I'm off to treatment Monday, /thin/.
I'm really scared. I know I am sick and I need help but I'm not ready to stop being beautiful.
But it's overwhelming.
I'm 104.5 lbs, 5'5", and I've planned that this weekend, I'm running on cigarettes, coffee, and ephedrine. Maybe gum. I've been feeling fuzzy all night and can't sleep because I took so much ephedrine. I keep losing my hearing. I just took laxatives because I had to eat a sandwich and know my body won't lose that food weight fast enough for me.
This is hell, /thin/.