/fa/ - Fashion

INTP last time I checked.
No idea what it means but there you go.

I feel so overwhelmingly unfulfilled
Creative shit is not happening. because I’m at least 60% of the time in survival mode or a breakdown.
I want to be doing so much more with my life.
The only healthy coping thing I really have for my lows is exercise and now my self worth is tied to how many miles I walk everyday.

Self loathing is so fucking consuming and idk.

Yesterday I was so committed to taking care of myself and today it just all went out the window. I made it fucking 24 hours without making myself sick. I feel so guilty. I feel so bad.

/end blog post

>stopped wanking for a month
>life improved significantly

>>10153036

start a fight club.

>>10153057
This is bullshit, not watching porn probably is beneficial but not wanking for a month has no benefits.

>>10153065

no need to chastise one's madness without first sampling one's madness.
that's like saying you hate penis without once having dick in your mouth.

>>10152971
Popular
Lots of friends
Fuck different girls
Have a couple qts that wanna date
Smart as shit, tearing it up at school, drive a nice car, have a nice place.

Why does everything seem so dumb 4chan. My friends are mediocre but i hate artsy fags, the girls are hot, smart, unique etc but none of them get my attention past fucking.

Do I need to do some heavy dosed psychedelics or something? Do I need hobbies?

>>10153080
Hopeless

>>10153036
If you're not already, seek therapy it will seriously help, put yourself in the mindset of either creating or giving up in life, if you're stuck in survival mode. That could possibly motivate you to persevere at least that's how I function as unhealthy as it might be it works also make a bucket list of things you want to do that might be worth something. You'll get out of this rut trust me anybody can and you're more than anybody.

>>10153036
thats what you get tumblr cuck

well my actual personality type is INFP for whatever that's worth. I've been playing a lot of classical and jazz guitar as of late, it's been a good change of pace from the stuff I usually play. I still feel physical and mentally like shit, I'm sure you guys can relate to some degree. I fucked up a tendon in my knee skating a friend's mini ramp so that's incapacitated me even more these last few days.

I've been sober for a few months but I don't feel any different, I still hate myself and wake up depressed every morning. Maybe thinking there was an "easy" fix was my mistake.

I hope you guys are doing OK. Life is weird.

>>10153093
I have a therapist, I've been trying to make an appointment with a psychiatrist for the past 2 months but all the ones that are covered by my insurance have refused me saying they don't accept people under my circumstances which I thought meant that I was so fucked up that didn't want me but they said it actually means I needed a referral from a general practitioner and not a therapist (which I had)

So basically I think therapists are a waste of money since actual doctors don't even seem to take them seriously, but whatever that's life

I think being self aware of your problems makes you better off. I know that my depression is from hormone imbalances and not actually because my life is bad. I don't think my life is bad, my brain is just wired to make me feel bad

Sometimes I like the way I look, sometimes it feels like I should rip my face off. Girls always liked me for some reason, even when I was a kid and had my edgy emo phase.
People say that I'm smart, but I just can't get into a subject I don't like ie. math.
I really like drawing, playing guitar and doing physical activities.
Have picked up reading again, currently going through "Les Miserables". Apparently I have Hypnophobia, but my doctor wants to double check and do more tests, haven't gotten that much sleep and I'm pretty much running on the power of caffeine alone.
I don't fucking now, I find it hard to actually describe my personality, feels like it switches around often.
I'm good with old people and kids, but people of my age usually just piss me off. I'll make another post, this one is just random mumbling.

>>10153115
I don't know if that last bit is 100% but I have faith and hope that you'll figure things out since you seem pretty intelligent

Therapist/Psychiatrists don't work for everybody but I don't think people should rule them out either, they're people educated in how the brain works and sometimes it's nice to just talk to somebody who interacts with a lot of different people.

Best of luck Avery, stay cool

Managed to drop out of society somehow. Started ignoring the few friends I had. Been living on neetbux the past two years, rarely leave home.

