/fa/ - Fashion

good feels:
>6ft 1, 150 lbs and p muscular (not skelly but it's better than fat)
>Good hair
>Decent looking at least, (7/10)
Bad feels:
>emotionally stunted in some areas but not in others due to me being ugly/nerd/fat/etc in middle school and high school and not having a lot of contact with other people my age
>developed enough social skills near the end of high school (cause I lost weight) to make some friends but not enough for them to hang out with me
>emotionally stunted in talking to girls, can "talk" to them but can't have any meaningful relationship besides very causual acquaintances
>can't make first move on girls, scared to initiate contact/ask for snapchat/number
>very insecure due to how I used to look
>no motivation to succeed
>can't pay attention to things that don't interest me
Any help? :(