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al/ck/ - Alcoholism & Withdrawal Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:18:21 2017 No.9215891 [Reply] [Original]

Bump limit reached last one.

>everyday wake up sober for few hours
>go and get another cask of wine
>drink it throughout the day/night
>wake up with terrible hangover

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:26:42 2017 No.9215945 File: 328 KB, 1080x649, aesthetic violence.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] 7 days sober till now, just finished off a bottle of wine, feel so happy and degenerate at the same time

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:30:13 2017 No.9215959 File: 255 KB, 496x479, IMG_0734.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] NONE LEFT STORE CLOSED FOR 11 HOURS SEND HELP

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:32:10 2017 No.9215969
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>>9215891
3 days ago package store guy offers me a deal on a case of 48 croc tails (frozen drink with 9.9 alcohol). Proceed to drink as many as possible over ice not even freezing them. Stay in bed for two days just feeling organs crying heart in a panic. Cant eat anything because i just gag. still reeling as i contemplate whether to have more or not. fuck me why cant weed just be cheap and legal.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:32:13 2017 No.9215971 >>9215891 I should probably tapper it down a bit again. I know I'd get the sweats if I tried to sleep without some drinks. I got down to 3 drinks a night. Then I had a surgery that put in a lot of pain and out of work for three weeks. Bored.

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:34:10 2017 No.9215981

>>9215959
If only we could send eachother booze with icbm's, 30 min delivery time...
But I really know the feel, I live in the only state in my country, that forbids the sale of alcohol at shops, gas stations etc (everything besides bars, restaurants etc.) after 10pm

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:35:46 2017 No.9215991 >>9215981 No place in my state will send any booze after 10 PM, also they're heavily taxing it here.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:37:29 2017 No.9216003 >>9215959 >>9215981 lol id send you the rest of these croc tails if could bro

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:38:04 2017 No.9216007
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Not too good. I only get the small time projects at work. I figure I should be happy I'm making over six figures but they only put me on small assignments and customers that only have roughly 40-50 pieces of equipment. We have clients with 700+ and I don't get to work on those projects

Yes, I am new at this company

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:40:06 2017 No.9216018 >>9215991 Oh that sounds like shit. What state may ask? In my country alc is also taxed high, but it's still dirt cheap(and high quality)

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:44:28 2017 No.9216033 >>9216003 sry non-american here, what's croc tails? Luckily I still have enough for the night, got used to the idiotic laws here...

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:50:41 2017 No.9216053
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>>9216033
the guy goes ill give you a whole box 48 count(brought the display and everything) for 20$ plus tax. gave a lot away but not enough. I cant have alcohol just lying around for obvious reasons.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 17:58:50 2017 No.9216087 >>9216018 South Aus.

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:02:15 2017 No.9216098

>>9216053
Oh shit should have paid more attention to your previous post. How much is tax in US, or bétter yet, how much would you have to pay for a cheap bottle/can of beer, how much for the cheapest bottle of vodka (like a fifth, I think you call 0,7 mL)

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:02:55 2017 No.9216103
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I haven't drank in a few months. This is the point where I usually fuck up, and it's always like it sneaks up on me. I won't have any desire to drink and then BAM, I get the idea in my head and off I go. Seriously do not want to go through the DTs again though. Last time I shot the fucking TV because it was honking like a goose and had a seizure.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:03:08 2017 No.9216106 >>9215891 >31 >obese >married with kids >drink 8-10 beers per night >every night >got a 30pk on sunday >gpt 8 left >probably have to buy a 40 before I start >juuuuust in case

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:03:56 2017 No.9216110 >>9216087 Aah shit, that's astronomical in taxes, so I heard. And with your tabacco taxes...no place for me

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:07:00 2017 No.9216128

>>9216098
tax came out to 1.75 for the case. for cheep beer I go for natty daddy which comes to 1.50 usually for a 25oz can. the pint of vodka usually dubra goes for 4.25 all the prices tax included not sure what the real percent the tax is since some stores just have different prices.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:09:01 2017 No.9216142 >>9216103 so fucking scared of getting dts like what are the warning signs? if any? Id rather ask someone who's been through it then read some shit online.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:16:55 2017 No.9216169 >>9216128 Ah ok, still a bit cheaper here, like 40 cts for a pint of cheap beer and 4.50 for 1 1/2 pints of vodka (aprox. in US money)

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:24:00 2017 No.9216207 >>9216110 Yep.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:25:53 2017 No.9216225 >wake up every morning to pee blood out my ass >start drinking soon after >get violently drunk >repeat

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:34:09 2017 No.9216271

>>9216142
A couple days into withdrawals and no sleep, all the bad symptoms are multiplied.

>anxiety is so bad, you become convinced you are going to die.
>motor skills get thrown off and it's hard to walk and maintain balance
>intrusive thoughts that further fuck with your head
>hallucinations, maybe small whispers and bugs at first
>eventually turns into indescribable horrors
>eventually lose complete touch of reality (i.e. You may be at home, but you think you're at a hotel or something)

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:41:58 2017 No.9216307 >>9216271 oooh shit how much where you drinking when this happened what was your usual

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:46:31 2017 No.9216337

here's the paper on kindling i posted in last thread that someone asked about
https://oup.silverchair-cdn.com/oup/backfile/Content_public/Journal/alcalc/33/3/10.1093/oxfordjournals.alcalc.a008387/2/33-3-230.pdf?Expires=1501116352&Signature=C2ls0o2F97YMDsibK1QGOvSCGZGOblydkuNxPW5llnWcQFy~sGDag81uJ8OZCTSp60eQPQGt~aLxng6hf7up4fuN8b9fjMGxjzfCp7zxlhyt~JaFzSdwLPqsoziC5ZhXxFvSWqyKd7ITQ7mqgrwh8BzhVR2i25syFSptoWbcZvb1NiHFplpsAcaFh5L5CyRqSGgexVcHt3zF4wHnBcPEembh7ef85xS8KYU6hycBkySrXSpmkIebF0Hh9q1YKe7MiSNv8bE--NS~U2bLGBtE~mha5CPxITO0Pxxq5ctQMuPR6lnYNL1loVTk1wPArNKzT1oZh0gZKvDWX79wjpT7BQ__&Key-Pair-Id=APKAIUCZBIA4LVPAVW3Q

(yes you need the entire url)

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:48:47 2017 No.9216348 >Sober for 7 hours now >haven't drank anything with sugar in it for a year >Suddenly craving for a pepsi soda >Not even for alcohol

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 18:57:17 2017 No.9216400 >>9216348 Your body isn't all that bad at sending you cravings for things it needs, maybe you should have some sugarized food/drink

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 19:20:47 2017 No.9216493 >>9216307 Anywhere from a half gallon to a gallon of vodka per day. That's a lot of liquor for ANYONE, but for a reference point, I am a 5'6" 125lb manlet. When I drink, I am shitfaced every waking moment.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:00:40 2017 No.9216705 >stop drinking >actually have money left in my account the day before payday Shame I still want to kill myself

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:01:28 2017 No.9216709 Decided to quit, when the nearby liquer store employees knew me and my kids names. They even started carrying Pabst in a bottle and Mickey's 40 oz. Just because I asked about them.

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:20:01 2017 No.9216789
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>laid off last year
>quit smoking weed to pass drug test for a new job
>start drinking again instead
>several months pass, drinking every single day
>get new job a week ago
>smoke to celebrate, no more drinking
>better job called today
>back to drinking until i can pass drug test again

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:32:44 2017 No.9216832 >>9216709 You ungrateful dick, they order product just for you because you asked, and now you won't even buy it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:40:48 2017 No.9216867 >>9216705 Being sober makes me desperate to drink. Drinking makes me desperate to be sober. If weed isn't legalised in this shithole soon I may move house.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:45:34 2017 No.9216885 >>9216709 I know that feel, bro. I live in a town of 18k and all 4 liquor stores here are on a first name basis with me.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:47:31 2017 No.9216895 literally can't go without drinking wine, if i do i puke and have shakes all day. what can i do?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:49:09 2017 No.9216903 >>9216895 taper down. reduce the amount you drink daily until you're at 0

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:50:52 2017 No.9216909 >ran out of booze one night >decided to drink methylated spirits >drank half of it was 95% ethynol >didn't go blind

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 20:56:21 2017 No.9216933

>>9216909
It's laced with some pretty heavy poisons precisely so alcks don't drink it. Evil fuckers, man. Don't do that shit again even if you are running screaming through the fiery depths of hell being chased by 20ft rapedemons and have a trillion fire ants flowing over every inch of your skin. Being insane is better than being dead.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 22:04:57 2017 No.9217184 >>9215959 I usually feel relieved when I accidentally let that happen

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 22:16:09 2017 No.9217224

been drinking more or less every night since i was 19, i'm 25 now. tried many many times to drink less/quit, always failed. lasted a little over a month in the past 6 years. on day 2 now and i'm determined to stay sober for the rest of my life. i can relate to a lot of the posts in this thread. feels good.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 22:18:24 2017 No.9217236 this morning i woke up an hour before the bottleo opened and 1 hour has never felt longer >>9215981 i feel for u nsw bro

