/fa/ - Fashion

/fa/ I love you all but I very much need some advice.
>6ft tall
>Current weight is 150
>Highest weight was 195
>Aiming to become male runway model
>Confident in the face area but struggling on ending binge eating once and for all
>3 weeks ago I binged on tacos
>Today I had 4 girl scout cookies, ice cream and hot choccy.
>Felt disgusted and despaired so tried to work my ass off with vid related
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOQpD8aDJeI
>But my job as a construction worker leaves my with a lot of injuries and general pain around my knees, legs, feet etc and I cannot complete the routines in full.
>This only leads me to be more worried that I will struggle to make photo shoots, let alone make an actual show.
>Currently live with parents that eat like absolute garbage and the temptation of crackers and cookies literally smack me in the face everyday multiple times a day to the point where I can't handle eating carrots and spinach anymore.
>Birthday is on the 10th and will be expected to go off my diet during my birthday dinner.
What should I do? I'm getting fucked on both ends and I fear that I might struggle to maintain my weight in the future. Anyway, here's my diet.
>0 trans fat
>0 refined carbs
>low sodium
>low sugar
>Good amount of saturated fat
>under 100g of carbs a day, try to aim for under 50 but not a huge deal if I go over.
>High protein, lots of greens
>I don't count calories but I'm sure I'm working on a deficit.