/fa/ - Fashion

>Firm dissolved so myself and thirty other people are out of work
>Barely able to sleep for the last few years
>Been listening to a lot of New Order and Infest lately

What about you OP

>>13997691
What kind of job did you do?

>>13997677
>Unable to sleep because of stress
>Because of contradicting bureaucracy and insane screening protocols that take way too long I might not be able to start my internship

I don't want to dissapoint my parents as their kids are their only joy in life.

>>13997700
I was/am in design
What kind of internship

>>13997691
>have the flu, bought a bunch of things, returned most of them, body in literal shutdown mode

>>13997677
I've just given up at this point.

>tfw skinny and its only ever the fat girls that are aggressively into me

i mean pussy is pussy but pls calm down, psycho

>>13997706
I feel ya, bought a bag I really wanted just to find out it looks massive on a manlet like me. I feel like a joke.

>>13997706
That's based though you get to hallucinate and shit
>>13997726
Bulk up G
>>13997728
Post bag

Amazing. Two weeks clean of meth. Already fucked a girl this year and about to go on a date with another. Started exercising last week and already seeing gains. And tomorrow I'm seeing my granddad for the first time in almost 4 years. 10/10 feeling overall

I'm a 8.5/10 and if I just got the focus to lose weight I'd be better.

Trying to get Adderall for my ADHD and getting back to my scouted weight. Realize there is no point wearing nice clothes as a fatty.

Hopefully get a partner this year with focus. I'm 26 and havent dated in like almost 8 years and barely have sex because I hold on to this ideal that I want to have fresh experiences with people and not be carrying baggage.

Oh and I'm back to making skin peels and making creams, buying Alpha Arbutin, have Kojic Acid, Niacinamide and vitamin c active powders on hand.

I hope to reach my goals this year.

Anyone have advice for taking Adderall?

>>13997754
>Anyone have advice for taking Adderall?
Don't take it

>>13997756
Why?

bad feels : my online boyfriend cheats on me and it affects me way too much
i got contact lenses and now i can see my face clearly i realize how ugly i look
new year showed me how lonely i am

good feels :
i'm listening to very good japanese shoegaze and eating chocolate
my new boots look nice
i met a new online friend and she is very cool

>>13997734
>Bulk up G

I'm not complaining about being skinny in general, it hasn't stopped me sleeping with plenty of different types of people

just saying that in my experience fat chicks feel they have some sort of license to be extra aggressive with a skinny dude

>>13997742
i'm so happy for you anon
was your life always this good ?

>>13997770
Thanks. And no, last year I was badly addicted to meth and opiates and other stuff, and had to withdraw from all my uni courses because i was so schizzed out i couldn't go outside. It was terrifying really.

i feel like i may have borderline body dysmorphia or some shit. i’m about 5’8 and 123 lbs and i still think i’m too fat, but i’m close to being underweight. i dunno man, i think it stems from me actually being overweight about 8 months ago. hopefully it’ll get better for me
other than that though, things are going good. i go to the gym a lot, i have a good diet, drink a lot of water, play a lot of smash. that’s all i’ve been doing these past few days and i’m happy. i used to be a borderline college dropout but my first day of uni is in less than two weeks and i’m excited to hopefully meet some new people with the same interests. hope everyone feel good too!

>>13997777
If you're worried about your weight and are already hitting the gym why not try to turn that around and put on a little muscle?
Nice get too.

>>13997677
i always see awesome pieces i cant afford, I'd work for more hours but school interferes, on top of that im only left with like an hour at the end of the night to either play vidya or make music. >i wish i could afford stuff, i wish the days were longer, and i wish that i could turn music into a real career
feels bad bois

Do not give up my boy. God has a plan for us all. Persevere and you will be rewarded.

>>13997677
debating if i should blow money on an apple watch or buy new boots and clothes for next semester.

pros of apple watch
>calorie counter
>step tracker
>motivation to be thinspo
>we contribute to being eggay

pros of clothes
>fills temporary void
>boots will be useful when snow falls

Seriously thiuh, why not take Adderall? Can anyone say if it's useful if your an adult?

>>13997677
Im 22 make about 3k €a month working a chill job but i waste it all on stupid shit working for over a year now havent saved up anything.... also im obsessef with looks but look painfully average

>>13997703
Going to intern at financial services in one of the big dog companies. I can't wait to be depressed.

>>13997829

im not the other perosn itt that said to not take it
so give it a shot if you want to but
i was taking addy last semester in hopes of losing weight and staying focus. i have taken addy on and off all through out middle school and HS, now im in my last year at uni. it works well as an appetite suppressant but it gave me headaches even when properly hydrated so i started looking for new meds and yesterday i started wellburtin.

overall addy was fine, i tried to only take it 2 to 3 times a week so my tolerance didn't build up. it has never helped me with school work. i would become focused on all the wrong things. but it's nice if you're someone with racing intrusive thoughts that wants a clear head for a few hours.

thats my take, not good enough to deal with the side effects (headaches) but not awful either.

>>13997843
also it didn't help me lose weight bc im such a meal cuck i would eat anyways. i have zero willpower to fast 24hrs.

