/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Drank 4 times this month. 4 nights sober right now. Its so boring and im so lonely.but the consequences of drinking are awful too. All of you have my sympathies.

Few months sober, on the way to getting /fit/. Hoping the remaining mystery pains I have are just wear and tear and I haven't gone to all this effort just to drop dead anyway.

Just got a new job, waiting on my paycheck. Might inhale a six pack, but not going heavy just yet. I usually pay my bills first, so I'd say that qualifies me as a functioning alcoholic. Some days are better than others, of course.

2 weeks not a drop after about 20 years boozing pretty hard. I have discovered: being sober is pretty darn boring.

>>9108849
How did you find getting fit after stopping drinking? I'm in the same boat and find that I get super dizzy easily when lifting (not very heavy weights, maybe 60% max) and I'm worried about snapping my spine or something if I add on more weight and end up collapsing.

>>9108858
I've been playing vidya constantly to distract me from booze and it seems to be working.

>>9108824
How long?

I'm on day two. Somehow the second day some part of my mind goes 'now that we fixed that drinking problem, why don't we have a beer?' It's tempting.

I am seriously losing the motivation to not just let myself sink into complete drunkenness. For a couple of years I've had six beers a day as the norm and kept to that, except for weekends and special occasions. It's been working well enough, but I'm becoming so despaired at the thought of continuing to exist that I might just start drinking 24/7.

>>9108886
17 days...

I have had a couple of rough days where I've almost gone out and bought a crate of beer but I really need to sort my life out.

>>9108881

I'm not the guy you're replying to, but I dealt with the same shit a few months back after quitting drinking.

You just need to ease into it. Don't expect to go from full-on drunk one week to being ripped the next week. Work your way up slowly.

Another thing to take a look at is your diet. When I was drinking hard I ended up eating a piss-poor diet. Getting my diet back in order really helped me with being more energetic, etc.

Did a 12 hour binge yesterday and it feels like my kidneys are going to fall out of my back. I've been feeling withdrawly all day, even after drinking my normal satiation amount, to boot. Is this something I should be concerned about?

>>9108881

It varies, some days I feel like I'm 18 again (30 now) and some days I can barely lift a glass of water without my arm feeling trembly and weak/getting exhausted really quickly etc. I've barely started yet really, mostly been focusing on dropping weight because I got fat as shit while I was drinking.

>>9108891
probably just a hangover, but you should check it out if it doesnt go away

>>9108889
I did a full month earlier this year. It got easier in the end in terms of cravings, but the bad part is that you start to forget the negative sides of drinking and only think fondly of the good parts.

Or I did, at least.

>>9108891
Are you hydrating properly?

>>9108911
How did you feel after a month of no booze? I still have brainfog and I'm fucking tired as shit

>>9108904
I don't really get hungover, and this doesn't feel anything like a hangover. I have no problem drinking, don't have a headache, and not having any nausea. Just feels like my usual withdrawl symptoms, but drinking isn't helping this time.
>>9108913
Piss was almost clear last time I went. I assume I'm good.

>>9108887
It helps for a little while. But then the hangovers and withdrawals become worse than staying sober.

looks like this is it cause she and the kids ares taying with the MIL until i "clean up my act. fucked part is im more relieved i can finally drink judgement free than worred anpiy the relationSHIT

>>9108921
I felt pretty good and clear, but my soul felt empty. I felt like I missed booze like a friend or something, a comfort. But otherwise I felt physically and mentally healthy.

One thing I really liked is that my range of possible activities extended. I could watch shows again without blacking out. I could read books without blacking out. I could play vidya with actual motor skills. I could go out in public without fear of embarrassing myself. I could make more elaborate meals. Needed less sleep since sleep quality was higher.

Pretty much everything was better but I still missed booze a lot, even though I knew rationally that it makes my life worse.

I hope one day to become one of those people that can drink one or two days a week so that I can have the best of both worlds.

>>9108947
One more thing: Lifting the burden of the horrors of blank shame every morning and checking the state of disarray in your house and your phone in fear of what you might have communicated was a tremendous relief.

Waking up without the first thing on your mind being damage control is so much less stressful and shameful that it's probably worth it.

>>9108824
I made some jello with like a little more than a half cup of vodka. how much should i eat to get buzzed?

>>9108966
>4-5oz of spirit
The whole thing you fucking casual.

>>9108955

fuck man I don't miss that feeling. So many times waking up after going hard for a few days with just the knowledge that I'd been out getting into some sort of trouble but no idea what. And reading all the pathetic too much information shit I'd send people about how I wanted to kill myself and stuff. If I live to be a hundred I'll still have to mentally yell over an embarrassing memory that bubbles up every now and then through the day

>>9108979
>If I live to be a hundred I'll still have to mentally yell over an embarrassing memory that bubbles up every now and then through the day
Iktf, sometimes they catch you unexpected in the shower or something. I feel like I literally have to shake them off.

drinking less than i did in the past. my latest thing is trying to make one of these last for two days.

>>9108966
Lol half a cup, that used to be my morning sip before pounding beers

>>9108824

Haven't had a drink in six days. But there's a liquor store right on the way back to my house from work. I know I'm gonna get a bottle of whiskey tonight,

>>9109019
>stale day old beer

who not buy two smaller cans?

>>9109067
No you're not anon

>>9109067

Still time to change your mind man. What's one more day if you've done six already?

>>9108824
There's help out there waiting for you if you need it.

>>9109069
the 42 oz bottle is only 25 cents more than the 24 oz can.

Getting a 6 pack of 16 oz cans is an option, But I have poor self control so I'd drink more than I'd like. Also, each 16 oz can is the equivalent of two drinks - there are a lot of times when one more drink would be just perfect, but two drinks would result in a sleepless night and a spinning room.

