/fa/ - Fashion

How do I acquire the doomer aesthetic?

Recently, my autistic brother has gone completely nuts and apeshit, due to his recent treatment given by his psychiatrist, it has completely altered his mental capacities, and he broke everything at his center for autistic and mentally disabled people, and now the center want him gone.
In consequence, my parents have taken him into our house, but now he is going apeshit, and he break everything around him, and throw tables around the room by screaming.
Today, he broke everything in the house, and my parents had enough so much that my mother cried.

Everytime I hear something something getting launched toward the wall, or him or my parents screaming, it feel like having my heart being stabbed.
So I go into the Internet, talking with people on Social Media, but everytime I discuss something with people I know on the Internet, but everyone is treating me like shit.

Also I'm competely addicted by porn.

Yeah, I feel like shit right now.

>be me
>22 yo med untermensch
>jet
>black
>curly
>hair

Why couldn't I have been born a Germanic Chad, with a long golden mane and beard, blue piercing eyes, and the skulls structure and frame of a warrior, descendant of Arminius?