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 23:07:25 2017 No.9217448 >>9217224 there are so many different reasons people start up again. almost an infinite amount it seems like. good luck, seriously. it can be done.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 23:19:12 2017 No.9217491 >start new job >quit drinking for awhile >hear one of your favorite drunk songs on the radio at work one day >here we go again

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 23:31:25 2017 No.9217547 >>9217491 Isn't it weird how little things can trigger you into drinking again? And I mean "triggering" in the psychiatric sense, not the tumblr/pol sense

Anonymous Tue Jul 25 23:44:00 2017 No.9217603

>>9216087
Sounds like fucking hell. I live in Sydney (New Beiing) and it's a downright challenge to obtain alcohol after 10pm, and a lot of bottle'o's close well before 8pm at night. Also beer is ridiculously expensive, XXXX (the shittiest, most watered down beer in existence) is about the same price as high end european beer i every other country in the world.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 25 23:46:25 2017 No.9217610 >>9217547 it's ridiculous, i literally started salivating and planned a trip to the liquor store after i heard it

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:11:16 2017 No.9217711 >>9216493 >5.4 europoor bottles a day jesus christ lad

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:12:07 2017 No.9217715 >>9217547 >>9217610 fuck me for me its either when im playing a jrpg or watching a good anime or show I just go fuck it time to get cocked and do this otherwise when im sober I wont play anything or watch anything

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:28:21 2017 No.9217779 Do you lads change any other behavior than the actual drinking when trying to quit/moderate? I'm trying to become an early riser rather than sit around in the night time because there is less temptation to drink in the morning for me.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:32:56 2017 No.9217797 >>9217779 Yeah, I let myself eat better tasting crapfoods as a cheap reward. And smoke cigs. It's not the same as being intoxicated but it does take the edge off. Gotta find something.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:33:54 2017 No.9217801 post tunes you fucking degenerates

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:39:37 2017 No.9217820

>>9215891
second night sober in two years.
I just feel incredibly bored and lonely.
I feel too old for solitary activities at 26
I just feel like I should be with someone now
but if I was ever with someone I wouldn't have drank so much.to forget being so alone in the first place.
Fuck I just can't fall asleep and I feel childish for being sober.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:39:42 2017 No.9217821 >>9217801 rose at dawn and put on that old roots senpai https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4R8XR3WCwvI

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:44:37 2017 No.9217834 >>9217801 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wujw-FH2Itw

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:51:13 2017 No.9217857

>>9217820
Idk anon. It's hard being sober. I'm 29 and tonight's my second night being sober too. Drinking since I was 22. I often wonder if it ever gets better, but it feels as if drinking is as good as it gets. But every trouble and injury and heartbreak that I've gone through, I know it was because of the drink. I want to stop and I have to stop. If I'm going to take my life, it's going to be on my terms and with a clear head. I'm done with letting the bottle dictate my actions. I'm tired of being weak. I have no one in my life, but if I'm going to be a man I'm going to do it for me. And the next time I fail it'll be because of me and not the 5th I drank. That's my goal for now.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:52:56 2017 No.9217859 >>9217857 Good luck to us both.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 00:53:34 2017 No.9217863 >>9216142 I started to talk to myself when alone... kinda like having Tourette's.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:11:53 2017 No.9217917 INEBRIATED COOKING, SIMPLE RECIPES FOR SIMPLE MINDS. WHAT'S YOUR GO TO? I'LL START. TOMATO ON TOAST

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:14:30 2017 No.9217928 File: 24 KB, 1360x768, current situation.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9217863 holy fuck i do that already

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:16:21 2017 No.9217935 >>9217917 pbj instead of bread I use two eggo waffles from the toaster shits tasty as fuck for something savory i just usually make a cold cut sandwich or heat up a can of raviolis not really cooking but does its job, what ingredients you got

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:19:16 2017 No.9217946 >>9215891 croctail guy here back on the grind currently have a cup of water a frozen drink and warm drink im rotating around no ice for few hours used it all may God have mercy on my soul

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:24:51 2017 No.9217967 >>9217917 like fucking whatever is laying in the fridge man

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:25:28 2017 No.9217968 >>9217797 I did that in the beginning, just allow myself every indulgence and pamper myself as compensation for the boozelessness. Quitting is easier when you're nice to yourself desu.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:27:28 2017 No.9217976 >>9217917 I make this a lot, doesn't get much simpler: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spaghetti_aglio_e_olio

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:35:01 2017 No.9217994 >>9217917 >lumber to the gas station 3 minutes from my apartment >too dizzy to see so I grab at one of the pre-made chicken sandwiches >grunt and hand my card to the cashier >eat it in the parking lost and then lumber back home

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:43:52 2017 No.9218018

>be 21
>about to be 22(september)
>thinking of having a glass of whiskey a night
>kinda like a hobby so my fat ass doesnt over eat
>also wanna be drunk bc aw yeah

Is this how addiction starts?

Do you guys believe in the alcoholism gene meme?

How did you guys get addicted?

Im curious, i dont wanna end up addicted,

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 01:48:49 2017 No.9218033 >>9218018 don't get addicted it's that simple

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:04:31 2017 No.9218071

>tfw on the last beer you're allowing yourself for the night
>still going to wake up later, and go to work later, than you want to

I hate myself in the mornings for going in late, but at least I don't want to kill myself every night over everything else.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:05:14 2017 No.9218073 >>9217994 >the parking lost existential as fuck

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:08:11 2017 No.9218081

>>9216709
>tfw nobody around here has Mickeys in a 40

I saw that up in Iowa, of all places, when I was there for a conference. It was awesome. It still just doesn't quite compare to the comfiness of the grenade bottles with the riddles under the cap. I was planning to make a beer pong table with the caps arranged out under plexiglass a couple years ago. I gave up on that when all my friends left our city to pursue their careers, and I no longer have a real party crew, besides assholes I don't actually like.

killme

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:08:17 2017 No.9218082

>>9218018
for me it was parties and stuff, at first i never even liked it but I noticed everyone loved me as a drunk and when i was sobre they would ask me what was wrong with me. this was in highschool (34 wiz neet) kept going on for a while got on heroin with a buddy of mine and we spent like a whole 3 years just snorting dozing off playing vid games. after that my friend went crazy addict and i just went back to booze. its not a typical story but its mine. i mean the hardest part is knowing for like 3 bucks I can have a blast even tho im fucking up.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:09:39 2017 No.9218094 >>9217491 This happens with literally any song I like and listen to that mentions any sort of alcohol.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:12:41 2017 No.9218098

>>9218018
For me, I was only drinking on weekends, and only when I was at parties, when I was underaged. And I rarely went to parties. Then, I started going out with friends more, and it was every weekend night. Then, I would get some friends to buy me fifths or thirty packs here and there, and I'd get drunk a couple nights a week. Then I stopped that out of fear, but then I turned 21, and started drinking a couple beers every night. It snowballs quick.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:15:30 2017 No.9218103 lads my buddy's girlfriend of 5 years was killed by a 4 time repeat offender drunk driver. What can I do to help him should I keep him off the sauce

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:16:37 2017 No.9218104
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>>9218018
>How did you guys get addicted?

>like to drink for its own sake, both taste and effect
>also like how it helps me want to and be able to be social
>feels good
>want to feel good a lot
>start to depend on it for any and all voluntary socialising
>drink a lot
>drink every day
>start earlier in the day when possible because drinking is nice
>sort of start to drink earlier in the day because it helps do away with bad effects of the night before as well
>the loop between the last drink before bed and the first drink the next day gets tighter and tighter
>at some point you have your first drink of the day before the last booze of the day is out of your system
>body starts to get used to perpetually have alcohol in it and learns to cope with this
>basically tries to set itself up to function normally even though the cunt of a conscious mind sabotages this with near constant intake of depressants
>body hates you for it but learns to cope since it's your poor servant and always tries to make due with whatever abuse you throw at it
>coping under pressure has become the new normal now
>you are now physically dependant on this new status quo to function
>removing the depressant throws everything off balance, kind of like one team in a tug of war suddenly releasing the rope
>go into withdrawal whenever you cease constant depressant in take
>live your life miserably, sick and enslaved and in constant anxiety about the supply of the external substance you can now not go without for more than a few hours
>from here on out you can either taper and readjust to sobriety/moderation slowly or escalate into misery beyond your imagination

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:17:30 2017 No.9218106

>>9217857
Tonight is 2nd night for me too. 31. Depending on where you are in your alcism, you may need to taper. Elsewise, good lord, be prepared for an awful ride.

I'm using some shit 6% sangria. The point of tapering is to keep the fits and shakes at bay, allowing your body to comfortably adjust to the lack of alcohol.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:19:01 2017 No.9218111

>>9218018
Everyone in my family besides my mom+dad are alcoholics. Cousins/aunts/uncles/grandparents before they died. All alcoholics. Our family parties are just get togethers where everyone gets wasted . I grew up with my uncle who is only 5 years older than I am. He used to throw lan parties every weekend and give me alcohol from when I was around 14 years old. He never bought it for me or encouraged it but would give me a few beers on weekends. I guess that is where it began.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:22:52 2017 No.9218120 >>9218094 Shows and films, too. Booze is such a part of the herd mentality and culture. I firmly believe alcs in / working on recovery really spot the clutches it has within culture.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:25:25 2017 No.9218128 >>9218120 >watching mad men when trying to be sober and cigarette free wew lad

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 02:43:17 2017 No.9218178

>>9218104

For some reason, i self regulate on everything except food and DMT. Alcohol, weed, speed, opiates, etc, are only desirable insofar as they are novel, and i just stop using them when they get too 'normal' to me.