>>13997843
>>13997845
Damn, well it's still worth a try.

>>13997825
get the thing that excites you most.

I've been going through financial success but at the same time my personal life is still shit. 2019 came by and my gender dysphoria started acting up again but this time much stronger than before.

What do you think /fa/, should i transition or just dress androgynous? Im a skinny guy and may look very passable.

>>13997677
fashion is gay

Hilarious thread op.


I feel fine. I’m going to Las Vegas next weekend with my mom and pop go get real trashed.

My cowboys are in the playoffs.

Talkin to a qt regularly. Goin to New Orleans next month. Then the beach after that.

Writing music in between all that. And lookin super good while doing it

>going through a difficult time mentally
>the only /fa related part is how I keep changing how I dress
>I wanted to be considered mature, be treated better when I’m outside so I went prepcore, it was fun for a bit, the bright colours and classic styles made me forget I was depressed for a while.
>it all came back, then I realise I don’t actually give that much of a shit and I’m far more comfortable in carpenter trousers and a baggy t shirt.
Idk, I’ve wasted all this money on prepcore stuff and now I dont want it, I guess one day those clothes will be useful but just sick of wasting money all the time.

>>13997835
>worked at McDonald's for 8 months
>saved up £5k by literally purchasing nothing other than a few memberships/subscriptions whilst I was there
>quit June 2018 to prepare for uni course that started in September
>fast forward to today, £200 left in my bank account due to tuition fee payments
>look back and cringe at how little I spent when I had actual money (literally had holes in my shoes and would refuse to buy another pair)
>yesterday got another retail job
>preemptively decided I'm gonna blow all my pay on clothes and shit (minus the tuition)

Can't wait desu. Never been spendy before but my wardrobe is teenage autist tier.

>>13997677
I hate my body currently even though I’m losing weight at a healthy rate. I’m down to 185 and am aiming for 125 for full Hedi boy mode

>>13997677
split with my gf of 2 yrs a few weeks ago. got cheated on :(
still feeling sad and whatnot but im miles better than i was. at least girls notice the way i dress since i started coming here. everytime i go out i get compliments/hit on so i guess things could get better

>>13997677
Tfw you spend thousands of pounds on designer good but live in the countryside and nobody well get to see how fashionable I am before it's already out of fashion

>>13997763
Your brain adapts to it you dumb fuck. Once you need to have higher and higher doses you've justed yourself.

>>13997726
when I was skinny I got loads of attention from fatties its weird. Always felt uncomfortable being with a person who's limbs are just so much girthier than yours, really made me feel insecure.

Why is fashion so difficult? I just want to know what to wear. I don't want to have to get PHDs in fashion and sociology. I don't want to buy 2000000 pieces of clothing. I don't want to look at inspo. I don't care. I hate this. What even is this? I don't know and I don't care anymore. I'm beyond it now.

>>13997996
It feels good senpai till you look at ur bank again and realise you coulda saved like atleast 20k

>>13997677
Great as always, I'll never dress as gay as /fa/ does, I am constantly popping /a/ circlejerk bubble because I can enjoy what I want without thinking I'm the "elite of anime watchers" and trigger /v/ constantly because I can actually afford what games and platforms I want since I'm actually a sucessful adult and I don't have to shitpost about games or platforms I've never owned.

>>13997769
>>13997843
Nice reddit spacing, upvoted

>>13997825
don't skip on the boots homie

>>13997777
Why don't you just lift so you aren't skelly mode anymore

>>13997825
>apple watch
>calorie counter
>step counter
those can all be done with apps you mong

Just got back from the dentist and he said something about my top jaw being far apart from my lower jaw which I think means I have an overbite
I'm 18 so my mouth still have a few years left to change but it might not fix itself
I'm gonna need either braces or teeth removed to fix it, luckily my chin is pretty big so it's only slightly receding, but I'm still really insecure about it

>>13997878
the fuck are you asking us for? choose your own gender you cucck

>>13997893
does she have a stronger chin/jawline than you?

>>13998213
>Why is fashion so difficult?
You are making it difficult.

>I just want to know what to wear
Wear what you like the look of and go with it

>I don't want to buy 2000000 pieces of clothin
Then don't

>I don't want to look at inspo
You look at "inspo" every time you open your eyes. Everything around you inspires you, for the better or worse. It sounds like you are inspiring alot of negative energy.

>I don't care
well now I feel like I am just wasting my time to even respond to your questions

>I hate this
You hate alot of things dont you

>What even is this?
So you hate "this" but you don't even know what "this" is.............

>>13998244
Eh saving up is no good for me. The same thing I described in my greentext will happen again: I'll take my savings as permission to quit my job and live the NEETlyf only to discover I have to find another job a few months down the line as I've slowly whittled away said savings.

If you're happy with your job long-term then set aside a certain portion of your monthly income. You may not realise this if you've never been much of a saver but there's something very satisfying about denying yourself material pleasures and watching your bank balance slowly rise.

>finally find boots that fit me
>use foot to keep door from slamming on me on a windy day
>gouge about a centimeter in diameter in an obvious spot

Mega gay.