14 days without a drink as of today. it hadn't been that hard until last night when i realized what a fucking mess my house was. in the past, i'd just drink while i cleaned and did chores which made it seem more fun to me. i was pretty close to walking to the corner store for a six pack, but i decided against it. instead i spend about two and a half sober hours cleaning, doing dishes and doing laundry. i was kind of on edge the whole time but it was nice to wake up to a relatively clean house today and still have my streak going.

>>9109131
Good job man keep it up!

>>9108936
Mate get yourself together for your kids

>>9108936
>relationSHIT
OOOO BOOOM
that bitch got roasted

you sure won ;)

>>9109228
This, people with dependants aren't allowed to be alcoholics.

What's the first thing you drank after getting out of bed this morning?

>>9109269
water followed by rum

Is it a problem if I like a beer or two with each meal?

>>9109276
It isn't, if you eat one meal a day.

>>9109269
a 80% full rolling rock that I had opened the night before and then passed out prior to drinking. It was mediocre.

>>9109276
nah nigga, if you're killing a 12 pack a day then you might have an issue but that's what, 4, 5 beers a day? you'll be aight

>>9109279
>>9109280
It tends to be one with breakfast and lunch and two with dinner. I'm in Paris so it's like 7% too.

>>9109281
In my experience getting accustomed to having alcohol in your bloodstream all day, even in low doses, is what really kicks off addiction.

picked up 1 bottle of stoli and 2 bottles of malibu

>>9109269
A sports drink because it's the only thing that i don't throw up the same moment i drink it if i have a bad hangover.

Gotta stay sober today bc tomorrow i'll pass out drinking with a friend.

>>9108824
Not good.

Just got off a hard 9 day bender

>>9109334
is that fucking blood?

>>9109334
Looks like my blackberry and blackcurrant tea

>>9109334
Lol a 9 day bender. How could you keep any booze down that long? I tap out at day 4, max.

>>9109345
Yea. A chunk of black blood at the bottom

9 years of daily alcoholism and heavy benzo use folks.

Stop while you can

These threads are so scary that I'm honestly thinking about pouring all of my liquor down the toilet.

>>9109351
>chunk of black blood
haha you're fucking dead

>>9108824

I'm doing fairly well myself. I've almost been sober for one year now (August.) going strong and no thoughts about ever going back.

I Tried going sober this whole year starting new years. I made it to feb 14th , drank once, then didn't drink again till june 1st. been drinking daily since then. i honestly dont know what to do. this sober stint was much longer then my previous ones but I felt worse because I think i developed general anxiety disorder. my pupils are noticably bigger, and i feel on edge all day and can't sleep worth shit, and can barely remember anything. i think its related to very poor crooked and slouched posture that i developed due to years of drinking alone sitting at my computer chair, because the anxiety honestly gets much better when i stretch and make a concious effort to hold a good posture and not tense my abs/stomach. but yea i sort of feel out of control because of this constant anxiety and now dont even feel like a person. i also think ive developed slight depression as a result of this constant anxiety

>>9109357
I've been dying for 2 years.

Alcohol and benzos are just making it more tolerable

>>9108881

I had to ease into lifting after I quit. Do it in baby steps. Towards the beginning, I found that losing the "beer gut" to be rather quick once I stopped drinking soadas and started sticking to a clean diet/water.

Also, doing a little cardio to build up a resistance is a good way to keep yourself for, getting dizzy while lifting.

>>9109350
I drink heavily daily, But sometimes I'll go on a bender where all I do is drink. I don't even go to work or eat

Had 2 weeks PTO so I went on a hard bender

>>9109369
weed can help you with that

i think my alcoholism is focused on beer
i've drank beer every night for the past while and really used all my will power to not buy another case tonight

i have a bunch of gin and whiskey and mescal but i probably won't feel the urge to partake

>>9109435
Better than the other way around, m8. I don't feel like I'm having a real drink if it's under 80 proof.

>>9109463
i know what you mean. except beer is the single thing that makes me fat

>>9109384
Jesus I can't even imagine.

just got my hands on this on sale. what am I in for?

>find an alcohol general on 4chan
>everyone's talking about getting sober
I just wanted to know if I should try whiskey for the first time in shot form or on the rocks...

>>9109516
You can definatly feel it in your kidneys (mine at least) after 3 or 4 days. Even drinking a ton of water and gatorade daily

I honestly had blood in my piss last week, It wasn't a lot but still kinda alarming.

>>9109548
neat

>>9109548
It's mostly the same anons in this general, some of us want to quit but can't etc

Don't do shots, try to actually taste it and drink "slow" with with ice (You can freeze coconut water instead of water)

Specially if it's an expensive whisky.

Is drinking enough vodka to pass out every night better or worse for me than drinking a six-pack of beer every night?

>>9109553
What about your nerves? Even drinking constantly didnt u feel fucked up? Anxiety etc

>>9109574
it's just crown royal.
I wanted to wait to borrow my friends soapstones to use instead of ice but Im bored

>>9109586
I take triazolam about twice a day, Mostly to enhance being drunk. But I also take it before I go to work so I'm not pouring sweat and shaking.

The tolerance builds super fast

>>9108824
Haven't had a drink in over half a year. I really, REALLY miss beer.

>>9109580
Glass of wine/one beer/one shot are pretty much the same amount of alcohol.

>>9109488
Even though liquor is my 'real' drink I think I miss beer the most when I don't drink for a long time desu. It's just such a comfy staple of daily life when you can keep it under control.

Haven't drank anything since New Years. I realised that the only reason I socialised was because alcohol was involved. How depressing.

>>9109614
This, I can live without whiskey and rum but there's something about not drinking beer that just feels unnatural.

does anyone else keep all their hard stuff in the freezer?