But food, i will just eat and eat. And get fat. And lazy and depressed. Unless i have DMT, in the form of 0-acetylpsilocin. As long as i maintain a blood saturation of DMT, i stay thin and healthy with a socially life and responsibilities.but i've come to accept the fact that i am permanently addicted to DMT and will require about a tenth of a gram of psilacetin a day for the rest of my life.

This costs me six to ten dollars a day, but thats not too bad, if thats that it takes to be a good person. I just wish i could have a prescription and healthcare to pay for it like a normal person.

I do 'trip' at first when getting back into DMT but after acclimating the DMT stops making you trip but continues to have a sustainable effect of calmness and deliberation. This is suspect is physiological in action, less like being on a 'drug' and more like being on a blood pressure medication. You don't develop a tolerance to cholesterol meds, and similarly once you can tolerate DMTs psychological effect it just acts as a medicine in very obscure ways. It makes you take life very seriously. You feel real meaning and consequence in the things you do.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:01:16 2017 No.9218223 king of the hill is the only show i can enjoy at night when sober, even with alamo beer being there in every episode it's the GOAT, but the cigarette episode in season one makes me smoke every time i see it

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:16:30 2017 No.9218258 >>9218104 >my life the post you can't be hungover if you're still drunk from last night. right anon? too bad I work in a bar. I hope to die soon

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:32:11 2017 No.9218302 >>9218178 Very interesting. Does the daily dose actually influence your hunger/desire or does it influence the way you cope with it and impulse control? Also, what happens to your social life and responsibility without it?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:36:49 2017 No.9218317 >>9218258 Being close to the booze might be hard when trying to get sober but doesn't seeing the pathetic drunks help? Or is it a hip bar without alcie regulars?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:38:26 2017 No.9218323 >>9218178 Always wanted to dry DMT. Never knew how to get it. I can't even find a pot dealer where I live.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:39:52 2017 No.9218326 >>9218323 lol go in drunk no fear! but it is like psychs and will actually kill the addiction unless you go back

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:40:01 2017 No.9218328 >>9216337 Thanks senpai

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:42:16 2017 No.9218332 >>9218326 I'm not worried about trying it, I just have no idea where to even get it. I'm a shut in neet with no friends

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:46:20 2017 No.9218342 >>9218332 online innit

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:48:12 2017 No.9218347 >>9218342 I have no one to teach me how to do it. All the threads I see on buying psychs online seem like honeypots. I guess this is why I'm an alkie. I can just go buy it from the store with no worries or hassle.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:53:42 2017 No.9218364 stomach hurts. shiting blood. pretty sure im dying peace out bros

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 03:55:44 2017 No.9218368 >>9218317 Constantly telling myself "I'm not as bad as them" as I walk over and pour my 6th Jameson shot in 3 hrs

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:04:58 2017 No.9218386 fucking hell if i could only stop drinking and smoking, my body is at the "fucking please stop" but my mind is at the "go harder" level

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:05:53 2017 No.9218388 >>9218368 >6 shots in 3 hours wew lad. try 6 shots in 30 mins and you might have a place here

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:08:00 2017 No.9218390 >>9218388 >>>9218368 >>6 shots in 3 hours >wew lad. try 6 shots in 30 mins and you might have a place here Fr. Every time I drink, i go hard and fast. I go for higher proofs and percentages for thus reason.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:09:26 2017 No.9218393

>>9216142
here's what happened to me with dts
>drinking atleast a fifth of vodka a day for 6-8 months, not drinking much water
>eating an actual meal about once every 3 days, so pretty much not at all
>try to stop several times, fail
>decide to go cold turkey, but have pint of vodka for backup
>a day and a half in, withdrawals have become unbearable
>having a panic attack while finally breaking and deciding i must drink
>hands have cramped up, but somehow manage to grasp bottle with eagle claw hand, kek
>shaking badly, spill it all over my shirt, but after i get first few drinks in, feel better
>drink rest of bottle, and decide to try to sleep
>sleep for 2 hours, wake up with awful nightmares
>still feel fine
>decide i am in the clear and browse internet for a bit
>everything seems fine, but suddenly heart starts beating through the roof with absolutely no warning
>begin pacing around room, grab keys to get in car to get bottle, but feel as if i'm having an fucking heart attack
>last thing i remember before falling down is looking in the mirror and seeing myself looking extremely pale with sweat beads dripping down my face
i think now, i may have had a seizure, and this is what caused me to fall
>when i come out of "seizure" all limbs are locked
>begin to hallucinate heavily, try to get up but can't
>still feel as if i am in control, but that fades

but ya i can explain the hallucinations and what exactly happened in another post if you are still there and concerned, anon

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:17:10 2017 No.9218411

>stop drinking for a few days
>sudden appetite
>eat ridiculous shit because cravings
>constipated for 2 days
>finally take a shit
>ripped my asshole wide open
>still can't walk without hurting

is this what women feel when i fuck them in the ass? cause i might stop

jk i won't

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:48:35 2017 No.9218516
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I just got out of the hospital two days ago. I was trying to taper and it didn't go as planned and I wound up outside passed out on the front lawn and the neighbors called an ambulance. I had a torn esophagus from puking and was shitting blood in my pants. I had been drinking unknown amounts of vodka every day since February (no job). I am home now and debating what to do.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:59:07 2017 No.9218533 >>9218516 these posts make me feel not as bad... but fuck man time to get that detox

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 04:59:23 2017 No.9218534 >>9218516 The only thing left to do is all you can do.

>>	croctails Wed Jul 26 05:01:49 2017 No.9218542 >>9218393 go on i am here

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:08:28 2017 No.9218556 >>9218364 Fresh blood or black blood? >>9218516 >I am home now and debating what to do. Well, you went through withdrawals, now for sober life and PAWS for a while.

croctails Wed Jul 26 05:16:49 2017 No.9218565

>>9215891
so any injuries

>busted knee from doing a shawn michaels pose in 2000
>got drunk as fuck locked in a bathroom
>taking a piss I fell backwards and landed on my elbow... three months later my elbow is set no movement besides a lil up and down.
>a year passes and i finally get the chance for surgery goes alright get mad oxycontins...
>two weeks ago step off a curb drunk as fuck going to the bar with a buddy walking....
>literally screaming in the middle of the street crawling to a sidewalk.
>finally get up and manage to hobble to the bar
>now just recovering almost back in the game...

holy fuck im made of glass!

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:17:06 2017 No.9218566 >>9215891 >2 to 3 pints a week How fucked am I /ck/?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:23:11 2017 No.9218583 >>9218566 More so than normies but still well into managable territory. Question: how many ml is a pint bottle of liquor in the US?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:28:02 2017 No.9218588 >>9218583 350ml me tinks >>9218583

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:31:45 2017 No.9218594 >>9216007 go overachieve somewhere else faggot

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:32:09 2017 No.9218595 >>9218393 If you're still here, please do describe the hallucinations and any other details. I find this kind of shit fascinating

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:43:01 2017 No.9218608 >>9218588 I see, that's just half a standard European bottle. I thought it would be closer to 500ml.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:44:21 2017 No.9218613 >>9218583 >>9218588 a pint is like 473ml, so I guess 500 would be a round number.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:51:35 2017 No.9218623

>>9218613
That's an American pint of beer, but when you lookup pint bottles in American online liquor stores you get 375ml.

As if the botched American version of already dysfunctional British measurement isn't enough they decide to introduce ambivalence. Fucking hell.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:51:51 2017 No.9218624 >>9218583 It's about 8.4 shots, using a 1.5oz shot glass..

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 05:53:19 2017 No.9218627 >>9218608 So what is your revaluation? Please not trying to be an asshole

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:05:33 2017 No.9218639 >>9218627 Well obviously drinking 1050 or 1125ml a week is better than drinking 1500ml a week m8. Seems like the equivalent of a couple of beers a day. Rather trivial compared to all the dying cunts itt.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:06:17 2017 No.9218641
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>>9216103
>tv honking like a goose
>shot the tv

No really I get this, I tore my computer apart trying to find out why gin blossoms songs were on repeat coming from my motherboard, turns out I was psychotic and the fan was making me hear it. AC kicked on and the song got louder. Withdrawal is a fucking shitstorm..

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:06:58 2017 No.9218645 >>9218639 I should add, binging in itself is quite harmful. So if you chug one of those pints three times a week you're doing worse than spreading it out.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:11:56 2017 No.9218653
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4th day sober. Past the frantic vomiting and screaming stage, just entered the utterly horrific; personal-hell WD nightmare stage.
Why do they always have to be about my beloved oneitis? Fuck me, it's been 5 motherfucking years and I'm still utterly tortured. Everything still reminds me of her. Alcohol isn't the hardest addiction to quit, love is.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:14:44 2017 No.9218656 File: 57 KB, 850x400, jack re cigars vs cigarettes.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >mfw going to the weed shop today

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:16:38 2017 No.9218660

>>9218653
You were in an actual relationship with her?

