/ck/ - Food & Cooking

I like beer, but can't drink it fast enough to feel good. I'm pretty much straight vodka when not in social (kek) situations.

All it takes for me is one night of drinking and the fear explodes back onto the scene. I drank again to counter that, and have just woken to day 3 of a relapse, puking, shaking and waiting for 8am to hurry the hell up.
I don’t quite want to die, but I’m not sure why any more. The life of an alchie is utter shit.

>>9939216
Do you have a job? Just curious

>>9939210
you get bad enough as an alkie it stops being about fun. im doing beer to maintain control on my life.

>>9939216
i hate to imagine being where you are, but i know it is coming. each withdrawal gets worse.

The more experience with women I got, the more misogynistic I became. And the more misogynistic I became, the more women liked me. Why?

>tfw drinking whiskey for the first time in like 4 years

This is a lot better than I remember. Maybe because it's decent bourbon and not cheap Irish whiskey, but still.

>>9939243
Women are cute and cuddly looking because they're not so on the inside

>>9939253
Theyre ok until they get preg and give birth. Then they turn into sexless nags who break your balls over and over and over.

Been rewatching Mad Men lads
What do you guys like to watch when you drink?

>>9939279
Hitler speeches

>"I'm an alcoholic!"
>only drinks beer

>>9939279
watched Trailer Park Boys a few times. Before that I watched The Perfect Storm and Blade Runner. Usually just shitpost.

>>9939288
Read a few posts down you stupid cunt. I have spent four days in bed sweating and kicking the sheets, many times. Dont waste a good Costanza pic on your dumb shitpost.

>>9939290
New or old Blade Runner? If new, did you like it?

>>9939279
Usually cooking shows, but last night I watched Onibaba and I enjoyed it, but it freaked me the fuck out. I might have to watch more horror movies when I drink

>>9939298
Watched the original many times. I have only seen the new one, once. I loved it. I am looking forward to watching it again just to take in the beautiful scenes. The colors and shapes are phenomenal. Agree or?

>>9939279
i like to drink an old fashioned when watching mad men. makes me feel like im worth something

>>9939309
My man. Agree, wholeheartedly. Really enjoyed both the old and new ones.

>>9939307
What other horror movies have you seen? Only reason I ask is Onibaba isn't really a mainstream horror film so I'm just curious as to what else you've seen
>>9939313
Drinking anything while watching this wonderful show makes me feel at ease. And you're worth something lad

>>9939225

I never said anything about fun. I just can't drink beer quick enough to keep up the level of intoxication I need no to feel like shit. I've always loved beer, but really started with gin, and then moved onto bourbon and scotch. Eventually I realized that I can't afford to drink decent whiskey, and vodka gives me the least hangover (not that I really get those anymore - or maybe I'm perpetually hungover, but some days have alcohol poisoning).

>taking Vivitrol for taper
>don't enjoy alcohol anymore
>don't enjoy videogames
>don't enjoy music now
Welp.

>>9939279
I watch this man eat and review military MRE videos. He's the Bob Ross of MRE's.

>>9939380
It causes Anhedonia. Because it covers your endorphin and opiate receptors in the brain.

That's the main side-effect. I take the drug myself. You need to understand that its a give and take situation. Pro and con. Be grateful you arent sucking dick for steele reserve.

>>9939381
ayyyy, I know this youtube channel lol
patrician taste, anon

>>9939336
I've watched a lot, but British folk horror and Italian giallo are some of my favorites, along with the super-eerie Japanese horror films like Pulse and Kwaidan. I like a menacing, crushing sense of dread in my horror films.

I think Night of the Hunter will forever be the scariest film I've ever seen.

>>9939388
>sucking dick for steele reserve
I'll take my blessing.

Are you completely sober or only 'control' drinking atm? Any tips to feel motivated to carry out activities you used to enjoy?

>>9939410
Not the dude you're replying to but I'm currently control drinking at 2-3 beers/night, similar to what my parents did when they got married, although they did beer and hard liquor and they're healthy as horses.
As for feeling motivated to do activities you used to enjoy, just don't do them while you drink. Get some exercise during the day in one way or another. Do your hobby(ies) during the day and not while you're drinking. If you need to, force yourself to do these things. It'll help.

What on Netflix is gud for drunk watching? Was thinking about Anthony Bourdain kino

>>9939223
Not really. I make a little money online. Minimal bills, food, booze and the occasional pc bit is all I spend money on.

>>9939239
Yeah it’s noticeably worse every time. I’m ruined.
No fucks given right now though, as it’s 8.04am and as such I’m downing K ciders.

>>9939443
Ye, Anthony Bourdain.
You could watch some Frasier, Chef & My Fridge, Trailer Park Boys, Andy Griffith
To be honest, just get a 4tb hdd and torrent whatever you want

>>9939443
‘As if I am not there’ is a good film. Just skip to... ‘that scene’ and rewatch it for an hour.

>>9939462
Cliffs?

>>9939466
Eh?

R.I.P silhouettes. Guess it’s time to move on.

>>9939410
i drink about 2 nights per week. dont take the meds when i want to drink the next day. as far as tips to feel motivated, get on an anti-depressant like lexapro or something.

>>9939448
Cryptos? I’m genuine curious about a way to stay afloat online. My expenses are minimal. ~1500 a month. ~1750 if I stay drunk

>>9939479
Yeah among other things. Get an account on poloniex and daytrade, the money being pumped into cryptos is outrageous, won’t be long before it hits 1 trillion invested.

>>9939456
Seen Trailer Park. Is Frasier really that good? What's Chef and My Fridge about?

>>9939500
Thanks.

>>9939519
leftists cant meme version 233424321234

Help

>>9939152
This what I drink about every 3 days... been drinking like this since 08.. but had a 6 month AA sobriety in between... How fucked am i? I don't even care.. I just have abdominal discomfort and need to take the risk of going to doctor...