>>9109280
>4, 5 beers a day? you'll be aight


still breddy high

>>9109682
Vodka and rum always in the freezer, whisky in my shelf.

>>9109298
it really takes a lot of work to keep even in a small amount of alcohol in the bloodstream all day. the half life on the effects of alcohol is way too short for extended good feels

>>9109750
Yeah, that's why you're inclined to have another one when the first starts wearing off.

So having the first one early in the day is risky. I try to delay drinking until at least the late afternoon generally.

>>9109743
I threw my whiskey in the freezer, doesn't do anything bad right?

>>9109763
i find it takes less me to get me drunk in the morning and as a poorfag, I appreciate this.

But I drink in sessions as opposed to throughout the day. It's kinda nice to have a meal while sobering up in the middle of the day before starting my evening session

>>9109767
Don't think so... some people enjoy drinking it with ice instead of cold out from the freezer, same can be said for rum, but in the end everything is cold lol.

>>9109767
No. Whiskey is hard to hurt... after my grandparents passed away I found a bottle of rye from the 70s. I drank it and it was fine.

>>9109773
That is beyond my abilities, when I have my first drink I keep going until sleep/unconsciousness.

>>9109779
>>9109783
Fair enough, any reason people prefer to keep it in their shelf instead of freezer?

actually on the subject of damaging hard alcohol, I left a bottle of jager open on my desk for a few days, threw it in my freezer and have been afraid to test it ever since. Any chance it could have gone bad?

You guys think there's such a think as a functional alcoholic. I drink all day. From the time I wake till I go to bed. I work and show up every day, do a good job, pay my bills on time. I'm not drunk during my work hours but definitely under the influence, however just enough to take the edge off. I do most of the damage when I get home.

>>9109799
>Fair enough, any reason people prefer to keep it in their shelf instead of freezer?
To actually taste the booze.

>>9109829
Functional alcoholicism is more of a period in the trajectory than a stable state imho.

>>9109799
In my case just probably OCD haha, my father and grandfather used to keep their whisky in their old shelfs to drink sometimes.
But as >>9109830 pointed, when i think about it, you may actually hide the flavours of expensive alcohol if you keep them at the freezer. But idk it's personal taste in the end.

About your booze, i never tried jäger, you left it literally open? You'll have to taste it desu, if it's like whisky. it will "taste like water" if it's bad

>>9109857
yeah, had an emergency and had to leave home fora few days and left it there.

>>9108932
Yeah this. Plus it doesn't kill you nearly fast enough, it takes years of withdrawals and anxiety and pain, it's hell.

>>9108966
How much do you usually need to get buzzed?
That's your answer.

>>9109267
They are as much as anyone. It's not like most of us aren't fucking assholes for some other reason.

>>9109269
Water, coffee, vape
The boring healthy life

>>9109298
Malheureusement ça.
>>9109281
If you do maintain this use without rising, it's not too bad. Try having two or three sober days per week. But your tolerance will rise, and sooner or later you'll have to consume more to have the same effect.
You'll likely experience some withdrawals when sober. Anxiety, bad sleep, bad mood, maybe unsteady hands. It's not worth a few beers.

>>9109334
Maybe it's a regular constipation turd that cut up an haemorrhoid.
Is your shit black and like ground coffee? If so, it's the liver's final words, you're dead.

>>9109370
Oh.
OK, so you have a few days to make your final goodbyes. Then it's going to be painful, I don't think pot is gonna make it.
I hope end of life treatment is good where you live.
>Or maybe you just have to eat more fibres.

>>9109369
Meditation, mindfulness, EMDR, cannabis if legal, CBD if not, go to anxious anonymous or whatever, medications, seeing some head doctor, seeing any understanding doctor with a good knowledge of his pharmacopoeia.
All the solutions listed are better anxiolytics than alcohol, and I'm missing many. Part of your anxiety is PAWS. It can last a year or more.
Heck, read /r/anxiety 's sidebar, it'll help.

>>9109538
Don't drink it with coke, use pepsi max.

>>9109580
Beer is better in the long run. A six pack is a six pack. Enough vodka to pass out each day is a little bit more vodka needed to pass out each day.

IS THE JAGER OK? not the same guy but i really want to know

>>9109799
70 proof stuff can't go bad, too much alcohol in there.

>>9109889
>They are as much as anyone. It's not like most of us aren't fucking assholes for some other reason.
I disagree, once you commit to spawning life you bear responsibility. A single guy without kids doesn't really owe anyone anything except for not fucking with them.

thoughts on spirytus?

>>9109601
Jesus don't take benzo if you're not stopping, it will only make rehab worse.

>>9109773
>i find it takes less me to get me drunk in the morning
That because you were sober with an empty stomach.
If you want to drink cheaply, drink bottom shelf vodka.

>>9109799
Ice dissolves and dilute the alcohol a bit. Tastes better this way.

>>9109833
Yeah this. Shit happen, lose functionality in alcoholism.

>>9109946
>except for not fucking with them.
This is the part I fucked up a few times.
Meh, they must have all forgotten me after some time.

>when you pour your can of Guinness into a frozen mug and the head overflow freezes to the glass
It's the little things, you know?

Is it a good idea to drink a little today if i'm going to literally pass out tomorrow?

I've been drinking every night for 6 days and i don't want to need the hospital tomorrow but i can't hold myself looking at this bottle of rum...

>>9110088
>pour your can of Guinness into a frozen mug

this will trigger someone. i guarantee it.

>>9110137
it's like any drug. if you are taking the drug long term, it's best not to vary the dosage too much.

unfortunately in your case, you aren't going to just be able to have a couple shots of of the rum and call it a day.

it's a tough call

>>9110027
>Jesus don't take benzo if you're not stopping, it will only make rehab worse.

