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who here started drinking alone in their teens?

[Anonymous No.9065533]

>>9065520
I never drank in my teens. When I turned 18 I was more excited about being able to vote and smoking cigarettes.

[Anonymous No.9065537]

>>9065533
nerd

[Anonymous No.9065538]

[Anonymous No.9065539]

>>9065520
Me. I was the first one of my buddies to get a job at 17. One of my buddies was able to go to the local habib shop and buy alcohol. It's been downhill since.

[Anonymous No.9065561]

>>9065520
Me. Started stealing my parents beer when I was 14, got caught multiple times, kept doing it until I moved out of the house, now 26 and drink beer constantly.

[Anonymous No.9065565]

Is smirnoff bro dead? Please reply to this post if you are alive!

[Anonymous No.9065782]

>>9065565
I'm alive anon bro. Really not well, having to crawl instead of walk, but I'm still breathing for now. Shame, that

[Anonymous No.9065827]

started drinking when i was 22. drank once or twice in my teens.

anyway. had a slight setback last night, i was trying to sell some of the shit i had bought on amazon while drunk and had a guy was coming by today so i drank last night, but it was only like that 3/4 of a bottle of assorted liquor and then i drank some wine until about 5am. woke up to the guy banging on the door and ringing my phone off the hook and i told him to come back in an hour and he told me to go fuck myself and "take my shitty raspberry pi's and shove em up my ass" lmao. well at least im out of dip and cigarettes and too buzzed to drive. and this whole idea of being totally sober sounds like a crock of shit. I'm just gonna drink like a normie i guess. drink like a bottle of wine on saturday night. fugg it, imma eat some steak and brussel sprouts and drink a little wine and water and take it easy for once.

[Anonymous No.9065874]

I used to sneak vodka into a crushed up water bottle and sip that shit straight room temperature and mallrat around a shopping center when I was 14

[Anonymous No.9065884]

>mfw its fathers day and I don't have to hide my drinking
even my dad was half drunk by noon

[Anonymous No.9066070]

The skin on my legs turned an ugly shade of red in big patches last year. Seems like it might be spreading to my arms and face. Someone said it might be gout, but there's no other symptoms. I feel like I've put on a lot of weight lately, and now I'm getting sleep apnea and can't breathe at night, so I'm quitting for at least a month and seeing what changes. 4 days sober and no withdrawal symptoms, not even the crushing boredom that usually comes with sobriety. Drinking loads of tea as a replacement seems to help.

[Anonymous No.9066162]

>super oppressively hot
>get shitfaced
>fall asleep easy
Take that summer
I can be uncomfortable sleeping if I don't remember sleeping

[Anonymous No.9066190]

I started binge drinking at 14, turned myself off of it after a while then got hooked on heroin a few years later.

Then I got off of heroin then started drinking just about erry day when I turned 21.

That's pretty much where I'm at now

[Anonymous No.9066214]

>>9066190
Jesus man, that's a hard fucking life

I only started drinking hard around 24. Probably would have started earlier if I knew just how it made me feel, but I'm glad I didn't

How long have you gone sober?

[Anonymous No.9066220]

I've got to stop if I want to live. I can't even inhale without my liver exploding with pain. Wtf am I gonna do

[Anonymous No.9066236]

>>9066220
Surround yourself by as much entertainment as possible. TV shows, books, video games.
Just never stop doing SOMETHING
The moment you start to get bored, the need will seep back in.
That is, after you stop going through withdrawal.

Also, is this "liver pain" new?

[Anonymous No.9066237]

>>9066214
Max was 61 days when I went to rehab.

My parents died when I was 11 so the drug addiction isn't even the worst part lol.

I haven't done heroin in about 5 months and I plan to keep it that way, I don't get blackout drunk anymore just drink a lil here and there, every day mainly tho

[Anonymous No.9066238]

>>9065520
>being dependent on alcohol
>not smoking weed
ISHYGDDT

[Anonymous No.9066244]

>>9066237
>I haven't done heroin in about 5 months and I plan to keep it that way, I don't get blackout drunk anymore just drink a lil here and there, every day mainly tho
That sounds pretty good man. If you can keep that up, you're in the clear.

Do you go to the gym often? I started a while ago and I think it really changed my life.

[Anonymous No.9066245]

>>9066236
The pain has been there for a while, but the last few days it's suddenly a hell of a lot worse, and my skin is peeling off

[Anonymous No.9066249]

>>9066244
Nah, I try to ride my bike pretty often though, it really helps with my mental health, other than that I just stay around sober people

[Anonymous No.9066252]

>>9066245
Hmm yeah that's not good
I'm just asking about the time frame because the liver is on the right side and the first signs of appendicitis is pain on the lower right.

[Anonymous No.9066254]

>>9066238
>not doing both
heh.. okay kid

[Anonymous No.9066263]

>>9066252
It's just below my rib cage on the right. I can feel the damn thing poking out.
Fucking hell, I'm not happy.