>>9939525

>>9939530
me too man

>>9939379
beer taper. cut back.

>>9939506
I thoroughly enjoy Frasier. I've rewatched it over and over again. Chef and My Fridge is a weird Japanese show regarding special guests and food. It's interesting. I didn't really describe it well on purpose. If you like japanese shows at all, you should check it out.

>>9939530
What's wrong lad?

>>9939563
Oh, I forgot to mention Terrace House. It's an under the radar japanese reality show. Very cute stuff.

>>9939570
Puking, pain, diarrhoea, no sleep, relentless anxiety, it’s too much

>>9939575
How much are you currently drinking m8

>>9939586
About 400ml/day. Not too savage, but it’s still wrecking my shit

>>9939152

you absolute madman, here, that's a Friday.

For the love of god tell me it's pints or least 500ml tins of a decent percentage that your drinking?

If I were you I'd have a few tomorrow as well

>>9939604
You're right lol, not too savage but it certainly isn't great.
I'm basically gonna tell you the same shit that anyone else here would. If you feel like you can't cut down and taper, seek rehab/help. If you feel like you're going to die, seek rehab/help. If you feel like you can do it, work on tapering. Hard liquor is weird, at least in my experience, but you'd need to switch over to something less abrasive--this being beer. If you're into craft shit and have the money, go for high abv in small amounts to start with--it's expensive but it works for tapering, at least in my experience. If you can't, you're looking into tapering with a decent amount of mediocre fairly low abv beer. I'd guess you haven't been gaining weight with the amount you've been drinking, so you can deal with the beer.
After you make the official switch to beer for a little bit, you can figure your way out on tapering down based on how comfortable you are with it. Just focus on getting away from it though. Start trying to get outside and walk, run, bike, lift, just do something to physically wear you out and keep working on slowing lowering the amount of beer you're drinking.
You might also consider kratom when you get down around this point, although that's a bit of a different thing but it also does help.
Godspeed to you, lad. There's nothing wrong with getting down to a point of a few beers/night either.

https://youtu.be/EAc0Z8rCT4E

>>9939617
Thanks. What I really want though is a magic button I can push which makes everything ok, is that so much to ask? Sheesh.
I actually don’t feel so bad now. Morning drinks have begun to hit nicely. This is as close to a feelgood button as exists. Fuck it, works for now.

>>9939636
Don't we all want the button though. It is too much to ask.
If you're honestly sick of the shit, which it sounds like you were, don't fog yourself in the morning with a shot or drink of whatever liquor is around. Kratom at least helped me stave off the shakes/sweats during the day and just allowed me to keep drinking to a nightly thing because sleep, even if it's shit sleep, is more or less important. And then from there it's progress.
It's up to you though, man.

STOP pathologizing drinking

Here in Tbilisi we drink non stop out of custom and we're happy

>>9939661
И я тoжe пьян, мoй дpyг
Drinking is not the problem, it is the solution

>>9939152
On wine bottle #6 ATM. Not drinking tomorrow.
Tomorrow will be hell but at least then I can make it through work on Monday.
Tomorrow will not be fun at all. I'm scared already.

Haven't had a day with less than two bottles of wine in at least 6 months.

Oh withdrawals how much I hate you.

Farewell to a friend indeed.
My wife's cousin was staying with us
and ending up killing himself shortly after moving out.
He texted me about 1-2 days before it saying he was thinking of killing himself, and had displayed suicidal thoughts for a while.
I still have his fucking hat at my house and keep it by the front door.
He was a chill dude.
Damn this makes me sad.
I still have that fucking hat and I didnt realise it was his until I saw this picture.
I have been wearing it absent mindedly thinking it was just something i drunkenly dragged in.

>>9939661
>implying drinking doesn’t cause any problems
thanks for your wonderful insight

>>9939677
https://youtu.be/3kaUvGSLMew

Rip

>>9939554

I work 6 days a week and need to be functional.

>>9939683
I don't like linkin park but ill listen
listening now.
rip chester thought

>>9939677
Rip in peace, hat-anon

>>9939692
though*

>>9939693
Hat-anon is gnomebro btw

Damnit why didnt I help him?
I was too fucked up to be able to text him back
or call him
I just replied something like 'well dont kill yourself lol'
It still hurts when I see his hat.

>>9939703
Some people can never be happy. I'm sorry you lost a friend but he also lost his suffering

https://youtu.be/NBE-uBgtINg

>>9939718
That makes sense, he had a lot of suffering.
I am glad he is at peace now.

>>9939718
>Some people can never be happy.
Det finns människor som saknar alla anlag för lycka och som känner det med pinsam, obeveklig klarhet. Sådana människor strävar inte efter lycka utan efter att få lite form och stil på sin olycka.

>>9939745
get out you suomi

>>9939745
I am the Ethiopiacuck. Speak English

>>9939703
Yep, his message to you was a cry for help. He didn't want to do it really but his head was obviously fucked and you made him feel that truly no one gave a shit.

Nice one retard, his death and all the sadness it has brought to others is because of you

Malt liquor and The Mars Volta. Weird night

>>9939762
lol whatever, he would have done it regardless. he was popular and had a thousand other people to vent to.
He was going to kill himself no matter what.
He made this clear that he was suicidal for the entire 8-10 months he lived with me.
I hate that he did it but if a man makes up their mind there is no stopping him.
I just prolonged the inevitable/

Why is Anthony Bourdain ao comfy?

>>9939797
You're a piece of shit. Pathetic excuse for a human. You're fucking nothing.

>>9939814
You're a gnome
I can tell.

>>9939814
Anyways, you gnomefucker, do you actually have an argument or is it nothing but attacks on my character?

