/fa/ - Fashion

>>9962824
Serious post here (hate on me if you want, it's just an anonymous western australian image board)
>Be me
>Be fairly socially awkward
>Graduate and get accepted to UWA
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>The already limited friend group I had is now diminished besides one or two other guys who also got accepted
>They don't really give a fuck about me, because they have a healthy friend group and social life
>Loneliness is exaggerated by the surrounding of Perths Rich, Tan and Beautiful hailing from peppermint grove/cott/claremont etc...
>Mood swings from the past few years suddenly get really bad
>annnnnd we have our first suicide attempt
>spent a few nights locked up in bentley hospital
>Get out by lying and saying it was the pressure of uni exams
>drop out for a year and go back to school to better my atar and maybe change my direction
>Another suicide attempt mid-year (this time failing because of a floored plan)
>Back in bentley
>Lie again, get out again
>Finish the year with a 92 atar, not great but a bit better
>Go back to UWA because I couldn't figure anything else out
>Everything going good, grades are top, mental health in check
>2nd semester rolls along and I fall into possibly the worst depression yet. Couldnt move for weeks.
>Parents angry and just avoid me
>No friends to check on me
>Nothing to live for
>Missed all classes and all exams - UWA does nothing
>Picked up some full time work and have be slaving away ever since

Really not sure what I should do guys. I'm desperate to get a bachelor degree, but I don't think I have the mental stability to complete it, let alone get a well paying job

Life is looking pretty terrible and I was hoping for some advice
Sorry about the assigned reading