[Anonymous No.9066272]

>>9066249
>sober people
That really helped me too
I had this board game group I'd go meet every weekend for a while. Not a drop. But I didn't feel like it was lacking in any way.

Try lifting though. The bike is great (I do it every day I don't have a hangover), but lifting weights really changed how I view fitness.

I think prone to addiction and weightlifting both require a similar mindset.
The interior struggle of "I'm not good enough" and "Fuck you I am". Going all the time.
With lifting, you work real hard for an hour and a half, and that "I'm not good enough" voice shuts up for the rest of the day. All that's left is the "Yeah, I'm good".

Maybe it's just me, but my lifting buddy who stuck with it also has similar issues with self worth.
Maybe you don't. But I bet a bunch of people here do.
It's a blanket recommendation, really.

[Anonymous No.9066277]

>>9066263
It really hurts when you try to feel under your ribcage?
Yeah, that's your liver
And that's super not good

You have to take it easy for a while man.
Shit, I'd even go to a doctor. They can help you.

[Anonymous No.9066283]

>>9066277
It's like being stabbed if I touch the alien lump under my rib cage, yeah. Sensitive as fuck.
Going to drink myself to blackout right now, can't handle this.

[Anonymous No.9066295]

>>9066283
RIP dude
Please go see a doctor

[Anonymous No.9066300]

>want to get drunk
>no money
>have a few hundred bucks in random shitcoins
>too lazy to figure out how to withdraw it into cash

fuck sobriety and fuck crypto

[Anonymous No.9066313]

>>9066300
From 2011 to now, at current value, I've sold $2,000,000 worth of cryptos on drugs and alcohol. Now I feel suicidal. 500 btc, 12,000 xmr and around 120 other currencies, all gone.
At least I got rekt, and even made a relatively small profit.

[Anonymous No.9066322]

>>9066313
Damn, did you use DNM or swap it to cash?

[Anonymous No.9066335]

>>9066300
Oh and btw, go to shapeshift.io or poloniex.com, convert shot coins to btc, then send to localbitcoins and sell for usd. >>>/biz/ can help.
>>9066322
I sold for cash, I don't need dnm's, I know like 20 dealers within walking distance. And their crack is moreish.

[Anonymous No.9066344]

Have to say, my fellow drunkfags, that the Leftovers is a fucking 11/10 show

[Anonymous No.9066354]

>>9065520

I did. Still continue to do so. I'll probably amount to nothing to be honest.

[Anonymous No.9066359]

>>9066335
Ahh, crack. Makes sense then. I always like DNM just because you can get all sorts of crazy shit, like Alpha-PVP and 4F-MPH, and good ole Meth

[Anonymous No.9066383]

>>9066359
Yeah, crack and heroin, and weed although I hate how expensive it is. I only really buy cannabis if it's an extract like budder.
Can't stand meth personally. I smoked 500mg of Chinese glass in one day first time I used, and didn't sleep for 5 days. Awful.
All drugs can get fucked compared with booze. With the exception of benzos, nothing even comes close to how nice booze makes me feel, and I've used fucking everything from common to exotic. Intoxication is my life.

[Anonymous No.9066390]

i got sick as fuck last night and i didn't even drink half of what i normally drink

let's try this shit again

[Anonymous No.9066392]

>>9066383

booze + oxy for me. both have different layers of actual physical pleasure thats comparable if not better to orgasm.

there have been a few times where ive railed some oxy while being pretty drunk and had my mouth dropped in amazement for like 10 minutes straight at how good it felt.

never tried shooting heroin though i imagine its probly even better but i like the stim like effects of oxy, not really a fan of just nodding out doing nothing for hours

[Anonymous No.9066400]

>>9066390
Been there and had the same reaction.

You think that'd teach me not to drink when I'm feeling sick, but that's quitter talk

[Anonymous No.9066405]

>>9066383
>500mg in one day.

Damn that's probably why you didn't like it, 10mg is a good buzz that'll last like 12 hours.

I've IVd 100mg at once tho and it was fucking sick, obv intense though

[Anonymous No.9066408]

>>9066392
Shooting smack is no better than smoking it desu. I once shot fentanyl mixed with #4 and OD'd. Stopped breathing. Woke on icu. I haven't touched opiates for almost a year, but I'm ALWAYS drunk, and pretty sure I'm addicted to lorazepam as well. Rekt.

[Anonymous No.9066426]

>>9066408

i was perscribed lorazepam and muscle relaxers last year and boy are they fun to mix with booze. especially the muscle relaxers. i really wanted to try the holy trinity of benzo+muscle relaxer + opi but didnt have an opi connect at the time. still really want to try muscle relaxers with oxy +booze

[Anonymous No.9066429]

>>9065520
I started stealing my parents' alcohol and drinking it (mostly alone) at age 14

[Anonymous No.9066438]

>>9066426
Lorazepam is godlike. I've got a couple of sleeves left until I need to top up again. Pretty sure that mixing it with booze will cause my next OD.

