/fa/ - Fashion

I'm autistic so I behave like Ryan Gosling in Drive.

My friends tell me I speak like an Hergé character with a bit of foul-mouthed Bostonian in the mix even though I’m from the west coast, and that I speak more like written dialogue than normal conversation.

I have mixed feelings about that. They insist it’s endearing but I can imagine it coming off as weird.

I try to be the sort of man I wished would look out for me when I was younger. I try my best to be brave, fair, and kind to everyone I can no matter what the circumstance. I'm laid back and friendly but I don't want to joke too much and be 'that guy', and I try to be there for my mates, always do what I say I will, and try to accomplish every job to the best of my ability, no matter how small.

Not a very /fa/ person I suppose, but I seem to get on well with all kinds of people.

>>12945776
This kid's a fag

>>12945776
Been a bit of loner my whole life, largely due to my semi autistic full on cocky personality and the fact I grew up in a largely sheltered town and the school I used to go to was just rammed full of mall core norms who didn’t dress like I did or listen to the same music. I realised I had no proper mates anyway so why not just completely stop giving a fuck and I turbocharged my personality 300 percent, (think Ralph from the sopranos but not a cuck)

>tfw you can recognize all the different shows and podcasts you’ve accidentally adopted mannerisms from

Intelligent, nihilistic, and with a wicked sense of humor.

>>12945803
thats real-life effay. these movie characters we obsess over; sulking, drug abusing, lonely, self absorbed- they just are shitty, toxic people in real life. what you describe is how we should all live, despite what we romanticize.

>>12945776
im a sociopath. I am into fashion because Im obsessive and very self centered. Im obsessed with Ultra Individualism, outrage, and being extraordinary and I will get my way. I dislike unintelligent people, drug culture is the most boring personality trait and a fake easy hobby that makes people uninteresting to me. All the women that like me are Art-hoes, I think about destroying them with my cock, i will have my magnum opus

>>12945832
I’m kinda half nice and half one of those toxic shitty drug dudes and you couldn’t be more right.

>>12945803
You sound like a nice as fuck dude
Would def hang out with/10

>>12945776
everyone here is just the weird kid no one spoke to in highschool who ended up going to an "art institute". neckbeards of a different flavor.

>>12945794
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>>12945926
Go back to plebbit than faggot nigger kike, You're the fucking worst. I wish your mom would have made the right decision and swallowed. Who the fuck are you? Im an NYU school of the visual arts graduate. who the fuck are you. You suck, you're despicable. Your a no good filthy peace of trash.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9E62iA6KCIQ

>>12945917
Absolutely horrible to be around/10
I feel like half that sometimes and wonder why I even have friends left
But that’s what being full on effay does to you.
Congrats I guess.

>>12945799
>I speak like an Hergé character
that sounds effay as fuck

>>12945803
Good inspo

>>12945926
No one speaks to me now either, so whatever

>>12945776
Im a pretty quiet person but for some reason people gravitate to me which doesn't make much sense but whatever

>>12945776
I try to be kind balanced and distanced. if the situation calls for it, i can be easy going but otherwise i dont really let people near myself. This mysterious fagottary i suppose

>>12946016
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>>12945926
>>12945794
YESSSSSS AUTISTIUC FAGGGGGOTS GIT REKT HPLY SHET B O I S SILENT BUT DEADLY HUH WTF ARE YOU EBEN ON ABOUT GET A GODDDDDDAM GRIP FUCCCCCCCCC A SUCC YOU AINT EVER GONNNNA DOOOO DAT

like a southerner. i'm polite and mannered always, try to be helpful when i can, and i'm generally soft spoken. also i harbor an underlying hatred for minorities

if i had a trans-atlantic accent i would be antebellum tier

>>12945776
I'm quiet and reserved, but I'm finnish so it's okay.

>>12946037
>also i harbor an underlying hatred for minorities
how do I stop this
it’s so stressful knowing I would be hated by everyone I know if I were to ever let slip the constant torrential hatred inside of my sad gut

I'm dramatic, erratic, and a bitch but I get away with it due to my looks.
>mfw gf keeps on threatening to break up with me but she won't do it because she'll lose a grand thing and even then i have other options

>>12946069
I would despise you and like you at the same time

a bit autistic and socially anxious, but I try to be laid-back and friendly to the best of my ability
I don't get along well with most people (I find them boring and appear cold and distant as a result), but I can be really witty and entertaining when in the right crowd (not necessarily /fa/ crowd, just any people I find at least somewhat interesting)

>>12945776
pretty optimistic and make stupid over the top jokes with people i know. More reserved with people i dont but still try to be open.
>>12946069
lmao post face and body famalam

>>12945823
To be fair, you have to have a very high IQ to understand Rick and Morty

>>12946140
same

>>12946069
please post face and body

>>12946069
Are you light skin bro?

My boss said "you're very quiet" to me today, which I guess sums me up pretty well. People like me, but I don't know why, maybe because I'm a bit of a pushover.

I wear mostly earth tones, and flappy clothing, lots of big pockets.

I'm extroverted, but thanks to some shitty social deficiency I don't seek out company. Luckily for some reason people like me and drag me out, and I'm social when I'm actually with people.
I'm great at small talk and can keep up a conversation with almost anyone, but I'm very reserved and talk more in anecdotes rather than opening up and saying anything substantial about myself, so a lot of my friends (everyone but my 5 best/real friends) say I'm mysterious. Granted, that's probably helped by that I talk about /x/ type stuff when I get drunk. Apparently I'm a captivating storyteller, but I black out super easily so I can't say. Fuck my metabolism.

>antique european surplus, mild terrorwave and some hedi-slimane-post-punk memes
I'm an introvert for the most part, but I do get pretty loud when talking about history and other autist stuff with my autist friends. I try to be gentle, but usually end up being facetious, and banter with the three friends I do have gets pretty intense. I use the smiling sunflower sticker a lot on snapchat after bullying people.
>inb4 normie

Pretty academically focused. I do my best to spend my spare time learning or reading about philosophy or building something (working on an app right now), just for fun. I don't really speak to people outside of classes.

As for social media, I have a Facebook account for class groups/for classmates to contact me (I use Signal and SMS for people I actually talk to on a deeper level). I have an Instagram account, but I only post pictures of objects/scenery/etc. (i.e., no selfies). I'd love to be a pretty Instagram girl but I unfortunately am not pretty.

In my clothing I tend to be very minimalistic. I really like turtlenecks/mock necks and I don't reveal a lot of skin.

I don't wear a lot of makeup, but I take meticulous care of my skin.

I guess that my ideal aesthetic, both physically and behaviourally, is "deliberate".

>>12945794
This except unironically because I literally have autism

Like an off set Disney kid. I'm pretty popular around my campus, partly because of the clothes I wear plus I skate a lot so I end up talking to people like everyday. I'm a social butterfly but also lowkey shy but I've been told its charming.

it varies

>>12945803
you sound like a guy id grab a beer with

>>12945818
you might be funny but you might take certain jokes too far

>>12946140
you sound kind of like a younger version of me.

>>12945776
I'm a bit more quiet and reserved than I should be. I'm reasonably intelligent, but I try not to go out of my way to come off as being some sort of a genius, which I'm not. I used to have trouble making friends and used to care a lot about what people thought of me, but now I care less and less as uni is winding down. What I've learned is that most of the bullshit things in your head that you think people will judge you for are things that most people overlook. Not everyone has to like you. Not everyone will like you. Most people will not give a fuck how you dress so wear what makes you happy. I've been told that I speak with strange rhetoric, probably just some mild autism but whatever.

