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I'll start us off. I got blackout drunk at work Friday night and am probably fired. Don't know how to be sober, gonna be pretty bummed if I lost this fucking job.

Help

>>9914793
On the bright side, I have also been sick as shit with the flu this week. So my brief encounter with my boss at three in the morning may have been construed as the flu. I'm generally a pretty together drunk,. But still, I g9tta stop drinking at work.

>>9914799
Or you could just kill yourself. Then you'd never drink again.

You could also figure out what drives you to drink and sort out your issues, but that's so much work. Way too much work, and you're now stuck with that chemical addiction anyway. I'd just kill myself.

>>9914807
Too much of a coward. And 8 have a pretty g9od handle on why I drink, just not much to do about it.

Thank you for the adv8ce tho, happy New years!

Why haven’t you linked this in the last thread? Idiot

I'm constipated as fuck. Help.

>>9914789
>be me
>had the shakes so bad this morning after yet another attempt not to employ hair of the dog to recover from a massive weekend
>took too many drugs to try and even shit out
>first bottle in tonight and now feeling much better
I emailed aa though
I really need to beat this before it kills me

>>9914952
I'll switch lol. Mexican bar will get you going

>>9914968
I would rather have diarrhea.

>>9914957
What drugs did you take? I always felt like shit after MDMA, like completely suicidal for a day lol.
>emailed aa
Have you seen a doc about cutting back?

I fucking love my Rubik's cube.

Would it be a bad idea to drink a little to alleviate horrible anxiety i've been having for hours due to alcohol withdrawal? Can't handle this, lads.

>>9915041
have you tried just sleeping it off?

>>9915048
Feel too afraid to just lie down and try to sleep. I tried to sleep earlier but my face went all fuzzy like how you get if you sat on your leg and it's gone a little numb and woke me up.

>>9914949

im still not drunk just a little tipsy

I drank 900ml of cheap vodka last night and then slept for 11 hours, now I can't stop shitting. I love a good after grog bog but it's getting out of hand. Got some rice simmering away on the stove now, hope it blocks my hole.

>>9915071
should add some protein to the rice if you haven't already, whatever you have in the fridge
and some soy sauce to get back at least some electrolytes

>>9915085
I had some instant noodles for lunch, so the sodium aspect has been well covered. Started feeling better straight after that.

Have also refilled my brita jug in the fridge about 4 times today, thirsty as fuck.

>>9915041
Depends. It's a good idea to taper instead of going cold turkey, but tapering too slowly and for too long can result in just continuing drinking if you're not motivated enough.
If you've been dry for 3 days or more, don't drink. You've been through the worst, now you just have to wait it out. Do meditation and stuff for anxiety.

>Got wasted by 10pm, chugging whisky cokes
>Started randomly starting on guys in the club for 'looking at me wrong'
>Smashed into people for fun and blamed people behind me
>Shouted obscenities at the bouncers for being poor and not having a real job
>Made a friend cry by repeatedly calling her a massive slut nd laughing in her face.
>Feel like utter shit today

This happens every time I drink. I'm not sure why but i turn into an utter cunt.

The West End is a small place too and everyone knows each other, so fuck knows why my friends still decide to go out with me lol.

Got nice drunk but started hitting up some dumb bitch I used to fuck with awhile ago

>>9915111
Thanks anon. Gonna pour away most of what I have so I don't end up just drinking a ton.

holy shit. thanks for this thread. no fucking around i have been tapering off of whiskey after about a year of pretty hard abuse. i had two deaths in my family in pretty rapid succession and hit the whisky bottle pretty hard. i have been trying to cut back hard by only drinking beer and i have been feeling paranoid and panicked but i;m starting to think i;m just kicking the bug. i'm only drinking 1/4 what i was and only at night.

>>9915117
I used to do this until I started following the cardinal rule of always, ALWAYS jerking off before doing shit like that

>>9915116
Tits pls

>>9915137
You've misread his post.
>Started randomly starting on guys in the club for 'looking at me wrong'
I think he means he arks up when people give him a greasy look.

>>9915116
Because apperentpy all your insecurities come out when you're deunk and you try to reverse-psychology that 'bitch', by acting like a cunt.

>>9915139
No human male can afford to live in the west end, it’s either an illuminat, who wouldn’t come here because they’re petrified of having their conspiracies revealed by the children on /pol/, or it’s one of the human grils they’ve bribed into laying their eggs.

>my neighbor's child next door cries all day
>my neighbor upstairs clomps around in heels all day
>faggots on the street out the front of my block talking shit all day, doing faggoty things
As soon as I play music slightly, slightly, loud all hell reins down upon my flat and I get multiple intercom buzzes and people knocking on my door telling me to turn my music off.

>2008 was 10 years ago

>>9915167
oh fuck you. i graduated high school ten years ago. fuck me running.

>>9915167
>people born in 2000 will be in college this year

>>9915173
>babies born before 9/11 will be in porn this year

>>9915175
Again?

>>9915175
>babies born in 2000 will be having sex and I was born in 1991 and never even kissed a girl

fucking hell i'm so ssick and full on wd's I need a beer or something but I'll puke and can't get off the floor anyways flsafj;dajfd

Watching the supermoon with coffee, cigarettes and beer

This thread is a nice warning

I am that guy that stopped getting drunk with other people when going out with them. Alcohol is a shit drug wiyh barely euphoria for me and only makes me feel like shit, literally BadWeed

>>9915193
I prefer it to weed and oxi, and yes it is a shit drug. You'll be lurking here in no time.