The only way I could conceive of not getting over someone was if they were mostly an elaborate romanticised abstraction in my head rather than a person I had real experience with. A real person that you know is just a person that takes big fat shits.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:17:53 2017 No.9218663 >>9218645 Which alcoholic, "spreads them out?"

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:23:25 2017 No.9218670 >>9218663 I know people who drink a lot and are alcoholics by normie standards but rarely get drunk. They just keep a steady glow going from late morning to bedtime every day forever.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:32:15 2017 No.9218686 >>9218660 >relationship? For 11 years

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:37:08 2017 No.9218694

Lads, how bad is drinking 2 tall boy miller lite's every night? I'm down from drinking 6 tall boy 6.9% waukee best or a bottle of Even williams every 2 days. I'm staying under 2k calories a day so I can't drink like I want to any more.

I figure 2 lite tall boy beers a night during the week then weekends I splurge and eat less but drink whiskey or vodka to keep myself from going crazy. I'm not trying to quit or taper off. This is strictly to lose weight. I've gone sober for a few months before and my situation got much worse.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:38:13 2017 No.9218696

>>9218670
So their liver is under constant attack.. I give mine at least 2 days in between binges.. but I guess I see your point... I'm so fucked.. I've been drinking like this for 3 years... I took 6 months off back in 2014, but I didn't realize I was this fucked..

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:40:52 2017 No.9218699

>>9218686
>For 11 years

sorry dude, only advice I can give you is you need to change your perception of her in order to move on, if you could erase your memories of her would you? If the answer is no then you need to start with wanting to forget her, in the least, and dont be angry at yourself - ever.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:45:10 2017 No.9218705 >>9218696 Half a bottle three times a week isn't that fucked at all m8

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 06:46:12 2017 No.9218709 >>9218686 Jesus that is long, in that case I can understand

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 07:34:38 2017 No.9218938 >>9216007 Boo fucking hoo.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 07:38:26 2017 No.9218947 >>9216053 Those look vile. It's no wonder he pawned them off on you.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 07:38:43 2017 No.9218948 Ok anons. Today is the day I stop drinking. RIP fallen bros and thanks for the motivation to actually stop.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 07:47:06 2017 No.9218961 File: 801 KB, 810x1440, 1494320072092.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9218694 >miller lite You cant be an alcoholic without alcohol m8. Nothing to worry here.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 07:48:50 2017 No.9218963 >>9218948 its gonna be cold tonight, better get some Sherry

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 07:51:39 2017 No.9218969 >>9218393 Same happened to me about 60 hours into withdrawal. Blood pressure spikes out of nowhere.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 07:55:26 2017 No.9218976 >>9218516 Good you got medical help. Intended or not. Ask a doc for naltrexone. Covers physical urges but not triggers like boredom or loneliness. The good thing is you won't enjoy the effects of alcohol much.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:30:10 2017 No.9219048 How many calories are in a beer anyway? I'm trying to lose weight but fuck quitting drinking

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:34:07 2017 No.9219055 >>9219048 drink lite beer if you're fagging out you faggot

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:35:19 2017 No.9219057 >>9219055 Why the fuck would I do that? The beer I drink is 7%

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:37:54 2017 No.9219063 >>9219057 then drink appletini's if you're trying to lose weight

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:46:11 2017 No.9219073 >>9219048 YouTube "vaping alcohol". If you're only a beer drinker you'll still get buzzed, but literally 0 calories.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:48:46 2017 No.9219078

>>9218302

It makes me honestly ask and honestly answer myself if i am eating because i need nourishment or because i have deep emotional problems regarding it. And the reasonable eating quickly becomes a habit.

As for social life and responsibilities, it makes you permanently charismatic and outgoing instead of withdrawn and reclusive. You bring contentment to all you do so you dont avoid chores or projects. If you wanted a job you could just walk outside, strike up conversations about guys, elicit whether or not their job is hiring, whether they actually knew or not, and then just go talk to their boss and get hired. You become capable of having any beliefs or personality you want, instantaniously, and there is no longer a bunch of negative thoughts and feelings in your head. They got burned out in mutually assured psychic destruction during the break-in stage of DMT saturation.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:54:22 2017 No.9219088

>>9219063
>>9219073
I'm barely scraping by with the amount of alcohol I consume, though leaving out food for some time (except for the occasional small bite once a day) should get me some leeway with money
I'm still interested in the range, 1 0.5l 7% beer, ~100kcal? 200?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:55:50 2017 No.9219092

If anyone is trying to taper / reduce intake and doesnt have access to naltrexone, you should give chamomile tea a try. Dump a heap of teabags into a pot and sip on it throughout the night.

It basically does everything that is good for withdrawal: gaba-a positive allosteric modulation (same as benzos), nmda antagonism, and opioid antagonism.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:56:17 2017 No.9219093 >>9219088 No idea, but can't you just look at the nutritional info on one of the cans?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 08:56:29 2017 No.9219094 Singapore?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:00:37 2017 No.9219100

broke up with my gf yesterday. we'd just drifted apart these last few months. mostly her fault to be honest, and a bit mine

i don't wanna go the rest of my life without her in it, but i guess we need to

we've broken up for exactly the same reasons and then gotten back together twice before. i don't think we can allow ourselves to get back together a third time. this will just happen again

i just hate not being in an relationship. it's so daunting

this is not gonna be good for my drinking :(

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:03:44 2017 No.9219111 >>9219093 There is none of that shit here, absolutely nothing.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:08:37 2017 No.9219124 >>9219111 Where's that? It's mandatory here I'd be scared to live somewhere that allows shit food to be imposed on its people. Bet GMO's don't have to be labelled either?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:10:38 2017 No.9219134 >>9219124 It's only alcohol where it isn't mandatory

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:35:03 2017 No.9219203 File: 543 KB, 538x441, mokko.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9218656 >mfw back

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:44:40 2017 No.9219223 famous grose reporting in, spreading wiings to fly.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:52:47 2017 No.9219250 File: 26 KB, 382x592, 81.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9218653 >being an alcohol >expecting to have a gril

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 09:55:16 2017 No.9219259 >>9219250 there are wonderfull slpeeny women out there, drinking red wine and looking like leatherbags. go for it.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:15:39 2017 No.9219325

Upon quitting, do you find there to be common patterns in the stages of withdrawal? For me it's always
>screaming, vomiting, hallucinating, petrifying phase
>unbelievably bad nightmare phase
>mood swing phase
>feelgood phase
>craving phase
>relapse phase
I assume that were it not for the last one I'd hit PAWS, but I've never got that far. Any treats I'm yet to encounter before a lifetime of crippling depression?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:17:31 2017 No.9219333 File: 195 KB, 1600x1195, IMG_0649.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9219259 Nope, I want one like this or NOTHING AT ALL. Wonder which I'll get.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:27:15 2017 No.9219358 >>9215891 I'm getting SO fat. Gonna have to switch to blow for a couple of weeks. It'll thin out my wallet too so no more fast food.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:28:18 2017 No.9219363 >>9219100 Fuck you, I've been single my whole life.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:29:20 2017 No.9219365 >>9219092 Or just weed.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:45:41 2017 No.9219404
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Just smoked a bit of weed for the first time in years to try out as an alternative to drinking in case I get fed up with being sober. Feeling happy, smiley and relaxed but not tired. Based sativas.

In the past weed used to make me sad but I guess I'm in a better place now.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:50:02 2017 No.9219419 >>9219404 Yeah but you are now manually breathing

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:52:06 2017 No.9219430 >>9219419 Literally made me lol. I'm not used to this stuff anymore lads

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 10:57:22 2017 No.9219443 >>9219419 Can you feel that? It's your tongue squirming around in your mouth.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 11:03:36 2017 No.9219463 >>9217801 getting retarded drunk off whiskey and listening to this is pure euphoria. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aowSGxim_O8

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 11:36:55 2017 No.9219564
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>>9218178
man ive smoked dmt about 30 times. always on top of a leaf bowl(usually pot) and after actually breaking through the first time my psyche was so fucked for a few days. it really does change the way you perceive things in life permanetly. i have only done it 3 times since then and i have 2 grams sitting up in my stash. i couldn't even imagine doing it for any extended period of time or wanting to.... im curious as to how you started doing dmt on a daily basis? like what in the fuck man? it was such an intense experience for me when it happened that i didn't touch it for almost a year and then only because we were at a festival and the setting and vibe felt right in our little campsite.
>elaborate please never heard of anyone addicted to a triptamine

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 11:39:25 2017 No.9219567 >>9218347 r/darknet markets >inb4 le reddit fuck off

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 11:53:31 2017 No.9219612
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4 days sober. Feel really confident about stopping this time.

I got scared because I started having health problems. I came into a white sock and I looked at it the next day and there was loads of blood in my semen. That and I had to go to hospital numerous times for bad accidents I had when I was drunk.