Fuck I was making such good progress with my depression/anxiety, then I let myself fall back to square one.

intj / entj

business minded, own two companies and manage in another - all /fa/ related.

lousy time dating though, men treat me like shit.

also i go back and fourth between being easily manipulated like an idiot to paranoid and aggressive.

>>10153141
same

i've all but given up

Im slowly becoming less directioned and motivated in my life. Im meant to be going to see a psychologist soon after I mentioned to my mother that I wanted to stop living; fortunately her job's health insurance covers both of us and pays for it. First week back at college after a break, and I skipped 3/8 of my lectures. I don't know how I'm going to handle next week when labs and tutorials start up. On top of that, I'm only doing 3 out of the recommended 4 classes.
Attending my classes is such a pain because I have to commute for 80 minutes each way, meaning that I have to spend 2 hours and 40 minutes to travel to and from college on the day I only have a single class.
I also don't have much money and have no method of income. My mother encourages me to get a job, but I would probably just get myself fired by not showing up for a couple of days or screwing up massively. Furthermore, I have trouble dealing with people.
Im not even good at the thing I actually hold passion for - competitive video games. I'm filled with an intense sadness whenever I see players performing on stage and winning thousands of dollars doing something they love.

>>10153162
If you do go to therapy don't dare mention anything about suicidal thoughts or you'll never hear the end of it. Unless you're actually considering it, in which case get a grip kiddo

>>10153168
>you'll never hear the end of it
Please explain. I've heard stuff about how they put you in a ward or something for your wellbeing, is that it?

I don't have the willpower to kill myself. I said that to my mother too, saying that it would be easiest if I just didn't wake up some mornings.

>>10152971
i think I head a revelation today at the movies.

I subconsciously dress in margielas and black jeans to win the admiration of hipster tumblr girls. Hoping one day i'll meet a qt eccentric girl and live happily ever after.

>>10153132
Feels like I'm Jack of All Trades. Smarter than an average person, have many skills which I'm good at but not excellent and I learn things quickly if I want to, but tend to forget them as quickly too unless I do those things often.
Should I broaden my perspective even more and learn more skills, languages etc. or should I just select few things I'm good at and make myself brilliant in them?
Is this a good thing?

Wish I could just skip ahead of time, tired of studying and the people I am acquaintances with. I need change or I just won't function.

>>10153175
I don't think typical therapists have the ability to send you to wards or anything lol

In my experience I mentioned it once and then every time we met afterwards she brought it up again, even if it wasn't related at all to what I said. I'll be talking about being mad at someone and she'd be like "so any new suicidal episodes?". She'd do it so often that I wasn't sure if she was trying to implant the idea in my head.

Also they write it on your shit so if you change people (within that place) they'll all bring it up when if you didn't mean it

>>10153188
i know this is pretty risky but if your interested you can email me and ill send you my skype, you seem like a cool person to talk to
antlereater@gmail.com

Im a liar and the fact that its gotten so had that I can lie to myself bothers me. I tend to keep to myself and that seems to really attract certain girls. I love flirting with body language and feeling just fine about it since I never said anything or asked for anyones number so im not cheating.

I think about leaving my girlfriend on a near daily basis. Its been 7 months.

Ive moved out and 'abandoned' my younger brother in a somewhat abusivd household. When I visit him he seems far more timid as if Im a stranger now. Makes me feel like shit, but I dont know a damn thing about getting a 14 year old to open up.

I want to buy a tiny boat and live on it and fuck right off. I want to just boat around and visit every coastal city on the east and west coasts of north and south america. I want to get caught in a storm and wake up in a frenzy and die filled with adrenaline trying to swim back to shore.

>>10153202
Why are you still with her?

