/fa/ - Fashion

"Friends" fucked me over
No gf
Empty 60 m^2 studio with nobody to spend time with
Dealer suggests buying 5g of H for $120
But he won't spend the new year wit me
I migt as well agree

>>7512390
I'm starting to think what's more pathetic:

Go out and try and kiss someone and try and feign a good time

Or just chill by yourself and be you

>>7512390
Nothing, i got prostatitis, so i will be sitting at home, browsing web, maybe some ice cream with coffee coffee.

>>7512390
My parents like to go out and have a large meal. I think as you grow up you become less concerned with what everyone else is doing and want to enjoy yourself. When I was in 20, 21 I was obsessed with going out but I can't think of a better way to celebrate than with some good wine and a good meal.

>>7512390

killing myself

tomorrow is my last day on earth

>>7512426
Pls don't.

>>7512426
You said that in the last nye thread. Quit moaning on about it and just do it

I'll be chilling at home, alone.
I can't deal with drinking anymore, all that ever happens is I get really drunk and start feeling sick looking at everyone's awful fit.
>Elasticated jeans
>Tight pink polo shirts
>Tennis shoes
>Tribal tattoos

Fuck, I don't want to start the year seeing all of that.

>>7512405
you asked your dealer to spend nye with you?

>>7512438
careful with that edge

Data: Here we spend new years having dinner with our family, and we don't kiss anybody. We go and party after dinner.

>have depressive dinner with my broken family
>impotence, as every fucking year
>friends come over to pick me up after the dinner
>drive to some nearby city
>meet some of my friend's gf and her friends
>they'll try to hook me up with one of them
>again
>tell'em to fuck off
>have a good night

Haven't got any plans, feel like a fucking loser

>>7512500
Y-yeah, is it a bad thing? I was like "H-hey Trav what you doing for new year?" - "Working bruv, I'll chill wit you for an hour than leave"

>>7512440
I didn't drink anymore, because at party i blacked out and started making out with a friend. Now everybody thinks, that i'm gay.

A perhaps more /fa/ related post; what are you wearing for NYE?

>>7512552
After that one hour where he continuously checks his phone dont ask him if you can come along with him when he has to go drop off for someone else.

>>7512390
i'm going to go to a party, get drunk, and get laid

anyone have any tips to avoid whiskey dick?

>>7512571
you're 16 or something?

>>7512577
nah people still go to parties after high school dude. I figured that's a pretty standard nye anyway

>>7512565
I know how this works :( Wanted to show him a hilarious peep show episode and he didn't get 99% of the jokes cos of his fucking phone.

>>7512575
Don't drink like a highschooler

>>7512557
So, so many times...

im going to see the london eye fireworks by myself
i dont have anyone to spend nye with

>>7512575
know yer fucking limits bruh

>>7512592
>>7512599
ch-cheers bro's

>>7512541
It's not edge. If you're going to kill yourself why do you need to tell people about it multiple times?

Like a 9 year old who wants attention

>>7512575
Lol what. I can fuck a whore in any state unless I'm so drunk I'm puking. And if I puke, I'll feel better and still will be able to fuck a whore.

>>7512629
legendary :^)

at home with family

>tfw no kissing tradition over here
livin the dream, no pressure to find date/gf for NYE

Anybody want to make a tinychat or sth on new years?
I'm spending it with my mum (visiting her in France) and maybe my bro, so we'll only eat some chinese food and then chill.
Would love to spend some time online with other /fa/gs.

>>7512390
With family this year. Tired of all my alcoholic/drug addict friends.

Captcha: stated earcum

>>7512668
I'd like to help you, brah. But I'm continuing my tradition of spending it alone in a dark musky room where the only light is from the Christmas tree.

>>7512629
XDDDDDD


epin /b/

>>7512680

so much many feelsings

going to a restaurant-turned-club just for the night with a couple of friends. will get drunk before midnight and spend the rest of the night utterly embarrassing myself like always

>>7512405
>5g for 120

you must be on the west coast.

or your dealer is secretly gay for you/your getting some seriously stepped on china white.

Damn niggers I don't know how you do all that stupid shit while drunk. 40 just gives me a mood lift and makes me a bit talkative, more 40 makes me just tame, to the point where I catch a taxi and pass out on a ride back home.

>>7512680
That's too bad...
Hope you have a good time anyway tho

>>7512500
its pretty common for dealers to stick around and get high with you if its not some sketch street deal.

doing d at a party because i couldn't find any mandy

>>7512723
I'm on the eastern european coast b ^)

>>7512409
The 2nd option would be infinitely more comfortable and enjoyable, at least for me, but come midnight you'll be wishing you'd gone out. Even if it had been lame.

Probably nothing. I fell out with one of my close friends and I rarely hang out with the other one anymore. Probably be at home doing nothing :(

>>7512627
you don't tell someone to do it though

Nothing ;_;, picking my sister up

>>7512744
d?

>>7512787
dick, taken orally

>>7512794
>>7512787
yes dick
drone

spending the evening with the gf. she's bringing me some awesome IPAs and we'll probably listen to music and get drunk.
can't deal with going out on new years, too many dicks around.

>>7512733
ah so you got that cheap afghan freebase stuff.

do you guys over there have to worry about some asshole dealer giving you krokodil instead, or is it totally different in appearance?

>>7512426
laters

>>7512426
go see a psychiatrist, u'll get better man, i promise, we will all make it.

heres a song i wrote specially 4 u
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0Mwi6YYXsFF

>>7512827
:(

Working until 6:30 then having 15 of my closest friends round to get drunk and go to a gig in town.

>>7512827
Good Stuff, replay was hit

I could either meet at a friends place with two good friends I know, a lot of parents, brothers and their friends and outright idiots where I will feel bad, because I was probably invited out of pity and told to not come earlier than 11 PM, because they are having dinner and such.
Alternatively I could spend new years eve with my father, my stepmother and my two baby stepsister, who love me (5 months), drinking some wine and enjoying the the beginning of the new year.
Am I /fa/ if I choose my family over idiots.