For some reason remembering that feeling when you come back home with a shitload of booze, knowing you're gonna have a good time is making me feel good about stopping. Like a 'i've had my fun' kind of feel, now I have to move on with my life.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 11:56:56 2017 No.9219625

Please stay on subject, folks. These threads will disintegrate if they become 'addiction generals'. I'm a former user of any drug I could get my hands on, but al/ck/ needs to focus specifically on alcoholism, how it affects people and what can be done to combat it. If things become too scattered the threads will lose impact.
>>9219567
For anyone who does want to try other substances in an attempt to escape booze, and Christ knows I did for years, this anon is right. Just be careful.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 11:59:48 2017 No.9219637 >>9219612 Day 4 here too. Have the nightmares begun yet for you? Last night was bad. More than anything I want sleep, but at the same time I'm scared of sleeping because I know I'll see her, and it won't end well.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:02:11 2017 No.9219645 >>9219612 As he said, it doesn't make you trip when taken daily.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:25:17 2017 No.9219723 Stop going cold turkey you fucking retards

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:28:15 2017 No.9219733

>>9219564

Smoking dmt isnt the way to go. Ive smoked a shit ton of n,n-DMT but 4-aco-DMT is far superior, you just swallow it and it lasts about eight hours.

Getting high is not the goal. The goal is to become adapted to the DMT state so that DMT doesnt even faze you. From there, therepeutic medicinal use on a daily basis for the rest of your life is possible. If you are not dissatisfied with your life its not worth it. The whole euphoric epiphany thing is powerful, but it wont substitute for a continuous state of enhanced gravity and meaning to life, which is the function of such treatment.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:28:23 2017 No.9219735 >>9219723 Not everyone has access to medical assistance and successfully >>9219723 tapering is a damn myth.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:47:06 2017 No.9219796 >>9216493 Fuckin shit bro. You're like the Nathan's Hotdog eating champion, but with booze.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:49:23 2017 No.9219804 >>9219092 No joke? All that stuff? I will buy some TODAY.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:52:32 2017 No.9219819 >>9219796 Don't believe everything you read, dude. Until I see pics of a rotting living environment and a million empties, I'm not convinced.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 12:57:23 2017 No.9219839 >>9215891 I woke up this morning and I had wet the bed, big time. Fortunately, it was totally clear piss, just a lot of it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:19:57 2017 No.9219915 >>9219839 had one of those dreams about taking a nice leisurely piss, huh

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:24:13 2017 No.9219931 >>9219839 >>9219915 >Tfw wear jeans when I sleep >Tfw scared I'm gonna start pissing myself in my sleep if i keep going on drinking

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:30:13 2017 No.9219952 >>9219931 >>Tfw wear jeans when I sleep You mean when you accidentally pass out? Or do you voluntarily wear those things in bed?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:32:54 2017 No.9219959 >>9219952 It's easier to get up when you're already wearing jeans

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:37:36 2017 No.9219974 >>9219959 Not living life with a pair of pj's on under everything you wear every day.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:37:37 2017 No.9219975 >>9219959 Pretty much this. With WD shakes, getting my key in the door to get to the booze shop can take over a minute, the last thing I need is to have to wrestle with a pair of jeans too.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:42:22 2017 No.9219984 i've been dry for the last few months while I've been on this job but i've been told I'm being dismissed. I went to the pub and drank two pints for lunch and I'm working through more now.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 13:52:11 2017 No.9220028 >>9219959 I only wear jeans outside of the house to pretend to be a normie, as soon as I get home it's old ratty sweatpants.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 14:15:06 2017 No.9220108 >>9219959 RIP nocturnal erection

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 14:32:19 2017 No.9220181 File: 83 KB, 396x385, 1436780479264.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >tfw one of the stores on my beer buying rotation gets a new cashier Got a few weeks before she knows I'm a drunk loser

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 16:48:53 2017 No.9220701 Sobriety is fucking miserable. Even when in the hellish depths of serious alcoholism, at least I enjoy a few hours every day. Now everything is always shit.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 16:58:43 2017 No.9220738 >>9218641 >Fans playing music during withdrawals Honestly. wtf is with that? The second time I had withdrawals this year the fan started playing a complicated guitar melody then into some kind of symphony I've never heard before.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:01:49 2017 No.9220749

>>9220181
>>tfw one of the stores on my beer buying rotation gets a new cashier
>Got a few weeks before she knows I'm a drunk loser
Buy in bulk. Be a social beast who is shopping for parties. Throw in a bag of ice to really send the fun times tonight message.

Don't sadly buy the pork rinds with one six pack at a time. It's obvious that way.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:03:45 2017 No.9220759

4th month here sober. feeling great mentally. I do not have the cravings like some of you do, but I miss having a drink to take off the edge and chill. I went through delirium tremens, but at a hospital.
I know I will drink some day, but now I know symptoms before going through the event horizon, so that means I will take long breaks between drinking. Doable, I did pauses before for days, mentally I can take it, it's different story once it goes physical, which is why I must be careful.

anyway, I wish you all a great day.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:05:39 2017 No.9220766 File: 36 KB, 489x423, 1497026127694.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9220028 had the same dirty ball sweat basketball shorts on in the house for months

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:08:57 2017 No.9220779 I swear if I didn't have a family, had unlimited funds and some dynamite, I would LOVE to drink myself to as close a point of death as possible, then pull the pin. No kidding, that is my fucking dream life.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:23:14 2017 No.9220844 >>9216493 post pics of your empty booze bottles laying all around the house, you could be the new smirnoffbro

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:36:21 2017 No.9220896

>>9220738
Hallucinations. It start with this kind of shit.

>>9220749
>Have a big party every 3 days, since I alternate 3 stores.
>5/7 of them on weekdays.
>Buy a bottle of vodka, no chaser, food for one person.
>Alternative is to buy 7 bottles with a week worth of food, not the party kind, but whatever a chronic alcoholic can keep down.
There is a point it'll be obvious anyway.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:40:58 2017 No.9220908 >usually drink vodka >switch to whiskey oh good god im fucked

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:43:29 2017 No.9220915 >>9220701 you say that until you enjoy a few days of being drunk then go through serious withdrawals again

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:43:30 2017 No.9220916 >>9220766 That's why I like jeans, they never EVER get dirty Literally have to wash them once a year

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:44:35 2017 No.9220918 >>9220738 >>9218641 Kind of wish I could experience that without getting brain damage'd first by kindling

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:45:26 2017 No.9220919 >>9220759 If you've ever had DT's is it safe to get drunk one night a week? Or would that rekindle more withdrawals

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:47:37 2017 No.9220926 >>9220759 How can you tell when it goes physical? Are withdrawals the only thing that will tell you?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 17:53:22 2017 No.9220941

>>9220779
i guess you're dead for them already

i,by myself am drinking about every second day.
and once i've startet i'm in the mood to drink another 10 or 12 beers. and the other second days i am a wreck, thinking about the loves that i've had and how pleasent it would be to have another girfriend
by now i'm at my sixth or seven'th beer, and there's no satisfaction at all
i guess i need another woman in my life, but i hate most of them

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:04:30 2017 No.9220972

For the people asking "how long until I...", "how much do I have to drink to..." type questions, the answer is that everyone is different. Some people here have been drunk longer than many here have been alive, some are fucked almost immediately.

http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/girl-aged-just-13-destroys-5836001

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:10:35 2017 No.9220981

>>9219819
>>9220844
I've been dry a little while and didn't do that for near as long as Smirnoffbro. Would have probably ended up in his situation if I kept going and lived long enough (may still if I fuck up again), but to this point I've always had jobs and kept my place clean despite being drunk.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:19:54 2017 No.9220995

>thinking all day I'm off tomorrow and gonna get shittered, planning out my day
>1 hour before end, someone isn't in tomorrow so said I need to cover

Is there a worse feeling. Feel like crying. I need these binges it gives me something to look forward to.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:21:11 2017 No.9221000 >>9220908 what kind of backwards alckie move is that?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:23:41 2017 No.9221008 >>9220995 Also I quit for 4 months before drinking again and most mornings i wake up thinking I'm in some other place and I've got to clean up. I end up cleaning up and realising i didn't need to and going back to sleep. It's worse when I drink

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:29:50 2017 No.9221025 Liver protruding and hurts like a motherfucker to touch. So scary that I turn to drink. What the fuck kind of logic is that?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:33:14 2017 No.9221034
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Anyone else shit blood after binge drinking? I'll get diarrhea and after two or three bowel movements I'll squirt out this bloody, deep red liquid. Lower part of my intestines will feel all cramped up the day after drinking. I don't drink during the week but I will drink a fuckton (like 10-15 beers a night) during the weekend.

