/fa/ - Fashion

Sometimes I have fleeting thoughts of killing myself. I recognize that I have these thoughts, and they don't predominantly take priority over all of the thoughts in my head, so I really don't want to make a big deal out of it so I don't tell anyone.


I've been kinda putting myself in debt lately with fashion because this and music are the only things that I have that makes me feel emotionally invested. If I could, I'd talk people's ears off 24/7 about both subjects. I know that sounds super whiny "oh woe is me" type bullshit, but it feels good every now and then to be selfish and unload my thoughts when I write.


If I had to express my deepest fear, it has to be letting down my parents. They worked so hard to get us out of a bad neighborhood into the suburbs, and now my mom has mid stage MS that's putting them in debt. I try to help every time I can, but I still feel like a loser living at my parent's house at 23.


I love all of you here, even though it's an anonymous board and some of you are probably degenerates and little shits in RL. Checking this board and talking to you all makes me feel a bit more normal from time to time.