>>9915181
been there. i ended up in hospital. you're withdrawing and need it but the body just says 'nope'

>>9914991
Just lots of codeine and waaaay too many of these muscle relaxants (not Valium) hoping to stop the shakes.
I'm not in a good way right now.

i'm a fat drunk neet and i hate seeing these threads in the catalog

why do you guys do this to yourselves? stop drinking, NOW!

>>9915231
Thrilling tale there anon

>>9914991
Oh and no doc. I wouldn't get the drugs (I do legit have a bad back) if he knew. He only knows 'I was' a massive alco

>>9915235
Sod off ignoramus

>>9915236
lel no

>>9915231
>what is filter
>>9915235
>I wish junkies would stop shooting up

>>9915241
lel thats the worst argument ever. you cant even compare junkies to drunks, it doesnt work that way

just stop drinking

>>9915241
>what is filter
something to avoid the hate?

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>>9915243
You sure do seem ignorant for an expert. What happens when DTs hit, I have a seizure, kindling irreparably damages my brain and it kills me?
>grabs notebook, waits attentively

>>9915243
I’ve been both. Do please elaborate, I’m eager to hear your learned advice.

>>9915250
lol I remember when I still lived at home and my parents tried to force me through a taperless withdrawal. I tried explaining to them what kindling is and they told me it was "witch doctor science" and to just "tough it out". These are college educated, working professionals mind you

>>9915152
Buy headphones?

Couldn't drink tonight, had an awful stomach bug that kept me confined to the bathroom. Now I am withdrawing. Luckily I have weed, so no nausea atm.

I hallucinated wasps buzzing in my hair, like they were caught up in it. Now I am experiencing some awful kidney pain.

I don't have DTs thankfully, and I'm keeping hydrated with water and baby pedialite, but have no appetite at all.

I have my spouse with me, they didn't know how bad my alcoholism was. I'm glad we don't have kids yet so I can use this opportunity to stop and better myself.

I'm on day 2-3, will it get worse or better? When should I go to the hospital if I need?

>Arrived at the gas station 9AM, the minute beer is allowed to be sold
>QT working there has a crush on me
>Have to ask her to go to the backroom to get a case of my brand
>She tells me to have a nice day
>tfw qt knows that I'm a drunken degenerate

>>9915287
If you think you might need hospital, you need to either go now, or have booze on hand just in case. The symptoms will hit in waves out of fucking nowhere, and can go from tolerable to fatal in hours.
Have you had DTs, or just withdrawal symptoms like anxiety and nausea? (If you’ve had the former you’ll know)

If I were you I’d buy a load of cider/beer, and chug one if shit gets too real. Allow mild to moderate discomfort, but if it gets too intense then kindling will fuck your brain. I’m partially sighted for life because of withdrawals, and tried to kill myself the first time I had DTs.

>that first drink of nice cold ice water right after waking up
Feels so good.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-42533927

>>9915287
Withdrawals usually top around day 3.

>>9915296
I noticed. I know what DTs are and I definitely haven't had them, just very bad kidney pain, anxiety, zero appetite, slight pelvic pain. I have a couple of beers and a cider still in the fridge, but looking at alcohol just makes my stomach churn.

My spouse will keep an eye on me. What symptoms should I look out for that are really serious?
>>9915305
Explains why even though I slept all day I don't feel I slept at all.

>>9915287
I once hallucinated I was getting fucked by one of my friends. It was fucking weird.

>>9915285
Why can't everyone else wear headphones?

>>9915312
If you start seeing faces in the dark, pictures and light switches seem like they are sliding down the wall... not good signs. I have withdrawn could turkey after a bender that was days and gallons deep. You will most likely live, as has everyone else here saying how dangerous and scary it is. It is just uncomfortable, and you are used to feeling drunk. Grow balls.

I'm in for a rough NYD boys. Wish me luck.

>>9915294
Ayy lmao, Tex? I know that feel too well.
>arrive at store today
>New Years day
>walking in the store to get my booze, see store clerk unpacking stock
>she smiles at me, I say:
>"must be on double time today hey"
>she starts talking up a conversation
>I don't care I need alcohol so I don't die please process the sale
>at the checkout she's scanning my bottles then looks at my face
>I can tell she's looking at my sunken eyes, deadpan stare
I didn't mean to hurt you bb have a good year.

>>9915312
Warning signs for me are extreme confusion, uncontrollable shaking, seizures, memory loss, hallucinations, out-of-control anxiety and extreme sweating. The real problem is that I completely lose control, I don’t know what the fuck is going on, so it’s near enough impossible to take appropriate action. I couldn’t keep a damn thing down just a few months back, and was conscious of the fact that I was about to lose it. I used a pulled pork marinade syringe to squirt pure vodka up my ass, and as such didn’t die. I knew I was moments from running screaming into the street and ending up back in police custody, where I’d probably have died. I had to get new glasses afterwards because it presumably further damaged my brain (I was averaging 6 new brain lesions every 6 months before I stopped bothering with neurologist appointments) and I no longer have full control over my hands. If I reach for something i miss - they just won’t go where I tell them to. I have to use speech recognition to type. Shiz doesn’t play games.

>>9915324
Thanks for the tough love advice, I only hallucinated the once and I'm not sure if I was asleep or awake. I've taken shrooms a few times before so I know when I'm not of sound mind.

No DTs or seizures, all I could hope for so far. I just am embarrassed because my spouse had no idea my addiction was that bad (I hid my alcohol. Only did 2 shots before work, one at lunch, then would binge after I got home by sneaking into the kitchen and downing shots, while acting like I was casually sipping a beer in the living room). I maybe showed being drunk like once every other month, so that is why they didn't know.

I feel so guilty because they forgave me and are being so supportive and worried, even though I'm a garbage human.