>>7512821
It's totally different and it feels different, and if it's not a lowlife pathetic junkie he will cut the dealer's balls off for that shit.

>>7512557
I got drunk the other night and tried hooking up with a friend and now everyone thinks I'm straight

goin to a fancy themed party and getting drunk

>>7512897
i see.

I heard it was basically a fully synthetic analog to H, so I thought maybe they try and pass it off as such, the same way they sometimes pass powdered fentanyl as east coast style.

>family reunion
>people i don't know, don't like
>going with my sister
>gf in orlando
>can't kiss my qt gf at new year's

are you people seriosly this pathetic?

who gives a shit about kissing some cumdumpster on new years eve

tomorrow is just another day, ffs

what makes one new years eve material.

>>7513037
>calling women cumdumpsters

your neckbeard is showing

Going out in one of the worst towns in the UK.

>>7513099
Hull?

>>7513037
yeah were clearly the pathetic ones here

lmfao

>in FL visiting lovely mother
>will spend NYE sitting on couch watching the celebration on tv after a huge meal

may not be cool, but i dont want to be anywhere else

Got 4 friends. Helped out 1 with some green.
>Yeah anon we totally coming
>Gotta go shopping
>12.30
>Anon Mike had a change of plans, now he's not coming
>Ok are you coming? You have the green so I count on you
>Yeah I think so
>What you fucking mean I think so? It's fucking tomorrow. I gotta know cos I might go spend it with parents otherwise. Do you have other options?
>N-no, yes, I dunno
>So can you tell me today?
>Yeah sure
>Call me before 10 pm
>Ok
Other faggot
>Call before 10 pm and tell me if you come or not
>Sure, ok
>11 pm
>So are you coming?
>I need to think
The faggot's still thinking.
How do you deal with this type of people anon? I don't want to be a dick and I never complain to people but this shit is ridiculous. They are all ok as friends but they break fucking promises and put me into this fucking situations where all my plans are fucked up. If we were in some mob or something they'd get fucked up for breaking promises. Damn I'm pissed

>>7513116
yeah especially you, you redneck piece of shit faggot

>>7513098
nah, just shaved this morning

>>7513152
Should I just ignore their calls tomorrow if they call and go spend NY with parents? Or should I let it go and have them if they come?

>>7513099
doncaster?

>>7512557
>tfw got kissed by a guy when drunk
>everyone started thinking I was gay
>find girl in bar
>start making out with her
>everyone thinks I'm bi
it's an upgrade atleast

>>7513206
tell them you're going to your parents house tonight at 11pm if they don't confirm it, if they're still indecisive, fuck em

having a party with a bunch of friends
i should be more excited but ive been kinda down lately
was thinking of taking MDMA but i think ill just drink till i blackout

>>7513271
Yeah I told them already, where I'm at it's far past 11 pm. Fuck em

>>7512585
its pretty standard in florida too

>at home with my parents
>no friends
>parents are asking what I'm going to do on new year eve

I know my parents would worry a lot if I don't go anywhere. So I need to go somewhere and tell my parents I had a great evening with friends. Whenever I'm just out for a walk I tell my parents I visit friends. I just don't want them to know what a loser I've become since I broke up with my gf.

>>7512585
i mean that only plebs go to parties to fuck, normal people go to have fun and of course, i'm not saying, that getting laid is something bad.

going to some punk gig with my dad lmao

>>7513110
>>7513252
Middlesbrough

>>7512557
Probably are gay. Never been drunk and had the urge to tongue dudes

I just started out in school, and decided to cut ties with my lifetime friend. His unreliability would be fine with me, his current insanity (drug usage, DUIs, hippie shit, conspiracy shit) would be fine with me, but I just can't handle both at the same time. He's going to stay friends, we have a level of trust on par with family, but we just need to go our separate ways for now. He will venture forth into filmmaking with a hemp shirt and dreads, I will venture into IT with buisness casual and a shitty haircut.

I made three new friends coming into school. One decided they didn't like me. One I am friends with but he spends all his free time with his GF. The third thinks he's friends with me, but pretty much every "friend" he's made since coming into school is cutting ties with him this winter break. We're tired of his shittalk, his hypocrisy, his middle schoolers view of women, and his unethical shit. He would hang out with me just out of lack of alternatives, but I just want to break contact with him.

So I'm all alone. I could have stayed home and celebrated with family, but I decided I didn't want to fall back on that. Hopefully me and my roommates can string together something, if not going to a party, I'll bring everybody in front of the TV for the ball drop with some champange.

>>7513152
You can't force people to be more punctual as a friend. You can as a boss, but not as a friend.

Either settle for these friends, or find new friends. But trust me, most people are unreliable so you could be looking awhile unless you're alpha or something.

>>7513388
Maybe bi, i had 3 gf's after that incident.

going down to a members club knocked off charlie with a load of my mates.

>>7513434
On the bright side, I'm not that friend that's going to get absolutely fucked when he realizes he has no friends coming back from winter break.

Lol at him.

>go to party with GF
>get hammered and socialize
>once we are drunk enough, find a place to fuck
>go back to socializing

it'll be nice

>>7512390
some pals and I have planned a party at one of the pals big house, there'll be like 50 people there.
Lots of single, desperate 8/10's in fine as fuck dresses.
Aw yes.

>>7512409
do it please and make it news worthy faggot

>>7513369

I live in Scunthorpe.

I'm not going out.

I never go out.

hosting a party for 20+ i'm gonna be so fucking exhausted

>>7513570
I only live half an hour away from you.

getting high alone and going to sleep early

>tow not living in based New York City

What's the point of even being alive?

>>7513099
coventry?

