/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>tfw i've been sober since new year's eve

March 19.

I keep looking at the calendar.

I'll probably grab some alc this week.

I can't take it anymore. Everything sucks, I need a buzz and a fake smile on my face..

>>8715381
A year and one week

>>8715381
5 hours and im already antsy

I picked up 8 cans of beer (Alexander Keith) to drink while watching the Raptors game. I haven't drank anything since last Friday, and likely wont be drinking again until Friday of next week.

March 15- six days.

go to AA meetings. have some coffee, get free pastries, and hear how your stories of alcoholism are so common that it stops being a glamoroous or romantic thing you can use as an excuse to keep the jig up.

I drank a four loko and about three shot of vodka. I'm going to work. wish me luck. I doubt want to get fired.

>Ran out of booze 2 hours ago
>Already suffering

>>8715381
like three days and it'll probably be over by friday

>>8715381

Been sober for like 35 days now or some shit. Wasn't even hard. I started smoking cigarettes though. But I was also able to stop drinking caffeine so basically I traded alcoholism and caffeine for 2-3 cigarettes/day. I'll quit the ciggies soon too. The best part is I don't even think about the alcohol. I think I overcame the psychological wiring that comes with dependency. What scares me is if I go out and have even 1 beer with a friend if it will trigger something in my head or not

>>8715423
bernie always seems happy though, I guess people think that about me too. Been sober since withdrawaling last weekend, already bored of it and want some whiskey

severe pain right below my right shoulder blade and it moved into the front right below my right pectoral.
should i go to the hospital

>>8715569
is it actually severe or are you just drunk

>>8715510
same here people actually encourage my alcoholism as im more pleasant to be around. other wise I just sulk quietly bored or snap at the slightest things, not rudely but just enough for people to notice.

>>8715580
it's your uterus be careful

>>8715580
not drunk at all
cant even move

>>8715639
is the pain near the surface of the skin, or does it feel like it's deep inside? there's a chance it's a blood clot but i don't quite think it is

>>8715569
Either that or stay here and quiz /ck/ about medical issues - whichever you think is more sensible.

>>8715381
I think I'm getting better. I'm no day drinking and a handle of vodka now lasts me 3 1/2 nights. I got some sleeping pills, so once I finish this handle, I'm gonna dry and use the pills to knock me out before the depression and anxiety sets in.

>>8715655
then what

Come join us for a chat on the /alc/ discord.
https://discord.gg/Eu7TGND

>>8715679

~24 hours. I'm aiming for at least 5 days sober this week.

Ive tried going cold turkey but that's so much harder.

>>8715749
Running out of money is the easiest way to go cold turkey.

Just throw all your money in a grill and cook some burgers with it.
Or get diagnosed with a disability, that's surefire homelessness and starvation but at least you won't have money to drink either.

1 day..and today I picked up some shitty beer but havent drank it yet.

If you had no food or alcohol in your house and only had $20 left to your name would you spend it on

(a) food

(b) alcohol

You can only choose one option.

>>8715815
$20 is enough for both tho

>>8715815
beer is food

>>8715381
> Alcohol

Kek


Deal with cannabis withdrawal and then you'll know true hell.

>>8715826
No such thing. I would know.

Between swearing off drinking alone, and starting using kratom, I've been drinking a lot less than I used to,
BUT
Most of my friends quit drinking, the ones that do drink live 70 miles away, and I finally managed to swear-off drinking alone.
So now the only people I can drink with are this girl I've been seeing and her social circle,
and now EVERY SINGLE TIME I DRINK I end up making an ass of myself, being a jealous prick, being an asshole, and I spend the entire time wanting to die.
When I was drinking around my own friends, this never happened.

Sorry for the blog.

>>8715773
Yeah, I get that I'm whining. I've been irritable all day. I'm more frustrated that I gave up smoking cold turkey but alcohol isnt the same for me.

>>8715815
>implying I eat

>>8715991

I'm the guy who had girlfriend problems in the last thread. Ended up buying a six pack yesterday; drank four last night and two tonight.
The lady needed to stop living with me. I asked her if she was just moving out. She said she was not sure. Gonna have another little cigar and watch some more Always sunny. Cheers dudes.

>>8716361
Don't worry anon, she is probably not out getting railed by three other dudes right now. I'm sure she just needs space for a bit.

Probably

Is an three handles a week a alcoholism?

>>8716385
I used to do three cheap vodka handles a week in my twentys, the withdrawal was like a 3-4 day episode of paranoid schizophrenia... not like now is any better.

>>8716385
no mate, you're fine

>>8716383
Suck my ass.

>>8716424
Nah, find someone on craigslist to do that for you.
But be advised it'll be a much tougher market for you than for your gf.

