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>>14695729
I was actually diagnosed and hospitalized for anorexia in 2015. Did years at various levels of treatment including 2 months in ERC’s residential and had a long stretch in recovery (2016 to present) maintaining an 18-19 BMI. My BMI at the lowest was under 14. You clearly don’t know much about eating disorders if you think 3 months of 0-300 cals is unrealistic lol. And I’m not a size 10 thank god... I’m not even close to overweight yet but I can’t stand it anyway since I’ve only ever been thin. This is the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life, and I haven’t changed my diet or lifestyle enough for it to really make sense. So the meds are the only explanation I can think of. I changed antidepressants and started taking gabapentin for my migraines. Both are known to cause weight gain. Maybe they aren’t the cause. Idk. But I want to be skinny again.

Pic related is from 2015 when I was underweight. Not my thinnest but I don’t have pics of that because I was in the hospital. I can share more if you still have doubts.

>>14372032
Oh, I didn’t mean I’m a binger, I’ve never really struggled with binging. I meant that just losing a little bit of weight is really hard for me because then I don’t want to stop and it’s a downward spiral. I’ve never been able to do things the “healthy” way, I always end up just very heavily restricting so I can see results faster. :|

I just want to be thin again. Fml.