I'm in the middle between INTP and INFP, more on the INTP side.
Everything is going meh right now, it's like i'm living in stand-by mode but it's because of summer i think, it's too hot to do everything.
After a year i stopped talking to my ex, i'm kind of disappointed but i think it's better for both. Currently i have a crush for a girl who lives 600km away from me and it's 6 years older than me, it isn't going to work but i don't care, at least i have someone to talk with and a reason to improve myself. I'm going to move out my mother's home in a month and finally start my own life, it's a really nice feeling but i'm kind of worried, maybe because i'll have no one to blame but myself if something goes wrong. Going to start a little business soon and maybe release an album if i manage to pass the self-critic block that i have.
Well now it feels weird and i hate this blog-tier things but i've written way to much to delete everything

>>10153057
Nice, 6 months here

>>10153080
You have it so good that you stopped noticing it, you need to have something bad happen to you

I was in the top 20 best graduates of my school (ca. 200 students).
I honestly didn't think it would work out that well for me.
Regardless of my good grades I'm actually gonna go abroad to study fashion design. (German moving to France)
You don't need good grades to get in, just had to show some drawings and photos.
I know I'm probably going to be overqualified but I really didn't want to see myself working some boring job just to get money.
Who knows, maybe it works out, maybe it doesn't. For the last 3 years I've been ttelling myself "Whatever, if shit hits the fan I can always just kill myself"

>>10153145
Maybe you're always paranoid. It could be possible people arent really trying to manipulate you. Not saying they never are, but it's likely a few guys at East arent, but your paranoia leads you to believe everyone around you want something out of you. (Every guy wants sex by the way, no exception to the rule if they aren't family or gay. Though this doesn't imply every guy is trying to mind game you into it.) That being said, I hope you find a guy who doesn't.

>>10153424
I got the same meyers stats, except I usually rate on the F side by like 3-5% instead of T. Everything meh here too, trying to pull myself out of some depressive and avoidant tendencies. If we're alike, then I think most people like us just prefer to coast through life on stand-by.

Word of experience, if you wanna use the crush to motivate yourself then whatever. It might feel like the path of least resistance cause online is easy at first, but it gets worse and worse over time when you follow through. If you do though, 600KM isn't the worst it could be if you've got a car.

>>10153686
>>10153080
Please, please drop the arrogance. It's going to bite you big time at some point. Even if you are smart, you should always be working to get smarter. A lot of my good friends ended up getting massively fucked in college/grad school because they had attitudes like that.

>>10152971
ENTJ/ENTP, according to various tests.

I'm obsessed with success and self-improvement. This is probably some sort of reaction to being a massive loser in high school/college, but I don't read into it too much. Most people think I'm insane because of the number of different things I keep up with, which is partially achievable because I'm on a huge cocktail of (legal) stimulants 95% of the time. Pretty sure that I'm going to massively crash at some point, but hopefully it will be when I finish my fourth degree (night/online courses).

Despite the whole extroversion part, I spend most of my social time seducing random girls in the area at cocktail parties or off the Internet so I can bring them back to my condo, handcuff them to the bed, and wreck them.

To be honest I see no problem with any of this, so no therapist for me~

>>10153065
well it's not bullshit because it's worked for me you mug

>>10153202
Do you care about these people at all?

I have nothing to be sad about and nothing to complain about but sometimes I am sad and sometimes I complain anyway.

So pretty normal I guess.

>>10153708
Well, i'd like to make a lot of things but right now i'm kind of stuck due to circumstances. I've found myself in this situation a lot in the past, i've always had this passive life attitude with months when everything happens and other where i pass my days in bed sleeping, avoiding everything.

About the girl, well, i don't think we'll ever make it, we are broken as human beings hahaha
I've had other long distance relationships btw, the thing doesn't bother me that much.

INTJ

Just became an engineer in a small town, making good money. Okay amount of amazing friends in old city, none in new, hard to make friends in small towns. I generally like myself, I think I'm a good person, always polite, never steal etc. A little skinny fat but much much better after two months of being a /fit/izen. Overall pretty happy, backpack and brew beer on the weekends, work and workout on the weekdays.

Do needs to work on my wardrobe though.

INTJ

I'm doing okay, it could be worse but my situation isn't particularly good either. Working, saving money, trying to make the time to enjoy the hobbies I still have. I think I should come to terms with my social status but sometimes I feel overwhelmed by thoughts of disappointment - that my life lacks any progress, and that I've missed out on the socialization and events most people the same age would experience.

