/fa/ - Fashion

This August, I fell in love with a woman 18 years older than me while staying in a mental hospital, and we said that we would say goodbye at the strike of New Year's but neither of us are prepared to do that. I feel like I've fallen into a fantasy, and we fulfill each other's deepest desires, but I feel it won't last for very apparent reasons and it kills me.

Currently, I'm drinking myself into a coma to reconcile being away from her while she's with her family. I know that I won't see her again until New Year's Eve, so I'm trying my hardest to muster the words I will use to convince her that we can still be through the year. This all feels completely unreal considering so few people experience real-life scenarios like this, and I have no guidance on what to do from anyone. I just don't want to lose her.

what's this pattern called?

w2c something similar to this jumper?