Going to friends to vidya.

sitting at home and going to bed early under the guise of being ill

nye always exacerbates tfw no gf anyway

>>7512668
How about Skype or somethin'

>>7513110
>>7513252
>>7513793
>>7513369
>>7513570

lel. So many shit towns.

NYE is the most overrated night in the whole year

its always a disappointment

Probably going to sit in a ditch nearby my house and finish off a bag of ket by myself and feel sorry for myself and smoke a 10 pack in my black parka

does that sound effay

>>7512426
Do it faggot.

>>7513897

rock hard bruv

fuck my life /tv/ has better social lives

probably strongly consider suicide again

Watching that David Attenborough thingy

>was going to be going around to friend's house for small gathering
>probably tame as fuck
>always suspected this grill at work wanted my dick, got it confirmed today by her pal
>going to go to same party as she is
>tap that

probably regret it because she isn't gf material and I work with her but I haven't got laid for 6 months and beggars can't be choosers. besides, if I make a good impression word could get around.

>>7512440
this feel hits home ;_;

3 choices;

>party full of plebians i grew up with, probably be taking shitloads of drugs and listening to shitty music all night, everyone will be stupid but me etc

>small gathering of 'effay' people with good music taste, but they are almost equally insufferable because of their elitism and will probably take more drugs than the other people

>stay at home with my parents, pass opportunity to meet anyone cool, probably just listen to records all night and maybe cry at the end

which would you choose /fa/?

going for dinner with the gf
then home p early because transport's fucked

not going to our mate's party because our friendship group's too dramatic atm

>>7514070
i think the first
just go out looking good, let loose and have a good time

Stay home watch reruns battlefield 4 or play guitar

>>7514070
which one of the first two can you get your dick wet at?

>>7514097
the third

>>7514084
yeah i probably will do the first, at least i'll look better in my own eyes than everyone else there

>>7514076
will you kiss your gf's vagina? pls say yes

no plans yet but i'm bound to just smoke (goddammit) with friends.

i had such high hopes for winter break parties but the two i went to were... eh

>all washed-out lame community college kids watching shit bands in a garage
>all high-schoolers

Going to a friends NYE party.
Should be about 70 people and my gf is going.
Should be fun.

gf plans on spending the night with three of her girlfriends

I'm finna make my way to the roof of the tallest building in Boston overlooking copley square

if I end up close to home afterwards I'll probably crash my girlfriend's get together

>>7512627
it is though. just ignore him, there's no need to tell him to suicide

>>7514676
>gf plans on spending the night with three of her girlfriends
That sounds filthy m9

Get drunk with three friends in a drug-forest where we might bump into some other friends of mine (on acid or similar). Watch the fireworks at local vantage point, might meet gf there if her plans work out. Last year was sick though.

>going to a pals house
>play some ps4
>drink
>probably cry

2k14

>>7514859
Better that than her being around dudes. I don't give a ton of fucks either way though, it'll be alright.

>>7512827
>'man'
>not 'mane'
:(

was going to go out in berlin but am now home and going to charles barkleys (lol) nye party, likely to be talking w/ the worst type of people

>>7514070
2. I'm dying to meet people who share similar tastes outside the more accessible hc punk and midwest emo bands I listen to.

ill be your friend, what bands are you into?
>pls b in australia

>>7515066
was replying to
>>7515044

>>7515066
Britbongland m8. Sorry.

Hanging out with someone doing ANYTHING but staying at home. I live at home and my parents are having guests and I cant live with the thought of spending new years with my parents and their shitty friends.

>>7514174
>community college feels

throwing a party. got like 30+ people coming over to dance, smoke, drink and chill.

'friends' will probably be off doing something and unless i get a last minute invite to make up numbers i'll be home with my parents

fun fun fun

>>7515143
I-Ill hang out with you

>>7514174

now i'm going to a party with people i dunno. mitebcool, could also be total shit tbh

Working until midnight :'(

Coworker is bringing that expensive italian champagne beverage, whatever the fuck it's called, and there will be pizza

Whatever, how else would I fund my debauchery

>Friends never invite me anywhere because I'm str8X4life
>Don't talk to family anymore
>Going to be spending the new year alone in my room mired in this terrible depressive state I've been in for the last two weeks
>Never drank alcohol, no reason to start now and become an alcoholic

It takes me nearly an hour to muster the courage to get out of bed in the morning because everyday I know I won't be doing anything and I'll just be wasting another day. Life just really fucking sucks lately, I can't wait until the semester starts again so I have the illusion of progress again

>>7516013
>no reason to start now

Besides getting invited to parties and not being a social outcast? Are you really that worried that youll become an alcoholic after a few drinks. Pathetic

>>7512827
>http://vocaroo.com/i/s0Mwi6YYXsFF
wow this was amazing
im crying

>>7514105
hehehehe

>>7516066
What's the point of drinking when I don't need help feeling like garbage?

>>7516089
Why would people drink alcohol if it made them feel like garbage? Why dont you try it yourself so you can have your own opinions on it?

>>7516089
Stress relief, empathy, and possible mood enhancement. Not to mention the other benefits mentioned -- not coming off as a gauche outcast.

Probably nothing.

Like usual.

>gf is on holiday
>many of my friends can't be bothered doing anything
>going to a friends house then town
>no idea what to wear

>>7512874
>>7512874

I have the same phone anon, $9 brand new

my gf and I are going snow tubing during the day and then going to dinner we have reservations for tomorrow night. Then we're going to lay in bed, probably get cozy and watch obscure cartoons all night and into the day.

>>7512390
is it /fa/ to be alone on new years? i dont know if i can be bothered doing anything

Plans are cancelled so now I'm stuck with my fucking family I just want to be alone.

>>7514174
ayy youre in cali ? where im in LA
>pls respond

>>7516802

orange county when not at college, San Diego/La Jolla when I am

im getting mr lahey drunk on parliament hill. i am the liquor

>>7516820
thats pretty far bruv
u got an email? is there ever gunna be a meet up in this area?