Also I've been having these weird internal pains, I almost think it's my liver but I'm not sure.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:35:25 2017 No.9221039 >>9221034 I shit blood everyday but it's worse when I drink think it's roids

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:37:44 2017 No.9221044 >>9221039 I don't do roids though and generally eat healthy

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:39:49 2017 No.9221050 >>9221044 hemorrhoids dumbass

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:44:56 2017 No.9221072 >>9221039 you're gonna know when its roids man roid blood is bright red because its fresh, if you have blood in your shit it will be almost black turning your shit the same color

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:45:08 2017 No.9221073 >>9221034 Started like that for me. Now I shit blood up to 30 times a day, every day. Alcohol gave me ulcerative colitis. Thousands of tiny ulcers lining my large intestine for life. Super happy about it. Still drunk daily.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 18:47:46 2017 No.9221078 >>9221050 Are you genuinely autistic?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 19:13:43 2017 No.9221147 >tfw going to have 13 bottles of moonshine in a few days Going to enjoy responsibly I hope.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 19:26:44 2017 No.9221191 >>9221147 >going to enjoy responsibly oh thats a joke

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 19:36:27 2017 No.9221227 coming up on 6 months sober feels very good still recovering my neuropathy though

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 19:47:20 2017 No.9221264 >>9221227 How the hell is 6 months even possible? Did you find some completely new purpose in life or something?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 19:58:39 2017 No.9221309
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They are recruiting animals , I notice them outside watching me.
My refrigerator is on my back porch and the animals watch me get beer out of it.
They cannot poison my aluminum cans.
How do I remove the scout animals before they tip them off to my patterns?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:05:07 2017 No.9221341
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>>9221309
They also built a temple on my property and I am frightened to remove it. So I have been trying to place large rocks around it in a circle to trap them but they rearrange it. So far the rocks have removed a fair quarter of the branches.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:09:22 2017 No.9221358 >>9221264 16 months here. I realized drinking was going to end what little life I had left. I battled with it for nearly 15 years, though. I was tired of fighting

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:11:38 2017 No.9221363 >>9221264 almost died due to liver failure (drank hard for about 3 years) used to be a regular al/ck/ poster

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:12:59 2017 No.9221369 >>9221309 You need antipsychotics man. Are you still stuck home looking after an old lady? Is that your squirrel taking a nap in a hammock? At one point you said you realised it was only in your head. What made you rationalize?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:19:29 2017 No.9221394
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>>9221369
No I left her home and fled.
Yes my squirrel has been trained to lay on his back in a hammock and guard my backdoor to my refrigerator.
Also it is not just in my head and I found evidence on many occasions.
They almost got me through my window which is being renovated so it was open.
They also move under the cover ofthe storms so its hard to track their movements. Could using mint flavored products keep scout animals away? It seems to work when I test them on the captured scouts.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:22:02 2017 No.9221404 >>9221369 Also it is only in my head when I freak out that they are in Tennessee. With me. But I moved to Alabama, home of the rivergnomes. They are real here

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:22:40 2017 No.9221406

>>9221309
eat them. whats eaten cannot watch
hah, guess who's sitting and watching while your canned beer gets filled
i'm not an animal and i don't watch you and your beer, but there re ants an bees and flies everywhere. it's normal, don't freak out
just think of waht they culd do to you in the worst case...they can watch you. they can't harm you, unless you're a pussy.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:24:54 2017 No.9221419 Saw two drunken fucktards beat the piss out of each other last night while trying to watch the new twin peaks. One got punched in the face, ear, and chipped a tooth (worst off), the other re injured a spot on his leg. Morons.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:35:46 2017 No.9221437 >>9221341 Guess i'll be the one to say it if nobody else will. Is that a fucking squirrel in a hammock?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:38:43 2017 No.9221448 How much do you guys drink?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:39:56 2017 No.9221456 >>9221448 few light beers

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:41:53 2017 No.9221462 >>9221406 No insects and regular animals dont scare me but the gnome scouts do.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:42:17 2017 No.9221466 >>9215891 I'm pr5etty ucked. 'm drunk I need to tapper down but It's been hard, so far.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:44:24 2017 No.9221477 File: 1.44 MB, 2592x1456, WP_20170726_011.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221437 He is my guard squirrel

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:48:01 2017 No.9221497 >>9221394 What animals are the scouts? Frogs?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:49:03 2017 No.9221503 >>9221466 I dont want to drink. I do it to avoid consequnces

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:55:07 2017 No.9221533
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>>9221497
Frogs and toads mostly. Previously is was squirrels but I domesticated or eliminated all of them. Sometimes small furbeasts.
There is also an internal civil war for lack of better words and the gnomes have split into two groups and are fighting so they leave me alone typically.
The loyalists and the heretics I have dubbed them. The heretics are helping me by fighting with the gnomes. Although they will still gnome my dome if I get too close.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:55:26 2017 No.9221535 >>9221462 You need to watch the movie 'Bug'. At once.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:56:22 2017 No.9221543 File: 20 KB, 400x400, dr-steve-brule.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221477 Awesome

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:56:47 2017 No.9221547 >>9221533 >>9221394 What am I seeing in these pics

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 20:59:46 2017 No.9221567 File: 261 KB, 1039x559, 1491836611573.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221533 >gnome my dome

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:00:00 2017 No.9221568 >>9221535 In fact everyone does. This is what psychosis can do to you, and booze abuse often causes psychosis/schizophrenia-like shit. I'm on quetiapine because of booze.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:14:05 2017 No.9221628 File: 1.23 MB, 2592x1456, WP_20170726_012.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] The other night I had a close encounter with a gnome and he harmed me. I now have these trendy scabs and some on my arms and hands.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:22:13 2017 No.9221658 >every day and night drink vodka >wake up in morning with feces in bed >drink more as soon as i wake up >cannot tolerate this life but cannot give up drink

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:26:14 2017 No.9221677 >>9221658 Welcome to paradise.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:27:04 2017 No.9221685 File: 574 KB, 1209x1600, bddh.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221191 >tfwu sip from the bucket

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:32:19 2017 No.9221708 >>9221568 What symptoms did you suffer

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:36:58 2017 No.9221725
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My mom feels so bad for me because I have never had a girlfriend and I'm a lonely alcoholic. For whatever ever reason, she thought is was good idea to bring some random girl my age to the house in the hopes that we will hook up with. She introduced me to her and I was speechless. I ran in my room like an autist. What should I do? Wtf

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:38:29 2017 No.9221729 >>9221025 >Liver protruding See a doctor ASAP.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:39:34 2017 No.9221733 >>9221725 im a virgin, talk to her, fucking talk to her like a normal human being just talk to subjects and shit just dont go on her sexually at first. it's good to talk to a female if you're a guy even if casually, really.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:42:12 2017 No.9221744 >>9221729 Very very disrespectful

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:43:59 2017 No.9221755 >>9220926 Sorry for sounding rude but that sounds like a stupid question. "Going physical" i.e. physical dependence is defined by experiencing negative symptoms when you withdraw.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:45:36 2017 No.9221760 >>9221744 How so?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:47:11 2017 No.9221767

>>9221708
I was and still am to a horrible extent, scared of seemingly everything. It started in hospital while I was in the middle of a horrific withdrawal. For example, If a nurse came into the room, I'd jump backwards, fall off the bed and scramble to hide screaming in a corner. Anything which looked even slightly sinister gave me panic attacks. I used to love horror movies, but for a while I couldn't do much as watch cartoons incase one of the drawings had a scary look on its face. The simpsons Halloween specials would have had me vomiting with fear. I saw an ad for the walking dead, a still image, and had nightmares for like a month. I was put on a secure ward, sedated to hell and back, forced to see a psychiatrist and put on a load of different antipsychotics, until they settled on a cocktail of quetiapine, sedatives and an ssri, and I was allowed home.
I'm still very unwell.
And secretly I still drink. If they find out I'll be locked up again, but without it, things are too fucking scary.
I don't like talking about this, it makes my head hurt and makes me throw up.
Watch 'Bug'. Drink too much and go insane, you will see some shit.
Brb drinking too much.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:48:54 2017 No.9221776 >>9221760 Would you walk in front of congress like that?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 21:48:58 2017 No.9221777 >>9221729 I don't even want to know the prognosis.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:07:48 2017 No.9221857 How bad you all think drinking a 40 every night is? Finding that now that I work out all but 2 days a week this sates me on work nights but I prolly do at least 2 on fridays.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:15:43 2017 No.9221898

>>9221857
thats like 4 beers per night. doctors recommend no more than 2 for males per day. however, 4 beers per night wont lead to withdrawals of any significance. stick with beer, avoid wine and liquor. it may be more fattening but you wont end up like the guy in Leaving Las Vegas

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:18:34 2017 No.9221912 >>9221448 if im going all out i drink about 1 liter of liquor per 24 hours. usually do 3-4 days in a row of that. it always leads to bad withdrawals these days. the days of carefree drinking for me are over. cant do it anymore.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:21:38 2017 No.9221932 >>9221358 I think im about where you were. It gets so tiring. you really get the shit knocked out of you.

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:23:23 2017 No.9221940

>>9220995
binges are the worst. try to limit it to one day or night of drinking, then skip a couple days. if you can do that you wont get withdrawals. its when you drink hard 3-4+ days in a row that your body requires it. that is where your life becomes really shitty.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:41:29 2017 No.9222008 >>9221034 >>9221039 see a doctor immediately

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:46:56 2017 No.9222031 >>9221940 Different anon but: As kindled as I am, one night of drinking puts me in withdrawal. Never ever get kindled.

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 22:56:59 2017 No.9222076 >>9221363 How can you recover from liver failure isnt that a death sentence?

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 23:31:48 2017 No.9222214 >one night get drunk >pour wine over computer >shorts out help me

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 23:48:44 2017 No.9222275 >>9222031 iktfbro :(

>>	Anonymous Wed Jul 26 23:52:43 2017 No.9222284 >>9215891 i dont think drinking is a bad thing. If you have hangovers you are doing it wrong tho. Maybe bad alcohol?

Anonymous Wed Jul 26 23:56:51 2017 No.9222298

>>9215959
>not stocking up on alcohol that will last you weeks
casual

>>9216106
beer is light weight so try something harder in smaller quantities?