New goal gf

>>9939307
>I might have to watch more horror movies when I drink
I can't watch horror movies since I had withdrawals induced nightmares.

>>9939797
Ignore the trolls. If you answer them, it means they win.
Sorry for your loss.

>>9939825
>tfw wife is 5-6 inches shorter than you and thicc but chubby.
>tfw you will never have a girl for snu-snu,

Why
I hate even bringing up my fetishes to my wife.
She is okay with my bodyhair fetish and goes very natural for me
But I cant tell her to get a foot taller and muscular and dominate me.
Fuck
I want snu-snu

>>9939830
thanks man, I forget not to feed the trolls sometimes.

>>9939839
>someone said something negative to me that means they're a troll

>>9939817
>thinking everything has to be an argument
Different anon here - I, too, agree have committed a grievous flaunting infinite shitbaggery and faggotry. You ain't worth shit on a shoe. Went from feelsbadman to lol, hurr durr who cares in 0.2 sec like some retarded attention whore taking selfies with his dead gran for likes.

>>9939841
>>9939843
Yall are funny.
we are al/cks of course we aint worth shit,
And you wojak poster are the dumbest of all.
pepe and wojak posters should be nailed to the cross.

>>9939846
>no you're dumb
>no you're shit
Oh, fuck, you got me, scumbag.

>>9939853
Tehee, nice posts memelord. How honerable to be shitposting in a fucking al/ck/ threads of all things.

>>9939858
>I'm a worthless piece of shit because I post in al/ck not because I'm factually a pile of shit who uses dead people for attention. But you're the asshole now.
The one shitposting is you, famalam. You're human trash. Stop trying to blame the alcohol for shit character. Plenty of guys in al/ck threads are chill and have basic decency.
>honerable
Wtf does ck have to do with honor? Please tell me you are shitfaced.

>>9939858
Why do reditors constantly say things like

>hurrr this is a cooking board
>duuuurrr this is an al/ck/ thread

Yes, everyone is aware of where they are, retard. You faggots try the hardest to fit in but you stick out like sore thumbs

>>9939882
I have never been on reddt a day in my life.
I have been on this stupid ass website since 2007
It is impossible to leave.
Also redditors calling people redditors is funny,

OH fuck I saw
FOND FAREWELL TO A FRIEND EDITION
and didnt realise they ment quitting booze.
I thought they meant a friend died.
whoops my bad.

>>9939889
>huuurrrr I am le epic old fag

Ok bye now retard

>>9939912
fuck off

>>9939912
Why do are you a meme-spouting faggot?
Can you communicate in something that isnt memes?

>>9939912
look at this meme-spoutin fag

>>9939912
here;s your (you)

>>9939933
>>9939935
>>9939940
>>9939946
>samefagging intensifies
>oh, noes, different people can't talk shit about a shitstain
Go back to your safe space, senpai.

>>9939954
Proves our point that you can only communicate in memes

>>9939954
also not a same fag you memespoutin fuck

>>9939957
Tbh, there actually are different people who shit talked you, but all your typing indicates the work of a singular source. You give off a powerful newfag vibe, too, considering you still pursue this like it's going to redeem you in any way. This is not reddit, my dear tainted boipucci.

>>9939966
>not knowing what samefagging is
Lurk more, fag.

>>9939968
Whatever you can win, rejoice in this victory you faggot.
Anime poster too so doublefaggot.
Get lost
Imma go have a few drink and ignore that this happened.
You are a prime gnome

>>9939970
You can really tell when someone is redit because they try to police everything and claim everyone else is a newfag.

>open a beer (or anything, just has to be enough liquid to handle contents)
>pour in glass
>crack 3-4 eggs into glass
>grate cheese
>roll into small balls
>put in the glass too
>drink
>meal & booze ftw

The goal

>>9939986
This is an advanced technique also depressing to be real you aint gnoming me are you?

>>9939981
>you can spot a redditfag by the way the police shit
>tries to police the memes and stop the insults
>hypocrisy in this post over 9000
Alcohol makes it better, anon. Drink up.

>>9939381
Nice

>>9940002
Oh no , insult me all you want, It is funny.
I enjoy the abuse.
I just wanted to feed you some (yous)
Please lets keep it going
dont stop now
This is all i have

>>9940014
>This is all i have
This is probably the truest thing you've said so far.

>>9940019
you do understand that you dont have to post a picture each time you reply?
fuckin new
I swear
I bet your name is Kris or Chris

>>9940024
>engages in newfagging
>not newfag I swear
>you're the newfag
>keeps starting a new line for no reason
Keep this up, anon. You'll cure me of any desire to drink out of fear from turning into a vegetable like you.

>>9940043
no please drink
It will ease the pain
And your funny
newfags calling oldfags newfags is hilarious to me.
Keep em coming please.
Keep gettin mad at me.

>>9940051
Dude. Stop. Lol. You are losing.

>>9940051
>no you again
>I'm totes oldfag

>>9940066
>>9940065
no no yall keep winning
I am enjoying it.
Throw at least 2-3 more at me.
Please

>>9939830
>I can't watch horror movies
Exactly the same here. I used to love them, now just seeing a walking dead poster is enough to make me throw up. Traumatised for life ffs

>>9940072
Throw what??? Accusations of being a newfag??
Go to bed or do your homework or something.

>>9940076
You're cute
gimme one more
if you dont imma call you an autistic fag

>>9940084
i really like how upset you are lol.

>>9940091
:^)

>>9940084
Anon, just promise us you won't kys later. You sound like someone who is crying, but won't let go of the bully's leg after the ass whupping.

>>9940102
Damn if you we gonna argue like this we might as well start dating.
Wanna hook up?

>>9939287
This, I have Mr Bond, Hitler and Mosley on repeat.