[Anonymous No.9066445]

Be careful out there mixing muscle relaxers, benzodiazepines, alcohol, and opiates ya'll. That's how you die. Maybe you don't care if you die, but if you do, just be careful

[Anonymous No.9066446]

>>9066445

Yea this kind of goes without saying. I always use very small ammounts of each when mixing, and hopefully anyone else does to.

[Anonymous No.9066451]

>>9066445

Whoops
>>9066448

[Anonymous No.9066471]

Omfg it's so hot, I can't stand it. This really isn't helping

[Anonymous No.9066473]

>>9066471
You must be a NA East Coaster
I'm dying here too

I plan on getting drunk enough that it won't matter.

My laptop is feeling it though. Jesus, it's hot to type

[Anonymous No.9066482]

>>9066473
I'm sat by a fan pouring water all over myself, I'm never gonna sleep. Fuck you, sun

[Anonymous No.9066489]

>>9066482
The water thing is a mistake
At least where I am, it's so humid that evaporation is super slow.
Like it took 3 hours to dry from the shower

[Anonymous No.9066517]

>>9066489
Yeah the humidity is fucking horrendous, but earlier I couldn't resist, I covered myself in ice cubes, so now that it's melted it's tropical in here and I've no choice but to keep soaking myself, or I'll fucking fry.
I miss winter. If it's too cold, I snuggle my duvet. Too hot? I'm powerless. Doesn't help that I can't stop fapping over Gordon Ramsay's oldest daughter. I just want to be comfy again. Fuck the sun and fuck my dick ;_;

[Anonymous No.9066524]

>>9066517
I know exactly what you mean
I'm Canadian.
I'm a fucking creature of winter.

In a perfect world, we'd go 2 week a month ~-15 and the other 2 weeks ~20 (maxing out at 25)

[Anonymous No.9066545]

>>9066524
I wish I could visit Canada, but I'm banned for life because I got a DUI. Can't even step foot on Canadian soil. Why the hate for alchies, CA?

[Anonymous No.9066562]

>>9066545
There are some good things to see and experience here.
Don't blame us
Blame your own government for making DUI a felony.

Don't drink and drive though. That triggers me a wee bit

[Anonymous No.9066567]

Jesus christ. Why do you guys drink so much? Just step away from the booze nigga.

[Anonymous No.9066572]

>>9066567
I do sometimes
But what brings me back is that I feel undeniably happy and in touch with my emotions when I'm drunk

I'm not happy when I'm sober. I'm just distracted

[Anonymous No.9066578]

>>9066567
If I stop, I have potentially fatal seizures. I'm physically dependent on alcohol. Stopping would probably cause brain damage and might well kill me.

[Anonymous No.9066588]

>>9066578
I'm an alcoholic but I'm glad I'm not you

[Anonymous No.9066603]

How do I learn to drink by myself without becoming an alcky? Weed is too expensive to smoke all the time

[Anonymous No.9066605]

>>9066588
Not yet maybe. If you can't stop you'll be in the same position. If you could stop, you presumably would have done before labelling yourself an alchie. Shit doesn't mess around

[Anonymous No.9066610]

>>9066603
I'm thinking maybe I'll just grow weed. The sentences here for cultivation are insanely harsh, but this is life or death.

[Anonymous No.9066619]

>>9066605
I can still go a week without drinking.
I always go at least 1 day sober between seshes.
Average around 3 days.

If I keep doing this, I'll be ok

That way, my hallucinations are non-booze related

[Anonymous No.9066652]

Holy shit, there was just a terrorist attach on my ex gf's road in north London... Christ I hope she's not ok

[Anonymous No.9066668]

>>9066070
Might be similar to what I had when I was a mess. Do you have piss bottles?. empty cans lying around? Might be mould from that in the air on your skin. Pretty sure that's what mine was. I got rid of it by rubbing anti bacterial soap all over my body in morning and night and obviously cleaned out my living area.

[Anonymous No.9066968]

Going cold turkey today. Can't get to a doctor. Scared. Anyone wanna do it with me?

[Anonymous No.9067034]

>>9066968
Once you get past day 3 you're mostly clear

If you see anything, it's not real.
Know that and you can control them

[Anonymous No.9067052]

using milk as a chaser any of you anons do this?

[Anonymous No.9067058]

>>9066652
i laughed

fuck that bitch

[Anonymous No.9067121]

>drink 2 litres of water
>still dying from thirst
What fresh hell is this?

[Anonymous No.9067134]

Help me /ck/, Is there ANY flavored vodka that doesn't taste like complete shit?

