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Has anyone else developed severely bad habits as a result of their restricted eating?
I am 122lbs, 6 foot I am trying to get down to 100lbs as I feel this is more natural so I am eating 1000 calories per day and doing hard cardio.
The problem I have is that the lack of food is making my paranoia get worse.
I keep thinking everyone is against me. I have started buying cream, chocolate etc and using it to write messages on my floor about how people hate me and want me to be fat etc. Its only so long before I can't clean the stains or before I binge and eat the food. Today I wrote 'moon land XXL hoax' in the floor with salami sausage grease (I thought the whole thing was a conspiracy to make large sized moon clothes appearling so everyone gains weight to fit them) and fucking rubbed the greas eall over the carpet. How do I keep going?