Bad, I like absolutely nothing about myself and I'm pretty sure its apparent in my behavior. I also just make shit up to fuel conversation which I'm also sure everyone sees through

>>12945803
*tips*

An only child w/ little family so I struggle heavily with social interaction.

Negatively I have trouble showing empathy to others in serious situations, I'm arrogant, put my interests first, I don't really show strong emotions beyond anger and love. And I struggle with the fact that other people are real and independent just as I am.

/fa/ made me conceited and I only want to approach people who look fashionable, which is fucked up.

And I have to force facial expressions a lot of the time. I learn by what others do, but I always feel like I'm playing catchup.

Positively I get told i'm laid back, easy to talk to, I do what I say, and I'm unique in the way I behave about situations, and very little bothers me. Weird, but also cool.

Sometimes I get concerned that I'm a sociopath or something, but then realise that if I'm worried about being one I'm probably fine.

Basically I'm autistic without actually being autistic at all. I spent a stupid long time being a shut in after we became poor, and now I'm climbing out of the hole.

Everywhere I go I seem to become known as the "quiet boy" or "the boy who doesn't talk". I had selective mutism when I was much younger, but that transformed from genuine shyness into simple quietness. I talk to people who show an interest in me, but otherwise I mind my own business.
It has its pros and cons. People either are really intrigued (they ask me tons of questions like an interrogation), or they're suspicious of me not liking them or being some kind of psycho. I'm the nicest person I know until I get annoyed.

it goes from super extroverted talkative normie who can be pretty funny and occasionally annoying because of anxiety and practice to silent depressed autist at a drop of a dime because of aspergers. help plz

>>12945776
I go from super extroverted, talkative weird kid who can be pretty funny and annoying because of anxiety to a depressed, silent, autist at a drop of a hat because of aspergers. help me

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>>12946832
fucking captcha told me it failed sorry for double posting

Cynical. Bad with people. I sabotage every possible connection with people because I can't handle it. The way I talk is really declarative and literal, so all in all it's like a form of learned and practiced autism.

I'm a girl, I'm shy and clumsy as fuck but I'm hard headed and independent yet kind to everyone.... my humor consists of satire mostly and I keep to myself but do my own thing in public. I'm an artist but i fucking hate art hoes... I just try to be as genuine and fun to talk to as possible but i come off as aloof and bored looking

Compulsively sarcastic way too often
Don't (can't) take things seriously when Im around people for some reason and it fucks me way too often
Loner most of the time

I'm quiet & keep to myself. When people speak to me, I tend to nervously laugh after every statement, although I otherwise carry the conversation pretty well. I've noticed that a lot of what I say goes over peoples' heads for some reason. Somebody once told me that nobody ever understands what I'm talking about because of my choice of words.

>>12945776
Generally speaking, I've always sorta presented myself in a sort of femmey way for a guy, it fit well into my identity when I was a kid. I bought nice clothes and wore them because it broke the ice for a lot of conversations in high school. I've always been quiet in a sort of 'sit still and look pretty' sort of way, and I've had a hard time coming to terms with my redneck upbringing, I guess, but I've started feeling like there's some good lessons I could learn from simple living.

For now, still figuring things out, I guess. I latch pretty hard onto my older boyfriends because they're often a guiding hand in getting me to think for myself, which is something I have trouble with.

I guess I don't really know myself yet, to put it succinctly.

im horrible with women in person due to insecurity with my physical appearance. used to drink a lot to get over it.
im smart enough to manipulate guys in person and women over text because i can anticipate reactions/replies and tailor my words accordingly.
my self-consciousness makes me a mean drunk
im an information horder, constantly stockpiling ways to improve myself without ever actually doing it. i have no real hobbies or interests
im pretty well liked, at least i think, i have a lot of guy friends who tend to think im the funniest person in the room. i can rip on people and take getting ripped on pretty well. i handle things in mature ways because it always seems to make me come out on top/save face like an adult.
i procrastinate a bunch, but its dependent on how depressed i am. im smart enough to be good at my job and i have a good work ethic.
i watch so much television that it all blurs together and i cant remember any of it despite having watched so much its exhausting.
i have video games because i used to play them a bunch in college but now i have some i havent even touched yet i keep buying them.
i hate my family.
overall im nice to strangers and give everyone a chance. i tend to analyze things from every point of view which gives me perspective and empathy but it also allows me to make rational choices (very important in my job).

overall i think im very weird, lonely, and depressed (less so now than previously as i cut drinking to once a month). however i think im good enough at covering it up that i come off as a normie. also i suck at fashion and im literally only here to get some kind of inspo for a basic wardrobe cause i grew up poor and have nothing but handmedown taste.

>>12946140
This is quite literally me.

>>12946980
Because it's a super vague description, yo

>>12946988
True, but I'm a pretty literal person.

im one of those smart but lazy ppl. was heading toward Stanford. but started having horrible stomach issues(everything including water made me sick) and my fucking gI diagnosed me having crohns which lead to a bunch for camera's up my ass and throat while losing 60 lbs in 4 months. turns out no Crohn's but he labeled me as having ibd(aka he doesn't know what to do)
im 5'11 123 lbs and eat fucking blueberries and rice all day.

anyway, my personality is a mix of being nice because I'm lucky to be "healthy" some days., but I have this horrible cynicism inside me now because of whats the point of even trying when my stomach could flare up and I'm back being bed-ridden all day. only positive about this is that I really don't care much for other strangers feelings/opinions about me. Suppose to start uni in my town but I can't be arsed to pick a major now. or even study
fml

>>12946047
make friends from the groups you hate, if you think that's impossible then you might be too far gone and probably need therapy.

>>12947007
have you looked into resetting you gut ecosystem? its sketchy but ive met a guy that had to go through it. basically you take pills to kill everything, then take more pills to recolonize with a balanced ecosystem.

>>12947015
sounds experimental. i'll look into it
thx lad

>>12947026
just do your research and ask a doctor if its something that may help. your gut ecosystem is an unique as you are because its been developing inside you since you were an infant. so killing everything would be wiping out (in my case 26) years of naturally evolved ecosystem/bacteria. good luck bro.

I'm quiet around strangers often because as a kid I was considered a bit weird (although i've mostly grown out of it). Despite that I'd say I have a lot of friends and acquaintances who I can be myself with. I grew up too sensitive for the world (god bless my mother's christian heart) and as a result got hit kind of hard by reality. This usually means I alternate between accidentally being an asshole because it's what i've learned you need to act like and being shocked that people would ever lack the conscience to do some things or make some jokes. All in all people perceive me as profound and usually relaxed although if they know me more they see i can get heated on some issues. I overvalue human connection too often despite the fact i'm overly critical of many people. It's painfully edgy and embarassing to say but i'm pretty assured of my above average intelligence (even though IQ is bullshit it's a decent vague guide). I like philosophy and this introspection has been a little too therapeutic lmao.

On the surface I'm very outgoing, flamboyant, kind, and happy-go-lucky. I'm always out with friends and when I interact with strangers they open up to me quickly and they take a deep interest in me. I'm always smiling. I tend to tell everyone I love them whether they're friends or someone I just met. I sleep around but make sure my partners feel respected. When people talk about me they always say how loving and approachable I am.

In actuality I hate everyone. I'm always angry. When I speak to others, I can only think about how much I despise them and want to hurt them. There is no one close to me, I have no best friends, I don't speak to my family. I've had long term partners before but I've never loved or emphasized with them. I've always ended up cheating on them and breaking up with them.

