/fa/ - Fashion

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The Bad
>me last year
>little brother has mental breakdown after breakup and fake LSD fucked his brain
>drop out and do a bit of freelance landscaping so I can make sure he doesn't self harm or kill himself
>parents take him home for summer
>he starts to get better
>start of this year
>starting uni again without him to worry about
>little brother kills himself without warning
>we used to bond over fashion
>going shopping is depressing
>nobody to talk about my fits with
>never get to see another of his fits
>think my girlfriend will make me feel better
>she doesn't
>she tries but it's not what I need
>break it off but feel like shit
>still sleep with her sometimes and she still wants me
>without her nobody I know is interested in fashion
>had a special bond with my brother that I will never get back
>I still enjoy fashion but so much of enjoying it was sharing it with him and even though I still want to do that I know it'll never be the same

the good
>inherited all his clothes
>get incredibly sympathetic treatment from uni which will probably save me from being kicked out
>reconnected with some of my best friends that were kind of drifting away
>realised how many people actually do care about me
>realise life isn't just good or bad, it's full of both
>smoked today with a tinder date who I thought was ghosting me
>smoking again with her tomorrow
>parents taking me and surviving youngest brother to holiday in Niue
>friend has job in tailoring shop and I can get 70% off all my corporate clothing I'll need when I graduate
>spending a year in the US next year
>reliably informed that my accent will be seen as quite exotic