>>9940114
>argue
Famalam, this is what you call 4chan foie gras. You've been forced to suck shit from the assholes of superior beings nonstop to produce the finest and saltiest of tears for turbo faggoting into another dimension. If you take anything away from this besides the indisputable fact that you are being a bottom-feeding puddle of smoldering AIDS infested pubes, it's that basic bitch shit like using the death of someone who you don't give a shit about to garner attention and sympathy for your own worthless faggot nigger ass is not a career decision. I'm going to masturbate with fervor and gusto, picturing how raw bloody buttfucked you are about not getting your full quota of sympathy cards, anon.

>>9940147
>>>/b/
>>9939990
I’ve always thought that if I had to look after an alchie, I’d only give them booze if the first drink of the day, was mixed in with a load of freshly blended fruit and vitamin supplements. It’d make a huge difference, and if I didn’t have to make it myself and it contained booze, I’d chug it down without hesitation.

I just woke up delirious.

>rush home from holiday
>realtor says there’s a house tour scheduled
>get drunk and pass the fuck out last night
>wake up three hours before tour and spend time reading my threads and taking shots of vodka
It’s fucking crunch time my dudes, wish me luck. This place is a pit.

night sweats are STARTING on night 5 sober? with pulse at 65 BPM and full nights sleep with no weird dreams? is this even possible? what fresh hell have i entered into

>>9940515
Remove the word house and you sound like a rockstar from 30 years ago.

>>9940515
I can't even fucking see or read. what do i do

>>9940520
Time for you to start drinking again. Stop being a faggot and crack open a can/bottle

>>9940538
Thanks I actually lol’d

>>9940515
I haven’t done anything yet because my gf is asleep (tried waking her up five times) and I think we should share the burden of cleaning this place. I’m a piece of shit for that but she’s also a dick for not getting up.

>>9940520
I just got shaky again on the third day. Don't expect to be really normal for at least a few weeks.

You're well over the worst though.

Listening to Hitler speeches lads

>>9940752
No.

>>9940760
Jew

>>9939225
This guy gets it. I don't want to drink anymore it just feels like I have to so I do t Fkn die

>>9940772
Pretty sure most people here hate alcohol. It makes me feel relatively good for like 3 hours, but then awful for the remaining 21. I’m drinking right now solely to stop the savage anxiety.
>>9940766
No. Stop trying to ruin the thread.

i had 8 x 500ml heineken cans and about 2 bottles of wine last night.

i woke up feeling so fucking horrible like disconnected and weak and my breathing was labored, couldn't move and my whole lower body kept shaking like you do when you are cold. i took lorazepam and a beta blocker to slow down my heart but nothing helped. i went to the hospital but they wouldnt do anything because somehow my BAC was 0.00 even though i had 2 glasses of wine the hour before to try stop it if it was DTs......

anyone have any idea what it was? i have had 7 cans of heineken tonight hopefully that is enough to ward off the shit?

>>9940801
Just sounds like quite mild, standard withdrawal to me, dude. Can’t explain the BAC though, are you sure you didn’t imagine the whole thing? I once had an hour long conversation with someone who was apparently hundreds of miles away at the time. Still feels real to this day.
Just drink a couple and see if it subsides I guess, drink enough that you’re more comfy and less anxious.

Just puked involuntarily. Feel much better. Might force another.

well i just started day drinking
passed out before i finished my vodka last night
finished it this morning
its only gonna get worse before it gets better

Haven't had a sip since Monday. Facing my first weekend. I think I can do it....am...am I gonna make it bros?

>>9940869
Don’t let yourself be fooled by ‘just one’-itis and yup. M-maybe

>>9940845
Show us pic of room you're in

>>9940888
No I'm not going to post something that can identify me

>>9940869
Yes. Allow yourself a lot of fun degenerate things that aren't booze. You have to be nice to yourself at the start.

>>9940898
Don't be a bitch. Here's mine

>>9940515
I took all of the vodka bottles out of my house and put them in the shed, hopefully they don’t look.

>>9940929
Get yourself a roomba

>>9940930
Ooft. That’s a non-trivial addiction. I hope you’re at least eating healthily dude, that much vodka on an empty stomach will fuck you deep and hard

>>9939245
what are you drinking?

>>9940882
>>9940902
Only shitty this g is there's beer in the fridge. Should I throw it out?? I've never done that. Seems wrong. I'm aiming for at least 6 dry months...

Is this the poorfag's bourbon of choice?

Only $12 for a fifth and $22 for a handle. I drink this shit all day everyday

>>9940950
Yeah, I’m the 1.75l boi.
I eat like garbage but am actively making a change... Although, I need to eat all of my frozen/ shitty food before I have to move so that’s gonna suck.
House tour actually went well, surprisingly. They wanted to keep my cat, because she’s cool as fuck.
Almost out of vodka but all is well.

>>9940994
>$22 for a handle
Where do you live? That shit is $12.99 for a handle where I’m at.

>>9941024
I’m trying to sell my house too. It’s so ruined that no fucker wants it. My finances are precarious af right now. As soon as it’s sold though, that’s going to be an intense party, it’ll probably ruin my new place too.

>>9941029
Beaumont. Wish I lived where you live

>>9939287
This

>>9940930
Wew

>>9940989
You can give them to a hobo or something, but pouring booze down the drain is perfectly acceptable when you're an alkie and have passed withdrawals.

>>9940147
I enjoy you, trying to haze people.
It is impressive that you are able to type all that shit over one post.
Keep wasting your time. I'll keep posting

Jesus christ
Closed-eye Hallucinations have kicked back in
Fucking why did I relapse.
And I got a pimple next to my tear duct and it is killing me worst than anything.
Seeing it in my field of vision is weird.

>>9941129
>closed-eye visuals
Ah yes, the bottomless pit of darkness overflowing with disease-riddled demons and rot, love that.

