/fa/ - Fashion

no matter how many fresh clothes i buy it doesn't get better

>>14462590
>literally 1/10 tier looks, absolute bottom of the barrell
>riddled with emotional (incl. severe depression disorder and anxiety disorder) and physical ailments (incl. scopiosis and crooked nose that blocks airway)
>short (170cm)
>poor wageslave
>socially inept because of decades of no friends no girlfriend
>almost 24 years old never held a girls hand or anything beyond that and have no friends, not a single one
>because of all this emotional wreck beyond repair
>cried about a week ago listening to frank ocean because i missed teenage love and all that over stuff seemingly everyone else but me experienced because it was all too much
>started to become misanthropic over thr past years, like travis bickle in taxi driver only that he is cool and i am shit
>daydream a lot lately about having a cute girlfriend that loves me forever but once i am back in reality it hurts so i try to supress daydreaming
>just want it all to end, no exaggeration or memes
>i prayed to any higher power that might be listening to make me die in my sleep but i didn't
>actively supress feelings of hope so i don't get disappointed and sad when it inevitably doesn't happen
>developed a mantra that goes "the best day of my life is the one i will die in"
and that's that

Hello /fa/-bros. My face is a literal 1/10 with no exaggeration or anything, fucked up hairline, one lazy eye, huge&crooked nose, ears not aligned, mouth crooked, shark teeth, weak chin, it's all fucked up. Because of that I have 0 self-confidence and want to attract as little attention to myself as possible so I only wear plain white/black shirts with jeans and a cap so I don't have to look at people but even then sometimes I see them glancing at laughing at me. I would really like to start getting a techwear or vintage closet or even just something simple like wear braces instead of a belt but it would attract attention to me I would rather avoid.
>inb4 wear a mask
I genuinely considered it and it's not even illegal in my country on paper but I would guarantee it wouldn't take 5 minutes before someone called the cops.
Anyone else knows this feel? If you overcame it, how?