>>7516834

well finnishflash8 (he's a snapfriend in Irvine) lives in Irvine

Teddy and twerk it live in LA

gay leno lives in Anaheim

there's a few others i can think of but hopefully something happens soon. im finna to hit up ff8 and hang out with him before break ends

>>7516849
>(snapfriend in Irvine) lives in Irvine

lol damn that was redundant

but yeah we should organize a SoCal thing sometime soon

>>7516849
i only knew about twerk
yeah i want something to happen i have too little to do with my spare times
you going to any shows soon im going to see the front bottoms and grimes maybe

>>7516882

only decent venue here is The Observatory

Capital Cities is playing NYE but I have plans.. sucks since the only time i'll be home for any extended period of time from college is Spring Break + Summer. I'd be totally down to organize a socal meetup during any of those times tho.

Probably going to be getting drunk by myself.
The girl I like is going to some huge party and I can't stand huge parties at all so I won't be going.
Me and this girl have been having consensual sex for a couple months now and see each other pretty often but that's not all I want. I want her to be my girlfriend /fa/ and I think if I get to see her for a little bit tomorrow I'm going to ask her.
If she says no there is a good chance I will end my life.

>>7516898
damn that sucks
yeah those times can work if socal /fa/gs actually organize ..plenty of times to make threads we can rival london.
email me and ill try to do what i can
lol lets get twerk to come

>>7516934
>Me and this girl have been having consensual sex
Glad you pointed out that it was consensual

going to some club in yokohoma with my jb and her bitch fat rude dumb fucking friend and whatever dude she's fucking this week....i really don't want to but my girl feels bad for ditching her for me lately so we HAVE to hang with her tonight.

i don't plan on having a good time, but at least i'll look good

>back home for break where I have one friend
>that one friend hasn't told me about NYE plans and too afraid to ask and intrude on whatever he has planned
>have to go to my aunt's place where family will get drunk and be annoying

I'm tempted to just hit up a dive bar and bring my kindle along if I can't into talking with anyone.

What are you LA fuccbois doing? Heard about that hologram show that's supposed to go on. Mite be cool. Any shows or events going on?

>>7516973
Fuck man, I don't know. I'm not thinking that straight. What I meant I guess was that both of us enjoy it as much as the other.
And she's showed obvious interest in me so it's not just a friends with benefits kind of thing, but she always seems so distant and when I try and talk to her she'll just use really short and blunt replies a lot.
So for now I'm just sitting in my room by myself listening to American Football like a loser.
Hold me /fa/.

>>7516934
DONT ASK!!! WAIT TILL SHE ASKS YOU !!! be player player mode until then

>>7512390
Brewing ayahuasca tomorrow in preparation for New Years Eve.

>>7517012

fuck

>tried ayahuasca early this year
>brewed by 2 so-called shamans
>shit didn't work. At. All.

do you buy a kit? where?

>>7516995
front bottoms on the 18 and grimes on the 24 of january

>>7517008
The only way to know is to ask, but really you should have done that awhile ago

>>7517008

Don't be a fuccboi and start your (possible) relationship by playing games. >>7517011

Be straight up with her and say that you have feelings for her and would like to start (exclusively) dating her. If she's down cool, if not then at least you know.

>>7517008
NOT TO BE OVEERLY OVEEEEERLY DRAAAMAAATIC

I JUST THIIINKS IIIITS BEEEST CUS YOU CAN'T MISS WHAT YOOU FOOOORGEET

SOOOOO LEEEET'S JUUUST PREEEETEEEND EVERYYYTHING BEETWEEEEN YOOOU AAAAND MEEE

WAAAS NEEEEVEEEER MEEEEAAAANT

WAAAAAS NEEEEVVVEEEER MEEEAAAAANT

>>7517021
The thing is, I did. When I asked she kind of gave me a vague "I do but not right now" thing. Since then I feel like she's started to like me a lot more too but she's such a weird person about everything.. Different from any girl I've been with.
>>7517023
Yeah that's not really something I would ever do but for right now I feel like I'm just kind of stuck in relationship purgatory.
>>7517036
Listening to that song right now. ;-;

>>7517049
>The thing is, I did. When I asked she kind of gave me a vague "I do but not right now" thing. Since then I feel like she's started to like me a lot more too but she's such a weird person about everything.. Different from any girl I've been with.

If she's pulling this kind of shit before you're even together just imagine how it's going to be if you two ever get into a relationship. Either get over your feelings for her and keep fucking or jump ship and tell her you're not dealing anymore.

>>7517017
Na just brewing it myself in the kitchen. Got all the ingredients and I'm gonna follow a recipe off of erowid

>>7517062
Yeah, you're right. The thing is I've genuinely never felt this strongly for a girl in my life though. She's incredibly qt and pretty /fa/ and we listen to similar music and share hobbies I couldn't honestly ask for more.

>>7517104
>I couldn't honestly ask for more.

Listen. This is something I'll tell you but you'll probably just have to learn. That stuff you talk about is a good alright friend/acquaintance rubric. But your alright friend/acquaintance rubric should not be your partner rubric.

Find someone who respects your feelings and is straightforward with you. Respect, clear communication, balanced effort. These are all things that should be there in a relationship that just aren't there right now for you.

>>7517123
To be fair, we're both still really young. So yeah I guess I do have a lot to learn but at the same time I don't think this something I just want to give up.
So what are you suggesting? Just keep fucking until we both go our separate ways?

>>7517123
>balanced effort
So much this.
There has never been a healthy relationship that lacked this

going to a seedy warehouse rave

i'll probably either be too high to be social or i'll be too sober to be social

\m/

>>7517123
This guy knows what's up.
The truth is you have oneitis, and that's really only something you'll be able to admit AFTER the relationship is over.

and i know now i get to be called negative, blah blah blah but i'm telling you the TRUTH.
Enjoy your relationship.
I don't want to tell you what to do, but just be careful.