I'm never planning on quitting either. I have a relative who writes me prescriptions for it and I never plan on quitting drinking, I would rather die.

housefly got into my last bottle of charles shaw, poured it all out in a bowl and scooped it out and i'm drinking the rest, it's like having a small cockroach crawl in your beer when you sit outside.

>>9110146
fite me irl

>>9110248
things like that stop mattering pretty quick into a drinking problem

>>9110248

>not drinking the fly
>letting it steal some of your booze

filthy casual

>>9110151
Oh that's good to know desu there's only 1/4 of the bottle. gotta go for it

>>9108824
I'm planning on committing suicide soon anyway so why not drink profusely.?

>>9110450
easier to fuck up when youre drink

>>9108886

This is exactly what I said after 6 days of no booze. Sent me into a tailspin over the weekend which turned into 5 straight days of boozin again. Today was day 1 all over again for me. Cant sleep for shit

>when you make the switch to bourbon to finish off the night

What are you anons listening to? I'm binging on some scooter. It's a nice throwback to 2011-2012, when I felt like the world was my oyster.

>>9110556
Listening to some standups and trying to catch the jokes

godspeed anon.

>>9110584
Sounds nice, anon. I kind of want to become the friend who has a huge slew of jokes to choose from someday. I want to always have something new to tell people, every night we go out. It would make me feel like I have a real purpose in our friends' circle. Right now, I feel like a tagalong.

Drinking this, thoughts?

what are some good, cheap vodkas?

There are so many Smirnoff bottles ffs, no matter how much I struggle to get rid of them, they're always everywhere, I don't remember buying all these

>>9110703
You need help, anon.

>>9110556
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BVXTmav24Wk

>>9110863
>this video is not available

>>9108824
What do I do after realizing I drink all my problems away?

>>9110892

Drink the problem away.

I'm sitting in a public busport hiding a bottle of whiskey in my lap bag after finishing work. Also with a 600ml coke half mixed, dodging everyone with my alcohol breath waiting for a bus

Life is great

>>9110906
I seem to be the only alchie who doesn't hide it from anybody. Neighbors, extended family, old friends, shopkeepers, everyone knows. I openly joke about how much of a pisshead I am.
Not like it isn't obvious anyway.

>>9110879
what

>>9110937
That's what it says. Maybe it's blocked in my country or some faggotry like that.

>>9110915
I dont usually hide it, but street drinking is illegal in my country, and it's only 3.45pm right now. I was on the bus with a tonne of normies and I drank there, but can't do it inside the busport where there is a lot of security guards. They would kick me out. Now I'm at a mall near my house and needed a top up before I went home, so here's what I got. It's 200ml or 6.7 fl oz if you're American.

Planning to finish this off pretty quick then be home in 1 hour to face my angry wife

>>9110953
Hopefully this one works for you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CB3Gv4oZdWo

I know Jim beam white is pleb tier but there's not many options for a 200ml bottle size and I can't buy a full 750ml bottle and take it home because see above

I'm an alco in denial who tries to hide it from his son's wife

>>9110967
At least you still have a wife.


Also is she a qt?

>8.47am
>70cl gone
>sober
This isn't going to end well.

>>9110973
I only just have her. I've had to remove all alcohol from the house and the only reason I'm drinking is because I spent a week on a training course in the city surrounded by pubs and I told her us guys were going to have a couple of beers then go home, since here it's Friday afternoon. When I get home it's going to be a different story, cos she knows what I'm like after 3 beers and after a bottle of spirits. She's going to detect the latter.

I'm gonna lose her if I keep this up but I do like a drink without anyone nagging me.

Hopefully I can keep it under control a bit longer, I do love her and my son

>>9110983
What country do you live in?


Why does she get mad if you drink?


Some women are like that man. I had an ex who would NEVER me about me drinking, No matter how much I drank. Then my most recent ex was fucking nuts and If I drank more then twice a week she would flip and yell at me the entire weekend.

Just ate some crab meat, then vomited all over the portion of carpet onto which I yesterday spilled 2 litres of rotting piss. I can never have visitors again.

>>9109131
Keep going man you can do it

>>9110991
Australia

Because I have previously got to the blackout point, made a mess by spilling shit everywhere and hurt myself. I then end up crying (apparently) on the kitchen floor, then the next day I wake up wondering why she's not talking to me.

I need to save myself man, because I don't want end up being a single deadbeat dad with no future. My son is always asleep before I drink, with the exception of today. So when I get home I will act as sober as I can and play with him for a bit, then do stuff like tidy the house and clean the kitchen so I don't have to expose how drunk I really am to her.

When I say hurt myself I mean blacked our and woken up with massive bruises and cuts, not as in hurt myself like I want to an hero

how many of us are femanons?
Just curious, not looking to perv.

>>9108824
managed 5 and 1/2 days then fucked up
didnt take a 1/3 of what i was drinking to get the feeling i wanted. is that something i should be concerned about?

>>9111083
Liver might not be processing alcohol so quickly due to reduced functionality.

>>9108824
havent been allowed to drink for 4 weeks and it fucking sucks
going to a thing here soon and getting shit faced cant wait if im honest

>>9109538
quick buzz that fades quick dont expect to get drunk quickly

Couple months sober. Had my last drink the day I went to work drunk and nearly lost my job. I would have too if my boss wasn't an absolute legend. Few months before that I was in a car accident that was my fault (drunk). Wrote off my car and someone else's; damaged two others. You would think after all these close calls I would have lost all desire to drink, and I did for a while, but today I found myself thinking "Y'know, I could call in sick for work tomorrow, get a bottle of vodka and get shitfaced tonight." I didn't, but it was a good reminder that I will always have to be vigilant.

10.56 am.
1.4 litres gone.
very unhappy.

I just distilled 4 liters of 55% alcohol. I do it like brewing coffee these days.