>>9216271
anxiety is a faggots excuse, my dude

>>9216909
24/7 is a thing

i dont understand you faggots, honestly.
whats this social idea that you should NOT be drinking whenever you feel like it? jesus fuck

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>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:04:21 2017 No.9222327 I like reading about your miserable lives. It makes me feel better.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:06:27 2017 No.9222336 >>9222327 I feel amazing.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:09:15 2017 No.9222339 >>9222298 t. 21 year old

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:10:37 2017 No.9222345
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>>9222076
it can recover if you stop drinking, all that means is that it stopped working (temporary or permanently)

I turned yellow and it was a 25% chance that I wouldnt make it and a 50% I would need a transplant (Im in my 20s). Turns out I was lucky and my blood levels are back to normal

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:14:21 2017 No.9222355 >>9222214 someone please help me i get so violent drunk, cannot give up the booze and i get arrested so often.

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:15:12 2017 No.9222362 [DELETED]

>>9220759
Well after my first case of DT I landed back in hospital 2 more times. It wasn't as bad as the first time, in my case I didn't get DTs ever again.

Then again maybe I didn't have DTs in the first place ? I was extremely dehydrated, and perhaps that triggered the (mild) hallucinations ? Who knows.
As for my case I think it could be safe to drink once a week, but once you start feeling any physical signs, stop immidietelly And never go with "one more drink wouldn't hurt" mentality.

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:17:58 2017 No.9222372

>>9220919
Well after my first case of DT I landed back in hospital 2 more times. It wasn't as bad as the first time, in my case I didn't get DTs ever again.

Then again maybe I didn't have DTs in the first place ? I was extremely dehydrated, and perhaps that triggered the (mild) hallucinations ? Who knows.
As for my case I think it could be safe to drink once a week, but once you start feeling any physical signs, stop immidietelly And never go with "one more drink wouldn't hurt" mentality.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:21:12 2017 No.9222385 >>9220926 it starts progressively, faster heartbeat, anxiety, insomnia, body pain. the longer you'll continue to drink, the worse it'll get. If you get those symptoms, take a longer break from drinking, for me at least 2 weeks.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:21:40 2017 No.9222389 >>9222339 24, not that it matters

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:22:04 2017 No.9222391 >>9222389 call me back in 10 years and ur attitude will have changed

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:27:10 2017 No.9222412 >>9222339 This. That faggot will have bugs waking him up in the morning if the demons running up his leg don't do it first within 5 years. We will see how macho he is when he's seizing out onto the floor.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:43:13 2017 No.9222502 didn't get the job i was going for. makes me want to start drinking again. booze: at least it's not heroin!

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:46:24 2017 No.9222519 >>9222502 Been there bud. I know it's cliche as fuck but something will come around eventually. The fact you're trying is something to be proud of as there's a lot of plebs on here who don't mind surviving on neetbucks forever.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 00:55:05 2017 No.9222576 >>9222284 You must be lost, or don't understand this thread. Most people here are drinking at levels that will kill them within 10 years. What exactly do you mean by 'drinking isnt a bad thing'?

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 01:03:54 2017 No.9222611

>>9222372
You likely didn't have DTs then. Depending on the person, but DT usually doesn't kick in until 60-72 hour mark without the hooch.

I can't remember what it's called off hand, and am too lazy to google it, but there's a withdrawal that occurs within the first 24h (and onward for a day or two) where you get auditory and slight hallucinations. With all the fun agitation, blood pressure etc. if you google it, you'll find it. (I was actually relieved when I found it, bc I thought I was literally dying from DT at 30h)

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 01:06:24 2017 No.9222627

>>9222519
>live a life with no responsibility where I don't have any deadlines or an alarm waking me up every day with 2 hours of sleep
>wake up with 2 hours of sleep and wageslave my way deeper into depression with no hope
Used to work as a welder in boilermaking. Average shift was 28 hours on 12 off 12 on then overtime on weekends. Was drinking 24/7 and put a gun to my head almost every day I had to live like that. Got on Ssi and disability 2 years ago. If I had to go back to work I would kill myself. There is no honor in doing menial labor for shit pay.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 01:26:28 2017 No.9222721 Fuck, I am so horny. How easy is it to get away with rape?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 01:41:45 2017 No.9222789 >>9222721 lots of people do get away with it, but woe if you get caught. in prison your life would be extremely unpleasant. risk-benefit analysis.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 03:02:32 2017 No.9223032 >>9222789 Yeah, I didn't rape anyone. When I drink I fantasize about it alot. Fuck, I need to get laid, maybe a escort eh

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 03:08:42 2017 No.9223054 >>9215945 this post made me want to stay sober just so i can be extra-drunk later. thanks anon.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 03:09:17 2017 No.9223055 >>9221729 Barney Frank looking disgusting, nipples protruding in his blue shirt in front of congress. Very, very disrespectful

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 03:28:20 2017 No.9223089

>>9221733
You know the fucked up thing about this situation is. The fucking chick is sleeping in room next to me, eh. I am so freak out. I am coming down from my booze and I don't know why my mom would do this to me. This has been a very strange night. I'm starting to think my mom is a dyke with this bitch, but fuck she is hot

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 03:29:42 2017 No.9223094 >Doctor wants me to go in for an endoscopy. >"Don't drive after, the medicine will make you feel drunk." >Had to suppress the smart ass inside of me that wanted to say "Pssh, I used to do that all the time."

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 03:54:14 2017 No.9223157 >Drink >Do stupid shit >Drink when I wake up to forget >Repeat ad infinitum

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 03:57:30 2017 No.9223171
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Saw my dying alkie uncle today, age 62. He's been in a sedated coma for about two weeks to help prevent the seizures caused by end stage alcohol epilepsy. Last one that put him into intensive care, soon to be hospice, was so bad he bit his tongue in half.

For him, it was a slow, hellish decline. He'd been a proud machinist, a farmer, and a heavy beer drinker into his early fifties. He bought a farm in the 90s for his horses and drove two hours every day to his job near Chicago to keep it. He loved those horses up until he couldn't care for them anymore, and watched the county take them away earlier this year.

Last ten years, he hit the whiskey bottle progressively harder. One day he stopped working and "retired early." The long term memory problems and bad nutrition came after that. Then the seizures began.

Slow and benign at first. Then frequent and an absolute bitch.

He hasn't driven for a year and a half. His old truck is still sitting at his farm, two tires deflated. It's eerily quiet without any animals or activity now.

His wife was the chief enabler who kept bringing him booze. She was his girlfriend forever and married him shortly after he got out of his last big hospital stint, when the ascites ballooned his legs like an elephant.

I knew he wasn't long for this world when that happened. I always thought his failing liver would get him before the brain stuff. But the constant, poorly controlled seizures are making his death slow, painful and horrifying to watch.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 04:17:43 2017 No.9223207 >>9223171 Wow, shit man. Sorry you've had to witness the staunch decline. Are you yourself an alc? I am, and its stories like you've shared that really resonate to get my shit together. Healthy vibes to ya anon

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 04:20:34 2017 No.9223216

It's 10 AM and I'm thinking about doing an all nighter. I haven't been drinking for the last 3 hours but I can't sleep either. Perhaps I should just face the day? I have done many all nighters before in my life, but never really after drinking. Anyone have experience?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 04:27:23 2017 No.9223231 >>9223216 Either go back to sleep or get yourself going with your day. Don't get yourself prone to early morning / afternoon drinking. Have you been reading these threads? Getting into that habit is not going to bode well mate

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 04:32:48 2017 No.9223249

>>9223231
I rarely read these threads. I believe myself to be far from an alcoholic (although I've been drunk countless of times at 25 years old), it's always been in good company. This time I've been with a few friends, one of them recently started using anti-depressants, which has a mechanism of action similar to cocaine (seratonin re-uptake inhibitors). Thus he stayed up far later than everyone else, and I kept him company. Hours went by and soon it was 7-8am and we finally went home. After waiting 20 minutes for the tram, buying some food and tending to a dying seagull, this is where I've ended up. What I want to say is, it's not early morning drinking, it's late as fuck night-turned into early morning drinking.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 04:40:25 2017 No.9223265 >>9223249 Got it. Then hair of the dog away it mate.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 04:47:08 2017 No.9223286 >>9222389 >24 You're retarded, then. I was listing symptoms of DTs for another anon and you fire "Anxiety is a faggot's excuse" at me. You can't even into reading comprehension.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 05:20:24 2017 No.9223349 >Consume 210-280ml of ethanol throughout the day I wonder if 2 beers throughout today will do the trick

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 05:47:24 2017 No.9223411

My dads been going pretty heavily the past few days and he's a total wreck, I've been looking around for a bottle of Valium (can't get it until tomorrow) and the docs being a cock sucker. I've monitoring him now and I've weened him down to a nip of bourbon every half hour until he sleeps, with half a bottle of electrolytes between each, anything I can do besides feeding him a whole bottle or calling an ambulance (expensive) if he starts to withdrawl? Yes am 18 btw

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 05:50:24 2017 No.9223418

>Ate pumpkin seeds yesterday to finally fix my shits
>Woke up tomorrow, had a few cigs, coffee and beers
>Time for shit
>Everything is perfect
>Shits popping out immaculately one after the other
>And then the final boss comes
>Sticky black shit that doesn't come out all the way
FUCK, and I was so close

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 05:58:55 2017 No.9223445 >>9223411 Give him one pill before he's into withdrawals, repeat. In other words, switch from alcohol to benzo and taper benzo over a few days (typically a week to 10 days)

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 05:59:31 2017 No.9223446 >>9223411 You're dad needs professional treatment

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 06:10:39 2017 No.9223459

>>9223446
Yeah and no, I've been dealing with this since 12, he still see's his psych, I've seen him go through 2 week detoxes multiple times costing upward of 10k come out fine and then relapse 6 month later, I can get him through this, was just wondering if any of you degenerates had tips I may not know

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 06:35:47 2017 No.9223505

Sorry if this diminishes your problems, but I feel I am developing alcoholism. I make sure to """stay functional""" so I limit myself to Friday and Saturday, but when those days come... I just cut loose and aim to drink myself into oblivion to deal with all the stress and bullshit.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 06:40:49 2017 No.9223513 >>9223505 If you can limit yourself you aren't close to being an alky. Especially if you can make it more than a day without alcohol. You're just another normie weekend drinker.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 06:49:10 2017 No.9223530 >>9223459 Enjoy your dead dad.