One thing that I WILL tell you to do, is check yourself.
Make sure you are living a life she is PART of, not a MAJORITY of.
that is where most guys fuck up severely.

It will suck when she leaves your life, but it will happen. Hard to know when, but it's inevitable. Don't worry about it, and enjoy it now.

But when it happens, what do you have left?
Will you be left alone? Will you still have things you can do, goals to pursue, places to go?

THAT is important. Don't EVER make a girl your life. Live a nice, fullfilling life and make a girl a PART of it. Someone to make your life BETTER, not give your life meaning.

Check yourself young pimp.

>>7517104
dude i was in literally the same situation. /fa/ and great music, asian qt. i couldnt take it anymore because i had never been so sure i loved someone and i couldnt handle how indifferent she was towards life and everything (despite us obviously falling in love)

>finish angrily explaining this to her
>she calmly suggests she no longer be a part of my life for my own wellbeing
>all this indifference
>"i want to hurt your feelings but i dont think id be able to. i feel more than you. thats the point"
>leave

;_;

>>7517188
And another pro tip:
Words don't mean shit.

this isn't saying all girls are liars, but just something to watch out for, again.
When she says something, how she feels, what she's doing, etc, take it with a grain of salt.

if she says she loves you, that's fine.
is she SHOWING you she loves you?
or is she just saying things she knows you want to hear?

girls are very good at knowing what to say to guys.
the TRUTH is in her actions, not her words.

that goes for men and women, btw.
but a symptom of oneitis is fully believing and trusting your girl's words VS her actions.

I'm not saying she's lying to you. I don't know anything about her.
I'm just saying it's something to watch out for, because it's another mistake guys make.

>>7517188
This makes me feel pretty well because while I do really like her, she is most definitely not the top priority in my life though. I just feel like as my current situation stands, where I live and all that, I don't think I'll find a girl like this again for a long time, so I kind of want to make something out of it while I can.
>>7517198
Damn dude.. That's heartbreaking.
On another note, I've always wanted to date an asian qt.
>>7517214
Okay, well that's good advice but what exactly are the actions you should look for?

I have a small group of very close friends and hobbies to always fall back on too.

>>7517237
>I don't think I'll find a girl like this again for a long time
but that is literally the definition of oneitis.
i get how you feel, i've been there.

and i've lost.
and it fucking sucks.

you can't really avoid it, since at this point you're sick in the head with the disease but hopefully you'll at least realize it quick enough AFTER.

i could give specific examples, reasons, etc to remove all doubt she's "special" but it would make me sound bitter and misogynistic or the other words people throw around.

just know girls are great at fronting.
that's really what it comes down to.

Ok, i actually know a good question:
How does SHE love you? How do you KNOW?
How do you know she cares about you?

i'm mainly just wondering. i may not even respond.

Recover from jetlag
Dinner with family
Reflect deeply on what I did this year
Have a smoke
Go to sleep, prepare for new work on January 2nd

I have a great social life in my college 5 hours away from home, but now I'm home for Christmas break, where I haven't kept up with anybody.

A girl I know from highschool told me should would tell me what party she would be going to on New Years. That was one week ago. Still hasn't gotten a hold of me. Did not answer a text from me today. I even got a nice haircut in preparation.

Worst case scenario, I'm going to lock myself up in my room, get drunk as shit on cheap rum, and listen to music while trying not to think of my absurdly hot ex-girlfriend that lives 3 houses down the road from me. That sounds like fun.

>>7517293
>dose on break from uni and at home feels

Just one more week and I can go back to my drunken life of shallow social "friendships."

>>7517272
Have a smoke

i miss you cigarettes

>>7517309
>shallow social "friendships."

pmuch

ive been fortunate to have some gr8 friends back home though

>>7514676
I'm from SF in Boston for NYE, what should I do bruh?

>>7512390

going to friends place to get drunk...beter than last year which was at home with parents

>>7517267
The only reason I say that is because I live in a very small town in the south so it's just neat that I even found her.
I don't know man, that's a pretty weird question to answer. She shares her writing and other things to me that she's too scared to show anyone else, she seeks my approval in a lot of things, she will seek me out and ask if I want to do something sometimes, she initiates physical contact just as much as I do. Like I said, that's pretty hard to answer, not in the sense that I have no answer but it's just hard to put into words I suppose.

>tfw exams on the morning of the 2nd

>>7517309
That sucks. I made the best friends of my entire life so far at college. They're the one thing I look forward to about school anymore. The rest is all studying, sleeping 4-6 hours, getting mediocre grades, and ritalin binges.

I'm not sure how I'm going to do another year and a half of it.

>>7512390
Going to a tiny party at the house of new friends I made a few weeks ago.
My best friend is my designated driver
I'll be the only single person at the party
I don't think I can handle seeing so many other people happy and kissing remotely sober

>>7517293
damn
iktfb
im staying in tonight because of this... honestly wish i was back at uni just so i could be with some likeminded people for nye.

will probably just chill by myself, listen to music, maybe go out and paint later if i havent fallen asleep

>>7517331
I've made a few g8 m8's but the friendships all died off. First one got his own social circle and stopped contacting me. Second one graduated and left to Seattle. Third one is going to Denmark next semester.

I only ever really need one good friend. Next semester (last one) is when I have to learn to get my social shit together.

u think this girl will invite me to her new years stuff w her friends if I ask

>>7517331
my friends at college suck

i forgot a long time ago how to make new friends on my own

so i kind of just got complacent and my only good friends are people who used to live in my dorm last year

they're ugly and boring and have plebeian tastes and it's not like they even go out so i have few opportunities to meet new people

i know some more interesting people that i could hang out with but they do a lot of drugs and i'm trying to stay away from that stuff

i play too many video games and spend too much time on the internet and i literally have no work ethic

the upcoming quarter will be my second consecutive term on academic probation and if i don't improve my grades i'll be subject to academic review

first world probz

>>7517355
>>7517369
What kind of colleges do you guys go to? Big state? Little private schools? Ivy?