>the feel when i fucked up my wrists
this shit is not effay in the least
at least they gave me black ones

>>13997777
I assume you're a guy? I'm your height 130lbs and am pretty thin as it is. 123 is almost scary underweight, do some bodyweight exercises and get to at least 135, I promise you'll feel better.

>>13997878
Go see a therapist man. This is not a path you want to go down

>>13998427
Yea fuck that.. i spend alot a money but i got my motor license, diver license, my own car,motor,appartement and nice stuff inside so whatevs

>>13998427
Having money in the bank just for the sake of having money in the bank is the dumbest shit someone can think of. At least invest it in something. I don't know about the situation in your country, but we have negative interest on saving accounts. The banks are making money off your money while your account balance is shrinking.

>Trying to find that pic of the asian guy wearing a patagonia fleece jacket with a scarf and nike shoes
>Cant find it
>Pissed because I want to add it to my inspo folder and figure out how the hell he wrapped his scarf that way.

Fucking sucks

HOW do I make a nice instagram?? I haven't posted in a year and a half and all I posted before was basic shit from HS.
I never take pictures and have recently gained weight so I don't know what to post. I get that insta just isn't for me if it seems like such a strain but I mostly want it for my own gratification and aesthetic satisfaction, not popularity. I have ~370 follower but I doubt I'd even get 100 likes if I posted anything

>>13998652
Only took a minute on Google man

>>13998645
I don't know the first thing about investing and I'd probably fuck it up big time.

Any pointers?

>>13998632
So why do you feel bad about not saving then?

>>13998658
Don't invest in crypto. And let some professionals do the investing for you. In other words, invest in funds. There might not be a high ROI, but they're basically risk free

>>13998658
Go to /biz/ and do the opposite of what they tell you to do

>>13998655
I tried googling it but I guess im retarded. Thanks

I wouldn't flinch on buying a $200 wallet but I still cheap out on the basics

>>13998698
and i still end up looking like shit

>>13997763
adderall ruined my life, sleep cycles, appetite, motivation to do anything ever. gave me a 1.5 gpa freshman year. dont do it

>>13997726
I’m with u here. I’ve started to try eating more so I can bulk, gained 10 lbs so far but no visible difference yet

>>13997726
I enjoy being skinny, wwhawwhat do others think of me

>>13998280
the aw would be more accurate bc of the heart rate tracker compared to a phone app

i feel guilty for being unable to keep relations
i just dont miss or care about people, its not intentional
when the person is not in the room it is like my mind completely forgets thwy exist. sometimes its good with stuff like crushes etc.(i basically never fall in love) but just realized i havent spoken to my best mate in months and still have no desire to do so

>>13997742
You don't see gainz that quick but keep it up

>>13998666
Lol I work in retail making £9 an hour, half of which goes straight to uni fees. I imagine an investor would laugh in my face if I went looking for his business.

Cheers for the advice. What's a low ROI exactly? If I were to invest £500 a month - which, again, is all I have - how much return would I be looking at in a year's time?

>>13997726
>falling for /fa/ memes made by underage kids that women like skinny and weak men

I have been on this board for way too long, its full of kids finishing highschool/starting college

It was cool when I had the same viewpoint, but its retarded now

I remember the fanatical obsession with Rick Owens and roshe runs when I came here back in 2014, now everyone is into some weird wide pants long hair depressed gay shit

I remember autistic trips, and discussing actual fashion, not this arthoe posting

Board was always full of underage faggots, but in recent years the average poster became more richer and more asian

>>13999014

>>13999023
>being this new

>>13997825
boots

apple watches are kind of silly

>>13998956
u can try going to the library and looking up books on day trading if you want to try and make $$ but its risky

>>13998267
honestly u don't sound great

So I was at the bar saturday and this chick was coming onto me but she was wayyy too hammered. Like I've never seen a chick so loaded she was falling all over me. Couldn't walk couldn't nothing. I'm pretty sure she was cut off because she was a total wreck. Talking some kind of bullshit about school or something. Barely coherent. Anyways I figure she needed a nice bed to sober upband I was worried that she was drugged so I was taking her to my place. I'm literally carrying this chick home she can't walk. Some guys, like 3 or 4 soibois start white Knighting and accusing me of date raping her. Like fuck she's gonna die if she doesn't get to a bed she's that hammered. So luckily I smoothed things out. Get home, wake my room mate up, have to explain to her my situation, they're freaking out, get this drunk chick to my room, calm down my roommate, and this chick passes out cold.

Boys I fucked her mouth for like 20 minutes, raw dogged her and threw her in a cab giving the driver some made up address.

They can't get your DNA from 23 and me or some shit though right? I mean I don't think she would remember but I'm worried. I realize I fucked up by letting the cabbie pick her up by my place but at least I didn't use uber or some shit.

I think I pulled it off but I'm worried. How was your weekend?

>>13999801
You came INSIDE?!?!...was she tight?

Tfw I dont have a qt short haired gf. What do i do?

>>14000004
get a qt short haired gf?

>>14000019
how?

