/fa/ - Fashion

high school
>lots of friends
>always going to do and see things, concerts, do psychedelics on the weekends
>optimistic about artistic career, always making art
>loving gf
>good money saved up from working all summers
>overall good time

2 years later
>gf broke up a while ago
>just quit job because of stress and anxiety, cant find a new one
>live with parents (poor so im paying everything except rent basically)
>community college headed towards STEM degree (already in debt, saved money from HS is GONE)
>love art and wish to pursue it, but have nowhere near enough money
>no one supports this because well aware art degree is useless
>constantly feeling stifled, that i cant live the life or experience and do the things that i want to
>no friends, either moved away or quit talking when i started dope
>just got off heroin so depression stress and anxiety amplified x10
>also ruined my physique and now i eat junk food all the time because poor
>grades slowly falling despite cc being easier than high school
>just come home and cry because i miss my old self
> all my desires and aspirations in life becoming more and more like a fantasy i'll never achieve

where did it all go wrong

i feel like theres a crushing horrible lead blanket over my head at all times, thats preventing me from doing everything i dreamed about and expected i would do when i was younger. almost killed myself once (right after WDs), now i just get the urge to get up and drive and drive and never look back and start new somewhere, but fear of the unknown and having no money and the lead blanket always stop me from doing so

thats my blog post for the day, thanks for tuning in folks

>last summer
>actually stop dressing like shit and putting effort into what I wear
>buy a lot of nice clothes, sweaters, jackets, pants, etc., finally happy I have a fulfilled wardrobe
>now summer is here
>literally been too hot to wear anything other than white hanes t-shirts and my old cargo shorts from two years ago

how am I supposed to stay /fa/ in the summer?
I'm lost now, all those nice outfits I made in the fall and winter are just totally useless

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