Anyway, why are you worrying? She'll be fine, I'm sure. Have a drink and wait for it all to clear up

Five weeks sober, went from drink three handles a week for almost a year to going cold turkey. Was able to manage so far with substituting coffee(coarse now I'm just drink way to much coffee), but now things are picking up at the work place. More stupid questions than I can count. Makes a man really crave the drink.

well I fucked it up again after like three days, back2 4loko town and on to whiskey probably god damnit I better not lose my job

>>8716456
I've had a similar experience. I'll give you some advice once I'm not shithammered. Stay sober whether or not you have a family.

Since last weekend. At least i didnt trink alone

Since I discovered l Theanine I've severely curbed my drinking. I've found that I never get drunk with it, just a pleasant buzz no matter how much I drink. 1 beer five shots it all feels the same when I take l theanine. So give it a try bros, maybe it will help you

Anyone else find that withdrawal hits hard and FAST? Ten mins ago I felt fine, now I'm soaked with sweat, puking, teeth chattering, heart going batshit, have 'the fear'... wtf man. I need this to fuck off

>>8716773
Your body wants sugar. honey is good, candy is good. also salts. but mostly the sugar you're not getting from alcohol.

Head exporter of beer here.

How goes it?

>>8715430
Ahh Keith's. I see we have another maritime in here. Where your from anon?

>Work 12 hour shifts with 5-on, 4-off, 5-on, 5-off, 4-on, 4-off cycle
>Sober every day I'm working and never drink the day before I'm due in
>Still spend most of the rest of my time off completely fucking blasted

I'm aware this is somehow a problem but it's not interfering with my life enough to motivate me to stop.

FUCKING HELL
FUCK
JUST. Fuck OFF.
Why does withdrawal have to make everything hurt? Ffs. I feel SO BAD in pretty much EVERY conceivable way. Just... just... FFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKK

>>8716930
SUG-AR

>>8715381
day 5. no withdrawals of severe cravings in sight.

>>8715493
>What scares me is if I go out and have even 1 beer with a friend if it will trigger something in my head or not
this desu

>>8716937
Hard to keep anything down, I had 2 spoonfuls of honey but I'm throwing up seemingly fucking constantly. I'll keep trying

>>8716963
Chug water, it's gunna come up, feel better for a second, go honey, see what happens. If you stop aborting everything go for OJ

welp, on to round two, supposed to work at 7am tomorrow, this is gunna be fucking shit. why the fuck can't I turn it off

Feel like I can't breathe properly. Is that a normal symptoms of withdrawal?

>>8717179
yah i get that sometimes too. today is day one for me since yesterday where I only had two tequila and cokes just to ward off the heavyness.

>>8717482
Day one for me too, been puking, shaking and sweating all morning.
Plus everything is scary, and makes me feel legitimately shocked and sick. I can't even watch movies, not even comedy movies, there's inevitably gonna be something in it which makes me chuck again. Fuck, even emoticons make me feel uneasy. My brain is wrecked

>>8717502
Kids show are supposed to be trigger free.

I hate myself and want to die

>>8715381
almost 3 days

Its shitty but do any of you guys get piss drunk?

Over the course of a month it probably happens two times after drinking and then won't happen for a while.

I try to do stuff to avoid it not happening, but its almost random when it does and its not affected entirely by how much I drink and if I take a leak before bed.

Anyone can give me some suggestions?

inb4 stop being a drunk, I should probably not be drinking but whatever, we all got problems.

>>8717962
I've only pissed myself 3 times, perhaps drink spirits instead of bulkier drinks? Not nearly so much liquid in you.
I also keep a piss bowl by the bed. I always have to use it in the middle of the night, guess perhaps thats trained me to wake if I need to piss

>>8717972
I almost exclusively just drink hard liquor. Last night I was just drinking 7 on ice. Maybe had like 7 or 8 doubles and then went to bed.

Managed to wake up halfway pissing at around 4am so i didn't soak the bed but usually dont get that lucky.

>>8715381
almost 48 hours but I can't see a single reason to keep going

>tfw can down 3 shots of vodka no problem but get dizzy if I have more than a pint of beer with dinner
What the actual fuck

>>8717989
>3 shots
>one pint
Y...you did mean 3 bottles and one keg, right...? Damn man you may as well drink from a pipette. I'd save so fucking much money if I had your tolerance.

>>8717998
I'm saying I can drink a lot of hard alcohol before even feeling it, and I can drink beer the same way, but if I have a pint with a meal I'm hammered.

>>8717987
>single reason
Well I mean, you'll die if you don't, so there's that

>>8718003
You die either way.

Is JD fire any good? I've only ever tried basic jack and I like it
I've been told honey is fucking disgusting

>>8716963
Wait, vomiting everything is a symptom of alcohol withdrawal ?

>>8716773
Heh. I had the same symptoms when i upped my dosage of SSRIs few days ago. Although probably not as severe.