>>13998282
Don’t be too insecure about it. People don’t notice unless your jaw is very receded.
However you should think more about the braces. Talk to your dentist about your options and what effect they’ll have.
At 16 I was given the option to have a tooth pulled and get braces in the top of my mouth. I chose not to because they said it would give me space between my front teeth. I’m 23 and I stand by that decision, but I really wish I had gotten braces in my lower mouth instead. My teeth are really crooked and the dentist was so focused on giving me braces in my top mouth he never mentioned the bottom.

>>13999801
I can't believe you raped someone like that holy shit

>>13999801
Dude if she remembers and actually wants to do something about it you are absolutely fucked. Not only did you fuck up by giving that CIA 23 whatever shit your DNA, they can also run a rape kit. There's no way you pulled it off unless she's literally autistic. Enjoy prison.

In pissed off I can't find the other fits people used to post of this guy

>>14000164
What did Google mean by this?

Trying to get away from tshirts. Bought 10+ tops online over the holidays and returned all of them bc i hate how they look
hate half the stuff I end up keeping and never wear it
probably I just hate how I look

>>14000164
Shoulderlet

Got a haircut yesterday. Hate it. I get infuriated by looking into a mirror.
Argued with the hairdresser on how to cut sides and back and gave up in the end and let him decide. Am I stupid or is he? Little of both maybe?
It’ll take me at least a month to rectify the damage.

Next time I’ll cut the sides myself. I can do it a lot better.

>>14000251
Unless the barber is literally inexperienced you're the stupid one. You should have argued your point more if you were that concerned about it, he's the one providing the service after all. It also depends on where you went, if you went to Super Cuts then you got what was coming. Good luck on attempting at cutting your own hair.

>>14000253
I have been cutting my own hair for like 5 years. That’s possibly why I have so strong an opinion of how it should look.
I go the barber to get the top cut, because I started having longer and a more complicated hairstyle.

my gf doesn't have good fashion taste

>>13999801

>>13998655
How to tie scarf like this?

>>13999773
Lmao

>>13998995
>tfw got a gf from being skinny and she isn't fat

>>13998655
>>14000512
>How to tie a scarf like this
1 Place one end of the scarf over your shoulder pointing towards your back.
2 Wrap the other end twice around your head.
3 On the second wrap you put the end under itself to tie a knot.

If your scarf has the right lenght and width it’ll look like this.

>>14000164
Im p sure he used to trip as Tinfoil

I get so extremely sad sometimes that I feel like ending it all but I remember that there are lots of people who are close to me and I to them. I have far too many connections to this world to leave it at this moment but the thought still comes up every now and then

I'm 18 and hoping that my teenage meme depression cools of soon. I really need to get a move on.

>>13998995
>implying i want to attract women
It’s the underage kids I’m trying to fuck, silly

>>13999014
>weird wide pants long hair depressed gay shit
Lol so Rick Owens?
I’m only 24 bit I’ve been here since 2010 and I remember when dadcore was still a thing, so funny
The geobaskets era, the holos era, the sadboy era... such good times
/fa/ is trash now but at leadt is still fun, and you can get actual advice more times than not, you just hace to filter the bullshit, don’t be a crybaby
I love this place

turns out my husband is a tranny. for real. he thinks he's gonna be a cute girl now, but he's too thin, too tall (he's really tall) and his face looks okay now (even better with beard) but he's gonna make such an ugly woman. i won't tell him that, but it breaks my heart. i dont mind being with him even though he's mentally ill though. he's just gonna be ugly as hell.

>>14001715
Based

>>13997763
Its a methamphetamine.

>>13998191
you do build tolerance, yes, but if you take breaks on the weekends, as well as magnesium glycinate, you should be okay.
>>13998727
how did adderall ruin your motivation? Did you have ADHD prior to taking it?
>>14001923
no it's not

>>14000151
Bro how is that even rape? She didnt say no or fight

>>14002090
>implying a heavily inebriated person can give consent
you described her as "barely coherent," so how could she give consent, say no, or fight?

>>14002090
full retard

>>14000164
w2c shoes

I really want to become a barber because it sounds comfy talking to people and working with hair all day.

The problem is that I'm bad with people and don't know if I'd be able to build a clientele. I've also never cut somebody's hair besides my own.

can't tell if i have a problem or if i should try out hormone therapy.

>>14002216
You have a problem

>>13997677
>tfw too tall for normal clothes
>tfw arms to long for most long sized clothes
>tfw I cant even larp as Oswald Mosley because no one makes a turtleneck long enough
>tfw I cant be a comfy irishman because no aran sweaters are long enough
Feels bad, man

>>14002224
thanks, i'm leaning more in that direction anyways. i don't know why god designed me this way.

finally got into a college ive got something to look forward to n save up for
tried to soduku couple months back when i was living on my own and im in a lot better place
making friends is hard though!

>>14002209
isnt their a school for this to practice?

>>14002234
good for you m9, keep it up

>>13997765
What band? :)

>>14002304
Yeah, and I'm planning on going to one this year. I just feel like entering without any real prior experience with hair or customers is unwise.

>>14002234
what do you find hard about making friends?

