that's the thing, i really deeply care about my family, it's just that i'm such a negative part of their lives that i don't want to subject them to my shit anymore. i know lots of people with a boundless capacity for empathy, and it would really stick with them if they saw my body in a bad enough state. ideally i'll be doing this far away from my home, in some spot where i'm unlikely to be found. it's bad enough that i'd be taking such a toll on them by killing myself, i might as well be, idk, polite about it, if that makes sense.