I accepted a senior position at my job, and now i'm working 2pm-11pm M-F. The extra pay is good, but its seriously cutting into my drinking. Sure, I love sleeping in until 1 but by the time I get home, I can't finish more than one beer before going the fuck to sleep.

What do?

>>9941138
Celebrate?

>>9941137
I keep seeing the weirdest shit that makes the toughest of hallucigenics and psychadelics look weak.
This is nutty, It is like every time I lay down and close my eyes I am viewing a fucking dream,
But after 2 beers it goes away so that is helpful
whats worse is I cant even explain what I saw because I forget 2 seconds later.

>>9941138
the time in my life I drank the most, I worked the 1500 - 2400 shift but it was called the 3 to 3 shift because you'd hit the bar until they closed at 3AM. Police officer job.
Step it up, son

>>9941138
Drink at work. I used to drink vodka out my coffee cup on the way to work

I don't have that job anymore. Bosses don't like you passing out at work

>>9941190
I used to mix evan williams in my coke from the soda fountain at work. Add 2-3 splashes of vanilla syrup to it and no-one could even tell it was alcohol.
The vanilla removed all of the worry of getting caught.

>>9941138
>complaining about not being an alcohol in the organ failure general

How true is this?

>>9939152
>Day 4 Sober
Still waking up after an hour of sleep gasping and confused, but after about 2 hours I'll finally knock out. Woke up at 10 and went to get breakfast. Bored as fuck. Contemplating going down to get a coffee and read a book.

I live right downtown and I live above a bar. I heard them bumping music last night while I was shitposting on /g/.

My shits still aren't right but they're not yellow anymore. Withdrawals are unthinkably bad when they are happening but then after a few days you start to question if they were that bad.

Fuck this shit. Gonna stay sober because I'm going to lose my job and gf if i don't, but this is no fun.

>>9941294
Whiskey from the bottle everyday for three years put me in the top right. Thankfully I've got down to "just" beer and wine every night for the past year but there's still an awful lot of hatred inside. Don't think I'll fully recover

>>9941294
Not for me. On what is it based? Brandy will make you despise yourself, it’s packed with congeners and is strong as fuck. Cider, brandy, whiskey, rum - fine for normies, absolute poison if you’re drinking all waking hours

>>9939288
I'm a beer alc, you can most definitely get withdrawals if you're crushing 12-18 a day for a decent amount of time. I did.

>>9941322
Normies love to brag about brown spirits but it just screams casual desu. Lagavulin gets old quick if you have to chug a waterglass of it in the morning.

>>9941294
honestly only options imo for an alc are clear liquors and high abv beers. everything else will make you sick ontop of regular wd's

>4th day sober
>still poop soup

When will I shit properly lads?

>>9941328
Yeah seriously. Can you imagine if the only source of booze available to you was lagavulin? *shudder*

>>9941345
When you start eating a decent diet.

I've been medically detoxed with guys drinking 12 beers a day. Hell I've been there with old ladies who only drink a bottle of wine a night. They were doing it for years though

>>9941345
I almost tore my asshole apart this morning from applying too much pressure to a fat solid log cos I'm used to squirting shit piss out my ass

>>9941345
hey same

destroyed the bathroom at my first AA meeting lol. Felt bad for the guys that were waiting to go after me.

How'd the meeting go? I remember chugging vodka in the bathroom at a meeting. Bad times.

>>9941374
I got head off a nig Out the back and got crabs. Should've fuckin stayed at home

>>9941374
It was okay. I wasn't in very good shape. I shared, but it probably came out pretty janky. Only went once, probably gonna go again tomorrow. Small town so i'm afraid of people from work seeing me.

Got some old marine guys phone number and i'm probably gonna give him a ring tomorrow.

>>9940801
no idea what caused those symptoms. sounds bizarre.

>>9940929
jesus christ man. looks like the place zombies would live in night of the living dead
>>9940930
switch to beer, holy shit. so much less deadly than what youre doing.

>>9941395
I wouldn't worry about running into people you know. It's anonymous, remember? Good for you for going though. It was a really hard decision for me to stumble through the doors. I think it took me almost a year to show up to o e sober

Cool I got a Vietnam vet at one of my meetings. Met him when he came to talk to us when I was at detox in the mental hospital

>>9941422
I'm not so much worried about the people in the meeting as I am worried about people either seeing me walking to the meeting or seeing my car parked in the lot. Although I've noticed meetings are usually in back rooms, where parking lots are sort of hidden

Yeah here theyre always in churches. Who else would welcome a group of fuck ups haha

You in the middle of butt fuck no where? I have more than 20 meetings a day here a d my city is only a million people

Grab a big book and a twelve step book. I got mine shoved into ,y hands with a list of numbers after I showed up messed up on booze and crack

>>9941294
I don't understand it. Is the chart supposed to tell how you'll end up feeling upon drinking? Or tells you the hate you have and how much based on what you drink? By far I've mostly drank rum since 2013 but I'm generally a very cheerful and friendly drunk. I think that the TYPE of alcohol doesn't much affect things because in the end it's all ethanol, so how does the non-ethanol ingredients affect you? I don't think it's any difference. Straight liquor will get you drunker quicker, so if you "get angry" when you drink liquor then maybe it's just because your natural self when super-drunk is angry. If you slammed down a dozen or two dozen beer as quick as you can to get similarly drink, it'd likely be the same outcome if you're of the same mindset.

I just bit my tongue a little. It's ok though. Also got stoned for the first time in months just 4 hours ago, didn't like it as much as booze. It was maybe my 3rd or 4th time getting stoned either since late-2013 or late-2014.

>>9941353
I am desu.