Just fell down the stairs and broke my ankle. My mom is driving me to a clinic rn. Also my new balances came in the mail they look good

>>14002365
im not great at talking to ppl bc i havent really figured myself out
used to be reclusive during formative years and ive mistreated my past two partners so theres that past going against me

severely depressed. i want to work on making music or art but i end up playing video games all day. just want to /make it/ as an artist but i cant be consistent. probably just have myself to blame.

>>14002474
Consistently making good art or just actually making art? I suffer from making decent music sometimes but having long periods of time where nothing will come to mind or just sounds like doodoo.

Moving back into college for the second semester. Just got contacts and I picked up some new clothes for cheap over the break

>>14002231
God has a plan for you and he made you a man so you can find a woman to love and care for and raise a family who worships God as well. Yes you may be cursed with a mental aliment, or you may be tricked by a sick godless society into believing you're something you're not. Many theories abound from food additives to social programming to explain the transgender phenomenon. But know God makes no mistakes and He does not mean for you to be a woman when He has made you a man. The bad news is the Transgender sadly will perish upon the judgment day unless they change their perverted ways. The good news is God loves you so much he gave his only son so that others may live. Live life following his righteous path and I assure you these sick perverted feelings, dubbed "gender dysphagia" by the godless, will dissappear.

>>14002500
*dysphoria

>>14002489
just making art. i don't know if i'm just lazy or unmotivated or whatever. thinking of picking up guitar or maybe music production.

>>14002510
ah that's fine then, I actually tried to get back into vidya recently but I can't do it, played half an hour of Bloodbourne and realised it was a waste of time because the designers deliberately put the fucking carts in your way so you can't dodge the enemies, and there were faggy crossbow dudes that are the equivalent of a jumpscare
I'd much rather spend my time reading 4chan

>>13997893
imagine being that desperate for attention that you feel you need to tripfag on a chinese cartoon site. stick to reddit

>>14001065
Same here, anon. Chin up

>>13997903
Smoke weed and look prepcore

>>13997726
So... what's the problem?

>>13999801
Hope you go to Jail if this is real, but I'm pretty sure this is just bait

>>14002216
Stop watching porn lol it's that easy.

I'll write about something actually fashion related.
I feel as though my opportunities to dress adventurously are extremely limited because of where I live. I live in the largest city in my country, but the things to do here are limited at best. There's no fun to be had loitering in the city, and I live too far away for that to be a viable 'hobby'; I don't go to bars or nightclubs; Thug-type people are intimidating to be around while trying to take public transport; and noone else dresses interestingly.
I go to university and have to commute by train, and the closest station to my house is in a less reputable part of town - my house is in a nice suburb though. A combination of what I described above, along with occasionally volatile weather makes being able to dress for what the weather will be in 1 hour in a different part of town difficult. My part time job is impractical to wear nice clothes at so I just wear things from Uniqlo.

As I write this I've been browsing online consignment shops and whenever I find something interesting, half the time I'm too worried that I won't have any opportunities to wear it so I only end up looking at jeans or trousers. There's nothing wrong with those, but I want to have more variety in my wardrobe.

I bought a pair of Sasquatchfabrix hakama-ish pants about half a year ago and have worn them twice, both to family gatherings. They're my favorite pair of pants and when I play dress up at home they look nice with a variety of different tops and outerwear, but actually wearing them outside is not practical. I would love to live in a properly international city where I don't have to fear getting mugged because of my clothes and have an opportunity to wear properly unique but still tasteful clothing styled in an interesting way. I'm intending to pour alot of effort this year, post-graduation, into securing a job in Tokyo.

My good feels: accomplished my goals for last year. I made some money (still poor), moved out and got a great apartment, got a new bed and went on a soul clenching trip at the end of the year.

My bad feels: I have nothing to love, my life feels like it lacks meaning at least for now. I'm coming to terms that i can never have a free youthfull life full of adventure and lost love. I'm so hung up about that. I'm 23 somewhat consider myself anti social its hard to make friends but I'm at least not depressed when I'm alone. I feel disconnected from everything except this shit board

Tfw No gf

>>14002818
what kindof work are you plannign to do in tokyo?
and what kind of stuff do you plan on doing in general out there besides dressing up?

good luck anon

>>13997677
>tfw i'm too dumb to know how to make a good fit
>tfw i'm too poor anyway
>tfw can't browse /fa/ daily just because i remember how poor i am
maybe i should just stick to /tg/ but comfy board anyway

>Don't wear nice clothes very often, just have one shit suit I don't like, one white dress shirt, one tie that I like
>Keep putting off buying a new suit since I want to lose weight, but I haven't done that either
Every time some interview or dressy event comes up I wish I had something nicer to wear. Maybe I should just accept that I'm fat now and buy some nice clothes.