I'm ashamed, really

>>9915336
>memory loss
Sums up 2017 for me, no idea how I managed to get my degree - it still feels like March '17 to me. All I can remember are bits and pieces but as soon after I take some high dosage (thanks doc) B12 flakes the year comes flooding back to me. Weird shit yo.

>>9915336
Shit in glad the stomach bug kicked in before I got that bad. Are you still drinking?

>>9915339
>shrooms
Have you taken extreme doses? (Like over an ounce) Because that’s a damn good illustration of how DTs feel, just without the screaming, puking and pouring with sweat.

My chest feels cold. Don't like this.

How do I get out of New Years Day dinner at my Dad's house?

I could just get drunk and tell him that is why I'm not coming over. He has already told me that he doesn't want me showing up to his house wasted. Staying home and getting drunk is what I want to do today anyway.

I just feel bad. My dad is a nice guy and he is looking forward to having the family over for dinner.

>>9915339
My favorite part of rock bottom is the fantasy I could just be a super criminal, continue to dink forever, steal a motor home and go live in the woods with the liquor.

Just don't drink. You will no longer have it to hep control your mood. They magic does not work anymore, and there will always be something missing form what you enjoy. It gets easier in time.

>>9915345
Could it just be an anxiety attack? The first time I had one of those when I was 21 I went to the ER because I thought I was having a heart attack.

What are the worst part of withdrawals to you guys? I've gone over 24 hours puking every 5 minutes. Shit is awful.

>>9915344
Biggest dose I did was a 1/2 oz of cubensis from some biochemistry lab tech at uni that bred shrooms. I almost felt out of body and the walls were breathing and I felt extreme anxiety. Haven't done hallucinogens since, though if I had to pick I'd do psylocibin one more time, I felt so happy for weeks after and it literally improved my motivation. It helped me get through the grief and trauma of my mother's recent death

There is some science behind using psylocibin in PTSD veterans.
>>9915352
Thanks for the motivation. For secondary income I write for fiction magazines. I dreamed about some weird shit recently I'd never come up with on my own, maybe I'll use it to my advantage.

Thanks for the support guys. It really helps.

>>9915339
My partner didn't know when she met me but eventually found out when I was trying to quit. I felt pretty bad because I thought she might've fallen in love with someone that didn't really exist. She forgave me for lying but I still drank behind her back until I got sick of it and wanted to quit, which is what I'm in the process of
>tfw tapering and med ward
If your spouse is with you this far they must really care for you, and so does this mongolian basket weaving forum of internet strangers. All the best for your new year.

>>9915361
I see and hear things that aren't there, and I wake up with severe cramps in my arms and legs. It feels like concrete in your veins.

>>9915363
My girl has been with me for over two years now despite my bad drinking. It's amazing how loyal some people are. It makes me feel like garbage.

>>9915363
101 days sober. I still miss it and have trouble with motivation. I still smoke pot, and have anxiety and laser like focus on it when I run out.

The worst part of withdraw is the inability to get comfortable at all. The best part is the two seconds after a good heavy vomit, and the best thing you can do to feel slightly better is take a fucking shower.

>>9914952
Please God kill me. It just won't come out.

>>9915383
rock back and forth. You can do this. Who does #2 work for?

>>9915386
Oh god finally. That was hell.

>>9915393
i shit a pool ball made of weeks old grilled cheeses one time. gave me a new respect for faggots... not really.

Finally got some food down!
Also blood pressure went skyhigh and I am covered in nose blood and ruined a shirt.
A couple light beers at the bites of eggs , toast, vienna sausages have gotten my morning to finally feel manageable
I do feel like all the drinking on an empty stomach the past week has irritated my stomach lining.

>>9915355
Most likely. Had acute withdrawals all night.

>>9915402
Your body and mind will be sending you a lot of bad data for a few days. You have nerve endings and receptors that are used to, and miss being soaked in booze. Did you know your body starts using alcohol to control certian processes, and when you remove it, it is like removing the ability to breath and you go into shock?

>>9915413
Yes I am aware.
I am currently drinking 1 beer an hour to keep calm, cool and composed.
maybe by the end of the night I'll have it at 1 every 2 hours.

thanks though ya definately aint a gnome.

>>9915417
get into the science of it... best thing you can do when time starts moving slow and painful is use it to learn. Remember all of this and use it next time you think you are better than the liquor.

I'd totally give you three bowls if I could. You are getting better every minute.

>>9915424
>tfw i slept past the store closing time and now it's a holiday
Today is not going to be fun.

>>9915424
wut, t-thanks? i think

>>9915435
luckily i am avoiding gnomes cus i bought 2 , 30packs yesterday. now i don't need to go out and drive.

>>9915435
You had your fun buddy. Fun bank is overdrawn. The past you stole from the future you, and the present you is paying for it. Past you is an asshole. Don't be that guy anymore.

>>9915437
you replying to the wrong dude i think.
and first of all
t-thanks?

Hey guess what present me is still an ass too.
I will always be a fuck-up
It just matters how I deal with and control it.

>>9915435
if it gets way too bad and you are not ready, Scope mouthwash is everywhere and better and cheaper than vodka. Don't do it though if you have big manly balls and want to get better.

>>9915440
only you control you. no one else can, and you cannot control anyone else either. There is POWER in that if you own up to it and start piloting yourself around like a badass mech.

weed (or anything to look forward to for mood control) helps greatly.

>>9915444
drinking mouthwash is low
I once but a bottle of the brown mouthwash (highest cost to alc ratio) and did shots of it throughout the day and ended up suprisingly good.
I did get kicked out of my buddies house by his grandma for drinking her mint mouth wash cus the bottle was apparently 6-7 bucks and she got mad.
It wasnt even that strong but like 35proof.
So I was getting more sick off the eucaylptus oil than i was getting drunk.

