there's no point to this post i just can't complain about this to anyone i know irl. also i'll preface with the fact that everything is my own fault. my inability to lose any more weight is literally just me being stupid and fat with no self control
>2 1/2 years ago
>5'3, 185lbs
>decide i never want to see 200+ on the scale in my life, i finally get my act together
>it is the current year
>5'3 117lbs
>TDEE somewhere around 1500kcal/day
>plateau for so long
>lower my daily intake to 800kcal
>no change
>eat no more than 500kcal most days
>family and bf encourage me to eat when i see them on the weekends
>end up binging most friday/saturday/sundays
>haven't seen a number lower than 115 since like october/november
dieting for this long has made me so miserable, but it wouldn't be half as bad if i was still seeing progress
easily like once a week i want to just give up and be 117, but im worried about gaining weight so badly that not dieting gives me anxiety