>>7517373
UC Berkeley.

>>7517373
i am
>>7517369

i go to an urban private school with like ~15k undergrads i think

most students at my school go into stem fields so 50% of the student body is straight autistic

i'm sorta autistic too, but i'm not too bad on the eyes

>>7517389
I'm STEM, but at a private college with 2000 students, so it's not as bad. I'd say the autism rate is about 5% normally, and 40% in the CS classes. Don't know what it is about computers that attracts complete sperglords.

I hope you meet some people who aren't gigantic plebes

>>7517403
i'm just being a dick and exaggerating but yeah
if they're not nerdy and have no self-respect, then they're just really boring and shallow and uninteresting

the rest, i'm too afraid to talk to

it doesn't help that i don't have time to take electives and meet new people because i keep failing classes so i have to keep retaking the same stemmy classes

i have a long day/night tomorrow so i need to go to bed

have a good one, anon

>>7517361
idk seems kinda rude to invite yourself

Can you fucking believe that shit. The guy just calls and says "I have a change of plans". Fucking bullshit. Fuck this shit, what I'm supposed to do /fa. This is the guy I fucking gave my green to. Are there fucking people who don't fucking constantly let you down? Motherfucking fuck. Shit. Fucking cunts. What am I supposed to do now. My parents already left so I'm bound to spend the fucking new year alone in a fucking empty flat. God fucking damn I mad. Just fuck everyone I know. I had never had a single friend who didn't let me fucking down in a fucked up way.

>just got back home to wisconsin from oregon after spending a week there to see the family over christmas
>have the entire apartment to myself, roommate is still in oregon and will be for another week
>working 5 hour shifts today/tomorrow/thursday
>only friends I have are my coworkers since I've only spent a semester at this college
>going to play video games and eat shit all day

working a little bit more this week than I am supposed to but otherwise, it's going to be a good time.

>>7512581
lol im a dealer and my supplier does this fucking guy haha

>>7512390
staying in with gf

sounds good. but its fucking boring

could of gone out if I wanted to but opted out

May go drinking with the boys.

May just play some vidya and spend the night somberly wishing I could be a few thousand miles north from here so that I could have spent it with my girlfriend.

spending it with my mam because shes rly sick

me and the brother rock paper scissored as for who goes out and who minds her and this is how it turned out

dinner party at my flat
going to watch the fireworks
copping some drugs
going to a wearhouse party

should be nice :)

I want to kill myself

sit home and cry

>tfw nobody to sell me DMT and LSD
i don't want to buy shit off the street or make it myself

>>7517920
You know anybody else which might be doing something?

>>7518031
you're too pussy to do it

>>7517982
how much money do you guys make?

>>7518022
Sorry to hear that.
You're a good guy anon.

>have to choose between going to a house party or going out in the city

quick /f/a chose one for me.

I dont really care i just want to get fucked up

>>7513905

/b/ is over there, mate.

>>7518035
just buy it off a vendor on sr that can verify themselves

>>7518053
is silk road up again? how does the shipping work?

>>7518047
House party, if you wanna get fucked up bring some insurance in the form of hard liquor just in case they don't have enough.

>>7518066
good point. will do.

>>7518057
yeah. u just buy it and then encrypt ur address using pgp

>>7518076
can you explain this?

>>7518076
read beginners guides to silkroad. basically pgp is an encryption which hides your address and only the seller can view it.

>>7518081
just read this: http://www.reddit.com/r/SilkRoad/wiki/frequentlyaskedquestions

it may be reddit but it's a pretty good resource

>>7518036
Yeah, /soc invited me to a party in my city. But they are not my friends and I kinda feel bad for resorting to those plebs. But I feel so lonely I might as well do it. The thing is I got fucked really bad by 3 people whom I considered friends. That shit hurts. Why don't I have a crew like yung lean or SGP or Rocky. I don't want to do life alone :(

>>7512629
Do whores get nye off?

>>7518088
Fuck it, get plastered with /soc/, have a good time, break some shit and don't get caught.

It may be /soc/, and they may be even more ridden with insecure faggotry than we are but you might meet somebody worth chilling with. Anything's better than stewing over something like that alone.

>>7512887
Yes at least your family will enjoy your company

>>7513338
who's playing?

Ok /fa, for me it was a really shitty year, the worst I had in my life. I wish a fresh start to anyone for whom 2013 was also a struggle and I wish to keep going and I wish to have even a better year to anyone for whom it was ok. And of course sick cops, right sizing and even better sense of style, keep it up /fa

>>7512390
I will probably just kill myself. Nothing to wake up for next year.

>>7518221
I feel you m8

Gonna meet up with some of my friends in half an hour. Dinner together and binge drinking.

>Happy new year /fa/!

>>7518192
I really hope so man

unable to find/keep a job due to sheer depression and inertia, had a botched surgery that left me looking like I'd been attacked by a shark, now looking forward to a shitload of reconstructive surgery in 2014

due to new legislation, can no longer get anti depressant on healthcare and cannot afford them, this freak girl keeps posting me creepy letters and shit, I think shes going to kill me, and I drifted away from all my friends

also, my mother is very ill and I now have to live at home to take care of her because the only other person who could is my autistic uncle

I'd never commit suicide but I wouldn't mind dying

>tfw you want a fresh new start for 2014 and start on a positive note but can't because you will be sitting alone by yourself on the one night where everyone else seems to be out having fun i.e. the worst possible start to the year you can have

>>7518250
it's not so bad man
i'm actually thinking about not going to a party tonight to have some time alone because i really need to clear my mind

>>7513328
I love you marcus

>>7514070
Last, add effay porn

>>7518240
>>7518250
you all sit alone and bitch about the problems of governance and society
and do nothing to fix it

you sit and wait for the problems to fix themselves, yet they never will

if you all band together and organize you could revolutionize the world

each one of you "losers" carries valuable skills that can be utilized in a militia

if you guys took some initiative and i stuck an ar-15 in your hand would you do something about your plight? or would you just sit around and contemplate suicide?