INTP

Social successes: (this makes you sound like kind of a twat doesnt it)
P witty, good at jokes and telling stories, organised, consider myself pretty well read and knowledgable about shit but not to a pretentious degree, easily superficially chat with people if I feel like it

Faults:
Largely unable to make meaningful connections, only had casual sex, never had a gf, have issues taking anything seriously, can sometimes come off as arrogant because I get pissy when people don't get when I try to explain something simple, cynical (which is why i cant stop making jokes about everything help), easily tired, can't commit to people or interests, disorganised, issues empathising, second guess myself, overthink anything and everything

I have a lot of faults but generally I'm decent at compensating for them on a day to day basis really - to the degree where I can be pretty content with my life if I don't think about it too much.
I like my major, I'm not short on money, my parents still love me, I have a few friends that I like hanging out with regularly, enjoy hanging out with classmates occasionally. I get lonely at times but I think we all do. I'm pretty comfy. Would be comfier with a qt gf and a clearer plan of what I want to do after I graduate, but that will be for later I guess.

All in all could be better, but I'm not really complaining.

>>10153888
The things you explain that you think are "simple" may only be that way to you because they're well rehearsed. As you've said, you overthink.

You might follow a line of thought long after another person drops it, because that can come naturally for an introverted person who tends to dwell and think.

>>10153901
Yeah, I've been told that might be it before and I'm pretty sure that's one of the factors. I'm aware I do it and try to keep it to myself but it tends to show in my tone and stuff. I don't just start bitching them out, but I don't really notice tone changes and stuff most of the time

>>10153934
I'm not really qualified to say for sure, but that may be the ass burgers.

The traits I see you describe aren't mutually exclusive with the behavioral disorder, but they're common to it.

>>10154086
Yeah, I recently got diagnosed with ADD which has some overlap with it, not assburgers though, thank the fucking lord. I like to think I can control most of it so it will never really cripple me socially but sometimes social shit is a little rockier than I'd like it to be.

I feel well too overwhelmed by all the stuff on this board. I'm a complete newfag when it comes to this stuff, so I'll just greentext myself.

>20+ year old virgin
>terrible haircut
>still dress like a 14 year old
>eyebrows are all fucked up
>skinny
>terrible at talking to girls
>only have a couple of friends (all guys)
>only shower when I'm going somewhere
>dropped out of college
>no job
>still living with parents

How the fuck do I become /fa/, guys?

>>10153036
You deserve it tripfag
>>10153132
> likes playing guitar, drawing and other gay shit
> smart but can't get into math
Fucking failure

>>10153202
> I'm a liar
And that's when I stopped reading. Fuck off

>>10154328

get a job. earn money. establish a social life. don't go on 4chan and worry about fashion when you have no income, Jesus

>>10154328
lurk, start with basics and read the sticky friend

>>10154362
>>10154367
Thanks.

Yeah, I checked out the sticky, but became so overwhelmed by all the stuff that I didn't know where to start. Hence, why I'm here.

The basics sound like a good place to start.

>>10154386
No, not for you.

>>10152971
Entj master race.
Also
> taking advice from anyone starting with an I and not an E
Lel

>>10152971
INTJ last I did checked. Usually an upbeat person who likes to do his own thing. Not averse to going out with large groups but prefer smaller, or to be on my own. Constant wanderlust and often found daydreaming. Have had some successes with relationships but haven't had one in a while, casual sex is whats driving me now.

Right now after finishing school, half my friends have moved away, others I've drifted from as we no longer share any interests. Still manage to meet some people now and then. Working a crappy job in a restaurant to make pay, but currently looking for a position on my field of drug research. Been offered a job out west, but that wont start til December.

INTJ's make up 2% of the population.

Self identified we make up about 50% of this thread.