>>14002881
I'll regret posting this, because I'll get hammered for it, but English teacher at a private school. I'll be qualified as a geologist when I graduate too and there's most definitely work in any country for that discipline, but Japan happens to lay right next to some plate boundaries too. I like my pop culture so being able to access that stuff in person is nice to have. I'm also interested in academic approaches to Japanese pop culture and their society in general, I particularly don't think the former is explored frequently enough to keep up with trends which gain huge momentum really quickly. Good luck to you too

>>14001449
fuck, holos bring back memories
>taking advice on 4chan

>>14002911
ROfL actual english teacher

i bought a bomber jacket but im afraid i will look ricidious
i like the design but i dont want to get laughed at

>>14002321
https://youtu.be/xgMD6efugcU

>>14002818
hahaha what a fucking bitch you're scared of getting mugged by manlets you sound like a total KEK

>>14002818
>I have no friends to loiter with
>I have no creativity to think of activities beyond loitering
>I don't drink or socialise
>I can't get along with people who have different interests from me
>I suffer from negrophobia
>I'm literally too autistic to dress myself in the morning
>I want to move to Japan to live out the weeaboo dream
>I unironically believe my life will magically be better as an alien in a homogenous country full of people who hate aliens

Pic related is my prescription

>working the weekend, 7-19
>collague that is ith me does nothing, so everythings on my back
> gf crushed her knee yesterday, wont go to surgery before tuesday or wednesday
>barely slept last night
>cant seem to catch a break, just as it gets a bit better, something goes awry

>>14002818
do you even speak japanese

>>14002500
Trans people have existed since the dawn of man.

Anon, seek help.

>>14002229
man unironically get into /diy/

>>14003520
>mental illnesses have existed since the dawn of man like most diseases and aliments
>therefore it's normal and OK

Want to know how I know you're an arts / humanities student?

>>14003244
holy shit them eyebows

I remember last year. I sat on a bridge one evening, alone in a big city. It was a rainy day. Below me blue and orange sparks from wielding on the railroad tracks. Workers in reflective coats. Reflections on the intermingled network of rails which lead towards the illuminated central staton. Sometimes trains which did not note my existence. I felt disconnected.
I wore a red windbreaker. It was a cold day, and it got colder when I realised I had to drop out..
I have been living at my parents for a few months now. Rehab did not really help in the long term. I'm back at where I started. If I look outside the window, I see snow. I hear molten snow dripping from the eaves, an equable discretisation of time. Drip, drop, drip, drop, out.
Something will happen. Until then, I'll spend my days in bed.
Sometimes I miss the people I met at my dorm, or people in general. It's not my dorm anymore but just some nondescript dorm in a big city to which I have lost all connection. I never felt connected in the first place. To the city, to anybody. I don't answer the phone.

>>14003606
i went to trade school, but go on

>>14003667
no u

>>13998186
If you buy designer clothes to be "in fashion" you're a fucking loser

>>14003930
Unironically the truest post I’ve ever seen on this board

>>14003520
Yes, and it has always been a mental illness. Epilepsy has also been around since the dawn of time.

>buy something that I want
>immediately feel guilty for spending money

why am I like this

>>14001715
you're going to stay with him after he transitions? kind of based. idk anon maybe he'll reach some kind sweet spot of androgyny

>afraid to go in cloths shops, because they are exclusivity populated with the types of people who bullied me in school
>feel like everyone's staring at me because they know I don't belong

>>13997878
late replay but i think natty traps are the best and the way it was meant to be, just enjoy being a cute boy and then let go and dress depending on how you age, the ancient greeks had it right

I used to think I was just a late bloomer and that I’d find friends eventually but I just feel like im incapable of socializing anymore and I cant make any new friends while all my old friends are moving on. I havent had a personal conversation with anyone in 3 days. Also im feeling like shit about being single again and I’m craving a girlfriend so badly. She doesnt even have to be beautiful or fashionable as long as she can hold me and give me the same feeling of comfort and warmth that my mother does

>>13997878
Let me be real with you. I'm an mtf, I've been on hrt since 2011. I pass as female.

There are two paths you can go down from here. Cope, or hope. You can either try to cope by staying a guy and trying your best to be androgynous. This lasts maybe until you're 30 when you go through male puberty again, aka gay death, then you'll just be a regular guy. Or you can get on hrt and hope you pass well enough to live comfortably. Even if you fail at this you can always detransition go for plan A, but I'll be honest the difference in quality of life between a passing transwoman and an unpassing one is night and day. Being treated like a woman is amazing. If you don't pass you'll be treated like shit and want to kill yourself. If you do pass you'll stay passing for the rest of your life granted you never stop hrt, but nobody stays cute forever and you'll be an old woman eventually.

tldr if you think you can pass you should go for it, if there is no way you could ever pass just stay a guy and cope with dysphoria, on hrt or off hrt your call.

>>14003520
>trans
>people
Lol

>>14004730
>I pass as female.
Lol.
This never gets old

I'm sad as fuck and i feel like im stuck

>tfw i barely use this board

>>14005884
Ive realized im selfish and bashful. Id like to be a better person and contribute to the world. in reality im shit

>samefag, sorry for the blog post

>Fuck date last night with qt
>Get told I have nice hair
>Art date today with cutie with qt
>Get told I have nice hair
>Dinner date with qt on Thursday
>Wonder what I'll get complimented on this time?
We're all going to make it lads. When you finally perfect your style people suddenly think you're cool.

Still can't get over the imposter syndrome.