I dress well so I can feel superior to everyone else. I thrive off compliments and admiration so I continue to interact with the world I hate so I can get love and attention even if its superficial because I know no one would ever love me for the person I really am.

I'm very lonely.

>>12945941
>Your

>>12947037
yeah thx. at this point i'd do anything to eat shit besides rice and potatoes

>>12946379
are you a weed smoker?

Fucking loner with no friends. Sees movies alone. I present myself as “please look at my clothes, not at me!”

>>12946733
Your personality sounds similar to mine. Hopefully I can continue to progress into not caring about what I think people think.

>>12947043
>I dress well to feel superior
I do this too. A compliment from anyone makes my day.

>>12946973
This is me except still in college

>>12946912
Like what kind of words? Give some examples.

>>12945776
Calm, cool, and collected

When I'm drunk, faggot asshole

>>12947065
same

>>12947043
congrats you're a sociopath

I'm starting to become increasingly bitter, tactful and calculated. I've been too nice, too naive my entire life. I've got out of my way not to seem intimidating, to be comforting and so on. That ends NOW.

>>12945776
I'm disarmingly nice to everyone because I'm quite shy and it's the easiest way to make people warm up to me, and thus me to them. I'm also dishonest and a bit of a flake, desu.

>>12945776
different, bold, personable (but in a subtle way)

I'm very "out-there" but kind of like to act the normie part because most would find me a tad off putting otherwise.

>>12946910
ugh nothing worse that overly disingenuous people. who are never serious

>>12947069
I don't really know. I wasn't given much more of an explanation outside of that.

I'm authentic, respectful and brazen. I have a sense of humor that very few people appreciate or understand. I belong to no groups, but have friends in many different places.

>>12946047
why do you hate them? You must first REALLY answer this.

>>12947042
>>12947321 here, I like you.

I am drawn towards intelligent, good hearted people who are grounded in reality.

>>12947043
interesting person. By the way, I hate those people who say "Omg I love you, lol" to randoms.

>>12945803
what everyone should strive to be

irl /pol/ shitposter

>>12945794
>>12946638

> year of our lord 1999+16
>still being autistic

drop that shit lmaooooo

>>12945794
>>12946638

>year of our lord 1999+18
>still being autistic

drop that shit lmaooo

>>12945776
Really the only interaction I have with others is at university.
I present myself as a very quiet and kind person. I don't speak very often, and when I do its usually quiet and soft but articulate. I go out of my way to help other people in my classes, but usually only when I see a potential benefit for myself.
I'm always friendly to everybody, however in my opinion, not out of pure kindness but out of weakness.
I am afraid of people disliking me, or people being hurt by something I say or do, so I reserve almost all of my true feelings, and they fester inside.

I am horribly judgemental and overly cynical and negative. I have no friends and am extremely private. Again, the privacy stems from my own weakness, as I am afraid of letting anyone get close to me, including my own family.
I don't feel a connection to other people at all which makes me feel constant despair, and years of this pain has made me bitter.
I have only ever had close 3 friends in my 20 years, however I severed ties with all 3 of them. I'm not sure why, but I can instantly drop a close friend overnight if I find they have become boring.

I interact with nobody outside my uni classes. I judge people entirely on their attractiveness, height, weight and style, and care about nothing more than my personal appearance.
My days feel endless at this point, like continuous loops with no respite. I have no recollection of what physical affection feels like, and all pleasure in my life is shrouded beneath heavy clouds of self hatred
I'm very lonely

>>12946699
Harold Hunter I see, too bad Zoo York got eaten up by corporate

ntelligent, nihilistic, and with a wicked sense of humor.

>>12945949
>>12945799
Hergé wrote in French though, I'm not sure how good the translations are but I imagine it's pretty different.

>>12946037
I'm brown so a part of the ethnic minority
And i guess it's not as bad as it seems
I'm aware of your choice of words
I think you may have had bad experiences with blacks or browns and no doubt there are dimwits in every race
I mean i hope you can make friends with some intelligent people of diverse ethnicities but even if you can't, unless you don't act upon your discriminatory instincts it's fine

>>12947506
They meant the Herge-approved English translations, like the other anon posted

>>12947546
Ah, didn't know the translations were Hergé approved, carry on.

>>12945917
have you ever tried a psychedelic in the proper set and setting? it can be life transforming in a good way.

>>12945776
I behave and present myself like I couldn't care less about anything other than having a good time. It's much easier than informing people on what's wrong with with them and how they should fix it, which is my favorite thing to fantasize about.

>>12946948
>I've had a hard time coming to terms with my redneck upbringing

Been there, down to the part where I want to dress way more femme than would be socially acceptable in my hometown. The hardest part for me was realizing that couldn't just "be myself" by moving to the city and that there's just a different set of rules you are expected to follow. Just yesterday I made a mistake of showing an art-hoe a picture of the 10-point buck my dad bagged. I'm used to people being impressed by stuff like that, but she actually physically recoiled from my phone :/

like 9s in the last chapter of nier automata

cheerfull, funny and upbeat so that people will like to be around me.

>>12946155
w r e c k e d

I sort of have a hard time telling how I act around other people because I spend most of my time alone. In public I don't really talk to anybody or look at anybody if I don't have to. It's not something I actively think about but sometimes I notice I'm doing it. I tend to be very honest and literal which can be good or bad depending on the situation. When someone asks me a question and they're looking for a specific answer I'm bad at picking up on it. Like when a friend asked me if I thought they would be good at something they were interested in but had never really tried doing, I just answered "I don't know" because I honestly had no idea. Of course they were looking for encouragement but that totally went over my head. I do that kind of thing a lot and don't notice it until later. I think about everything in really technical terms and constantly get these sort of 3D diagram images in my head when I'm doing something or looking at something or just thinking about something, even if it's not something technical, like a relationship I have with another person. It's like I can see things from more than one perspective at a time. I honestly thought everybody did that to some degree until I told someone about it.
I guess I'm pretty unaware of how I behave.

i try to be kind, i hate my life. i come off as a nervous wreck

>tfw not /ef-ae/

I inherited my dad's (and his dad's etc) terse hard-headed personality, but I managed to create a more sociable persona for the benefits it has. Now I'm trying to tone it down since it doesn't feel genuine and I don't need it as much after school and abandoning a job to become self-employed.

As for physical behavior, I'm fairly ungraceful and lumbering, since I come from a long line of oafs.

>>12945776
depressed, vacant, spontaneous, dead, wise(ass), too intelligent for my own happiness, too lazy and destructed to succeed

>>12947957
wow anon you described me

Quiet and serious on the outside, but if someone talks to me they'll see I'm really awkward and insecure. At this point in my life I don't have close irl friends, and won't have them for a long time, since I rarely go out or talk to strangers when I do.
My interest in self improvement and fashion is probably an attempt to attract more interesting people that I can relate to, but I mostly see myself retreating to the countryside and living the rest of my days making art.

I try to draw as little attention to myself in real life as possible but I am not really fa so...

>>12945776
I just stay in my own lane.
I don't really like drawing attention to myself.

I was diagnosed to be on the autism spectrum

>>12945803
gold
how do you dress senpai?

>>12948246
Jeans and a plain tee, white tennis shoes, often throw a dark overcoat on top. Now it's winter and very cold I'll often wear a nice warm fleece I have and grow my beard out, which isn't as fashionable as the former but it keeps my cosy at the pub with my friends, and on the long cold evenings.

I have 0 friends so i have no idea. i act like a normal person in public
jewish internet tests say im intj but it's almost all 51% to 49% in each category

I'm a schizoid hermit and only go out at night and don't talk to people.