She would have never found out if I had I would have not have forgot to flush the toilet full of mint vomit.

>>9915450
You can do a salt separation with a coffee filter to remove most of the alcohol... then it is salty and cloudy instead of minty and blue. I liked minty better.

Pupinia Stewart looks so cosy naked. Fuck I’m lonely.
Will... n-not relapse.

Holy shit, I'm hungover.

drunk texted two girls last night, said i liked them, fucking jesus

I managed to limit my drinking, and started having anxiety attacks.
How to deal with them? /fit/ said to lift and yea it does help sometimes, but obviously I can't lift all day long.

>>9915578
worst you did was pump their ego up... like bitches need that.

>>9915581
smoke weed
drink a really non alcoholic beer

It's probably the ritual that's stressing you

went to ER this morning with WD panic attack, was refused any benzos, bought beer on the way home
is this the end?

>>9915595
Did they refuse you, or did you refuse to be admitted?

>>9915595
What do they tell you when go over something like that?

>>9915628
>9915628
i refused to be admitted

>>9915629
they want to admit you basically, or they offer hydroxyzine as an anxiolytic which has a history of making my anxiety worse / giving me restless legs, so i bounced

>>9915634
no benzos for you then. They can't always just give them to you and let you walk. The suspected you would drink on them, and they cannot do that. Better to just let you go drink until you can't, and you come back for admission. It is three days at most if you go in voluntary,

>>9915595
So anxiety, increased heart rate & panic attacs are normal things when on withwdrawal?

>>9915639
The last couple times I went the the ER for We'd they wouldn't even give me ativan and eventually just told me to fuck off home because my blood alcohol level wasn't high enough. Fucking worthless.

started around 5 pm yesterday and was under by midnight, missed new years
oh man

>>9915674
I did too. My gf was pissed.

>>9915634
gotta add something... hospitals are great with drunks that want to get better. Nurses and crazy girls to flirt with, and it will likely be your first non-gas station food in a while. I recommend the chicken Caesar wrap, hold the cucumbers. Take all the benzeos offered for 36 hours then you will be strong enough to get out so you can have a fucking cig.

PS. no insurance is fine. Some bills you never have to pay if your credit is already shit

>>9915666
yes
>>9915671
yeah i dont know why i even bother
>>9915679
starting to think about admission, problem is my parents would find out, probably would want me to quit my job and move back home with them, would be an atrocious shitstorm and, yeah, expensive

>>9915681
if you get cornered while fucked up, arrested while still "drunk" trying to just drive to pick up the liquor and stop shaking... it is WAY worse, and you will be in no shape to be charming. That will go three days minimum, and you may be cuffed to the bed. I've been there too.

Holy fuck my shits smell terrible. Is this normal?

>>9915699
yup ive been cuffed to gurneys before, but not to my bed

>>9915702
this is al/ck/, nothing is normal here. we are all pathological.
but in terms of alcoholism, yeah, the shits become utterly rancid

>>9915702
yup. you will also have otherworldly farts.

sit in the tub and take rape showers.

>>9915709
It was like shitting toxic waste.

>>9915681
Thanks.

>>9915704
I have had both arms and a foot cuffed to the bed before. Never remove your own cuff just because you can. The babysitter cop fucking hates that and will no longer listen to your war stories and laugh.

>>9915595
Annoys me that benzos are SO tightly guarded. Go in injured in the uk and you’ll get heroin. Go in in WD and you might get nothing.

>>9915727
If you go in they will get you high right away so long as you are a nice guy, and they know they can watch you... then they tapper you off like a girlfriend that no longer loves you. You will get better fast just because you want to smoke more than drink pretty fast.

I don't wanna shop on 01/01 cause I don't want to push businesses to not give NYE to employees. But I'm fucking missing it, tomorrow I'm going right in the morning.
Actually it seems that late afternoon drinking has been getting worse, now it's straight up impossible for me not to wake up in the middle of the night. Like even 6pm doesn't cut it. So I think I'm gonna scratch that off for good.

Are liquor stores generally open on New Years day?

>>9915757
It varies.

I have never once failed to find alcohol if I had money, pockets, or the ability to walk.

Being sober is better guys.

>>9915175
people born before 9/11 have been in porn for 100 years
and babies are never in porn. unless you're a sick fuck and i hope you get vanned

>>9915740
They refuse to have me because I keep relapsing, doesn’t matter what state I’m in. Can’t really blame them I suppose, but it is annoying that a few Valium would help so much, yet it’s just a stonewall of nopes. I’d be fucked if I couldn’t just buy illegally.

>>9915781
>Being sober is better guys.
Well yeah. But the WD's are uncomfortable as fuck.

>>9915784
where do u get it illegally plz help me

>>9915784
if you had them you would abuse them and it would be just another problem. I think you know this.

>>9915128
Tapering is unpleasant. But you should drink just enough to not sweat or get shakes. After 1-3 days of putting more and more time between drinks, you should be ok.

Remember: withdrawals tend to get worse each time, so good luck.

>>9915787
It takes three days to start feeling better for me, and I was a morning till night, wake up, drink out of the handle, go to bed guy for years. I have detoxed dozens of times. You start feeling better in three days, but not great. Never great again. Can't have that because you fucking broke it. You overdid it and spent all your feel great points.

Weed helps.

>>9915792
Drug dealers.

>>9915804
Well I can't get alcohol if they're not open and its fucking freezing outside so I don't want to risk walking out in that shit for nothing. Do dot Indians celebrate New Years?