>>9110480
>Implying I don't reach the perfect balance of intoxication and clear-mindedness.

>drink all night
>feeling good
>it's 6 AM before you know it and the sun is coming up

I have a lot of shitty genes, but at least the alcoholic gene isn't among them.

>>9111044
>I have previously got to the blackout point, made a mess by spilling shit everywhere and hurt myself. I then end up crying (apparently) on the kitchen floor, then the next day I wake up wondering why she's not talking to me.

I think we all have, anon. Good luck.

What am I doing with my life nigga

>>9109303
Fucking disgusting cjnt

>>9111408
6th glass pls help

> 19 y/o
> drinking 4-5 times a week
> never drank enough to get actually drunk, ever
Rate faggottry (18 is the legal age in my country, so it's a choice).

Usually a glass of wine, or a small amount of herbal liquor.

>>9111408
Who's that qt with the hat, though?

Tarync
>>9111471
That's a pot plant you spastic

>>9111471
AHAHAHAHAHA

I'm fuvking singing to ABBA right now

>>9111083
So you were drinking every day before? Completely normal. My tolerance almost triples after a week-long bender.

>>9111479
>tfw a happy drunk

>>9111457
WTF is going on with your fingers and your feet?

>>9111504
Nothing senpai. I'm a trap

>>9111512
Tfw will regret in the morning like I always do
Usually someone educates me why drinking is bad rn

>>9111504
Also nothing wrong with my hand. Just heiling hitlrer while singing ring ring

Mfw I'm the only one posting ITT

SUPER TROUPER

>>9109370
I'm sorry this happened to you, anon. I hope you have a really happy, warm night this week.

Woke up this morning and my stomach hurt a lot. Went to puke. There was blood in the toilet! Fuck. How fucked am I? Can I avoid the doctor? It wasn't a crazy amount of blood or anything and it was bright red.

>>9111595
Prolly fine. Busted capillary. If it was dark or looked like coffee grinds then yeah, go to the Dr. If you keep throwing up blood tho yeah go to Dr for that too

>>9111595
how often do you drink?

>one week sober
>start one of those 14 day cleanse things from cvs because fuck it why not
>also haven't taken a dump in like a week and a half
>urgently take a shit so bigger than my head
>falls out of my so aggressively i can't stand up for a minute or two

So, that happened..

>>9108824
I'm hanging out at my dad's house right now (he doesn't like my mom so...) and he has a giant stash of all the best alcohol. Fucking $100 bottles of scotch whiskey blend and all that good shit. But it's 12 in the afternoon and I can't just go into the kitchen to drink. Hoping that he leaves for a bit to do some errands (he works from home).

>>9111934
He's going to leave to buy a car sticker. IT'S TIME

might have to move back in with my parents soon

my liver hurts

Third day sober.

I'm craving a cold beer desu.

>>9110538
That happens to fucking everybody

>>9108824
how do i stop peeing on the ground?

In hospital . Apparently yest I lost consciousness on the way to the shop.
Trying to hide phone. Not supposed to be using it here.
There's an incredibly fit, young blonde nurse here. Love her ponytail. Might have to go to prison when I'm discharged.

>>9112462

Are you the australia anon from earlier or someone else?

>>9112462
Trying to get a pic. She's fucking amazing. Difficult, 7 other people on this wars. Eyes everywhere.
Oh god I'm in trouble. She looks so fucking nice. I'm not in control, I'm simply going to have to put my hand up her skirt

>>9112468
Someone else, anon

>>9112474

>, I'm simply going to have to put my hand up her skirt

How determined are you to go to prison then?

>>9112474
>I'm not in control,
Yes you are. You are not a monkey, you communicate like a human being on a keyboard, you can not assault her.

>>9112496
There's no ring on her finger.
I'm doing it. She's TOO fucking hot.
Come at me.

65hr week done but trying to quit drinking

j-just one won't hurt

>>9112566
Do it, she's a nurse, she's seen worse.

>>9112574
see you when you wake up in three days anon

>>9112626
Great point.
Same way it's OK to rape someone who was already raped.
Only a worthless nigger can't control his urges.

t.nurse.

>>9112648
>it's OK to rape someone who was already raped.
Jesus Christ, anon. Sort your head out. Fuck no this isn't OK.
Hot nurses are fair game for flirting though.

>>9108824
Honestly puked outside of a bar before work today, stone cold sober. I went in to stave off potential withdrawals but the bartender, who I've never seen before, never even been to this bar before, was so concerned about how I looked or something that she wouldn't serve me right away. I thanked her for the glass of water I asked for, and walked out. I then drove to work and got my shift excused and went home.

>>9111546
Thank you.


It's life though.

Not everyone gets a good card

>used to drink to cope with anxiety
>worked for a while but then it got much worse
>sober now
>feel calm as shit

paradoxically, sobriety feels like life on easy mode now.

drinking myself to sleep for a bit so I can wake up in time for my bachelor party later that I won't want to go to and will probably black out at

>>9112648
You deserve a heartfelt thank you for being a nurse. I really mean that. Thankyou.

Still gonna finger that blonde.

>>9112808
How drunk are you?

Anyone else feel compelled to quit due to getting afib? I did because it pretty much scared me to get my shit together. I still want some beers though.

>>9112816
I'm in withdrawal on a hospital ward.

>>9112834
That was one of the scariest things for me as well, laying in bed passively with a heartbeat as if I just did sprints.

>>9112845
Today is the first day of the rest of you life.
Godspeed Anon.

>>9112845
I arrived drunk at all my rehabs.

>>9108824
Who else here never speaks a word of it otherwise, but goes off on massive tirades against the jews when seriously drunk?

>>9112845
Thank goodness you still have the "rehab" internet

>>9112994
Only with people its the worse. It'd crazy shit like the Jews did 9/11 or if there is a Jew in the TV I get really angry and disgusted.