>>12945776
I fucking don't know. I like being kind and easy-going with everybody because I fear being hated or rejected. I often think I'm a lesser being compared to others although I really shouldn't. it's just the social status thing that gets me or when I see others have deeper relationships with their friends or colleagues than I could possibly have at this point in time.
oh well...

narcissism: the thread

>>12948803
this isn't the face rate thread

>>12948803
yeah, partly it's true, but not all responses.

>>12945776
smugly angsty, and pent up
alsougly

>>12947979
I like this post

>>12945776
How the fuck do I get hair like that? I want that slight waviness. It's thick as fuck but also straight so it just sticks out uncontrollably even when longish.

i stutter and im always quiet when im not being mean for no reason

Quiet, mumbling, no eye contact.

A normal human bean.

I don't talk much at all unless I'm around one of the handful of people I really trust.

A lot of conversation bores me to be honest so I keep to myself unless someone has something interesting to say. In that case I can be a little chatty.

I'm interested in art, politics and drugs mostly. I follow a lot of underground hiphop these days but so does literally everybody who graduated high school in the last 2 years so children are the only people I have common ground with there

>>12948803

what board did you think you were on?

>>12945776
My personality has never changed and it should have.
I'm the same now at almost 31 than I was at 14.
I've always been the crazy friendly mad joker, and I still am because I'm a fucking manchild.
I dress like I did at 14 because I was always cool.

>>12949253
u r me

>>12946905
Literally me, but I'm a guy.

>>12947052
no, I have a really high tolerance so I have to get absolutely high as fuck or not feel anything, which isn't something I could do regularly

I drink a lot though, too much 2bh

>>12945818
Fuck Ralph lol worst character on the sopranos by far

Boring and I present myself as a pesudo intellectual

Not on purpose tho I’m just really stupid

>>12945926
how are you able to probe so deeply into my existence

>>12946737
what is this gif from it reminds me of me

>>12945776
My self image is awful.

I honestly couldn't really tell you how people perceive me. I have no real sense of self. I was depersonalized and dissociated for almost all of my teenage years. I was in an existential crisis for my entire adolescence. I'm 21 now.

Some of the things people have said about me :

>good sense of style : I regularly get complimented on my style, clothes, walk
>funny : my girlfriend thinks I'm a funny guy and so does one of my close friends, generally get laughs when I'm with friends
>serious : I've had girls refer to me as serious and reserved before
>brooding : get this one a lot from friends, also from girlfriend. She thinks it's hot though. I've been told I look unapproachable and pissed off when really I'm a very polite guy and would love nothing more than to make new friends
>confident : told I'm confident in my looks and intelligence, but also that I don't have a lot of self esteem when it comes to others so I come across as a bit of a lone wolf, as I feel like people don't like me which often isn't true (again, girlfriends words)
>quiet / pensive : can occasionally just go for a long time without saying anything in groups of people
>calm : friends have called me the dalai lama and other names like the monk before, i don't really get flustered or angry about anything, always in control in public situations
>polite / mannerly : mainly from family relatives, they comment on my good manners and politeness
>cynical : have been told by friends that I tend to be very negative and see the worst in everything, I'd have to agree
>strong / driven : my father says I have a strong personality and that I know how to stand up for myself
>awkward : I can be a bit socially awkward on occasion, generally I'm a bit too serious when I meet new people and it takes me a while to chill out and let my guard down
>kind / affectionate / considerate : told by my gf, aunt, mother

This is all stuff that has been said to me by others,

>>12949632
cont

as for how I feel, I'm pretty depressed and fed up with life. I had a shitty, abusive upbringing with a bipolar mom and narcissist dad. I don't really believe my girlfriend actually cares about me that much even though she tells me she loves me and that she's mad about me. I broke up with her once and she rang me 42 times that night, every 5 minutes until 4 am. I feel like it's just because I'm tall, handsome and I have a good future in front of me financially.

Honestly she's a nice girl, but she's insecure about being with me as she knows how much attention I get. All I want is a kind, intelligent qt to share my life with though, I'm not interested in sleeping around with lots of girls.

All I want to do for a while is to eat healthy food, get 10 hours of sleep a night, plenty of sunlight and a lot of physical exercise (I'd like to bulk up from 155lbs at 6'3). I'm Irish and the weather is so depressing here. I'd like to live in Thailand for a few months. come back a tanned shredded god, but most importantly a healthy and happy one.

i present myself way more optimistic than i really feel. i know my friends are depressed or have issues in their life so i just try to be happier so that i can talk to them and make them happy. it leaves me leaning on crutches like weed and clothes (buying them to look good and feel happy, selling them and making money, thus making me happy again) to get on with my own problems but i don't think that i really have it that bad. i have a job, im doing what i want and im losing weight and working out. i think since getting into fashion i have become more of a vain and vapid person, or become self aware of how i've always been. and i act like i can have an input in any type of conversation when i really can't. i act like a bit of an autist to my friends that are girls as well. like i bring up anti feminist shit and misogynist viewpoints a lot when they bring up the wage gap, third wave feminism ect ect and i look back and realize im an awful person for it. i feel like i have a lot of different faces with so many people that if all my freind groups were to merge they would all probably hate me.

but hey i've got you guys to laugh at me if i post in waywt :'^)

>>12946905
>this entire post

I close myself off a lot I guess. I'm always silent, I try not to show emotion or say anything because I am worried I might embarrass myself or say the wrong thing at the right time. I've always been really bad socially but lately, it's gotten worse I feel like. I've been trying to make what I can of this and putting on this aloof, "cool guy" persona kinda like Spike from Bebop. None of it works though because I'm super clumsy and ditzy. The only thing that I do that actually fits in with this persona is that I space out a lot usually daydreaming about dumb fantasy stuff or things that I want.

>>12949849
me

I guess I'll vent a bit more because I feel kind of self-indulgent right now. I really wish I were incredibly attractive or something to draw some more attention to me. I wish I had a lot of friends and had a good community to fall back on during hard times. I don't know why I struggle so hard with engaging with people. Whenever I have the desire to talk to some girl or guy I want to be friends with/muster up the courage to do so I get clammy and shakey. If I let myself get in over my head I'll start sweating a lot. I'm about to leave hs and I've started sitting in my car instead of eating lunch because I'm too afraid of sitting alone in the lunchroom

>>12945776
Cole Sprouse is so fucking beautiful. I think god made two of him specifically because the design was too good to only use once.

arrogant, rude and dressed in four figure all black clothing

>>12946832
This is me

>>12945941
please be trolling


if serious only newyorkers and low class normies think highly of that jew infested gentrified shit of a city

no original artistic though could come out of it now other than shitty modern art statues and installations that no one wants to see

>>12946733
please stop spreading the "whatever you think people will judge you on they dont care, they have more problems in their lifes!" on fa of all places

people decide weather they like someone or not subconciously, if you "dont care" about flossing because you think brushing is enough, you are likely to find someone who can get awhiff of your bad breath, the same is with dirty, old, ugly clothes; lack of taste also unconciously speaks of lack of intelligence

I'm what every "nice guy" pretends to be. Most people are skeptical and suspicous about me when i first meet them because they think im just being nice to get something. They always act so surprised when it turns out im just a genuinely good fella to everyone. All my ex's keep telling me that it's hard to be with other guys because i was so GENUINELY sweet, which puzzles me a bit because i just do me i don't put any effort into being that way. Because of this though i find myself being used like a bit of a doormat often, but lately i've been growing more of a spine which is cool.