>>9915807
I’m thinking about leaving the uk just to get weed without going to prison for 14 years. This country’s cannabis laws are a fucking embarrassment. I no longer feel bad about costing the nhs a fortune as a result.

Here's hoping I'm not hospitalized 17 times this year. The nurses were starting to recognize me because I went in so much. Free health care made me reckless.

I'm so confused and scared about nothing. I want to go today without drinking but i don't think i can. I have 0 self confidence. I have never been this psychologically fucked before.

>>9915807
I wish weed didn't make my anxiety worse, or I'd use to help with urges and/or WD.

>>9915581
go for a long walk. helps release endorphins and helps with blood pressure. but if you are going through alcohol withdrawals with moderate to severe symptoms like anxiety, a beer every few hours would help.

>>9915595
Start a beer taper. You should be done in 2-3 days. Slowly put more time between beers.

Ive been to ER three times in 2017 for alcohol withdrawal symptoms. I could have cured them on my own using beer tapers, but I didnt really understand the taper process then. Now I do.

Google HAMS taper

>>9915820
My view on it is the systems are lame. We all live on Earth and have so and so amount of time and access to such and such resources. Do your best. Help others. You are not going to survive life. Guilt helps nothing. The past cannot be changed. Live for now with consideration to making the future better. That's pretty much it for me.

Weed really does not help, but it is the least damage I can do and still function at all. I keep a monster locked up.

You guys are the only ones who understand me.

>>9915865

>>9915818
restaurant or bar.

just puked again, second time in 2 hours

>>9915876
Guy has a computer with which to look up shit... he is just praying for a liquor fairy

>>9915876
There are none close by.

>>9915711
at first i thought you'd typed shit in the tub

this being al/ck i actually wondered if it might help

>>9915843
how do you deal with the anxiety and panic and depression tho? i can drink small amounts and stop shakes and high heart rate, but i can't stop the fucking horrror

>>9915887
Be grateful you're not growing up acid every 5 minutes. Shit is hell.

>>9915893
benadryl helps. over the counter allergy med. going for a walk helps anxiety too. you just have to tolerate the other symptoms that arent life threatening. its good incentive to ease up on your drinking once you reach the other side.

>>9915887
savor it. puking and getting it out feels about as good as you are going to get for a while. Slam water. Take a shower.

Anyone ever hit intollerence? Still shaking... still need booze, stile HAVE booze, but your body rejects it? This would happen to me on around day 4 of a bender and was pretty much a forced detox. Too many of my meat parts just said no and overrode my brain.

>>9915910
Yep, same here. I cant go more than 4 days on a bender. Which is fine by me.

I got fired from my job a week ago. No car. Live with parents. They've been driving me to "work" but really I've walked to the closest gas station and then 30 minutes to the movie theater and loitered around there. Really depressing stuff. It's hard to find a job with no car

>>9915910
>Anyone ever hit intollerence?
ugh that sucks
can't even drink to ease the withdrawals cause it'll all just come right back up

>>9915910
Yeah I've gotten to that point. I couldn't even swallow it. My body just said nope.

>>9915910
yes, fucking sucks, i end up in detox at that point usually

>>9915922
What did you get fired for? I wish I still lived with my parents. I stupidly moved across the country for a new start and now I'm facing homelessness on NEETbux. Pretty scary shit.

>>9915934
Being drunk at work. I'm really trying to stop but the anxiety is nightmarish. I have about $350. Joining the Air Force in March. Just need to hold out til then...

Why do we do it to ourselves? Everyone here seems miserable.

>>9915938
god the anxiety is crippling for me

>>9915928
There is a magic land past intollerence where you wear couch covers for clothes, and eat borrowed food from sympathetic friends and family. There is a realm further still where they are all gone, replaced by an ugly girl you live with because she lets you die on her couch.

Then you boof hand sanitizer, cash in your car change and plan a drug store robbery. We've all been there.

>>9915942
i had a year clean and relapsed when a girl rejected me, i am literally /r9k/ tier when it comes to girls, i hadn't had sex in a year and really liked her, she broke me

im 30, i know it's pathetic

Does anyone else not shower when on a bender? I get fucking disgusting.

>>9915952
somehow i still manage to shower
i showed up at the ER once with immaculately brushed hair and a nice cardigan on with my shirt tucked in, wearing my best watch
heart rate was 120 and BP was through the roof and i was having horrors but, yeah, looked decent
i dunno why

>>9915950
There are a lot more women out there that want to do the same thing. Know it, and adapt properly.

>>9915942
Couple components

>quick fix for emotional highs or lows
>physical cravings

>>9915952
yes. i will "come to" like 4 days later smelling like shit, tongue covered in yellow gunk, need to shave, need to clean room, need to do laundry, etc etc etc

all that on top of somehow dealing with the impending withdrawal situation. A good bender basically puts me out of commission for a week

I HAVE NO REASON TO LIVE

>>9915965
I know that feel. On top of not eating jack shit.

>>9915952
I didn't shower, eat anything remotely normal at all, or shit and piss with any accuracy while on benders. I was too busy being fucking insane on my couch.

>>9915965
how do u pull out of a bender without the hospital? asking for a friend

>>9915972
Begin a slow beer taper. typical lasts 3 days. Within that time frame it gets easier to eat something, slowly clean up your house/self, etc.

Tapering doesnt really help much with anxiety but it does stamp out sweats and shakes. So you will survive the withdrawals.

>>9915972
You run out of alcohol and can't get any more alcohol in you.

>>9915968
oh yeah, the not eating is horrible too

>>9915968
i lost 25lbs over the course of a couple weeks, still got about 10lbs to regain

I just want it to stop. Last time I went to detox I shared a room with a chick that wouldn't stop crying. What the fuck do you even do at detox anyway? I was stuck in a bed for like 2 days before calling it quits. Shit was boring as fuck.