>>13998995
all my gfs have been heavier than me and im a skinny guy (130lbs) i dont think its just a meme

>>13998213
if you dont want to try literally just go to r/mfa or go to h&m and just copy what the models are wearing. you just sound like you want to look semi-presentable and not be interesting at all

>5'5
>28 inch inseam
>36 inch hips

>>14005996
almost same problem, losing weight to fix this, gl

>>14004730
This hurts to read because of how accurately it describes the fears I have about potentially trying that shit.

>I'm tall and nothing looks good on me cause it fits weird
>I have shit hair genetics (not bald) so my hair never looks good, just looks like a thin mess that wont sit right
>head is big so hats don't fit me
>size 46 EU feet so 99% of shoes look ridiculous on me

What do I even do

>>14004730
My "trans" friend, the people who encourage this behavior don't care about you. Would you prescribe someone to cut their arms wide open? Would a therapist tell you to walk on your hands until you get used to feeling dizzy? No they wouldn't. So why would they tell you to take those drugs that mutilate your body? Do you think that's what God intended?

Feel that. That little twang of unease and disgust when I mention God? I'd imagine people have used God to bring you down for your thoughts, to make you feel small, and now there's a small part of you that dreads the word. The wicked people that encourage your behavior have told you again and again God isn't real and those Christians are the real enemy. The godless liberal professionals tell you that God hates you and the gays love you. Perhaps a "Christian" has condemned you for the darkness and confusion afflicting you.

I'm here to tell you that you don't need to fear the word of God. We all have thoughts of fear and self doubt and society pushes us to stray from God as a result. Only He knows why you suffer from the mental aliment causing you to mutilate yourself and engage in twisted behavior. Perhaps it is supplements such as onions, found in low cost food. Perhaps it is a traumatic experience. But in God you can be saved.

Which is worse, a lifetime of peace and strength through God or a lifetime of torture and confusion pretending to be a woman?

>tl;dr
Go to church. I'd pay you to if I could. Go in a dress. They won't judge. Just talk to the youth group or a pastor. They can help you.

God bless.

>>14001443
based

>>14001065
relateable, its always the same ending

>>14001380
same cuh, can't wait for the days where i look back at this and laugh. if they every exist

>>14001065
What's sad is I don't even have more than parents, wife, and a couple dogs. Maybe a couple acquaintances. But I don't end it because of that gut animal instinct to survive. It's annoying. Wild nimals can't just switch off if they got their legs mangled by a car and their life is going to be objectively shit. They just keep going and hobbling along because of gut instinct. And here I am. 33 no kids no skills no house just a car I can barely afford and a whole bunch of government gibs and a shitty minimum wage job. But here I am because there that fucking thought process that life is some kind of hallmark movie where angels come and teach you the beauty of life. Wish I could find that cheat code to just switch survival instinct off. Tried with liquor just ended up in the drunk tank or missing teeth senpai.

Gonna drink a few 10%ers and give it another go tonight senpai.

>>14006331
I go to church retard. You know nothing about me. I'm probably older than you and you're talking to me like you have some authoritarian position over me. Get fucked cringeposter. God wants me to become the best possible me and I'm doing that every single day. And who are you to preach the word of God to others like you know more than him? Disgusting. Nobody condemned me. I grew up in an atheist household and I went out on my own as an adult. Fucker.

>>14006331
>this post

Protestants are truly disgusting

>>13997893
>My cowboys
Oops!

>>14000004
Be an alternative guy. I wouldn't recommend it, honestly. I fetishized it because they always went for less attractive guys than me, which gave me a complex, but in practice they're neurotic and bad fucks. Get a tall confident woman, not a short silly girl like that.

>>13998687
this

>>14000004
nice digits retard, kys

>>14003288
if your into this their 2018 album is also fantastic, yuragi

>>14007914
Hows this?

>>13999014
>I remember autistic trips, and discussing actual fashion,
the art hoe posting was the the same they just called them tumblrina or some other cringy shit.

>>14005890
This hits too close to home

>>13997829
I like amphetamine, never tried adderall just high-grade speed. Never had problems with it, im on a large break currently, Im not touching the stuff for a few months.

always been good with money but never cared about how I looked
now that I'm old enough and comfortable enough in my own skin to start dressing well, it's too out of character to justify spending so much money on myself to my gf

>>13997677
>would probably be pretty attractive if i just lost weight
>no willpower or motivation to actually lose weight
>cant buy new clothes until im skinny
>even if i did lose weight i have a big head so id just look ugly and skinny

>>14010217
everyone looks better skinny that skinnyfat, do it

>tfw wide hips and fat thigs
>tfw will never look aesthetic

>buy m65 jacket with german flag on shoulders
>visit parents during holidays
>"whoa anon, is this like a nazi thing? listen I won't have any nazis in my home"

jesus christ boomers..

>>14011050
this didn't happen

>>14006237
>head is big
you can probably take the buzzpill, you most likely have a warrior skull

>want to buy more shoes
>dont have space to display them
Oh well

>>14011903
>keeping the box

>>14005890
Delete your picture and your text.
Then get out of my mind

I’ve fallen in love with someone. She’s everything I want in a partner. We talk a lot and see each other a lot, but I also know there’s no chance.

I’m too miserable and self-hating. She has a boyfriend, he’s 25, lives with his parents, has no job, and just failed his first semester of college. But even if she dumped him I would never be her next choice, I know that.