>>12950983
>All my ex's keep telling me that it's hard to be with other guys because i was so GENUINELY sweet,
yeah i think they're lying to you to my man...

>>12950986
Probably. But i've seen their track records so it wouldn't surprise me if they weren't

>>12950992
yeah but if they left you for some other guy. it isn't hard on them if you get my gist..

>>12950999
I left them

>>12951003
oh. nvm you pimp

Rarely open up about myself to anyone, makes me feel weak and exposed so I hold everything inside although this doesn't bother me as I feel like my problems are my own and no one elses.

One of my best friends was drunk and going through our friends groups saying stuff about each person, got to me and said "anon, anons a fucking mystery"

As I dont open up about myself I have to rely on focusing on the other person but when I cant be fucked doing that I usually just make stuff up and play it off as a joke which seems to make people laugh

>>12951031
>"anon, anons a fucking mystery"
yup, ive gotten this one too

I was born fully mute, communicate through my girlfriend interpreting sign for me. Avoid eye contact and conversation with people unless absolutely necessary. Is this /fa/?

>>12946638
Me too, but I'm high functioning, just can't really talk to people or interact with them

>>12951250
Continuing I guess. I have nobody IRL I could call a friend other than my gf, I can’t relate to my peers at all due to homeschooling and accelerated academic schedule. I can’t decide whether I’m stupid and just read a lot or if everyone is dumb. I’m caught between self loathing and looking down on everyone else. I look 14 or 15 at age 19 and I resent people for treating me like a kid. I was homeschooled alone and my tutor was sexually abusive, then my mother was physically and emotionally abusive. My dad was absent constantly and emotionally distant and I don’t know how to relate to people. Adult men scare me and I can’t hide that. I have to force myself to laugh when something is funny because I’m not used to displaying my emotions.

>>12951031
>Rarely open up about myself to anyone, makes me feel weak and exposed so I hold everything inside although this doesn't bother me as I feel like my problems are my own and no one elses.
>One of my best friends was drunk and going through our friends groups saying stuff about each person, got to me and said "anon, anons a fucking mystery"

could describe me as well
though I've been trying to open up more, I don't really like the idea of coming off as cold and distant which I probably do, it would be so much better to be warm and sincere

>>12947069
>>12947315
irrumatio?
photoplethysmograph?
stylite?

Narcissistic, pretentious and misogynistic but I get on well with people and people like me for it, I don't know why, I present myself very formally, I speak well and have good manners.

I'm quiet and reserved most of the time but my friends think I'm a complete sweetheart. I don't see why since I'm a cynic who just keeps it to themselves most of the time.

I'm in healthcare so it's hard to be /fa/ in scrubs.

>>12945917

tired and confused
few emotions

>>12949520
Yeah even when knowing that everyone and their mum hates him I liked Ralph, probably speaks volumes about my character

>>12945776
Where can I get a jacket like in OP's pic, but for men?

>>12947042
me minus the last two sentences, evaluating your overall intelligence is dumb

Currently I dont even know. I work a minimum wage job and shit.

Saving money to buy fragrance bottles but most importantly planning out what and where im gonna get my new wardrobe. I live in a rural area so theres nothing around and being effay in any sense of the word almost seems useless.

smug self obessed faggit

>>12945776
People tell me I'm one of the most laid back, easy going people they know. But in reality I'm always anxious and worrying about trivial stuff, picking up my phone when it someone calls me is a whole ordeal for me.

I like to think im laid back. I dont talk at all to peopke i dont know but i wont shut the fuck up with my friends. I dress the way i like, even if that means just dressing up to go grocery shopping. I play my 3DS in public. My boss says i always look pissed off but im a very happy person. Im 188cm but slightly overweight so i usally have to be cautious about sudden movements because i tend to scare people when i rush. Im reserved when i want to, but i know how to have my own fun.

I don't talk to people unless i need something from them (short of 3 or 4 genuine friends i like to hang out with, and a few "friends" i talk to in uni) which makes people think I'm a narcissist (which i am slightly, with the built in inadequacy issues and everything).

turns out im attractive so i have that going for me if i ever want a girlfriend/boipussy to creampie

>>12953822
be my bf

>>12953871
SC: c4product

>>12950982
I was not referring to having poor hygiene and habits or dressing in filthy, unwashed clothes. I was more leaning towards the fact that many people here want to wear something that they think others will think is outlandish or weird. Generally, it is in their head though, most people won't think twice if you wear the shredded blue jeans with boro stitch and Navajo patches, or any other strange thing you'll see in the cop or not thread.

I generally keep to myself and kind of try to stay out of peoples way, but at the same time I try to be kind as well. You'll probably tell me that's "beta" or whatever, but I stick up for and defend myself if I have to. I'm not a supreme gentleman or any of that stuff, I like to think I'm a decent dude who should maybe be a bit more assertive but feels comfortable just kinda observing and throwing in a single comment here and there in conversation.

>>12946737
So true it hurts

>>12953700
Artist name?

I try to just be chill at all times. Even when shit is going down. I hate "That 70's Show", but it has absolutely the best advice ever on how to be "cool".

When you're put in situations where you don't know what to say, responses like "that's cool", "naw man" or "whatever" are the best defaults. Don't try to be witty or have a snappy comeback to everything like a character in a fucking TV show.

I try not to joke too much, but I'm not dry either. And I always try to move onto the next joke before the last one gets stale.

I think watching Cowboy Bebop as a kid I consciously or subconsciously molded myself after Spike. Ive got a similar hairstyle, 6ft 3 with long ass legs and thin but muscular physique. Most importantly I ended up being very laid back. In public I dont make too much conversation with people I kinda prefer to just observe the things happening around me. When I do I'm very pleasant and smile a lot. Around friends its more of the same but I let myself loose a little. I try to make them laugh when I can and I tease them a lot. My humor comes from watching a shit ton of standup with Bill Burr and Patrice Oneal probably having the biggest impact on me. My worst feature is that Its difficult to become good friends with people rather than just an acquaintance. Like I mentioned before I like to tease my good friends a lot so when Im with people I don't know too well I tone that and my humor down quite a bit to avoid conflict. As a result I may come off as a little boring or inoffensive. Idk. Despite this I like to believe others are better off for having meet me rather than the opposite.

I don't behave myself to try to be fashionable, I actually don't care about behaving myself whatsoever.

>>12945917
>i will have my magnum opus

I like you

I try to be the man in control. I'm lonely, emotionless, know it all(but only when asked). People always consider me to be the "smart chill dude"

I'm really polite and kind to new people but if you get to know me well enough I act like an asshole towards you. Not sure why, I'm sure there's some psychological reasoning behind it. Never had a problem making friends or having friends leave me but I definitely treat people however I want and it usually comes off as asshole-ish.

>>12945823
Reddit is that way-->

>>12957019
The irony here

>>12957023

Cant be bothered to do some big write up but what's common is i'm always told I look sad but in reality i'm quite happy in that moment. I dont know why this happens and I really only notice it when girls say it.

>>12949650
I wish i knew you outside of 4chan. I'd like to think we'd get along

I'm >>12957253

Is there an /fa/ discord ? Would be nice to interact with you guys sometimes

I usually spend my time watching retro cartoons on .5 speed with inverted colors and with Chinese subtitles
If it's raining I might go and sit beside a bus stop and pretend I'm waiting for a bus while sitting on the ground and smoking a unlit cigarette

>>12948425
i guess that's why they say that all the crazy people come out at night

>>12945803
I didn't come here to feel

fuck, how did everything go so wrong

i look apathetic as all hell but i'm polite when talked to. i only get 4 hours of sleep per night at most so i tend to be kind of unfocused and clumsy. fairly average in looks and intelligence, nothing remarkable.