>>9915997
>What the fuck do you even do at detox anyway?
it's a place where medical professionals can make sure you don't seize out and die while you withdrawal. it's not a fucking resort hotel.

>>9915997
You sit in the hospital and wish you could smoke, fuck with a crazy guy, read old magazines, or fuck the other drunk that is mad at their spouse for putting an end to their party. All of that is always available to you... and the old lady down the hall; the one they are just letting die there that screams sometimes. Come on in!

>>9916015
They could at the very least let you keep your phone.

Never tried a martini. Straight up or vodka.

Is it a meme?

Gin & tonic was alright. Need to build a repertoire of drinks that aren't sugary bullshit.

>>9916024
and serve beer

>>9914807
Commenting like this on an al/ck thread
You need to kys retard

>>9916024
bring a book, if you really have an attention-span so short

i have been jacking off exclusively to shemale / sissy hypno porn for like a month
my actual sexual experiences have been purely heterosexual however and after i jack off i am repulsed by the idea of anal sex or penises
any comments

>>9916042
The extroverts there seemed to enjoy it because they got to be social with a bunch of new people. I just wanted to be alone.

Currently going through withdrawals and its hell but I've gotten through them on my own before.

>>9916044
you gay. I am repulsed by women after I fuck them, and never think about dicks. I am straight, so... you gay.

>>9916044

>>9916044
That is gay

>>9916044
Yeah you’re bi. I don’t even like shaking dudes’ hands, the thought of getting their shit or any bodily fluids on me makes my dick repel inside me and makes me feel sick, and there’s precisely nothing about them to which I’m attracted. Absolutely zero sexual attraction to males ever.

This is the first time in my life where i can unironically say "i hate myself." Happy New Year

>>9916114
why man? what's going on?

>>9916161
I think he's an alcoholic.

>>9916114
>first time in my life where i can unironically say "i hate myself."
that's been my mantra for over a decade now

Had anxiety from WD for 36 hours now. Can't stop crying and can't sleep.

>tfw brother wants me to visit for New Years but I'm trapped in bed from withdrawals

>>9915966
Do you have any to die?
Then you should keep on living. Sorry.

>>9916024
They got bored of people looking at pictures of vodka bottle for hours. Also drug dealers send advertisement via text nowadays, so the whole addiction ward has a phone ban for the first week of detox but can authorise them during longer rehab.
In my last rehab, a guy was getting spam for a free gram of heroin. Several addresses to go to too, so it wasn't just one dealer acting weird.

>>9916044
Withdrawals make me super horny and perverted, not waking up withdrawing killed my abnormal libido (I now fap every other day, more or less, to more regular porn, and without shoving stuff up my arse.)
I read it is the brain craving endorphin or serotonin or something like that.

It's taking everything on me not to go to the liquor store. Help.

I was going to try and be sober but went out and bought booze instead.

It's just, I sit down at my computer or on my sofa and the whole evening appears as a void of endless time. What do I do instead of drink?

>>9916204
beer taper next time. not too late to get a few beers to ease down

>>9916252
talk to a doc about naltrexone

>>9916258
Yeah it’s the number one cause of relapse according to a Doc I spoke with in detox. You have to find new hobbies to fill your time. Or smoke weed if you can afford to be high all the time, or live in a country where you can grow without being locked in a cage to be raped for decades.

stop drinking

>>9916258
>tfw i used to play vidya and do other stuff and now just get too depressed and drink
I have like no hobbies anymore.

I quit drinking all on my own, 8 days sober. The longest in 7 years.

The only thing I need and want is my family to be close to me so I don't feel so alone and panicky and none of my 3 family members (mom, dad, or brother) want to be around me. To make it better the 28th my brother was diagnosed with lymphoma.

I'm thinking about having a drink and just saying fuck my life.

My family doesn't want me to drink but none of them really give a fuck about me. All I'm asking is to not be alone

Ptsd has ruined me from head to toe, If you are thinking of joining the military. Don't

Take it from a soldier

>>9916280
You sound like you took it from a soldier.

I'm kidding. Just don't drink. You will be right back again until you die. You must have burned your family. Earn em back.

Anyone have al/ck/ parents?

>dad comes back and doesn't expect me to be home
>i see him entering the front door with a bottle of wine
>he sees me but doesn't think I've seen him
>pretends to fiddle with the outside lock
>turns back around
>wine bottle shaped object in his coat
>stumbles upstairs and falls asleep in the bathroom

Finally realised that I just can't drink at all, ever.

puked for 3rd time today while on beer taper

>>9916280
what caused your ptsd, if it doesn't hurt you to describe it? did you kill someone? IED? artillery?

>>9916356
Avalanche of bunnies. Just baby bunnies everywhere until you cannot see or breath. And oh my god the smell and little nudges. I acn't go near a pet store.

>>9916341
I know it but still relapse

I drank several shots of Stroh 80 yesterday in addition to the various whiskeys and I'm still feeling it

>>9916352
that feel. as long as you can keep a little bit down it will still help

>>9916270
Doc is probably right, even after 3 weeks when the cravings are pretty minimal, the boredom gets to me.

>>9916275
Kind of fed up of video games and tv too. Need to find some kinda productive hobby.

>>9916356
I had to do my job, that's what caused it. That's all I'll say

I don't talk about those sort of things and you shouldn't ask people those questions

It's gonna be a rough day.

>>9916437
fuck u r just now realizing this? do you live in california?

i have been up since 7, it's now almost 1:30, went to ER, got told to fuck off, been drinking beer slowly since 10 AM, work tomorrow, i dunno what im gonna do

>>9916446
You'll be okay anon, you'll figure something out!