I usually like my potato juice plain, but sometimes I want a casual drink to savor instead of chug that isn't just mixing 7-UP or buying some cheap party drink. I just wanted to try something new. Cookie Dough made me fucking sick to my stomach, Orange may as well contain cayenne pepper. This time I thought I'd try Strawberry Lemonade, since who doesn't like that? It's just syrupy sugar shit like everything else.

I can't say I've tasted everything in the desserts or fruits flavors, but I don't want to waste any more money on this crap than I have to, already having a bad impression of it.

Am I just a fool trying to chase the impossible?

[Anonymous No.9067138]

>>9065538
Push it faggot

[Anonymous No.9067159]

>>9067121
Make a saline solution that you chug first, like a small spoon per half liter, and drink half a liter of that, then begin drinking pure water.
Dont get water intoxication or hyponatrema

[Anonymous No.9067172]

>>9067134
>Is there ANY flavored vodka that doesn't taste like complete shit?
nope, if you want good flavors, you add them yourself. Fresh citrus zest and juice is cheap and relatively easy

[Anonymous No.9067185]

>>9067172
Got any simple recommendations aside from an orange screwdriver?

[Anonymous No.9067189]

>>9067185
Mix a fruit salat or some shit, let the vodka infuse with the fruit tastes, filter off if needed, and mix with carbonated water to taste?

[Anonymous No.9067200]

>>9067134
>>9067172

Moscow mules. Diet ginger beer, vodka, lime. Tasty, low cal and easy to get loaded.

Also la croix or flavored seltzer with vodka or gin is pretty good too. Simple syrup if you need the sweetness.

Don't know how I used to choke down anything with actual soda. Its like a booze syrup. My liver is likely already taking a beating. I don't need diabetes on top.

Clear liquor and seltzer with a lime can do you no wrong. G&T's are god tier ad well. Who needs malaria?

[Anonymous No.9067201]

>>9067134
>Help me /ck/, Is there ANY flavored vodka that doesn't taste like complete shit?
All of the flavored Svedkas I've tried tasted decent. My favorite was the pineapple mango.

[Anonymous No.9067207]

Are there any decent youtubers talking about liquor?

[Anonymous No.9067210]

Of all the things i hate the most about my life, it's probably the crippling loneliness and the feeling of not being understood, wanted or respected that really makes me drink. It's the only option i feel i have, with my friends having either moved away or gotten into relationships.

What if i am the root of my own problems, what if my way of interacting with people is fundamentally broken.

[Anonymous No.9067215]

>tfw used to be a raging alcoholic
>now i can't drink half a beer without my heart racing, getting bad headaches, and waking up the next day with dry mouth and eyes wanting to die

[Anonymous No.9067217]

>drunk
>get into argument with main girl
>other 2 girls are asleep
>bored as fuck

guess i'm gonna finish this bottle

[Anonymous No.9067220]

>>9067189
Kind of like one of those ghetto kool-aid cocktails you see on youtube? I'll try that, thank you.

>>9067200
These are good too. I just wanted to stay away from turning a simple drink into a grocery list.

>>9067201
Unfortunately it's the Svedka lemonade I'm trying to choke down right now. I did see the pineapple mango, though. Maybe next time.

[Anonymous No.9067221]

>>9067215
Define raging.

A recovered alcy doesn't drink half a beer.

A real alcy slams it and feels uncomfortable that there's no more and manages to come up with some excuse as to why he needs they second.

[Anonymous No.9067227]

>>9067215
>>9067221
Abstinence can feel like a reset, but it also sounds like age playing its part.

[Anonymous No.9067229]

>>9067220
>Kind of like one of those ghetto kool-aid cocktails you see on youtube? I'll try that, thank you.
I can't tell if you're being sarcastic or not, but infusing vodka with something else is not as bad as one would think.
A friend of mine makes a pretty good juniper berry snapsh

[Anonymous No.9067238]

>>9067229
No, wasn't being sarcastic, I've actually seen pitchers with fruit floating in it, I just always looked at it like some cheap party swill. I'll honestly give it a try one of these days if you swear by it being better than any manufactured flavor.

Also I'm mildly allergic to juniper berries. Gin irritates and restricts my throat a bit.

[Anonymous No.9067245]

>>9067238
Vodka tonic is also a good option

[Anonymous No.9067249]

>>9067238
gin tastes like licking a pine tree's asshole, so that's probably a good thing

[Anonymous No.9067254]

>>9067249
>>9067238
It wasn't anything like gin though, was much less harsh, and was actually drinkable, but then again the product i got was homemade, so i have no idea about the actual strength of it

[Anonymous No.9067260]

>>9067249
Gin is delicious, you absolute cuck.

[Anonymous No.9067290]

>>9067260
quit lying to yourself faggot, no one thinks you're cool for drinking it besides yourself

[Anonymous No.9067303]

>>9067290
>implying drinking beefeater is cool.

In not drinking botanical or Hendricks. Jt just taste good.

