/fa/ - Fashion

>>7000480

depends. WHY do you want to be dead?

>>7000480
Wanna experience death?
Poison urself with killer mushrooms
If u don't die u'll experience death no doubt
Drugaddicts call that a trip, but they are retarded scum.

>>7000496

I feel no long term enjoyment or happiness. I only have spurts of happiness causes by acts if instant gratification and those become boring after so long

Life is boring and dragged on

>>7000512

>>7000512
>I feel no long term enjoyment or happiness.

why?

>>7000531

Probably because no gf but I hate using that as an excuse for my shitty life

>>7000533

>no gf

yeah, you and every other horny single dude ever. Why ELSE?

>>7000512
Iktf

>hop from one hobby to another as they get boring to you
>learned guitar
>worked out for over a year
>buying clothes and dressing better

What will I do after I finish a wardrobe and get bored? I'm thinking I'll go to /out/ and go backpacking all the time decked out in fjällräven next with a guitar on my back to play Play Crack the Sky alone in the mountains. Good thing I live in a great state for it.

>>7000549
Implying anyone has ever been happy.

>tfw panic/ anxiety which leads to nausea which leads to depression
I can deal w/ sadness but fuck this on and off nausea

>>7000557
Do you work out and get sun? I'm >>7000550 and never feel happy or sad. But I used to feel anxious before I started working out everyday.

>>7000550

I'd say you are me but it seems like everyone on 4chan is like this

>tfw you'd have 12k saved up if you didn't invest so much money in hobbies you only did for a month

>>7000555

>implying you haven't ever been happy once in your entire life

>>7000567
Yeah, before age 13 I was happy.

>>7000557

:^(

i thought you only had a panic attack cuz of that test one time

is this a recent thing or what

>>7000566
Actually I continue the hobbies. The thrill is just gone. Also I should mention I collect old video games as well and have 6 guns.

>>7000480
No, but BEING dead sure is.

>>7000512
>I feel no long term enjoyment or happiness
It's called being young. Long-term rigour is what causes long-term happiness.

Real talk.

>>7000570

ok, lets try this excercize again. what is happiness to you?

>>7000594
Waking up and looking forward to the day.

I can't even enjoy lifting anymore because I'm so drained by school and work. I have to pop caffeine pills just to do it and maintain my body.

Is fucking nasty hookers effay? Serious..

>>7000575
that was the only panic attack I've ever had
it's frustrating b/c I don't even feel mentally anxious but on some subconscious level I do and it manifests as nausea
yes it's only recent and I hate it so much

>>7000611

Sounds you have the same problem as Sartre did

>>7000611

that's a shame man

i kinda fear for my mental health as I get close to my twenties. i've heard that's when chronic stuff starts to appear. hope your health improves

>>7000611
go see a psychologist before it gets out of hand bro, don't just shrug it off please go see somebody and you'll be able to nip it in the bud I was in a similar situation and tried to ignore it and it's destroyed my life.

>>7000602

are you eating right? maybe you need to do cardio.

scratch that "humans are animals running from carnivores" thing people have in their heads.

>>7000641
I am
it's honestly fairly mild, most days I'm completely fine but this morning was really bad

>>7000649
I do 20-30minutes cardio everyday and lift 3x a week on reg parks.

>>7000652

have you tried, i dunno, art? just throwing paint at a wall or that type of shit?

maybe playing a sport?

>>7000557
I feel u

>>7000664
I play guitar. I'm very mediocre at drawing. Better than a normal guy, but shit.

Soundcloud
http://m.soundcloud.com/matt-devlin/remember-why-you-started

>>7000688
Well you've definitely got years of vocal lessons and practicing guitar ahead of you before you can be considered good enough to get bored. Or good.

>>7000700
I already gave up on practicing guitar everyday. I play in binges for like a week every once in a while now. Also writing vocal melodies is my weakest point. I'm fairly sure I'm good enough to play in a mediocre Balance and Composure knockoff band.

>>7000688

Look man, i think you need to be stimulated. Because everything you do sounds flat and routine. Im not talking sexual stimulation, or drugs/club life, join a sports club. play.. rugby! or something with full contact. something that'll make you bleed. It'll be good for ya. and you can put those muscles to use.