>>12949650
We are almost exactly the same down to the height and weight, except for the strong/driven part.
Also I live in a country where the weather is sunny all the time, I honestly would prefer Irish weather

>>12945776
A normal suburban American male

>>12946737
God I've screwed myself over so many times doing that in convos. One of my roommates just aggressively calls me out on it at this point.

>>12957360
most people that walk the streets at night on a week day are trouble desu

>>12949628
MDE world peace

>>12945812
You're on /fa/

>>12946757
if you're wondering, the reason nobody is responding is because being this interested in yourself is a bit ugly.

idk lol

>>12945776
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AUBl34lum-s

i come accross as very eccentric irl, very skittish like a crack head, or very very dull

>>12958927
cool Rick dude

>>12958933
thanks man

Unavailable, I think sums up how I appear. I've lost most desire for interaction.
On the rare occasion my personality has an audience, people don't enjoy the company.

>>12957253
i really want those jeans and shoes

Decently popular, big network but only a few close ones. Usually get myself too involved in other peoples problems. Apathic and playful.

>>12945776
Well, according to my siblings I'm a huge dick and if you asked my coworkers about me they'd say I'm weird. Can't argue with them, I don't like me neither.

Been told I'm easy to talk to. I'm an empathic person who likes a lot of levity in conversation with strangers and acquaintances. However, I'm pretty disillusioned and jaded with the world around me, so I kind of walk around with a general sadness, but I live for the small things in life I guess.

Idk dude I don't carry myself in any way specifically, I just live life day to day and try and learn and observe. I don't think I like to portray any sort of image, other than one that isn't negative and grating.

Apathetic, bored, avoidant personality, somewhat enigmatic, have commitment issues, depressed

I feel like I'm constantly hopping from social circle to social circle, job to job, school to school, etc.

Just an average guy with vanilla taste and want to improve in fashion seeing as I mostly wear a generic T-shirt and a grey hoodie over it. Advice would be appreciated though.

>>12960259
hi me

>>12945776
Quiet
Sits in the back
Always keeps to myself

Everyone probably thinks I'm some psycho weirdo

>>12960259
hi me
how u doing?

>>12960288
>>12960346
Nothing much. Staying at my parent's house until I decide to either get a job, or go back to school. But honestly, I think suicide is probably the best option.

In the meantime, I've been playing roguelikes and browsing 4chan. How about you?

Honestly don't know. I don't understand how people can just have a single "baseline" personality, I act differently with basically everybody and it's actually really disorienting. Some friends know me as being pretty brazen and goofy and unashamed, while with others I'm more hesitant and thoughtful, while with acquaintances I'm pretty distant and aloof and with family I'm some weird autistic mix of it all. I fucking hate it, makes it feel like I can never actually get close to anyone.

>>12945812
>>12958852

there's nothing but /fa/ggots here

>>12947043
I am your inversion. Except still lonely.

>>12960456
I do this too, acting differently with certain people just like this. Is there a name for his phenomena ? i dont notice other people doing this, maybe its because they hide it so well.

>>12947043
>this is exactly how attractive women do it to.
congrats annon

>>12945776
a little standoffish, but generally affable when engaged socially, and professional when engaged at work

>>12957272
We should make one

>>12960379
death metal has consumed my life and am thinking of buying a bass for dicking around

>>12946973
you sound like a faggot

I've been posting in this shithole for nearly a decade and I think this might be the single most embarrassing thread I've seen

Quiet

>>12945803
mirin and feelin

>>12961389
>spent nearly a decade here
>THIS thread is the most embarrassing thing you've seen
This shit hole has things that are much much much much much much more embarrassing then this
Keep lurking newfag

>>12957369
it's not too late anon, too many people give up on themselves. It's never that serious.

>>12961362
Why :(

>>12945776

I'm very explosive and full of energy but only when i'm alone but as soon as i'm with people who i'm unfamiliar with i become a shell, like i'm unplugged, turn off, all the energy's gone.

I do not understand myself.

>>12945943
This.
This is me.
Why do I have to be such a dick?

Almost unbearably arrogant, but generally helpful.

>>12947417
Literally same

>>12945803
a human carhartt jacket

i smile a lot i guess

Depends how well you know me.
Anywhere between brooding suicidal/existential faggot
To full blown physical shitpost
To arrogant fucking dick that thinks he's too good for everyone and is basically just a huge hypocrite with a messiah complex.

>>12961928
Oh shit thats me

>>12960288
nice dog

Apparently my friends think of me as being a funny and open-minded guy, but somewhat excentric and absent-minded.

I kinda dress a bit preppish, I guess. My friends occasionally joke that I dress like a teacher - tucked-in button-ups, leather shoes, occasional pattern sweater, sports coat etc. I'm bi yet everyone always seems surprised when they learn so I guess I must look/act masculine despite that.

I basically would wear a suit and tie 24/7 if it wasn't completely out of place for most occasions desu

I'm very self-aware, yet I can't stop being goofy. I usually get along with most people, but sometimes I have to really try my hardest to take things serious and think before talking. But in my mind I'm always in my feelings.

I'm also an easily impressible teenager, and im too lazy. Also i might have BDD. I avoid mirrors like the pest, I'm not even convinced im ugly it's just that i can't stop thinking about my flaws.

Currently saving for rhino, fat grafting, and possibly double jaw surgery + fillers

pic unrelated, except shes my crush forever

Pretty quiet until you get to know me and I really like you. Even then if I let anything slip out about me personally I’ll pull away and be distant again. I’m an asshole arbitrarily because it makes me less of a pushover, so I learned a long time ago to say no to people.

I’m personable and can talk to everyone but 95% of the time I’m trying to figure a way out of the conversation.

>>12945776
I work as an assistant in pathology. So I rarely talk with someone at work. Otherwise only meet up with some friends. Like my job though, it's comfy and pretty well paid.
Wear CdG and Undercover off-duty btw.

>actively shit on everything and anything within sight
>Hasn't experienced happiness since 1738
>Shows up to class high

>>12962538
>Currently saving for rhino, fat grafting, and possibly double jaw surgery + fillers
What? Why? No one needs that much work.

>>12961398

nah. This is the singular least self-aware thread I've ever seen. This is like a quarter step away from an unironic reiteration of the "edgy, wicked sense of humor" meme. At least all the trap threads, child porn, racism etc. has some kind of element of self-reflexiveness

I used to be a stoner shut in who would go days without speaking a word but since I stopped smoking/masturbating and started working out I've been much more sociable. In conversation I usually stutter a lot, laugh at inappropriate times, and make too much eye contact. I don't have too close of friends but people seem to want me to show up often. Everyone I know has described me as a bit of a kook but friendly and dependable. I'm pretty content with how I turned out

>>12962443
Idk if my reply went through bc mobile is cancer
But ya. It's like a really gay onion. The layers just get worse as you go down until you get to the version of yourself that you don't even show your family. Only one, maybe two of your closest friends see that side of you because it's just a little ball of simultaneous apathy and hate that's fuelled by nothing but cigarettes, pent up sexual frustration, and deep seeded CrippilingDepression.exe

>>12945818
>Ralph in The Sopranos

i would hate you lol

>>12945917
nelson yang is that you

>>12945776
im pretty loud when im goofing around with my friends, but in other situations and calm down and try to act less stupid

i have a decent amount of friends, but not much time to go around and meet up, as a kid i wasn't able to go outside super often because of swimming schedules plus school and other shit but i think im alright

>>12945776
w2c this jacket?

awkward/autistic, show little emotion, monotone voice. kind of pathetic but i get better at talking to people once ive known them for a while

i want to die

>>12945776
I try to be someone you want to be friends with no matter who you are. I try to mold my personality to fit whoever I happen to be speaking to, if I don't care about making friends I'll put on a respectable and intelligent persona that is all business, efficiently completing the task at hand (buying groceries, not with friends, at a doctors appointment, etc.)