>>9941459
hey man, start clicking the post number youre replying to. makes things less confusing

>>9940929
>>9940930
holy fuck lads

>>9941151
i fucking HATE THIS SHIT i cannot stand it, absolutely cannot stand it, does not help that i have anxiety to begin with

when that shit starts is when i go to the ER for lorazepam, no questions asked
not that you need to do so, but fuckkkkk so bad

>>9940538
lel

>>9940994
Is that a jack daniels rip-off?

>>9941590
It is similiar but it is bourbon
It tastes a bit sweeter and less smokey.
I swear by it
It is good with a splash of cola to enhance the sweetness.

>>9940929
timestamp

Tfw Over the years you've been prescribed Ativan, lorazepam, diazepam, bromazapam, Valium, Xanax, naltrexone, bus par, Prozac, and a bunch of other shit cause you're a drunk

>>9941639
Sounds familiar. Can’t get shit prescribed now though, been flagged as a benzo-seeker.

>>9941294
It is true
>>9941414
Beer does nothing for me. I’m 21 desu but I’ve been doing this for almost seven years.

Yeah my girlfriends been flagged for snorting her adderal prescription. I don't think I've been flagged but one doctor pretty much told me to take a hike while having withdrawals. Said he doesn't prescribe them caused people like me a use them. And it's true. Valium withdrawal made me relapse back in 2015. The withdrawals were hell

I feel like suit drinking and I feel like suit sober. scored 50x40mg pay for a ball of rock. Woof woof

>>9941769

Boys I know it can be a bit hard for some of you guys to get but cider is the best

Henry Weston is my hero

I've fallen off the wagon again and his friendly face was right there to welcome me back

Cheers al/ck/ we'll all make it eventually

>>9941798
The strong Weston’s are pretty awesome. K is like half the price though, and just as powerful. Omega is cheaper still and still packs a punch. I can’t justify the cost.

>>9939287
Holy shit me too. Also listen to WW2 military marches

>>9941798
>Cheers al/ck/ we'll all make it eventually
I've mad it 3 times, my problem is that I always come back. It's not a craving so much as it is having little else in life I enjoy.

I'm trying to brew low-alcohol beer right now. I enjoy doing it so it occupies time I'd normally sit on my ass and booze. Also cheaper.

>>9941769

>>9941804
The taste is so good though and you don't look like the alchie you are when you grab 5 for £6 on your way back from work

Plus Morrisons have Old Rosie boxes left from the Xmas promo that are 5 litres for £8

K is good and one of those drinks that shock normal folks with how drinkable high abv tramp shit can be.
Omega tastes like shit. Frosty Jacks isn't too bad. White Ace makes you tear up. Pulse tastes like gone off tonic water

>>9941816
Keep going man
I believe in you to come good this time. Having a focus/hobby is always helpful

>>9941639
they got no cure for it. alcoholism is a symptom of the human condition. how do you cure it?

>>9941665
>>9941697
same here, i guess deep down i know it's for my own good.
but i function so well on those benzos

i did barely get 3 days of ativan at the ER once during withdrawals, but that was after another ER turned me down in the morning (rudely as shit) and i drank all day on a completely failed taper and got worse at night and went back to the ER in the amber lamps

on another note, i actually can't taper because my primary symptom is anxiety and while having a mild BAC might stop the shakes, it does JACK SHIT for my dysphoria and anxiety

im on day 5 sober, i can't drink again. i had a year before this, i was better

>>9941697
what was your dose / duration that caused the valium withdrawal? i swear to god i am feeling 3 mg ativan x 3 days, and i stopped that like last wednesday

Recently unemployed and I've been drinking far too much. I even cancelled 2 interviews because my withdrawals and anxiety we're so bad.

>>9941894
go to the doctor, get help from your family
shit is not going to get better friend
there's better on the other side for all of us

>>9941395
Just say you're seeing a friend who lives here/going to a local shop or some bland excuse.
Also congrats.

>>9941480
I'm sure there's an option in "Quotes & Replying" settings, top right of the page that can make this bug.

>>9941684
Have you tried wine? You'd need to taper with something less strong than vodka but still stronger than beer since you can't stomach 20 litres of it.

>>9941855
There's baclofene, but it doesn't work on everybody.

>>9941894
Might be a problem.

>>9941894
i see a beer taper in your future

>>9941894
Oh and not to mention finding my friend with his brains blown out a week after losing my job. This world is trying to kill me.

>>9941940
what the fuuuuuck
dude u gotta take care of urself
are you seeing someone?
u gotta put down the booze and get some psychiatric help, im serious. we care about you

>>9941959
I was actually starting to taper after I lost my job and was doing fairly well even though I was still drinking daily. My roommates we're supportive and everything. Then there was the trauma of the suicide, telling his parents, the funeral and all the bullshit but not even my closest friends and family want to talk about it with me. Then all my roommates moved out and I'm pretty much stuck keeping this house running. It was just too much, too fast and now I don't even want to kill myself after seeing the devastation my friend's suicide had on so many people.

>>9941977
well i never had that happen to me but i've been through some shit
also my roomie just moved out and im alone in my apartment, have another guy coming in feb but i miss my old roommate, i am feeling lonely too
u can do this dude, if the anxiety and sadness is really so bad you should go see a doctor. you can even go to the ER and get help for sleeping / tapering
u r gonna be okay

>>9939677
>face tats

Fucking hell, who here has to taper for days just because of one night drunk? 9pm, day 3, and 40ml wasn’t enough to kill the raging fear, another 20ml got rid of it for all of an hour, and I’m now starting to feel the fear flooding back a couple of hours after having had a total of 240ml. Only got 40 left and want to save it for just before I try to sleep. There are no words to describe how bad this feels. Getting drunk for one night apparently now requires a week of drinking to recover.