>>9916455
thnx

>>9916446
Why'd they tell you to leave?

>>9916466
scroll up, basically said it was inpatient or nothing, wouldn't prescribe me a benzo

>>9916424
gorilla warfare confirmed, your fuckin dead kiddo

>>9916471
I feel you. Last time I was there they sent me home empty handed.

Trying to come down off an 8 day bender. This fucking sucks.

>>9916500
how many drinks per day? what time did u start drinking each day?

>>9916471
im glad im not the only person sitting around with awful withdrawals today

>>9916506
A Canadian mickey a day. Around 10:30 a.m.

>>9916507
Seems like a lot of us are.

the indian fuck liquor store guy overcharged me

I might crack. These withdrawals are brutal. But I have shit to do tomorrow.

>>9916507
It's comforting, isn't it?

Going to work in 1 hour.
I have DTs pretty bad.
I think I'm going to tell them I am sweating so bad bc fever and see if I can go to dr for Valium and drs cert.

How long do your withdrawals tend to last? Mine seem to be fine after just a day.

>>9916035
You're not special because you drink like a fucking hobo. I post here sometimes, but if you can't handle the bants for being a degenerate, you should go somewhere else.

>>9916609
I feel for you anon. I was sweating bad all last night with DTs. I had a dream that I found heaps of alcohol in my house and I was over the moon.

i had a dream i saw my mums tits

what does this mean??

>>9916692
mummy milky

>>9916610
A week.

>>9915116
Do you mean the techno club in essen germany my man?

>>9916610
that just sounds like a hangover breh

feeling comfy after some of the worst anxiety i've ever felt this morning after drinking. my mom was here cooking fugging collard greens for new years and i was holed up in my room shaking and shivering. i finally got out and ate a bit and drank some water and took a shower and cleaned up my shit hole of a room and still feel like shit but i feel a million times better than i did this morning. I think not fapping myself stupid and not smoking and dipping like a maniac helped. god im already thinking about drinking again tonight and i have work tomorrow. hang in there, folks.

>>9916777
Definitely not. I know the difference between the two.

>>9916769
Al/ck/ BritBong here I've been to nightclubs in Essen, it's trash. Also think of better names for your cities. Furthermore allahu akbar my German friend.

How the fuck do you sleep when you're getting withdrawals?

>>9916871
You very much do not. It’s even worse in detox, people making a racket 24/7, people screaming/dying all night and nurses waking you up to take your pulse rate and blood pressure constantly. All while you’re in WD from binging and NEED sleep. Suffering.

>>9916871
the insomnia is the worst part for me. i just lay there and do nothing and my thoughts are jumbled and nonsensical

>>9916921
same, doesn't help that my limbs feel like jerking all over the place every 5 minutes...anyone have any tips?

>>9914789
Leftover party booze while watching stalker. Shit is mad boring b

Anyone know if DPH (Nytol) is fine to take with acute withdrawals?

Thoughts on this stuff? I had some last night. Didn't hate it

I was really hoping I would avoid the nausea but that doesn't seem to be the case now.

>>9915116
quit that shit dude everyone hates you

>>9915820
The US is barely better.
only like 6 states have it right. Go to washington, oregon, or colorado.
Sounds like heaven to me but I'm finishing up school.

who /college/ here?

>>9916948
aka benadryl. kinda helps anxiety but not really anything else

Couldn't make it to my bathroom in time and threw up on my carpet. I want to die.

>tfw you accidentally kick over your piss jug

>>9917010
Umm bro, just get a piss draw, can't knock that over.

I'm not sure I understand alcohol withdraw. I typically go through my day sober and I'll drink about a pint of whiskey at night, I've done this almost everyday for years. I'm not drinking tonight. Should I be concerned about having withdraw symptoms? I'm completely sober now and I feel ok.

>>9917028
That's so gross.

>>9917028
Honestly, this isn't that uncommon. When i was a kid i pissed in the trash next to the toilet to conserve water. I thought it was clever until i got caught the third time.

>>9917028
damn, that's next level

>>9917028
Good thing that is on the internet now, forever.

>>9917028
bruce wayne pisses where he wants.

>>9917061
Yeah, people really need to think a little before putting every little thing out there.

>>9917028
>>9917070
"I hate you, mom! I hope you get gunned down in an alley!"

There's always hundreds of posts I have to read when I wake up.

>>9917029
I've only had the shakes once. When I was dieting for aesthetic purposes and drinking gin and diet coke. Don't know the science behind it but I've been daily drinking for 5 years

>>9916935
Yeah, taper with beer or benzo like in medical detox, but in the relative comfort of your home.
Other than that, the first few days are really bad, but it's only a few days. So just wait while doing jigsaw puzzles or watching tv (two of the two activities available in my first rehab.)

>>9917075
I like that beer.

>>9917078
It’s only stopping drinking which damages your brain. Withdrawal will be worse every time. If you drink all the time you’ll never hit serious withdrawal

>>9917094
Consuming alcohol in excess, especially when paired with poor diet, can lead to Wernicke-Korsakoff syndrome, which I'm sure most people in this thread have heard about already.
Quitting cold turkey can kill you but that doesn't mean NOT quitting is harmless.

>>9916945
>watching stalker

Time to get beer soon.

I love being drunk. I'll probably never stop until it stops me. Accepting that has helped me with my depression

i slept until 5 pm. feel great. nausea is gone

i literally, literally just sucked a dudes cock from craigslist, he came over and we 69'ed each other for like 30 minutes
im sorry to let u down guys, i think im officially bi

>>9917256
end your life

>>9917261
but why he was cute, i honestly deeply enjoyed fondling his cock while it went from soft to hard

>>9917183
what is this?

