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How do I stop being anorexic?
I don't like it anymore.
I am a 6'0 male of 104lbs. I am obsessed with calories.

I have several habits I undertake to make myself feel 'better' about my horrible attitutde

>Food Youtuber Mimic
This is basically a game where I spend the whole day watching people eat food on youtube. I eat nothing, then 5 minutes before bed have a bowl of tomato soup. Before I eat I mimic the food youtubers mannerisms and pretend I am them and have had the calories they had in their video. For example I watched a German guy eating burger king all day then before I ate my soup spoke in German accent and pretended I ate burgers and the soup was my midnight snack, not my only meal

>Rib Viewing
I always cut my food into the shape of ribs. Then after eating (usually carrots and cucumber) I look at my ribs in the mirror and pretend I ate so much food it is trying to escape

>Its not vomit its veggies
I make myself vomit into empty vegetable soup tins and pretend the soup went out of date so I didn't eat it

>Its all MAYO!
I have about 10 mayo jars. I only use hot sauce and lime juice as garnishes for food because they have so little calories but I store them in mayo jars and pretend they are mayo so I can pretend to get more calories than I am.

Eating is hard.
I don't want to die.