a baby boomer says you're a drain on society? yet is on govt assistance watching fox news hating college kids?

kill him
i'll give you the means

obama ignoring the fiscal state of the nation, and distracting the masses with social issues?

pick up a rifle

a middle aged overweight woman screaming at you at your low end service position?

kill her and her family

your grandfather took up arms for his philosophies, why can't you? you have nothing to lose.
if death is the only escape from this hell hole, then do something to make it better, you may lose your life but it's better than going down without a fight

>>7518320
that's my whole point faggot. i want a fresh new start for 2014 and going to try to fix shit, but i will be entering 2014 on a depressing note

>>7518320
what in the fuck are you on about

also, I'm Irish, so it's odd you posted the republican army

>>7518320
nigger i'm russian and in poverty

>>7518356
you have numbers
on your side

dethrone putin

>>7518333
20 year old in the 60's-1980's

20 year old today

your grandfather did something about his shit life, you've done nothing but cut your wrists the attention whore across the path style

Gonna start drinking in 2 hours bros.

>>7518320
sieg give me ur godly advice >>7517327
that was my last post
what do i do

>>7518412
kill her and her family and everyone on her facebook friends page

>>7518423
alright sounds good

>>7518389
and you're a fat man with an insanely high post count on the fashion subsection of an anime forum renowned for pedophilia

>>7518423
yeah but you just want to eat them all don't you?

>>7518576
k-kinda :(

>>7518389
The most a lot of our grandfathers did was move someplace and try and earn their keep. Mine worked as a medic in ww2 because he was drafted, then as an engineer for a petroleum company. Before him, just several immigrants from all over Europe who went across seas to escape. Yeah, that's right, escape.

People only fight like that when they're literally forced to. Quit sugarcoating the past, our "grandfathers" had every bit a propensity to be every bit as lethargic as we are but did not have the opportunities to be.

yo how do i kill myself with shit I have in the house
i already tried to hang myself off the light before but the fixture fucking broke
i really dont want to slit my throat, which is the only good way I can think of

>>7519055
basically you dont

i wasn't invited anywhere but i really want to be social tonight

: /

>>7519055
pls don't anon
i feel suicidal atm but i know i'll be okay
go buy some vodka to yourself until you pass out and treat yourself tomorrow

>>7519101
same
it's a shit feeling

>>7519079
>>7519104
thank you so much but forreal
theres a bridge by my house but the rivers flooded, I'd be basically going for a swim haha

>invited to 3 parties
>Parents invite me to russian new years party (ratchet)
>tfw rather be getting hammered in my basement with my closest friends
Doing the last one

spendin it with frenemies just to remind them that i still exist

tfw gota go thru the whole 'i havent seen you in so long' 'where have you been' 'we should hang out more' then not see em for another few months

all i wanna do is watch witchy movies and summon spirits with a qt

>>7519157
>tfw gota go thru the whole 'i havent seen you in so long' 'where have you been' 'we should hang out more' then not see em for another few months
pretty much all of my friends are like this from back home. think i'm just going to permanently fuck them off and not bother with them and try to get some better friends from now on

>>7519157
mayne im spending it with my dying ass mother

tell them what you actually think of them because youre going to die sooner than you think

>>7519157
>i'm going to hang out with people who I pretend to like but secretly don't give a fuck about
wow no wonder you don't have many friends

>tfw celebrating NYE with parents and their friends
i feel like i should be sad but we have about 400€ worth of fireworks. will be a good show if nothing else.

>>7519186
why ? is not having real friends caused by hanging out with fake friends ?

>>7519206
kinda, yeah

>>7512827
This

Now THIS is what NYE is about.

>>7519171
yea they give the whole 'miss ya lets hang out' then they do a dozen things without inviting you like hah fuck that. damn i'm not looking forward to tonight now

>>7519172
i wish you both peace of mind

tfw if i died now i'd be remembered but in a years time i'm gonna have 2 friends who are out of the country busy doin their own thing and noone would actually notice.

how else am i gonna justify my existence? frenemies are better than nobody at all

>>7519216
>justify your existence
>with other people who you don't care about
GREAT WAY TO LIVE YOUR LIFE
ps-get the fuck of /r9k/ and /soc/ you pathetic faggot
pss-stop replying to me I don't like you and am logging out of 4chan

>>7519211
what if you met a real friend by hanging out with people you're kind of indifferent to ? real friends are hard to come by period.

>>7516161

>>7517293
;_;
Iktfb and I'm sorry to hear that you know of them too.

>>7519216
im not just saying im suicidal because it's new years, but it doesn't help

what really stops me is a pact I have with a mate about the others funeral

I know he'd do it because I would and the thought of him doing that makes me cry a bit

so, idk

So anybody up for tinychat or Skype?

>>7519250
that a sandro shirt?
how do you like it?

>>7519250
http://tiny chat com/errolsonhugh

>>7519231
hahaha put both of us in a room and i guarantee i'd be crowd favorite you angry little boy

>>7519246
pictured my mom finding me in the bathtub and burst into tears. the only reason i've held out for years is 'cause i couldn't do it to her. tried to make her hate me, thought of pretending to change countries and never contact her or any other excuse but they're never good enough. i'm literally just waiting until she doesn't need me anymore so i can go

>>7519258
The 2 in the back are. They're nice, good quality, depends on the pieces though, sometimes it's made in Italy, most of the time in some european country and rarely in china

>>7519306
post pic of lizard

>>7519326
They are snakes
I'm at my mums place right now, so I can't

>>7519303
mane, you're in my thoughts

shit, we know we're not going to do anything, it's all fantasy and thinking out loud

>hey anon are you coming to the fireworks?
>hey anon do you want to go eat something tonight?
>hey anon do you want to chill at my place tonight?