Most people I know are normies so I can easily blend in by being sociable and friendly, when I meet a autist or a similarly maladapted person I can pull that side of me forward and try to relate to them and get on their level, I've never seen it not work, most people seem to like me when I'm not suffering from my own internal conflicts or their personality just really doesn't mesh with my own, which has only happened once to my knowledge. That person still enjoyed my company afterward and I was fucked in the head at the time, so I bet if I saw them again I could be someone they respect.

>>12957019
embarassing newfag

A hopeless romantic with diarrhea of the mouth. I'm told im very attractive until I open my mouth.

>>12953933
lol ruthless

>>12955699
I love Bill Burr and Patrice, they also have had an impact on me humor wise along with the rest of the Opie and Anthony gang.

I wish I could come up with funny shit to say as consistently and well put as they do but they're masters of their craft.

>>12945776
I'm quiet and don't talk much but can hold conversations and come off as normal and even interesting in them... I've been told by strangers I'm scary but on the other hand people seem drawn to me and like to open up... The last two years I haven't felt like myself at all and have been more of a cringelord, I've always been a bit edgy tho... I was reading old convos with a girl and I felt more wincelord that cringe but to be fair I was losing my mind at the time she didn't seem to care tho, made her laugh a bunch I've been told I'm funny

I'm really quiet in public, but loud and rowdy with my friends, I insult people jokingly because I feel inadequate, but deep down I just want the best for people. I'm very vain, I always study myself when I look in any reflective object like a mirror or a car window. If I'm on adderall for my adhd I speak as quiet as a mouse and if I'm off of it I make regular puns and jokes. I'm pretty sure everyone who meets me thinks I'm on the spectrum. Maybe I am.

I do nearly everything I do for female attention, I've molded my body and my mind to be as attractive as possible just so I can hear girls say they love me. Of course I could never lie to them and say it back, I'm not good enough to love them, I'm manipulating and a terrible person. I'm always lonely and nothing can fix that. I'm lonely around friends, and even more lonely around lovers. Sometimes I wonder if the personality I show people is a result of me taking in the personalities of those around me. I wonder if I have an actual personality.

>>12966321
shidd son. sounds like me

>>12961840
kek

>>12967024
I don't think you're on the spectrum, the internet and society is just turning us into hyper-aware freaks. There's a reason we weren't meant to eat forbidden fruit, it makes us inhumane. Past humans were just fucked up in a different way, typically violence and filth.

>>12967031
Damn you sound angsty as fuck everyone is at that point once they break their autopilot self-awareness which is easy to do with how surreal and personal memes and relationships have become. You're depersonalizing yourself and your ability to be intimate with people it seems. I suggest therapy or at least researching into it, it feels much better to feel even though it's more...what's the term, vulnerability? Better than the dysphoria of the modern times.

I try to act respectful and friendly towards anyone I meet unless they don't return the favor, then I just ignore them. I try to reach out to people who need help whilst trying(trying is the key word) to keep my self-esteem and self-worth intact. Also I want to be able to look back at my life and say to myself: "I am proud of what I did there."
>tl;dr
I Try to act like a nice and decent person, but not a "nice guy"

My anxiety and ADHD don't help me with that, so people tell me that sometimes I come off as either overpolite or just "too nice to be "just nice" "
Also being a hyperactive spastic from time to time isn't very comfy.

>>12960259
moi

I've been told to be the funny one in my group friends. I'm usually quiet but I get going once someone talks to me or I get a little drink in me. But in reality I prefer being alone; being social in short bursts. I still low-key 25% believe that my friends don't consider me one. Still plagues me I don't know why. Not a self-esteem issue

Glad most of the people in this thread are well adjusted

Me

>>12957312
10/10

>>12967617
I relate to this.

Funny guy between my friends/ppl that know me, but pretty shy and awkward til I'm comfy w people.

Spend most of my time at work or alone in my room listening to music then go out and do shows at night.

Drink too much/depressed/eating disorder/self harm fag.

Pretty good with girls, can tone up the confidence/humour and just ask a lotta questions.

>>12945917
same

>>12946737
love how that sketch cuts right through to the people who go through this kind of behaviour

genuinely changed the way i see myself in regards to what i'm actually doing in life

>>12945926
Nah, I'm just a scumbag looking for some ideas for decent clothes

>>12947043
>I can be your angle or yuor devil

>>12945803
what do you do when people are being outright dicks srs question

I'm very quiet, and often end up being forgotten or overlooked. When it comes to one to one conversations i get on well with other people, and i come off as likeable, but when i need to put myself out there or bring attention to myself i fail on every level. Because of this i struggle immensely with girls, even though people tell me im handsome. The furthest ive ever gotten with a girl is hugging and holding hands.

Im very sensetive as well, i introspect constantly and often get very worried about things. I normally have to go to sleep in order to "reset" and untangle my mind again.

I'm borderline.
On a good moment I'm gently masculine, caring, funny and charismatic, slightly arrogant but it's okay because I'm nice otherwise, the cool black guy on the dorm floor.
on a bad moment I'm extremely thin skinned, insecure and will lash out when I feel attacked by the slightest thing. Some naïve girl got her virginity taken by some douche she was helplessly infatuated with who proceeded to avoid her ever since but hangs out with her friends, I rubbed it in her face and told her that's why she's in no position to tell me anything about anything.

I'm just an asshole to push people away because I'm scared they'll hurt me or I'll hurt them.

>>12957312
I chuckled heartily

>>12968620
Fucking me. I got myself an easy job as an analyst at an office to save up money for studying and being around other people constatly fucking kills me. I don't even know what to study though because neither do I have any talents (besides being a polyglot) nor interests.
I spend whole free time alone wishing to meet at least with a friend and then always decline any offers after accepting them being afraid/unmotivated to go outside. My whole life is constatly in dream-like state. Maybe because often I can fall asleep and end up with 4-5 hours of sleeping.
I also rarely eat. I can cook but normally end up with one or two small easy-to-fix meals like salad. Not because of diet, I'm just never hungry or wishing to cook.

>>12968710
Its somewhat reassuring that i relate to lots of people in this thread, you included. Looking around at my peers it sometimes feels like everyone is having a better time than me, and that im the odd one out. I feel like i miss out a lot, but can never quite bring myself to step out of my comfort zone and change.

I have a friend who fits what you described about sleep perfectly actually - he gets around 4 or 5 hours a night and exists in a very dreamlike state. He quite often pulls out of social events at the last minute as well, for the same reasons you listed. I dont have a solution to offer, but perhaps its of some reassurance

Angry, commitment issues, and depressed but i can hide it all EXCEPT for the fact i probably SEEP fucking depression. It was never this bad before but man is it now. People thinks i'm semi-intresting and CCC but as soon as they get in my circle they see i'm damn well not. Because of the sadness it blocks a lotta my good parts like out-goingness, chillness and shit but man am I in deep

>>12961840

kekd

>>12968175
>self harm fag.
don't do this man wtf

>>12945776
Shy and awkward, but at the same time really sarcastic and funny. I'm silent but once I know someone a lot I talk all the time. I am reserved, but clingy towards my best friends.

