/fa/ - Fashion

>>12820026
And that is a HARD lesson, you know? I mean, you try, naturally, to sacrifice and give of yourself to those you love.

It backfires consistently. My best relationships (with the exception of one gem of a girl I just dropped the fucking ball and died on) have been mediated by a sort of invisible hand, wherein each party only reveals calculatedly furtive glimpses into their own inner lives, sort of like the scene in ET where the kid lures the fucking alien with reese's pieces?

Are we almost always just leading each other on until shit falls apart and gets hectic? Until she finds me jerking off in the bathroom after 6 months of not touching her and I find her multiple cell phones and large drug stash? Where does it all end? well, for me it ends in solitude.

I want to be alone. I want to make my stupid art, learn more about my faggoty fashion shit and try to be a good person overall. I'll help old ladies take they groceries home two miles by hand but NO ONE gets a key to my apartment OR my heart. Not anymore.

I got a bit broken by the suffering and falsehoods of others, you see? It's brought about a change in me that is not going anywhere anytime soon.