Have a 4 day weekend starting. Gonna try my damnest to not get stumble drunk all 4 days. Maybe I'll do a shot of Jim Beam and a beer or two every night.

hey folks im the guy from the last thread with the doo doo bucket. been sober 15 days now, the depression and anxiety seems to come and go, but it's gone now. after i shampooed the carpet in my room i painted the walls, but the barf stains are still showing through a bit. guess i should have put some primer on first. I'll prolly stick another coat on it this weekend to give me something to do. Might open the window and let this place air out some. anyway. feel somewhat comfortable inside my own head for now. gonna grill some steak and eat some brussel sprouts and kick back and relax pretty cool huh. oh well who cares take it easy folks.

I really can't sleep when I don't drink, and my kidney's shut down when I detox. It's kinda crappy.

>>9108936
Rough, man. I've had my wife leave with the kids for the MIL for a night or two before. I think she was being overly dramatic, because I didn't do anything that bad. But, whatever

The fucking worst is when a liquer store is open til 3:00 am and literally 50 yards away. So easy to go get a couple more tall boys or pint of bourbon late at night

>>9113057

I have a still where when my 65% booze is finally done I make more like fucking coffee. I think Oliver Reed would be proud of my liver.

>>9113030
Congrats Anon, I'm glad for you.

>>9113061
thats badass

>>9113115

makes 4 liters of ~60% booze in an 1.5 hours.

>>9113124
did you construct that yourself?

>>9108824
I am 26 years old but I look like a 16 year old because god has cursed me with shitty genetics. I have been spending every weekend drinking since I was 21. I just can't handle seeing all the happy good looking young people on the weekends having the time of their lives, getting their fuck on, while I rot alone day in and day out. It's Canada day weekend so that means a bonus day of drinking for me.

>>9111466
hey 19 here too. legal age is 19. been having a drink or a glass of wine most days but have only gotten to a buzz twice. alcoholism is scary mang

>>9113133

yup.

>>9113142
thats so cool did you follow a guide or is it your own creation

>>9112023
Was it good?

>>9113147

I read ALOT at http://homedistiller.org/forum/ but the design was basically my own. The Jackson crossflow condenser was a low pressure cooler, I had to stuff it with copper mesh as a modification.

just finishing my 5th of 6 pale ales after a hard nights 12hr shift…. feels good! smoke then bed for all those cozy feels

>>9113147

The basic design is a Boka Reflux Still.

>>9113161
>>9113172
damn thats awesome... i wanna do something like that in a few months maybe.
what was the cost of the whole thing?

>>9113181

All in, around 600ish. That's the 170 for 12ft of 3 inch DWV. I have 2 detachable columns, the plumbing copper, cooling copper, silver solder, pond pump, digital thermometers. There's just so much add on shit. I can't math it out. But your booze ends up costing nothing.

>>9113181

The end stage still is a mess of hose and shit, but it works like a charm.

>tfw don't dare to pick up the phone sober
>tfw old drinking buddies keep trying to reach me

>>9110701
Good choice!

>>9110701
I like Smirnoff. Guy I used to work with would buy a fifth of "five o'clock" vodka every night. It cost like 5$. He would swear that it tasted just like the top shelf vodka.

>>9110967
Jim Beam is my favorite. Not to expensive, not to cheap

>>9109384
Those long stretches off are the worse for drinking. I promised my wife I would only drink 6 drinks this 4 day weekend.

>>9111595
Might be ulcers

>>9111595

I've puked blood. It came out right at the end of my 'session'. Not sure how fucked you are, but I'm alive.

>>9111905
must be what he was talking about here

>>9111905

Are you off the opioids as well? You get head sized shits after you stop the herobooze.

>>9111595
I used to get alarmed about that. Now it's kind of old hat. But it doesn't happen very often for me anymore. Eat something before you start drinking. Goes a long way.

>>9113401

What about ass blood? I get that from time to time. Not a flow but a few concerning wipes.

.

>>9113449
true

>>9113148
Hell yeah. Went in and had like 6 shots and then passed out. It was smooth. Like drinking apple juice. Way better than the cheap vodka that I usually down.

>>9113449

Eh, not really.

>>9113449
That was never proven. Those were just allegations

>>9113536
>>9113477
I want the shills to leave

Anyone else turn full hermit while sober?

>>9113474
Good, I'm glad.

>>9113449
???

I have not drank in weeks, but feel like drinking tonight for some reason. What should I drink tonight? What is the best 4 Loko to get?

Been drinking pretty much every day for the last month or so. 90% light beer, a few craft beers and a couple margaritas. Managed to not to do anything too stupid, luckily, except for drunkenly confront a friend who was spreading a shitty rumor about my best friend. I was upset, but after he apologized I apologized as well and hopefully looked like less of a drunkard after that. Was late to work and left early one day due to hangover, but otherwise work hasn't suffered. I'm going to be on call all weekend so I won't have a drop of alcohol until Monday.

>>9113449
makes ya think

i dont know how to have a good time sober

>>9113580
<3

>>9113694

I dont know how to live sober

>>9113167

Damn, if I have one or two IPAs it puts me to sleep or gives me a massive headache...how do you have 6 of them

>>9113274
Not to gramer

I love you al/ck/.

>>9113906
is it our good looks?

>>9113906
al/ck/ here, love you too

>>9108824
3 days being sober. Being broke helped lol. I liked waking up sober and not pissed off, I have been spending more time playing vidya games and watching youtube videos. My only concerned is my next payday if I can continue being sober or will I fall back and go on a drinking binge again.

>>9113906
got your beer goggles on lad?

This is gonna sound /pol/acki as fuck, but fuck today. Pretty much every white girl in the area has a black boyfriend. I am also still a social outcast even after losing weight, cleaning up my face, and getting muscular.

