/fa/ - Fashion

In two weeks (15th of June) I'm going to break it off with someone that I've loved for over two years.

>she's quiet, aloof, yet sharp-witted as hell.
>knows exactly what to say to make me stammer, which is a feat, since I never shut up.
>incredibly beautiful, pulls off odd hair colours in a way that makes it seem natural.
>dresses all black, erryday
>enjoys art and philosophy
>raging alcoholic
>finally someone to do molly with.
>disinterested in everyone else because of her.

She's literally the most important person in my life right now. We love each other romantically.

>ask her out, she reciprocates my feelings, but cannot be with me.
>fall into depression
>fuck up
>try to keep her in my life
>it hurts, fuck it hurts

This has gone on for a long while, I don't want to have feelings for her, I just want to be friends.

>I still feel a rush of endorphin when I see her
>our eyes look for each other, even if it's impossible that the other could be near.
>I've brought it up multiple times, every time I suggest that we stop seeing each other she starts hyperventilating (she suffers from panic attacks)

Both our courses are over after the 5th of June, I've planned a week of being together before I cut ties. Then it's off to my job abroad for the entirety of the summer.

>tfw one of you pinrolls starts to loosen up in public