Two years ago she was my boss, now we’re equals professionally and close friends. But it sucks man, it sucks.

>>14006331
I miss when 4chan wasn’t full of weird christians

>>14012302
>she just sent me a Snapchat
>her lying in bed with a ton of cleavage, caption says “I miss you”
I’M IN HELL

>>13997754
>I‘m a 8,5/10
>fat
>didn’t date in 8 years

>>14012316
That sounds like a big hint anon, ask her to go to the cinema with you man

>>14012316
Dude she wants you

>>14012316
administer the D

>>13998727
>tfw I started taking adderall freshman year of college and I went from a 2.8 gpa first semester to a 3.8 gpa subsequent semesters and have maintained it since
>can go on breaks with no withdrawals
>haven't upped my dosage in two years

>>14006331
You can't fix dysmorphia by changing. You can't fix illness by enabling it.

Although the Christian part is unnecessary.

>>14012316
oppa whore style she sent it to at least two other boys

>get compliments from normies but only because I wear expensive name brand

I don't deserve these compliments . Most of my fits clash but idc because people will tell me I look good anyways but deep down I know I'm just a hack.

>>14012628
I think you're doing fine

>>14012628
>Most of my fits clash but idc because people will tell me I look good anyways
don't base your fashion on feedback from people who can't dress for shit

>>13998891
Go get dinner with him faggot, he would enjoy it and so would you

I really want to wear these boots in public without looking like some weirdo

>>14013621
Move to texas

>>13997677
i am in love with a girl that has straight up told me
"i am not interested in you"
but later told me she " pushes away people she loves because she doesnt think shes worth them"
she always spends extra time with me, and calls me in the morning to make sure i get out of bed and go to school.
does she like mE?

>>14013660
and we have made out on multiple occasions, all of them her saying she was drunk. and ive slept next to her, 3-5 times only us.
idk what to do, i feel like im falling apart.

>>14013664
you need to tell her that you adore her. do not leave any ambiguity. if she is not in the same headspace as you - let it go. let it go hard.

unrequited love is incredibly fucking painful man. but if you fall victim to it you need to move on. dwelling on such a horrible wound prevents it from healing. can make it worse.

>>14013664
tell her exactly what you want there to be between the two of you

>>14013671
>>14013680
i know what i should do, but the thought of her actually not wanting anything romantic to do with me almost tears me up more than her telling me herself, id rather not know what she feels at this point, because with my little hope i can stay alive just one more day.

>>14013702
Don't fall into that trap Anon. You exist outside of the fantasy. I'm sure you really do have genuine feelings for her, but these feelings aren't really helping you at the moment.

Sort it out, it sounds like she might have an inkling of what your feeling. She might be afraid of hurting you by making hers clear though.

I myself had a small fling with a girl I adored, thing I was much more into it than her. Realising and accepting that was the most important thing of being free of how painful that was. make your feelings clear to her and let the thing run its course; even if it is a dissapointing one.

>>13999014
this
I still get in touch with this board more than /mu/ for example but yeah inspo threads now are funny as hell, it's just provocative bad taste and not even at attempt to fashion

>>13998550
Where did you get the wrist brace? Is there any branding on it? Ive been looking for something similar for ages

I think there's a leak in my instapumps somewhere.

>>14006331
haha please leave

>>14012316
yeah no way she would do that if she wasn't atleast somewhat interested. just ask her if she wants to grab dinner one night

>>13997677
Stopped smoking weed because it makes me apathetic and not care about maintaing a good calorie deficit, also dont want to be addicted. Got like 2 hours of sleep yesterday and about 5 last night, kept waking up from really intense dreams, also when not smoking i keep getting vivid dreams of my ex that i fucking broke up with because of reasons. So i wake up with this retarded feeling of regret and have to remind myself why i broke up.. i really just wanna buy some weed and get a good nights sleep without stupid dreams but i know im just gonna feel worse in the long term and gain weight.

>>14012316
shes tryna smash fool

>>14005904
what

tfw really into this fat girl
but it would mess with my skinny boy aesthetic

>>14017005
>"""""aesthetic"""""
Just fuck her dude

>>14017011
I'm really bad at using people

>>13998995
He’s talking about his experiences though, so

>>14017102
I'm not talking about fucking her and dropping her I'm saying fuck her as part of a relationship if you actually like her

>>14017110
you're right.

>>13997829
Adderall makes me not overweight and stay a healthy skinny, makes me very productive, more interested in smarter things, better at focusing, etc. It’s very good

>>14015458
Get used to crazy dreams. I smoked heavily for years and stopped suddenly about two years ago. I have really bizarre, sometimes frightening dreams basically every night.

>will forever be 5'6
>pectus excavatum
>feet and wristlet
>underweight
At least my shoulders are a bit wider than average for my height. Bulking is so fucking hard.

>>14017510
>>will forever be 5'6

actually you'll start to shrink as you age

>>14017106
>coping this hard

>>14017510

>5'7
>skinny but it suits me
>broad shoulder
>big dick

it isn't so bad

>>14012316
Keep in mind anon, if they're willing to cheat for you they could eventually cheat on you.