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 06:52:16 2017 No.9223536

>>9222214
I shot you not, in less than a year I've spilled drinks on, knocked over in my sleep, pissed on or otherwise destroyed, 5 laptops and 4 phones. All but 2 were brand new. They now sit in a silicone graveyard cupboard, awaiting the day I stop drinking long enough to have the money to have them repaired. All I have left is one phone, and I am so fucking careful with it that it has its own place in a sturdy armchair with absolutely nothing else allowed to be placed on the chair, and a mattress below it incase there's an earthquake. Without it, I have nothing and I'm paying so much monthly for the shit I broke that I could not possibly get another and I struggle to find money to eat.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 06:57:36 2017 No.9223548 >>9222355 Try a cleaner form of booze. I've only woken in a cell for assault once, but I drink decent vodka and this was after a year-ish-long binge. Cheap shit like hyper strength beer makes me irritable as almighty fuck

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 07:00:52 2017 No.9223555 >>9222502 At least heroin is a thousand times easier to quit. Much, MUCH easier to get physically addicted but shit-easy to stop in relative terms.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 07:03:15 2017 No.9223562 >>9215891 2 days sober drink anything and everything but my go to is yukon jack 100 proof , high gravity beer or wine. > been lying in bed all day last binge was 3 gallons of wine a pint of vodka and some 40's over two days

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 07:25:29 2017 No.9223611
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>>9216106
If you skipped the kids, I could have written that. Just can't financially justify buying anything but 30 packs.

I'm fighting to dial back - mainly due to the weight. First goal is not drinking at lunch or on the drive home.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 10:17:09 2017 No.9224037 I hate rich people, they can afford alcohol AND FOOD, fucking prviileged shits

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 10:28:36 2017 No.9224057 >>9221744 >>9221760 >>9221776 >>9223055 fucking kek

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 10:34:07 2017 No.9224078 >>9224037 >not getting your calories solely from alcohol >ACTUALLY eating FOOD Fancy another thimble full of diluted shandy or have you had enough for the week?

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 11:24:48 2017 No.9224211
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>>9215891
i woke up from my bender yesterday to go to work and my girlfriend said i got up and pissed all over some of my kids toys and one of her stuffed animals in the corner of the living room where i passed out on the couch while she was yelling at me. i told her to fuck off and its not a big deal i guess then went straight back to the couch and passed out again. dont remember any of it at all and i really didnt think i was to far gone yesterday. i had about 8 pints of 8% ipas. i feel lik a fucking pos and i want to not drink anymore but i am fucking terrified of withdrawls and i love drinking. >my fucking feel when im home from work now at 8 am and just bought another case and im fucking drinking it to forget about my problems instead of earning 100 bucks for a half a days work that i was supposed to do last week. fuck life right now boys. just fuck

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 11:40:40 2017 No.9224257

>>9224211
Couldn't help but laugh.
Try not to beat yourself up too much m8e. It'll only make things worse. Besides, sounds like your missus has the blame element more than covered.
Might wanna give your kids' toys a quick rinse once the shakes wear off though.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 11:53:53 2017 No.9224293 >>9224257 thanks anon... im trying not to. gonna smoke some weed and might just sleep hopefully

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 11:54:04 2017 No.9224294 >>9223411 >>9223459 You're a good lad

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:01:33 2017 No.9224316

Those hippie stoners really are on to something lads.

>get fucked up but don't impare judgement or become wreckless, worst that can happen is eating too much popcorn
>no sloppy texting of the ex or other dramatic gestures
>when the effect wears of you just become normal again without sickness

7/10, would puff again

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:07:06 2017 No.9224342

>>9224316
Yeah no shit, even my doc wants me to smoke weed because it's so much less harmful. No problem sleeping, no problem with appetite, massively fewer health complications, the list is huge. Unfortunately where I live, OMG CANNABIS NEEDLES, RUNNNNNNN HE HAS REEFER MADNESS, LOCK HIM IN A RAPECAGE TO BE TORTURED FOREVER!! NEVER EMPLOY THIS MAN AGAIN, ANYONE!!!! AAAAAHHHHH HEEELLLPPP, SOMEONE CALL THE DAILY MAIL!!!" etc. Puts me off slightly. So instead I die.
At least the ignorant cunts get to pay for my alcohol-related arrests and frequent hospitalisation.

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:12:45 2017 No.9224360
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>>9224342
The thing is, weed used to made me paranoid but now I feel great.

Maybe because I'm the process of genuine self-improvement and take care of my health now. Cheeky flowers seem utterly compatible with me now. I also take nice small puffs don't overdo it, just enough to get comfy, which seems better than dumb extreme teenager blaze it lmao antics.

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:13:20 2017 No.9224363

>Posting feels for the week

I'm feeling like literal death right now, I am almost close to going full on panic mode and I don't know how to calm down

>Everything I've been working on at work is falling apart
>Meeting in an hour
>I might get my ass handed to me or things will go alright since this isn't my fault in the first place
>I'm at a point in life where I want to end it all and it is mostly this job
I should have stayed at a smaller company and never went to work for such a giant corporation. I enjoy the experience I have been getting but I am losing my mind, guys I am losing my mind working here.......................

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:13:48 2017 No.9224365 >>9224360 Forgot to ask, isn't it possible for you to live to a better location?

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:18:03 2017 No.9224376 >>9224342 I wish I could substitute weed for booze but I always end up combining the two and overdoing it because cold beer tastes so fucking good when I'm high

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:20:02 2017 No.9224380
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>>9224365
Nah, I'd have to move to another country, and most won't have me because of criminal convictions. Infuriating that without exception, every single one of them has happened when I've been blacked out in alcohol. Had I been smoking weed instead I'd be able to move. My only option would be a third world country, but weed is only tolerated even there, it's still illegal, and as a white westerner I'd probably be largely intolerable to many. Like fuck am I ending up in a Cambodian prison. Nope, endless suffering then a painful death it is.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:28:10 2017 No.9224403 >>9224363 So make a plan to quit and save money in the meantime. If you don't have a wife or kids you can live very cheaply and simply if you learn to be frugal.

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:29:12 2017 No.9224405

>>9224376
>cold beer tastes so fucking good when I'm high
Nothing better than icy lager when you got dry mouth.

I do tend to sip in moderation when I smoke though, and don't feel like having wine or liquor. Just slowly sipped cold beers.

It's very nice.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:32:55 2017 No.9224417 >>9224380 Can I ask which country? I thought it was easy to get something to smoke in most whitey countries.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:35:40 2017 No.9224424 >>9224417 England, but with my priors, 1 flower wrapped in paper = prison. I'm perfectly welcome to drink as much rage-inducing poison as I please however.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:53:33 2017 No.9224477 >>9224424 But if you were to be off the booze, wouldn't you be able to get weed without getting yourself into trouble? Plenty of well adjusted Brits smoke weed without much problems as far as I know.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 12:58:17 2017 No.9224496 >>9224477 I'm too scared of getting caught in possession. Plus my fat bitch neighbour would likely report me if she were to smell it, because I've complained to her so many times about the non-stop yapping from her retarded little purse dog

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 13:54:36 2017 No.9224696 >>9223536 Sorry to hear about not being able to afford enough to eat or buy shit properly.

>>	Anonymous Thu Jul 27 16:50:31 2017 No.9225197 New thread here: >>9225121

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 18:25:34 2017 No.9225501

>>9222627
That'd suck I agree. I work fixing trains and it's 8 hours a day, 2 of them been break 6pm to 2am. I get in, spend an hour getting myself ready for bed, then get to sleep by 4, wake up at 12 and spend them 6 hours doing what I want. It's chill for me.

Anonymous Thu Jul 27 19:26:30 2017 No.9225687

>>9224363
They ended up agreeing with me after the meeting and I'm actually the right one on this whole mess

I shouldn't have doubted myself since they are on my side now

Without getting into too much details I had been listening to someone else at work about what we should do, after all of this it turns out they were wrong all along and I was right but I never stood up for myself or explained why I'm not wrong

A month later, as of today they finally understand I wasn't wrong....

Glad to say it but I had a plan to get drunk as fuck tommorow because of all the stress Im going through..

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