[Anonymous No.9067328]

Good morning /alc/

[Anonymous No.9067330]

>>9065874
same. with my idiot buddies. We used to use gatorade bottles because they were the biggest you could carry without attracting attention.

that little bit of camoflage color did little to disguise the rubbing all taste of papov

[Anonymous No.9067349]

>>9067134
burnetts is like vodka light. I recommmend the watermelon or cherry. It's only 70 proof though instead of 80, but you'll drink it faster so its a trade off. cheap too.

[Anonymous No.9067416]

>>9065520
I'm not even sure if I started drinking at 19 or 20. I can't remember what I thought about being drunk for the first time. I've been drinking every Saturday for 4 or 3 years. A whole bottle each time. First it was whiskey then I realized vodka goes down easier.

[Anonymous No.9067436]

>tfw go to the liquor store
>g-good evening to the cashier
>its fucking 11AM

[Anonymous No.9067443]

>>9065520
Would drinking copious amounts of cheap wine be a good alternative to the near-deadly level of whisky consumption that I punish myself with?

[Anonymous No.9067583]

>>9067215

weird. i worked my way up to needing a 6 pack of 8% to get me as drunk as i want. i used to get black out drunk and feel retarded the next day from a 6 of 8% but now its just where a 6pack of 5% used to get me. the weird part is after taking a 4 month break my tolerance barely changed, and everyone kept telling me your tolerance goes down after not drinking

[Anonymous No.9067601]

>>9067221

Damn I guess i am a full on alcy then. I often will not drink if I only have 1 -2 beers because not being able to keep drinking after those two puts me into the shittiest mood imaginable.

[Anonymous No.9067607]

>>9065520
i did, 32 now, no less than 2 bottles of wine a night for the last 6 years, feels bad man. Makes gaming fun though.

Started out as an every saturday thing at rich friends house that was so big his parents could never hear us getting shit faced.

[Anonymous No.9067609]

>>9067436
>Go to liquor store at noon
>Get whiskey today instead of the usual vodka and redbull
>Oh switching it up today?
>mfw
And that's why I regularly rotate liquor stores across town now.
I fucking hate it when they get chummy.

[Anonymous No.9067617]

>>9067609
Come now, Anon. You might find a cute cashier girl who enjoys exchanging verbal barbs with a hopeless drunk, like one of those fucked up comedy romances.

[Anonymous No.9067661]

>>9067617
i was drunk as fuck and waited for a cashier outside the liquor store near closing once

i pulled up next to another employee's car and asked where that cashier was at and i could tell they thought i was gonna rape her or something

that bitch was gap toothed as fuck though, idk what i was even thinking at the time

[Anonymous No.9067966]

my brothers been clubbing with a fake id since he was 17. fuck.
i drank a bit at 17 myseld but didnt get into it until i was about 21. 23 now. i fucking love being buzzed.

[Anonymous No.9068033]

>>9067966
personally I started at around 17 with severe binge drinking, maybe because of genetics, who knows
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6WQEGULvH8
when I reached the legal limit here, 18, I went on a period where I would drink every weekend, and drink hard, which continued until I was around 19.
at that point I had started self isolating because of anxiety, which lasted until 20-21, at which point I began to break out of the self isolation, and picked up drinking
halfway into 21 now, and I've been drinking heavily for around half a year

[Anonymous No.9068038]

>>9068033
calm down then. make it a weekend thing

[Anonymous No.9068048]

>>9068038
no work, every day is weekend

[Anonymous No.9068054]

>>9068048
join the working world and earn your booze then

[Anonymous No.9068055]

>>9068054
need education for that my dude

[Anonymous No.9068058]

>>9068055
youre answering your own needs.
if you can afford booze you can afford edu.
if not get a shitty wageslave job and put thise cents together untik youre bored. then the next shitty job and etc. life finds a way

[Anonymous No.9068073]

Anyone have any skin issues due to alcohol? I blacked out the other night, skin around my face has felt tight and dry and I have a bunch of tiny bumps under the skin of the back of my hands that I didn't have before. Kinda freaking out and think it might be time for a break.

[Anonymous No.9068165]

>>9068073
Yeah pretty much exactly the same. I think it's due to quite serious liver damage if your skin starts getting that way. My feet and palms are covered.

[Anonymous No.9068255]

trying to drink my vodka but I keep puking it up

gotta do this, life is too shitty sober.

[Anonymous No.9068508]

>>9068255
Once you manage to keep a couple down the rest will be easy.

[Anonymous No.9068511]

Help. I feel so ill, omfg. Please escape this nightmare if you're at all able, people.

[Anonymous No.9068565]

Never had alcohol in the family. Neither of my parents drink . So never had the urge to drink. Drank some beer in college. Absolutely fucking hated it . Had some whiskey /gin at some parties too . It was alright I guess but didn't leave any impression . Because of my orthodox and conservative upbringing I was always conditioned to believe smoking and drinking is a vice. It was really hard making friends in college.
I'm just rambling now aren't I? I'll stop .