>>7000705
Also I throat sang that song. Heres a more normal one.
http://m.soundcloud.com/matt-devlin/pull-you-in
and one with screams and high pitched parts
http://m.soundcloud.com/matt-devlin/i-can-be-anything

>>7000705
To write good melodies, it helps to have a good understanding of bass lines and rhythm and how they interact with the melodies. Listen to music that inspires you musically, both for your instrument and composition-wise. Listen to how all the instruments fill their sonic roles and how they come together as a whole. Reading up a little bit on music theory can go a long way as well. Take it from a fellow musician.

>>7000716

>im not happy guys
>but look at all the tricks i can do
>im a good dog, aren't i

im guessing you miss your family, or your ex, or whoever it was that used to pat you on the head and say "good boy" whenever you did something right.

>>7000724
I'm an only child and only show my songs to strangers on the internet.

>>7000731

>I'm an only child

well that explains a lot. Go join a team man.

>>7000731
You could always join a cover band and play some bar gigs.
No joke, as much as you might hate some of the songs it is very fulfilling to get a handful of cash for playing a couple hours of music.

>>7000501
I had a bad mushroom trip where I was in a black abyss with a light above me which I could not reach.

Then I floating above my body watching my parents watch my lifeless body and they discussed how disappointed they were in me that I died from a mushroom OD.

It sucked

>tfw girls at work prolly think I'm an autistic creep coz I can't into sassy chitchat

>>7000782
tfw girl at work likes you
tfw you're really compatible
tfw don't even puss out, just don't feel like trying to date again

then work incessantly on your body and image and work for a six figure degree

im going to be a well dressed, in shape, well read fucking hermit

I should move to alaska with the other psycho loners

>>7000810

'Happiness is only real when shared' - Rick Owens

>>7000847
omg this pic holy shit

>>7000533
>tfw gf but you still want to die anyway

but i think she died guys

i cant bear the anxiety any longer

>>7000847

oops forgot name

mfw

ft. invisible sage

>>7000606
no,the money u spend can be better used for cops

>>7000847
is that the guy from sz?

>>7000480
>get hotel in the city for one night
>have a nice lunch at a nice restaurant
>have an iced coffee and pizza for dinner
>listen to some Dixon and Ame
>watch The Warriors
>put on my nicest clothes
>exit bag to the sound of the city on a Saturday night

soon 8^)

>>7000550
Are you me?

literally the same thing.

Played guitar religiously for like 4 years, used to play like 6 hours a day and was in bands and shit. Amassed around £6000 worth of guitars. I got bored haven't touched one of them in around 3 years.

Then I started working out and got pretty strong, able to clean and jerk 2plate and deadlift 4plate. Got bored, haven't lifted in a year.

Now I'm on fashion, amassing a stupidly expensive wardrobe. I have a shit load of high end #menswear which I don't wear any more, now I have a bunch of RO type stuff and I'm slowly moving away from that towards lunarcore.

>>7000615
different kind of nausea

>fashion doesn't mean that much to you anymore
>start selling clothes
>planning on sending parents on a trip with the money you made
man it feels so fucking good to start to pay them back for 18 years of dealing with me
i know it's lame as fuck but i love my parents so much

>>7000512

>tfw I've been depressed for so long that it's become my comfort zone and I actually enjoy the feeling.
>tfw I'm more comfortable appreciating the experience of depressing than being happy.

>>7001393
its not lame,only edgy internet kids tell you that.they prolly feel the same
>>7001337
>listen to some Dixon and Ame
>dixon
>dicks in
they better be his remixes anon,i swer i will...
;)

>>7001393
then youll kill yourself?

I feel spoiled living in a first world country. I own very few possessions, have very little money and am an unemployed student but I still feel like, compared to the rest of the world I'm rich as fuck and I can't just sit and enjoy myself with this knowledge.

"No one can be perfectly happy till all are happy."
- Herbert Spencer.

>>7001412
dicks in ahah oh damn hah wooo damn ahhhh *slaps knee* ooohhhahaha dicks in man

>>7001420
8^)
it was only a rooose m8 and u fell in it,hope u didnt take and arrow to le knee xD

>>7001429
im going to blame you for my suicide

kill urslf
LMAO