>people firstly are scared of/intimidated by me and then they eventually like me a lot
It's always like that

>>12945776
I'm polite, but I lack respect, which shows and sometimes I get bad looks. But I swear I can strangle a bitch for being patronizing, especially if a stranger

>>12968590
If it's banter I'll give some back, join in, or just smile and ignore it. If they're being 'outright dicks' to someone else I'll tell them to stop and stand up for that person. If they're being 'outright dicks' to me I'll go somewhere else, some people are just out looking to put down someone else and I can assure you their own conscience will punish them enough later on. It's pretty simple, just always do the right thing, a sense of right and wrong is something everyone has, easy. Hope that answers your question, I can't believe this thread is still up.

All of my groups think I'm really close to some other group and I belong to them and do cool things with them when I'm not available, but usually I just sit at home and do things on the computer.

>>12947417
>I present myself as a very quiet and kind person. I don't speak very often, and when I do its usually quiet and soft but articulate.
>I am horribly judgemental and overly cynical and negative.
> I judge people entirely on their attractiveness, height, weight and style, and care about nothing more than my personal appearance.
>My days feel endless at this point, like continuous loops with no respite. I have no recollection of what physical affection feels like, and all pleasure in my life is shrouded beneath heavy clouds of self hatred
>I'm very lonely

this t b q h

Actually, I have beaten depression a few months ago, and since then I looked forward for actually being happy in life. Stood up, developed a lot of self conidence and got better with my classmates, being the funny one and quite talkative, but I would still see myself quite lonely, by not engaging in a lot of social activities and not meeting with them outside classes. A bit of cynnical and quite assertive, but would never use it to hurt someone else. Stopped hating myself. The past sometimes gets me, as I see myself with no future or no real interests, but I learned how to cope with it and these thoughts are eventually gone. I guess I wont have a gf till the end of my days, but I think its okay, given up with them some time ago as I found out most of them are shallow and not worth engaging with. Also trying to keep my head cool and not to get took by emotions, as Im trying to get more objective and rational.

I choose not to think about how I dress and act or what I say to other people. I use to, all it did was make me into a self conscious, self contradictory.

Every aspect of identity that you attach yourself to is fully created by you to maintain your ego based on bias and is completely insignificant.

>>12946140
This. This is me. Where are you, Anon, so we can link up and talk about life?

>>12969555
I'm tryna quit, and have in the past for periods of time, but recently moved to a new city and within two days of being here ended up in the hospital needing 20 stitches in my leg. I wish I never started cause I wouldn't know how good it feels and how much of a relief it can be when depressed. But I'm working on it.

>>12946757
u sound like an autistic kids oc backstory kys

I was diagnosed with brain cancer last year. Since I have no real relationships to depend on or goals or things in life to look forward to I declined a treatment, which leaves me with 5-10 years to live as my doctor said. It's pretty relieving to know you don't have long to life, now I spend whole time roaming through the city aimlessly or doing easy jobs. I rarely talk to people, more like people rarely talk to me because I'm somehow locked in this feeling of superiority due to short life time and shitting on them tirades of nihilism and misanthropy. My ex cried as she heard me rambling and said I shouldn't make decision such as this alone, in response I punched her which I still can't cope with. No I don't really have any friends left and my parents still don't know anything about the wholse situation. I have no real talents, so I guess it's better to keep things short and less bitter than spend whole life shitposting. If anyone saw Mike Leigh's "Naked", I can really relate to Johnny. It's self-destructive, but I'm not even sure why I do it, I never talk with people about feelings (or talk in general). And last month I started to get headaches and general sickness (haven't visited doc since diagnosis) which made me cry alone straight for two hours realising one day I wake up and realise this is it.

>>12970910
ha ha loser

>>12946069
what an awful sounding relationship

Very academically focused but also party hard with a bunch of degenerates who i dont particularly fit in with but get along really well with
Should get along with an entirely different sector of society, smart reserved people, but most of the time i think they are twats
Im pretty friendly, good natured, disturbingly narcissistic, and alot of people think im quite weird, not sure if in a kooky way or just a weird way, but i just see myself as another person of many

>>12970155
>this

>>12967141
feel this
apart from the autism and shit

>>12946069
You are this kind of person that in the end is left alone and not liked because you spent the days meant to socialise on being a bitch. I am actually sure you are just 5/10 with narcissistic personality disorder

>>12945776
I try not to let myself get really close to people and invest emotions into our relationships, but I involuntarily do. Then I do something stupid, disappoint myself, and retreat further into my shell.

>>12971098
This. I had so many possibilities to make friends and get gf yet for unknown reason I always just cut contact abruptly at one point even if they really like me
and we get along with eachother fine. Not even fear of rejection, I think more of commitment.

>>12971127
In my case it has to do with pride and self-delusion. I over-analyze situations and actions, get angry and convince myself it's for the best to forget about it. The possibility of dying alone is very, very real, I believe.

>>12945803
You seem like the kind of person that thinks of themselves as a John McClane-esque everyman hero when you're just an absolutely boring, self-important, "nice guy" that no one takes seriously or is terribly interested in

>>12945776

large button ups skinny pants, leather jackets denim jackets i wear a lot of womens clothes bc they fit me better i try to stand around and look miserable i dont want people to talk to me. also i have really cool hair

>>12961840
lmfao

Pretty standoff-ish and unfriendly, cant really help
People always say i look mad, usually feeling neutral
dont talk much because i dont feel like it/have nothing to say
sometimes try to act normal at work so im not as much of an outcast
>mfw

>>12945776
Uptight, lazy, judgmental and tactless at times when im at my worse. Kind, friendly and shy when im in good standings with my peers which at the moment, bc of drama i started im not. It has made me obsessed with validation and revenge. I fantasize about hurting all that have wronged me, daily and for hours.

I dress better than the average person but i still look boring and casual. Pretentious about things such as music even though my taste is entry lvl /mu/ core. I get upset when I don't get my way especially when I know im right and that I deserve it. I wouldn't considered my self entitled though.

O wad some Power the giftie gie us
To see oursels as ithers see us!
It wad frae mony a blunder free us,
An' foolish notion:
What airs in dress an' gait wad lea'e us,
An' ev'n devotion!

>>12945926
fuck you

I used to try to present myself as standoffish in an attempt at protecting my ego and out of a fear of being rejected, but I was finally able to get over it and realize that I care too much and want to help people to the best of my ability. I'm still shy, but I'm extremely earnest, sometimes to a fault, and if I get my mind set on something I'm very, very stubborn and outgoing. I'm also extremely empathetic and good at figuring out what people want or need, and offering up solutions. I read people well.
I also have a pretty strong work ethic that I've gotten made fun of for; even if the job is 'beneath' most people, I'll do what I can to do the job to the best of my ability. I typically just wear whatever I want, as long as it's put together and makes sense.

>>12945926
I'm a femanon in a STEM field, art is a great hobby but it gets you nowhere in life nowadays unless you're doing websites for people.

>>12971726
fuck why is this me but without the work ethic.

Always happy around strangers, quick to smile and excellent at playful banter thanks to years in the service industry and retail. Able to make friends with just about anyone, I'd say. I understand what people want from me and can deliver without it seeming forced.
I'm definitely not cool tho
I've been told I'm intimidating though, but like a positive intimidating? Dunno what that means

>>12971160
Thinly concealed self loathing: the post

>>12970770
keep at it brother, it'll get better. trust me