I'm doing ok job-wise, I keep in good shape despite drinking a lot and smoking cigarettes, but that's only because I want to maintain the lifestyle I already have. I'm a blue collar playboy living in the cheapest apartment I could find because hey, it's not like I have anyone to impress. The only things I derive real enjoyment from are whiskey, steaks, guns, and the occasional drug usage. I don't even want a gf anymore, the thought of sharing a life with another sweating, shitting, sentient human being with interests and aspirations weirds me out. I could have a fuck of a lot more money saved up, even start investing, but I just blow it on stupid shit because I can and I'd kill myself out of boredom otherwise. My face and my soul are fixed in a sardonic grin, and I don't give a shit.

Last time I Did it I was ISTJ

I'm kinda scared for the future,
I'm just after leaving school and awaiting my grades.
I didn't study because of laziness and I'm just trying to get into a easy corse.
I'm almost 20 and I'm still a Virgin because I prefer being on my own and I have two girls in my social circle who are both my good friends.
That and the fact I'm scared to get my dock out in front of a girl because I think I might have Phimosis

Things kinda looked dark for awhile, but now it's atleast dim.

>>10153060
>brad reputation

>>10155449
ily so much, kanye

My personality is INFP if that counts for anything.

I have gotten very far in life without doing much. In elementary and middle school, I was never concerned about grades growing up and I always did well. By my peers, I was considered very bright growing up, but I did not want to come off that way so sometimes I'd feign ignorance.

... but at the same time I hated myself. It's not that I was depressed growing up, but I was discontent, constantly anxious, and always blaming myself. I stopped ''playing stupid" as I got older, and became more disenchanted with school and society, but the uneasiness stayed.

I've always felt like I'm living life by a thread... not that I am going to snap and completely lose it, but how I act in front of people is all an elaborate ruse. I usually useless and not in control.

Sometimes this interests people, enough to reach out to me and seek me out. Maybe I come off as an interesting person. But although I loathe myself, I have been told I am very attractive on occasions. I don't do well with compliments though because I can't help but be self-critical and insecure. Sometimes I feel as though I'm not worth it, although I appreciate compliments always. I've had girls show interest in me without doing much since I was young, and I either just went along with it, or I just don't feel the impetus to do anything -- I don't know if it's fear or apathy or what. I smoke a lot of cigarettes to cope with my own failures along with weed, and I just like fucking myself up in general.

Right now, I don't know where I'm at. I'm just bumming around until school starts again where I will have to fake taking myself seriously for another year.

>>10153186
Are you me?

Focus on getting good at one or two tasks. Do those tasks extremely well, and you'll be all set.

When I was 11, an older friend of mine told me to pick either basketball or studies. I didn't listen to him, and I'm a worthless NEET with a shitty degree ATM.

Intp.

So far, I'm not doing bad, but I feel myself succumbing to depression. I have been living off $60 a week for the past month, and it's driving me insane, I don't have any money for luxuries, and the money I did get just the other day, was spent on vidya.

I do work for the dole, and in my spare time, I'm either with pals, or playing vidya, or just laying in bed, not really knowing what to do with myself.

The pals that I do have, are all but drifting away. One of my best friends is pregnant, and has become obsessed with that, she has stopped talking TO me, she has begun talking AT me. My other best friend, is in rehab for a meth addiction. I feel myself pushing away the one person I like, because I realize now he is a waste of time, and my two other pals are busy with their girlfriends, work and class.

I feel so alone.

I live with my mother, I'm 20 years old, and we all live in poverty. The house is falling apart, and we're struggling to get food on the table.

On a side note, don't speak to my father anymore, and I resent the bitter and cynical creature my brother has become.

/fa/, I feel so alienated. I feel so isolated and there is nothing but routine to help me pass the days.

I manage to make friends with most people easily enough but only if I'm already comfortable in the social situation; I pretty much have a switch with social retardation. Sometimes I'm the funny guy and really fun to be around, or other times I say one or two words the entire day or am bumbling over my words. I feel inadequate in comparison to some of my peers and am not especially skilled in any particular area. Recently I've been trying self-improvement but haven't gotten that far due to lack of motivation. Also I get anxious and depressed when I think about how I've never been in a somewhat serious relationship or hooked up with a girl.