/fa/ - Fashion

>>12021912
Friendzoned (^:
>whenever a guy is interested in me i usually like them back until i see them interact with another group of people and notice that they have a good amount of friends then i just hate them
This is exactly something I feel as well. When someone is social with me, it makes me feel important briefly, but I want to be more than a casual conversation. I want to be somebody. I want to be something significant.

I think it's this that fuels my passion for fitness, fashion, and my career choice, although I do have very specific and deep reasons for why I do them anyway. They probably both hold equal weight.

Oddly enough, I've come from the point of social retardation to people knowing my name and enjoying talking with me although it still can be a struggle.

Also, whenever I have been out with friends (all were socially awkward) I was the leader simply because it felt natural. I need to find a healthy way of getting that out all the time. It only seems to occur when I know I'm better than someone. I become genuinely charismatic.

The best way to describe it is being in between social castes.

I think I'll get through it, but I still feel like I'll never relate to anyone "normal" ever. No matter how confident or successful I become, I'll only really relate to those who came from social exile like I did because they'll be more self-aware. It definitely raises questions about my future love life.

It's why I enjoyed Moonrise Kingdom so much. Two kids who existed outside of everything found each other and finally felt the love they always wanted. They were the only people in the world who understood each other.


>>12021910
The best way to fight depression is find a progressive hobby which improves as you continue doing it. It gives you something to wake up for and gives you the sensation of achievement.