/fa/ - Fashion

I’m posting here because I feel like it’s the only place I can go. There’s no one in my real life, or any online friends I have who I feel could help me out in any meaningful way. Obviously a bunch of strangers on 4chan might not be able to provide that either, but I’ve been on this board since I was 15 and I feel like I have a lot in common with posters here.

I’m an 18yo 5’2 gay male. I’ve been 5’2 since I was about 14 so I’m not getting taller any time soon. In that time, I’ve tried my hardest to not let my height affect my self esteem and day to day life. I’m an active person. I have friends and hobbies. I try and stay confident, put effort into my appearance, etc. And yet, deeply negative thoughts and feelings about my height seem to take up 95% of my brain activity. I’ve contemplated suicide over my height more than once, and the past few months have been especially rough.

I’m aware this board hates trannies. I’m ambivalent towards them myself. However, in the past year or so, I’ve begun to wonder whether transitioning would be a good life choice for me. I’m not under any delusion that I am a woman, but life as a man of my height is genuinely worse than I could ever put into words, especially to anyone who does not have that experience.

I feel I’m at a crossroads. I can either continue my life as it is, or make a decision that could change it forever, perhaps for the good.

What do you think?