>tfw for some reason I know ill just be sitting in my room alone getting high and listening to music

>>7519303
why not confront your depression and try to overcome it. you can always kill yourself later.

>my friend said yesterday that we should do something for NYE
>doesn't answer my calls
>spending NYE at home, whatever
>dad gets mad and yells at me for being useless and a disappointment
>i retreat to my room and after having a light panic attack

>>7512390
>giving a fuck about holidays
i didnt even realize it was new years eve.
i still dont know what day of the week it is today, sure i could check but i dont give a fuck.

>>7519364
i've avoided drugs, i eat healthy, try to get enough sleep, get as much sun as i can. i've tried to identify and confront why i feel like this. hell i'm even embarrassed when i admit i'm not happy, so i'm doing my best not to wallow in it but i'm still the same. do you have any suggestions?
also provided you're not fucking up someone's life i don't think suicide is as bad as everyone makes out

>>7512500
>not getting invited to hang out with your dealer

>>7519365
>dad gets mad and yells at me for being useless and a disappointment
because you're spending new years eve at home? fuck

>>7519405

smoke weed

>>7519419
i'm terrified of apathy and it's just gonna fug me further
used to smoke with my ex daily 2 yrs ago and all i got was feeling like i need to poop but also not feeling that way so i'd just sit for hours deciding if i need to poop or not

>>7519405
that time I took a lot of shrooms changed my perception on myself. I felt a lot more confident and shit after

>>7519401
you have a calendar in your taskbar, dude. it's not that much work.
>>7519405
i personally think that suicide is the ultimate fuck you to everyone around you, but that's just me. i can't really recommend you anything since i don't know your situation and what caused your depression. i personally pulled through it by giving my life a sense of direction by finding out what i want out of life and striving to get it. but i'd contact a psychologist if i were you. you don't want to end up with depersonalization.

>>7519431

also this, I did low potency truffles in amsterdam and it was a very significant experience, gonna try lsd when I get a chance

>>7517293
shiiiiiit i know this feel.

when everyone at uni was looking forward to going home, i was kind of dreading it because i knew there wasn't anything for me back home apart from my family.

feels shit cos all my uni friends have loads of friends from back home and i don't. might just get a job in my university city so i can have an excuse to stay over the holidays.

>>7519431
>>7519437
I never get stuff like this

I've tried quite a few drugs but i've never felt changed as a person after i've done them

>>7519418
he's been verbally abusing me since i was 13 though, probably why i'm depressed and have social anxiety. he yells at my 12 year old brother if stays at home just one say during summer breaks

>>7519450
it's just a form of escapism. at least it was for me. people claim they've had important revealations while on drugs but that is also perfectly possible if you listen to your inner voice for once.

>>7519462
in that case you need to do two things: become a person of your own (aka self reliant) and get in your dads face.

>>7519450
idk man it kind of felt like my routine got me brain dead for so long and once I took lots of shrooms my brain just went fucking insane. I cant really describe it anymore because I did it around this summer but man I felt so good about myself once the trip was over

Going to spend the night with my girlfriend, which I am mustering courage to go and break up with her, and her parents.

>>7519431
>>7519419
sorry i wasn't clear enough. i've done drugs and i'm not against them, but i do them very infrequently just so i can live with myself sober
>>7519431
>>7519437
i've done LSD and salvia 40x and every trip i've had was just variations of me not fitting in.
some examples -
on salvia i was staring into a logfire and i could see men holding up red orange and yellow blocks that made the colour of the fire and i was holding a wrongly coloured block and got chastised and chased out for not fitting in.

on lsd i was at a birthday party in a mansion, every room had friends but after 5 minutes of each room i'd feel like there were hundreds of inside jokes and gossip that i wasn't in on and had to leave 'cause i felt like that loser alone at a bar.

>>7519436
>i don't know your situation
i met an ex girlfriend (currently dating someone) at a club a few months ago and she was saying she wasn't over me because i'm the only guy that didn't give her what she wanted. she can also tell that i'm lonely because everyone thinks i'm (these are her words now) too cool and so people don't think they're good enough to get close to me. which ironically keeps me alone.

i dunno that's just a part of it i don't know why i'm trying to explain myself on 4chan i don't mean to pester i'll just go have a shower and get dressed. really do appreciate all of you trying to help though i'll be toasting to you come midnight

>>7519520
just stop giving a fuck what others think. i promise, they don't have their shit together either and 90% of them lay awake at night too thinking about what they should do to fit in. instead of looking on what others think of you you need focus on what fulfills you as person. find out why you're here.
ps: don't feel like you're pestering anyone. i like helping others out of their depression.

>>7519501
know that feel

>>7519556
>>7519501
do any of you guys live in mtl? cause if so I might be trying to steal your gf at this very moment

>thank you based snapchat

>>7519553
i've been trying that, the only thing is i think i'm one of those insufferable people that live for approval. like not approval per se but i don't just wanna be a background prop in everyone's movie. i want my existence justified. i've got a hundred acquaintances but they can all do without me. i think i just need some sober company for the most part

anyway i hope you have a good new years whatever you do

>>7519645
you should probably look into different philosophies or psychology. what you probably should do is try to find a center of stability within yourself. it doesn't help that i am telling you that since you have to want it yourself. just don't make everyone elses mistake of becoming a boring 9 to 5er trying to fit into everyone elses dysfunctional world.
if you're interested i'd recommend you ''Rollo May - Mans search for himself'', a book which very much discribes what you're feeling.

>>7519681
thanks pal, it's in my basket.
now for a bigger question. do i take the vodka in my room or just go out and see what comes my way?

>>7519706
probably the latter. and if you'll excuse me, i have to fire some rockets at whoever is burning bootleg fireworks next door.

>>7519731
haha have a good night man

>>7518035
Dude just extract your own DMT. Costs ~$150 to extract like 5 grams of the stuff.