/fa/ - Fashion

>18+ months of serious reclusive borderline hikki depression due to shitty living arrangements and low drive
>move out and find a new place to live
>life feels good for the first time in so long
>gain confidence to leave room again
>meet a girl and talk with her constantly
>connect really well with her
>meet with her twice
>she finds me funny and we can just sit and chat for hours
>keeps touching me and holding my arm
>she has an anxiety attack a few days afterwards
>ask if we can do something again on sunday
>says she'd love to, then sunday morning tells me she can't because she has midterms to study for
>she slowly starts responding more and more infrequently
>social anxiety starts giving me palpitations
>open up to her about how i feel
>tells me that it's just not the right time for her
>i ask if we can be friends at least
>she says no
>relapse into depression and start uncovering tons of lifelong trauma
>been reliving every single abandonment i've had in my life these past four weeks
When will it get better? Am I just destined to never have any real escape from loneliness?

>>13684521

>>13610843
but what if they aren't interested in talking about anything of interest. i'm not after someone i can just shoot the shit with, but rather a person i can be open with.
>>13610855
i know that feel. i was lucky enough to have a gf for a year i could talk to but she treated me like shit and we broke up. but after and before that i never really speak to anyone.

>>13474617
>Every dance music night in my city has changed to Techno because everyone wants to jump on the Berghain circlejerk bandwagon

>>13474633
I would KILL for a Hard House revival. It's the most fun genre of music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QwknTx1YRAg

I'm sick with how slow dance music has gotten over the past decade. First, it was Prog-House killing Trance then Techno killing Prog-House. The BPM since I started going out has gone from 150 to 120.
Psytrance I guess has come smashing back but fuck I hate Darkpsy and it has taken over all the psytrance events. UK Freeform >>>>>>>>>>> Darkpsy as well.