[Anonymous No.9068581]

>>9068565
4chan isn't your blog, take this shit to tumblr

[Anonymous No.9068595]

It was opposite, parents gave me good alcohol for I hadnt drank shit with school friends. I still drank... Well, not real shit, but cheap vodkas and strong beers.

[Anonymous No.9068608]

>>9066603
It's mostly a matter of self control. Don't drink more than 2-3 nights a week at most and don't drink more than roughly 375ml at most of anything that's 40% abv or in that range in one night.

[Anonymous No.9068938]

4 days sober today. after some horrible abdominal cramping on the night of day 2, i feel much better. mostly just doing this to lose weight, but i feel pretty good so far. should have done this a long time ago.

[Anonymous No.9069002]

>>9068073
Those little bumps are blisters, caused when your liver isn't able to break down the booze. I have like 100 of them right now. And yes it's scary.

[Anonymous No.9069066]

>>9069002
Come to think of it, I got these weird discolored patches of skin on my chest that are slowly growing bigger once I started drinking really heavily. Tried scrubbing them off, tried ignoring them and hoping for the best but every week they grow a little bigger

[Anonymous No.9069090]

>>9068033

Non-alcie here

What the fuck man, he explained me. I can go without any alcohol for months, but when I take even ONE sip of anything alcoholic I'll drink until I pass out or all booze is gone. I tried to stop midway-in many times, but the crave for more is unbelievably intense.

[Anonymous No.9069119]

>>9065520
my parents, and grandparents on both sides were all alcoholics.

started drinking around 12-13 with friends, alone at 16.

[Anonymous No.9069286]

Check google images for 'alcoholic liver rash' or similar. These warning signs aren't to be fucked with

[Anonymous No.9069312]

>>9069286
Meant for >>9069066

[Anonymous No.9069383]

why am i so lonely bros?

[Anonymous No.9069396]

>>9069383
Inability or unwillingness to talk to people

[Anonymous No.9069429]

>>9069396
This.

Also, I just took my first shot of the day. It's only 1pm. I feel like I have nothing going for me even though I have friends and family and roommates who care about me. The only times I enjoy life are when I'm drinking or I feel needed, and I hardly feel needed anymore.

[Anonymous No.9069439]

>>9069429

Pretty much this. I find I have an inability to open up to people unless I am extremely wasted and that is what fucked up my date last week and now she doesn't want anything to do with me. I completely blacked out, my last memory is kissing her and then nothing.

[Anonymous No.9070156]

3 years of daily drinking up until last Saturday (10th)

Never really touched spirits, just drank a fuckload of beer/cider every day. 7ish on a worknight and around 40 over the weekend. Stopped because I'm always constipated until I shit out lava and my insides began to ache.

First night was awful, kept jolting awake every few mins with that falling feeling. Since then, I've been sleeping better than I've slept in a long ass time and although the brainfog hasn't gone yet, I feel better mentally and emotionally.

Best thing is I haven't even been craving a drink. I went for a meal with my family to a place where you can take your own booze in. My dad bought beer for me and I didn't take it because I didn't want it. Usually I'd accept any free alcohol.

God speed anons

[Anonymous No.9070270]

>>9069383

you got us anon

my gf isn't coming over tonight so I grabbed a 26 oz of vodka to keep me company

no more shakes for me!

[Anonymous No.9070297]

Wanna quit drinking but can't. I think the longest time I went was 4 days, when I didn't have money. How do I get used to not drinking when I have money? Do non alcoholic drinks work, or are they just a placebo affect?

[Anonymous No.9070321]

>>9070297

valium or Xanax nigga

[Anonymous No.9070342]

>>9070321
Possibly with drugs?

[Anonymous No.9070370]

>>9070156
Good luck. I hope one of us finds greener pastures.

[Anonymous No.9070688]

>Tfw you're broke so you buy a cheap ass poison vodka
and here we go again, i can already feel my liver crying

>>9067609
What's up with that man it's nice to have a short meaningless talk with the cashier sometimes.

>>9068511
Don't worry anon you're going to be ok

>>9069119
I've started drinking around 14-15 with friends but only realized i could buy my booze alone at 17. Since then my life has gone to shit but i mostly don't regret it.

>>9070297
Some say smoke weed, but that's only if you feel like it will hurt you less than alcohol (economically and socially). I've smoked for the first time yesterday and felt like i was dying. Good thing i'm alive so i can get drunk again.

[Anonymous No.9070712]

>Chat with gurl on FB I saw once at a party I went to when I could still mostly behave in public
>Time passed, alcoholism went bad
>I manage to somehow never say shit to her when blacked out
>She invites me over
>I go
>I get black out drunk like I do everyday alone
>I don't remember the events of that night
>She told me I shouted a lot, wouldn't listen anything, until I passed out
>Asked me to leave
>Last I heard of her, she was looking for alternative vegan new age medicine for her blood cancer. She's likely dead now.
>The Ripper takes care of burying my shameful past.