Is scotch a cucks drink? It would fit if it were.

>>9113955
date a black girl

>>9113807
Oh, the irony of misspelling "grammar"

>>9112994
Me too! It's always Jews, no other races or religions. I don't even really feel that way about Jews. So weird.

>>9113979
that'll show em!

>>9113955
Sounds like a bad area.

>>9113979
Have, but thats probably because I am a failure.
>>9114015
Nah, I work over the summer in a tourist area of a city that is one of the most prosperous in the region. Pretty much where white people go to get away from the nogs in the surrounding area.

>>9113591
dont do 4loko. its so awful.

Ffs i knew I should not have eaten that pasta with bacon.

Now i want to fucking drown my depression in my bottle of vodka but can't because i'll fucking vomit it all like i did three days ago.

I know many people like to drink their booze pure (i like my vodka pure desu and everyone looks me with a "???" face) but what are good mixes to make?

I've tried rum and coke/orange juice and it tastes good desu. The usual "jack and coke" is good too. Whisky with anything else tastes awful in my opnion.

>>9114507

I would make vodka tonics on a regular basis. Diet tonic isn't full of sugar, as well. Just a spash though, otherwise it's too bitter. Not that worried about malaria. Vodka and grapefruit juice is also pretty good.

Maybe you guys can give me some advice.

A bunch of bad things happened in a short amount of time and my immediate future looks pretty horrible. The worst part is that I can't stop thinking about it. I can't sleep at night, I have no appetite, I constantly feel like I am on the verge of breaking down. I just want to stop thinking all together for a while. I'm sure this sounds familiar to a lot of you.

Any recommendations?

>>9114530

If you want everything to inevitably get much worse over time but momentarily not care you can drink constantly.

>>9114530
Unless it's something grave like health, or you murdered someone, everything passes in time. Being anxious or hard on yourself really doesn't change the outcome of anything, so try being easy on yourself and taking care of yourself.

Drink lots of water. Maybe some hot tea. And for sleep/nerves, look into Magnesium Calm powder supplement. You're gonna be alright anon

>>9114530
Listen to them:
>>9114542
>>9114547
Things can (probably, they will) get better but with alcohol they will actually get way worse - later -. You're just delaying suffering, so don't do this to yourself. Everything gets better (even if you've murdered someone i guess?)

>>9114530

If you calm down and look at the peices I am sure it will all make sense. I recently got hit by the retarded attempted dad/daughter scam. How people think that could ever work is beyond me.

I hate that feel when I run booze /alc/. I just want off this ride. I know I going to drink tommorow. I just want to stop! REEEEEEEEEEEE.

I cut down my drinking to around 4 days a week. The problem is that I don't really want to go lower, life is too shitty without it.

i got real fucvking drunk and ended up sleeping for 2 days basically
god damn it

>>9108824
got fired today due to a dui.

i was a temp worker, they wanted to bring me on permanently, filled out application truthfully. get a phone call before my shift that they dont want me due to the background check. they also terminated my temp contract.

incident took place over a year ago. in total, i was charged with dui and drug possession. I dont have a fucking clue where the drug thing came from, i wasnt holding. that was later thrown out, and the dui reduced to reckless. have already completed terms of probation. it never affected my ability to do my job. didnt even get a chance to explain myself.

luckily i've got enough for todays rent. im trying not to panic and just focus on pumping out resumes and making sure my coursework is done. i'm set to graduate this fall unless i fuck that up.

Anyone else have problems pissing the bed?

I've done it 3 times this year. Went from pounding fifths every day to a six to twelve pack of light beer every night. Seems I just can't hold the piss water.

Thankfully it's diluted and small enough to go undetected or to blame on the dogs. Wife is currently 6" from last night's mistake. Fuck it's embarrassing.

I gave up on sobriety ever since guns were brought into the household, as sobriety and I mix badly.

>>9114507
Whiskey sours are great. Manhattans/Rob Roys are as well. Mint juleps as well. Old fashioneds as well.

Today is a tolerance+recovery day so I'm just going to smoke a giant nugget instead. inb4 DUDE

>>9115285
>Alky admits to overdoing it.
>Recovery is getting baked af fuck


What demons are you trying to out run, friend?

>>9113554
I got shills, they're multiplying!

>>9115325
The demon in the mirror.

>>9115285
>tolerance+recovery
>one day

HELP ME. PEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME

Anybody else got headaches from being sober? 14 days no booze and my neck is stiff and I'm getting pretty bad headaches. Thing is, when I drank I didn't get hangovers or headaches - I had to get sober to be miserable. What's the goddamn point here?

>>9115416
What's wrong? You're scaring me, anon

>>9115423
Maybe you have other issues that you were blocking out with the booze.

If you sober up after a decade you might suddenly realise that you're old.

>>9113449
The fuck is this

>>9115285
I hate weed but I'm so sick of being fucked up from drinking I would honestly take a couple hits right now if I could just to feel any differently at all

>>9115423

I just had a few booze free days after a short illness. I had the stiff neck. and my sleep was all fucked up - kind of half asleep with repetitive, waking dreams which I couldn't stop. one was like being in a pointless minecraft type video game.

I used to smoke a load of weed and would do so even when sick. haven't touched the stuff for five years. I can never drink when ill.

Trying to quit. Would it be appropriate to go to an Urgent Care, if I think withdrawals are going to a problem, or is that not what they're for?

>>9115713
Depends on how much you drink.

>>9115722
750ml a day. Had a seizure last week.

>>9115713
What's your daily dose?

Tapering is always advised.

>>9115741
>>9115739

>>9115750
I tapered by 50ml a day from something like that.

Never had a seizure though.

>>9115739
Better to go to detox than die, m8.