>>9942076
i am the exact same. because of that i can't really taper with alcohol anymore. i don't think tapering is supposed to get rid of the suicidal fear, i think it's supposed to stop shaking

u better go get some benzos, it's not gonna get better if u keep drinking...ahem, excuse me, tapering

>>9942076
im similar. wds just get worse. then what?

>>9942120
I quit, I suppose. Like fuck am I feeling like this for a week for the sake of one drink.
Fuck me, I’ve no idea what it’s even like to be sober long-term.
>>9942088
>benzos
Never again, they can fuck off too

>>9942165
wish there were reasonable alternatives to alcohol

3rd day sober and crying. Wish I was dead but at the same time don't

>>9942202
Yeah no kidding. I’d be so happy if I could just grow weed without being imprisoned by ignorant cretins.

>>9942202
It's a shame most alcks are too tortured for weed

>>9942226
i just get anxious on it. dunno about you

>>9942223
why crying on day three? wds should be almost gone

>>9942251
yeah then comes PAWS

>>9942254
What the fuck is PAWS

>>9942254
oh yeah

>>9942262
post acute withdrawal syndrome, basically depression and anxiety and boredom mixed with a little insomnia

>>9942226
I absolutely love weed. Annihilates paws. Not paranoia for me, I guess because I’ve smoked so much for so long. I could face 14 fucking years though for growing, because the uk’s drugs laws were apparently written by an alcohol lobbyist psychopath.
>>9942262
Post acute withdrawal.
Oh boy, prepare to be scared. Some say it goes away after months/years, others say it’s permanent.

>>9942273
Sounds about right

who /ill but still drinking/ here?

i feel fucking dreadful desu

>>9942244
>>9942286
if i didn't get anxious/paranoid/scared i'd smoke the shit out of it, but most times i try i feel worse than i do sober.

Anyone else going to try Mr. Smirnoff's magic intestinal health diet?

Day 6 of sobriety. Stopped shaking after 24 hours and the dizziness and anxiety is gone now.

Feels good lads

>>9942305
Yeah seems very common. For like 15 mins after smoking a huge joint, I get introspective anxiety, but I’m able to shrug it off because I know it’s just the weed. After that I just watch documentaries for hours and feel great, no chance of boredom/depression/anxiety. I once spent like four hours just staring at this, mesmerised. It really made me feel like the earth is alive
https://earth.nullschool.net/#current/wind/surface/level/orthographic=-1.07,55.73,225

>>9942338
cuntgrats

I haven't had a drink for almost 2 weeks.... because I replaced alcohol with heavy doses of xanax and phenibut.

I'm going to WD like a motherfucker when I run out.

>>9942338
But how do you feel when you think about what the drink has cost you

>>9942338
Looks like JLaw but with a nicer bod

I was on 50 mg a day of Valium when I withdraw led. I was only on it for a few months but colt turkey was hellish. Honestly I still don't feel the same. I think I fucked my brain up. Alcoholics should not be around benzos long term. YOU WILLL GET HOOKED

>>9941769

>>9942372
I miss Dolan. That was a fun meme while it lasted

>>9942338
looks like my college lecturer

>>9942387
more dolans up in this bitch plz

>>9941327
You must be fat as fuck mate

>>9939519
Go back to your liberal alien site and kys

>>9942363
oh shit anon.

>>9942446
>>>/b/ is thattaway kiddy.

>>9942367
They’re so cosy, too. Shame they’re so dangerous.
Wonder how many of us will get Alzheimer’s
https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/benzodiazepine-use-may-raise-risk-alzheimers-disease-201409107397

Last drink gone, anxiety still ferocious, shops all fucking closed.
I can’t do this shit alone. Holy fuck, alcoholism is savage.

>>9942569
why's the anxiety lingered so long?

>>9942322
I'm thinking about it. My usual meal has a meat, green vegetable and a starch, and removing the starch feels wrong. I'll have to look at recipes and menu examples.

>>9942363
Plan a taper with your remaining pills. Seriously, delirium tremens is dangerous and indescribably horrible. And ER don't like benzo abusers.

>>9942569
Sobriety is boring as fuck, but it's comfy compared to the alkie life.

>>9942582
Not him but it’s Because booze rapes your GABA and glutamate receptors to high hell and they stay fucked for days after a binge especially if you’ve withdrawn before

>>9942300
I always get drunk if I’m ill. Non-stop boozing got me through heroin cold turkey like 100 times.
The aftermath of that is a properly unpleasant comedown, ooft.

>>9942338
1.75l boi here, that looks like my gf but she is taller, and tbqh senpai a little prettier.
The only reason I drink is because I can, and because I’m so afraid of wds. I botched my taper because of the holidays, but I should start again soon.

>>9942614
Who’s a lucky boy then. Can I borrow her for research purposes? I’ll give her free alcohol and rohypnol

>>9942590
>My usual meal
are you part of the single meal a day master race?

>>9942614
switch to beer when you get at the half a handle a day level, the sheer volume alone will limit you from relapsing.

>>9942591
oh ok

>>9940930
Don’t throw those away. I made a killing by buying lava lamp bases on alibaba and making meme lamps from empties.

>>9942338
how is your sleep? I'm on day 4 but i keep waking up every couple of hours freaking out.

>>9942433
nah you wouldn't really be able to tell. I was still able to work out most days believe it or not. I'm 6'4 240. Definitely not skinny, but i don't look fat.

4 days in and i think i lost like 5-10lbs water weight believe it or not

>>9942769
Sleep is an issue. Wide awake all night and I get maybe an hour or so in total.

>>9942364
I don’t dwell on it. The past has been and gone, there is only today and tomorrow.

>>9942808
You wanna sleep real good cunt? How about I cut your fucking throat open? You gonna cuckin cry about sleeping then?

>>9939381
Sounds.. nice

>>9942814
I find it exceptionally hard to let the past go. It's what leads me back to the drink even though I know that won't help and will only make things worse

>>9942841
You have to. Make peace with yourself. It’s hard but you can do it.