>>9067617
>like one of those fucked up comedy romances.
Life isn't a comedy Anon. Life is a tragedy. I agree that it's a fucked up one.

[Anonymous No.9070730]

>>9067617
>tfw the cute cashier tried to make smalltalk with me today
oh god oh god oh god

>>9070688
>it's nice to have a short meaningless talk with the cashier sometimes
Yeah but its when they get a sense for my drinking habits that I get uncomfortable

[Anonymous No.9070813]

made it to the liquor store with 10 minutes to spare

[Anonymous No.9070879]

>>9066603
CBD might help you.

>>9066652
Any news?

>>9067134
Cordial/squash/whatever the name is is vodka flavouring. Or get cane syrup, food flavouring, and make your own.
I like captain morgan too at one point too, but I think I had burned my taste buds with vodka and smokes at that point.

>>9067260
Gin is delicious when mixed with tonic, self hatred, and a dash of lime.
I kinda wish I found more piney ones before I got on the wagon.

>>9067443
Yes. Beer would be even better.
You can't get as much ethanol, so it's a step up.

>>9068033
Alkie genetics and used booze as anxiolytic.
It doesn't end well. Try meditation, pot, CBD, EMDR, mindfulness, anything but a molecule with increasing tolerance. Their withdrawals give anxiety on levels you can't begin to imagine (and obviously you'll get addicted to said molecule, because we had a shit roll on that gene.)

>>9069090
Well that's why alkies have to keep sober. Drunk me just want to drink, no mater anything. I only stop from passing out from alcohol, and will drink the next day if I don't really go in dry/rehab mode. Repeat daily, each day making it harder to stop.

>>9070156
Good for you.
At one point, you'll feel so good and sure of yourself you'll think you can have a drink and drink with moderation.
Try not to fuck up at this point, you'll still be too weak. Wait a few more months, if you ever try moderation.
Or do fuck up, binge for some time, go through withdrawals again, and learn your lesson with regrets because you knew this would happen. It's what I did.

>>9070730
It should be part of basic cashier training, right after the list of politeness and politically correct holiday terminology : do not talk about people's alcoholism. Just let them be good clients without mentioning it. Don't say a fucking word beyond list of minimal politeness.

[Anonymous No.9070913]

>>9070813
This. I just usually small talk to them and be really nice. I'm pretty sure they know I'm drunk all ready, but at least they will not turn you down for being drunk in public.

[Anonymous No.9070944]

>>9065520
i started drinking/smoking at 15/16 with friends, now (18) that i'm not around these people anymore i just drink alone once a week

[Anonymous No.9070972]

>>9065520
Drinking alone right now. Why would I wanna drink around assholes I can't stand and waste this beautiful reprieve of overthought?

[Anonymous No.9071007]

>>9070879
>Gin is delicious when mixed with tonic, self hatred, and a dash of lime.

My favorite. Currently have 6 different bottles of gin on my shelf.

[Anonymous No.9071024]

>>9071007
all empty i hope

[Anonymous No.9071065]

It's so hot ffs, day 2 WD, I do not need this shit right now. Plus it's making my piss bowl rot at a much faster rate and my fan is blowing across it into my face. I simply can't bring myself to move to do anything about it, and I'm shaking so much I'd only drop it on the carpet anyway and have to move house to escape. This is suffering

[Anonymous No.9071473]

>>9070879
When I was drinking I was rotating between 2 shops...one would always get the vodka on the counter from behind whilst I was getting the bottles of coke, and I'd always smile and laugh a bit but I'd much rather they'd treat me as if they didn't know because it as you all know anxiety is a big deal when it comes to alcoholism. Every other day it was the same depressed laugh I'd make and he would smile and at the time my mind didn't know wether to take it as a smug, judging smile or not.

The Indian woman was sweet as fuck though and I ended up going there everyday. She made talk about everything but what I was buying and honesty made it the highlight of my day. She'd always wait for me to ask for what I wanted no matter how many times I came in.

When I last went in she asked why I don't come in anymore, and I said I'd quit and she was genuinely happy for me. Sort of feel bad I quit because i was probably going easily 25‰ of their business.

[Anonymous No.9071479]

>>9071065
Sort that piss out. The mould will attach to your skin and you could get a fungal infection.

[Anonymous No.9071713]

How bad does your liver pain tend to be al/ck/? I'm so uncomfortable, it aches all the time and I get stabbing pains as well. Think I'm fucked?