>>9115713
Why hide it instead of seeing if they'd help?

>>9115767
When you go in, what do you say?

"I'm scared to withdraw from alcohol, what can you do to help me?"

Don't you risk coming across like you just wanna score benzos?

Basically I can't drink anymore, because severe withdrawals are induced after one day of drinking, due to "kindling." And there's no reversing it or gaming my system to prevent it, I've tried everything. It's not worth it to me anymore.

The only way to for me to drink again without risking DTs would be to stay drunk until my liver falls out of my asshole, and fuck that shit. Do I miss being drunk? Yeah. But am I happier without obsessing over it!? Yeah.

>>9115777
>Basically I can't drink anymore, because severe withdrawals are induced after one day of drinking, due to "kindling."
I'm approaching this point. They're not severe, but I get shaky and my muscles hurt and I can't sleep for at least a night after a single session of drinking.

It's pretty shitty. I have to taper after one night of booze.

>>9115713
Those clinics generally won't help you detox. There are detox units, but if you don't have insurance, they'll treat you worse than they would someone who has it. If you have someone who can help you taper off at home, do that. If not, try a detox unit.

>>9115770
The might give you an IV of ativan. It helped me almost instantly when I felt like I was about to lose my mind in an ER.

was this documentary and this dude for real or was it staged? is this how you guys are?

>>9115141
That happens to me when I mix alcohol with things that make you sleepy. I take Benadryl for my allergies, it doesn't normally affect me. But I blackout if I have even moderate amounts of alcohol after taking one. If you're drinking make sure that all you're doing.

>>9115713
Literally depends on your insurance.

Also, what does a heart attack feel like? I had a sudden sharp and intense pain on the front side of my right shoulder, like one of my blood vessels was being painfully stretched, and it was spreading to my whole body. It lasted a minute, legit didn't know what to do. It didn't drop me to the floor or anything, but I hadn't felt anything like that before.

>>9115799
Get your blood pressure taken ASAP.

Drank 600ml yesterday but barely ate. Feel like I'm fucking dying. Went and saw that movie Baby Driver which fucking sucked.

Trying to keep down some lunch meat and water now. Tempted to go to liquor store to maybe taper the hangover, though not sure if thatll just delay it til tomorrow

>>9115798
Just googled it, a few minutes in.

This is a good reminder to stay sober.

>>9115798
some of us are probably worse.

where you at smirnoffbro?

>>9115864
Jesus Christ that dumb fucking brother that denies a guy in withdrawal a drink.

Only grandpa seems to know how this shit works.

>>9111187
I've been doing that for a month. Gone through a good 150 litres of cheap sugar water through the stil. NOT A GOOD IDEA. My tolerance went from half a bottle before sleep to over a bottle. I'm forcing myself to take at least a night off tonight, it's almost 3am and wishing I could sleep.

>>9115864
>>9115908
fair warning: it's depressing as fuck and I don't recommend watching it all the way through unless you're in a good spot emotionally.

>>9115770
Never gone, but I was a paramedic. Everyone is actually chill as long as you keep it light. Prolly just give you some suggestions or mild shit. They can't lock you up or anything.cant hurt though. They'll know something is up if you're trying to lie to professionals. Just no need to do so.


>>9115795
Wouldn't have imagined an urgent care doing that, but I suppose.

Just got back from the gym. Did a full body workout. Don't like this fat that's been developing nor the 100+ BPM resting heart rate.

>>9116465
Good for you anon, what drink are you celebrating with?

>>9116493
Nothing today. I've been drinking too much and I'm going to try and moderate.

Gonna help myself to some nice barbequed chicken though.

>>9115154
Because guns and alcohol mixes better than you and sobriety?

>>9115440
>be 18
>having a drink
>put glass down
>I'm in my 30's
What the fuck happened?

>>9115713
They should help, at least for dangerous withdrawals. It won't be as comfortable as a good rehab, and the first thing you'll want to do when walking out is drink.
If you're lucky, there'll be a place in a rehab (possibly in the same "hospital group"). But maybe it'll be available in a week for example.
Alternatively, continue drinking until you have plans for a rehab, or rehab at home (tapper or ask a doc for benzo.)

>>9115770
>Don't you risk coming across like you just wanna score benzos?
Well, just tell them to keep you until you have unfakable withdrawals.

>>9115798
It looked real. At least if it was faked, it describe alcoholism realistically.
Idk if the ending describes American health care system realistically, but if it does, it fucking suck.

>>9108824
I'm hungover and feeling very high anxiety. How do I get rid of this anxious feeling? Please give me your wisdom.

>>9116836
Go for a run or something. It will only last a few days m8

>>9115957
Yeah, that was a rough one. He seemed like a nice guy as well, that made it worse.

That needing a drink and normies thinking they're doing the right thing by boycotting you really made my hands clammy.

>>9116876
http://www.motherjones.com/politics/2015/05/ryan-rogers-rehab-alcoholic-drugged/

He could've made it as well if it wasn't for hack doctors.

>>9115798
I can relate to his obsession with staying drunk, and how terrified he was of going into withdrawal. The main difference is my family wasn't stupid enough to buy the shit for me and board my drunk ass. I had to work, I had to buy the shit myself and pay my own bills. They stood by me the very minute I was ready to quit but saw through my bullshit when I wasn't.

>>9115798
This guy reminds me a lot of Doug Stanhope. The self-loathing, the voice, the look on his face and the mannerisms.

How many paracetamol do I need to take

>>9117228
What for?

Fucccccck that documentary. I'm never drinking again.

>>9117231
l o l

>>9117230
To kill myself

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CrTlI6seM0A

Here's the doc for people who haven't seen it yet.

And with that I've made it to day five.

>>9117295
Day 21 here, that doc has made me more determined

>>9117084
>>9117084
>>9117084