/fa/ - Fashion

>>8938809
oops posted the wrong thing.
>>8921235
I think the problem is the masks women use, or youtubers, in my case. I feel physical attraction towards several youtubers (dodger, meghan from lifeburry, nanalew, etc), but the attraction in all those cases doesn't go beyond watching half a video now and then.

However only Rose and now Emma have caused me behavioural problems. And I think the cause is that, while the others I mentioned show, sooner or later, a banal side (mostly through talking and talking and making a lot of videos), these two managed to present a flawless reality by hiding themselves, behind randytaylor in rose's case, behind songs in emma's case. So, those heavily pre-selected or aloof images allow me to delude myself and complete the picture with my own fantasies, and that gets me hooked.

Everyday when I get out of the bed I say to myself:

>you have things to do
>don't go to 4chan
>don't check the channels
>don't check facebook
>don't check twitter

I'm tired, I want out of this. There must be a way to neutralize any desire or fantasy without feeling myself empty, so I can focus myself in productive things. If I've reached the rational conclusion that there're things I'll never have, why can't I force my emotions and my mind to comply?

What do I do, some of you must know. There's literally nobody I can't talk to about this.

Save me the autism jokes, I really feel miserable, I need help, I'm wasting my life here.