[Anonymous No.9071768]

>>9071713
i get pain right below my right peck and in the upper right of my back.
ive kinda stopped googling the symptoms because it always says "youre dying go seek help immediately"

[Anonymous No.9071771]

Took a supplement called 5htp that helps with depression by raising serotonin and holy fuck does it amplify booze im feeling really fuxked up on my first can of 8%.

[Anonymous No.9071776]

>>9071768
Yeah, ask google why you're sneezing and its guaranteed to tell you've got nose cancer.
>>9071771
Careful if you're taking anti depressants and take 5htp, I couldn't stop throwing up for like 3 hours

[Anonymous No.9071779]

>>9071776

Not taking anti depressants but thanks. Yea I kind of feel a bit sick tho desu not sure I like this I don't even have the urge to keep drinking like when I drink on opiates it's like I'm already content enough shits weird

[Anonymous No.9071780]

really hard to find this thread. op fucked up.

[Anonymous No.9071808]

>>9071768
Those kinds of aches are symptomatic of the onset of cirrohsis.
If you're feeling that with any regular frequency you should go get your bloodwork done to make sure you're not about to explode.

[Anonymous No.9071811]

>>9071808
thanks google
nah fuck off

[Anonymous No.9071823]

>>9071811
He's probably right tbqh, I've been very drunk for a very long time.
Not going to a Doc though. They always put me in hosp, I'd rather just take my chances than be locked in one of those putrid disease factories. Not like I want to live to be 100 anyway.

[Anonymous No.9071829]

>>9071823
your mom

[Anonymous No.9071835]

>>9071811
No I mean my doctor at one point very specifically asked me "how often does your right side hurt?" after running my bloodwork because the enzyme levels in my liver were whack as fuck.

They're not gunna fucking lock you up after doing a blood panel.

[Anonymous No.9071860]

How much do you even need to drink for it to show up on your liver tests and blood work or is it genetics ? I put away a 375 ml of hard liquor + 3 tall cans of 8% nightly for like 3 years straight and my liver and bloodworm was all normal

[Anonymous No.9071863]

>>9071835
That anon was someone else. Either new here or can't handle his drink, by the sound of him.
And yeah judging by the rashes, itching and dozens of blisters on my hands, my liver isn't processing alcohol well at all.
I'm not going to a Doc though. Every time, they nag until I go to hospital. Last time they phoned an ambulance before I even left the appointment. I have a lot of health issues thanks to booze, I don't know how I'm still alive.

[Anonymous No.9071869]

>>9071860
My blood came back as "acceptable" for 20 years of drinking, then suddenly everything went to shit. Stopped me drinking for like 4 weeks, then I relapsed again. Haven't been back since.

[Anonymous No.9071871]

>>9071863
>Last time they phoned an ambulance before I even left the appointment
Why are doctors such holier-than-thou pricks?
They're the only group of people that consistently seem to lack any awareness of autonomous rights.
>YOU'RE SICK AND WE'RE GOING TO FORCIBLY TRY AND TREAT YOU, YOUR DESIRES ARE IRRELEVANT!

[Anonymous No.9071879]

>>9065520
Your all an gay

[Anonymous No.9071882]

>>9071879
only good post so far

[Anonymous No.9071886]

>>9071882

Only gay post so far

[Anonymous No.9071888]

>>9071871
Yeah, my GP said if I didn't accept help I'd be put in a mental asylum. Drinking is undoubtedly driving me quite literally insane, but it just made me avoid doctors at all costs.

[Anonymous No.9071891]

>>9071886
>reddit spacing
im out

[Anonymous No.9071903]

>>9071888
>if I didn't accept help I'd be put in a mental asylum
what the actual fuck
There's no way they have the legal authority to do that

[Anonymous No.9071905]

>>9071891

You are the one who's actually from reddit

[Anonymous No.9071910]

>>9071903
2 doctors and a magistrate have to agree iirc, but yeah they can have you sectioned under the mental health act in the uk

[Anonymous No.9072128]

>>9071871
>Their work is to save lives
>Get sued when letting someone die
>People are pissed when they try to treat someone

>>9071903
Depends on country/state, but rule of thumb a doc can force treatment on someone when he's dangerous to himself and/or others and refuses treatment.
>Picture a schizophrenic who want to kill people, he need anti-psychotics, a doc can force him to take them until he stops wanting to kill people. Doc has responsibility is he didn't do shit and people die as a result.

The trick is to get in willingly to keep the right to quit when you want. (That also depends on country/state.)

[Anonymous No.9072545]

>>9065520
Y E N İ R A K I

[Anonymous No.9072591]

>>9065520
I started drinking normally when I turned 18 and after I had graduated high school. Sober high school is actually patrician as fuck as long as you have a couple friends and there are some girls around.
Drinking got heavier and heavier throughout college, becoming pretty much a daily thing after like 2 years. By the time I graduated I was pretty much full blown.

[Anonymous No.9072599]

>>9066283
You really should see a doctor and I hope you do.
I'm not trying to be a faggot about this.