>>9942638
No, I eat like a normie now. Used to forget to eat for days when I drank, ended up with acute pancreatitis. Now it's chronic.

>>9942687
Aren't they too large for that?

What the fuck do I do sober when it's 5 degrees out?

I was perfectly content to walk to the bar and slammered regardless of weather, but now i've been in my apt for two days watching youtube cooking/mark wiens vids, playing videogames and cleaning. Apt is now cleanish and i'm so bored.

>>9942853
All you need is a hot lamp in a metal stand, how hard can it be?

This may be it for me, I have to see my doctor on Tuesday for a check up on my blood pressure and cholesterol, because they were both normal-high. I've tried my best to cut back on drinking and smoking, and also exercise regularly, but I'm afraid it may not be enough. If I go in on Tuesday and things haven't gotten better, I think that's going to be it, no more smokes or booze. It's terrifying because it's the only thing I have enjoyed over the past 10 years. I'm 30 now and I can't for the life of me remember the last time I have been sober for more than a couple of months over the last 10 years. I really believe that if I give up booze and smokes I will just turn into a depressed zombie that lives longer than the former me. Really makes me wonder if it's even worth the extra life expectancy to quit.

>>9942856
Order over a hooker then when you've finished banging her, kill her.

Dealing with the situation from that moment on should keep you occupied for quite some time

>>9942687
details? I wouldn't mind doing shit like that.

>tfw no gf
>tfw no friends
>tfw family disowned drunk-me
The feels, oh god

>>9942873
that sounds bad

>>9942875
Lava lamps are legit just a bulb which heats up the liquid in the bottle above, the coloured wax in the bottle melts and rises to the top, then falls again as it cools. Do a bit of shopping around for components. I can’t show you the exact bits I used because it was years ago. College kids and normies love buying meme junk

>>9942880
people treat their pets better than their less-than-perfect offspring. i dont get it. why even have kids.

>>9942853
>Now it's chronic.
What's that like?

>>9942868
(Tell me if I’m wrong but imo) Life feels like it’s going at 1,000mph if you’re an alchie. We have something wrong with us which makes us crave that frantic rush. To leave booze behind is to be planted firmly in a tedious, slow-paced normie-tier PAWS world, there’s no more exaggerated emotion or artificial sense of enjoyment, just... well. Boring normie crap. Unbearable in my 20’s, but not totally unattractive the older I get. Im starting to think that just sitting around discussing incredibly tedious and futile shit might not be such a bad thing. My days of emptying my balls inside teenage grils and getting arrested for flailing around like a drunken spastic might be coming to an end, and maybe it’s something I can embrace and enjoy. Maybe.

>>9943002
I would say there are some definite pluses to getting old. Relaxing is one of them in my book.

>>9943018
Yeah it does strike me that it’d negate a shitload of unnecessary anxiety. I had social anxiety in my teens and early 20’s, that’s totally gone. To also get rid of crippling booze-related anxiety and paranoia also, would be cosy as hell I expect. Imagine zero anxiety. Going to try to see PAWS from that perspective, couple more days tapering and I’ll give it a shot.

>>9943033
It should get easier to drink less the older you get, no matter what. I mean, our bodies rebound less and less with age. So theres that. Also, maybe just switch to beer and sometimes wine. Dunno what you usually drink.

>>9942856
Time to DIY your place then. Or find a new hobby.

>>9942951
I shit oil if I don't take pancreatic juices pills with every meal, it's slowly worsening and will end with diabetes and mostly no pancreas.
I often feel nauseated and can't eat much, and feel bad if I skip a meal too. Tend to feel "full" after smaller meals, so Christmas dinner is lamish.
Apparently I don't absorb nutriments well either. I just take some multivitamins and have blood tests every year and take an extra of whatever is missing.

What's up with Tequila anyway? What's the fucking point of a drink that tastes so awful, you have to bite into a fucking citrus fruit to get the taste off? Or alternatively lick ones own finger.

>>9943133
i like the taste of tequila. its very unique. the salt, limes and drinking shots fast thing is for college kids.

>>9943002
Definitely, the last 10 years have been a blur, started out great for the first 5 years, but the last 5 have been a steady slope downward. I know I'm about at the end of my tenure with drinking. All I need is a little push, and my doctor visit will probably be the push I need, although if the results are good I don't see myself stopping. I really won't stop until my health forces me to. I gave up liquor years ago though, strictly beer for me now. It doesn't help that nobody thinks my drinking is a problem except for me. It's very enabling.

>>9943169
Plz sho bobs and vagin

Nikker whore din da want to pay. said this aim a a game, make money to eat n ain't gunman niggers with u

I just made 5 k plus a delivery feeeeeèe


Think about me Reddit so lelememelemeemkekemem

>tfw ate 3 meals for the first time in about a year

Do the bath 5lx50mg at 1 l a mg a fuck thats 5000k but I might be jacked in msg

>>9943595
>>9943606
>>9943623
You are drunk go to bed.

>>9943627
>drunk
No kid, no drunk here here. I have 50 k cash here and more in whiiiiìitr

Call me the great white herowin. It's ok new gag others have seen why i go by hero win

>>9943648
Go nod off in a corner somewhere then.

Gotta drive for about 6 hrs tomorrow. Already seven tall boys and a mickey and a half of brandy in.

Wish me luck bros.

>>9943713
enjoy your disorientation-induced panic attacks with no rest stops in sight in the middle of a slow moving traffic jam

>>9943648
Gib me sum then, the medfags are all wrapped up nowadays.

>drink everyday
>stop after minor health scare
>drink once a week now and still feel paranoid
>see this thread and what anons say they and for how long they been doing it

Yeah I'm fine.