>>9917256
Are you on uppers or just booze?

>>9917274
just booze he brought weed and poppers but i did not partake due to my taper
haha fuck me dead, im bi

>>9917256
Fucking disgusting.

>>9917256
Enjoy it, dude. This is an exciting time for you. Just be safe

>>9917183
Fuck the last 15 minutes of my life.

>>9917280
yeah well i legit did it, was nice too

>>9917277
You're gay m8.

>>9917285
probably, fuck me im 30 years old and never did this before, i suckled his nipples and fingered his asshole...all the while with my limp penis in his mouth....jesus...it was good...fuck me i cant believe it happened

>>9917284
I wonder how many potentially fatal diseases and shit molecules are swimming about in your mouth right now.

>>9917292
literally HIV would be more pleasant than these alk WDs, you think i care? also this dude didn't have HIV, 90% sure

>>9917290
Jesus lad. Get a hold of yourself. Good luck on finding yourself but I'd recommend seeing a therapist so you are safe and don't end up with HIV

>>9917296
have a therapist, see her once a week
HOLY SHIT I CANNOT BELIEVE I JUST DID THIS
I WAS NAKED WITH A GUY, 69'ING AND LOVING IT...shit the heft of his ballsack in my palm while i licked him...

>>9917301
Please shut up now. I feel sick enough.

>>9917301
This is what happens when you're repressed for 30 years. I'd recommend you stop using alcohol/drugs and get a boyfriend that you can be safe with.

>>9917029
maybe a pint isnt enough for you to get withdrawal symptoms. its different for everyone. however, if you skipped a night, maybe then youd notice.

>>9917305
>>9917311
the irony is that it was about 800x easier to get a guy naked in my bed than a girl

>>9917001
ikr. life wasnt supposed to be like this. thanks a lot, god!

Day 1/365.
What the fuck do people do with their lives without drinkiing.
I have been drinking for the last 3 years and I really cant remember anything wothwhile.
I look old now, but I just feel like I am 22 instead of 27.
Everyone else my age makes more money than me, has a gf/bf, a better car and do things in their spare time.
I just don't know where to begin.
I have never had friends or a gf, I don't know how to ask women out or go on a date.
fuck

>>9917338
I’m struggling like mad to cope too. Bought like 30 steam games - spent an entire 15 minutes playing 1 and then abandoned them all. Kind of enjoying getting into cryptocurrency day trading though, so >>>/biz/ is keeping me at least a little bit occupied. Enjoying anything is difficult. I feel painfully bored most of the time, I mean, it’s such overwhelming lethargy and a feeling of tedium that it’s physically uncomfortable. Don’t really know what the hell to do.
Still not relapsing. Yet anyway.

>>9917338
Forget women (no homo). My advice would be to get sober and get a big dog and realize that most women are in relationships with men they have no affection for. If you can accept that, the avg national wage should be enough for you to enjoy yourself.

>>9917355
thanks

>>9917338
Life isn't for everyone. Some people don't hit the ground running and carry on laughing with a spring in their step.

I can think of so many things about this life that i dislike. All pretty easy positions to defend. Not sure why so many people are just ok with it all.

>>9917360
No problem. I went to the #1 ranked college in the U.S. and I've been to 9 marriages of college buddies in the past 2.5 years...I'd say 2 of them get regular blowjobs.


Also, get a motorbike

>>9917290
That's pretty gay, lad

New thread soon lads. Shotgun not.

>>9917399
yeah i know, im starting to regret it an hour later

>>9917396
I personally love to blow my fiance.

>>9917396
>I'd say 2 of them get regular blowjobs.

why are you so stingy with your blow jobs, Anon?

>>9917413
every time i make a thread i use a non silhoutte picture and someone gets butthurt

>>9917420
And you can’t think of a solution?

>>9917423
i've tried nothing and im all out of ideas

>>9917355
>the avg national wage should be enough for you to enjoy yourself.
especially if you turn yourself into a smart frugal cunt which is a lot of fun in itself if you like optimisation stuff.

i live a good life on 7k a year

NEW THREAD >>9917446
NEW THREAD >>9917446

>>9917414
I think it may be sympomatic of a wider theme of poor decision making desu

>>9917353
Go for a walk.
It's as boring as it gets, but anhedonia can't make it worse. Plus moving a bit helps with the whole ordeal.

>>9917442
How can you be an alchie on that much? Do you own a still or something?

>>9917323
I can't remember the last time I went a day without. It might have been 2 years ago when I last got the flu, and I didn't drink for a couple of days.

So even if you feel fine the day after drinking, the withdrawal comes later? It's been about 20 hours from last drink, this is normally when I start drinking again. All that I feel is a raise in blood pressure but that could just be in my head or from the shit dinner I ate. Should I expect to feel worse?

>>9917457
i did but i quit because it was wrecking my health. i'm mostly dry/moderate now.

if you want to be a drunk on a low budget a still will get you a buck a bottle acceptable booze though.

>>9917498
It max out around day 3 or 4.
It will definitely worsen... You should have some alcohol at your place in case you start withdrawing too much to go buy a bottle.

my wds always peak at 12 to 24 hours.

>tfw the bartender asks if "you're thirsty" after slamming back a few beers

shut the fuck up and give the beer.

>>9915041
not a bad idea just dont get carried away

>>9915116
u sound shit

>>9915339
ur not garbage man, ive never understood people judging substance abuse

>>9915437
ive never said this but... fuck off to reddit faggot

>>9916424
fuck off faggot get over yuorself

>>9917277
youre not anything, any label you give yourself i.e. 'bi' is just arbitrary bullshit