>>8718096
I throw up maybe 30 times a day as soon as I stop. If I just continue drinking, I don't puke at all

You guys smokers at all?

My friend got me on cigars to try and reduce drinking.

Worked for a bit, but now im chain smoking these things while still drinking.

Having random pain in my arm now this week. Motherfuck

>>8718139
Been smoking for about nine or ten years.

Started off on reds but I cant do them everyday anymore so I switched to reds special blend because I find them a bit lighter.

I should really try to change my lifestyle habits but I dont know how.

>>8715381
Since yesterday. Planning not to drink anything today, having some cigs and diet coke to get past the oral fixation.

>>8718139
I quit about nine months ago because I couldn't stand coughing up shit any more, no way am I going back to smoking.
I am wearing 4 nicotine patches right now however.

>>8718139
Cigars are not meant to be inhaled, you just smoke them for the flavor so I don't think they work as a substitute for alcohol if that's your goal
Cigarettes won't work either in my experience, you'll just end up with two shitty addictions instead of just one

>>8718122
That's some weird ass shit but puking 30 times a day isn't good for you, obviously, but i mean your throat etc.

You gave a try to anti-emetics like Motilium, lad ? They should help.

>>8718168
as an alcohol, this isn't "weird shit" you're just not there yet.

>>8718157
Not inhaling em. The flavor thing i get, but a strong full bodied cigar is relaxing. My problem is that now i feel shitty if i don't have a cigar and a drink.

Never tried cigarettes, my cousin smokes a pipe, some of the stuff he smokes smells pretty nice, but seems like a quick smoke

>>8718173
Do you drink literally everyday?

>>8718168
Yeah it's terrible for you, my entire torso hurts like hell, but gotta be better than still drinking.
Anti emetics don't do shit for me. But then, maybe I'm just throwing the faggots up.
Doesn't anyone else puke like fucking crazy when going cold turkey?

>>8718176
I'm not that guy, but if I wreck a bender and come off 4-5 days I'm puking for at least a day until my body gives up then it's worse withdrawal all over again

>>8718179
I guess its the continued shit that does it. I am a heavy drinker but i'll dry out during the day at least, when I was working in a bar I'd drink after shift and go in at 9AM for Brunch shifts and actual shot glasses worth of bitters would ease me out of it.

>>8718178
Are you injecting them? Pills don't work if you're already throwing up

>>8717068
well fucking missed work but feeling the heebee jeebees like fuck, guess I'll keep drinking a little fml

>>8718193
I did this about two weeks ago when I got some bad info from my attorney. Its a fun time to be too drunk to go to work and keep drinking the whole day.

Spoiler its not fun and maybe just being dead would be better.

fuuuuuuuckkk

>>8718207
I've been doing like a day or two every other week for over a year, boss knows, just shakes his head

>>8718256
I had gotten my wisdom teeth pulled out, and I was drinking the night before and had work the next day, and I was still taking the pills and ended up drinking at work and got really fucked up that the management sent me home.

I never fuck with painkillers fuck that shit.

Surprisingly didn't get fired.

>>8718267
one of these things is not like the others

my band played last friday and i had 3 comped beers and went home so i think i'm doing pretty good actually

video games and skateboarding help. even though my mom makes fun of me because i'm in my 30s and still enjoy those things

>Trying to dose alcohol and methylphenidate closely so I would not go hungry before I can go to the store at 8am tomorrow
>12 hours to go

It's hell but
The curves are separate but you can easily tell with just one substance and when you combine, shit gets real complicated real fast, i haven't found the perfect ratio yet
extreme alcohol or methylphenidate = no hunger, but i don't want extreme, moderate methylphenidate and no alcohol = no hunger, moderate methylphenidate and little alcohol = hunger

I think the only reason I haven't stopped is because somehow I keep my life looking pretty well managed from the outside.

Writing my thesis during the day, getting home and drink cheap vodka/whisky/gin/wine. Weekends are spent drinking alone from before noon until I pass out or until people want to do out and party ( where I arrive drunk before the other have started drinking ).

Still it costs a lot and I'm drinking through my savings, but I will probably graduate before that happens...

One of the things I really like but I'm so very ashamed of drinking until I pass out, then waking up in the middle of the night, looking at the watch and seeing that I still have time so I just pick up the bottle and drink again until I pass out again without leaving the bed.

I'm not doing so good. I had a drink just before 11:00am today.
Had a snort or two in a bathroom stall before a presentation I had to give

Worst part is professor canceled our presentations

>>8718364
have you tried drinking more
currently thats helping me not be sick so like uh, I mean

>>8718364
Drinking before the presentation because you had a presentation or because you need it for the day?

>>8718392
Because I had a presentation. I pretty much need to drink to speak to more than one person

>>8718405
Well at least it's better than the other option.
Trying to come up with some good points here but you know, it's not the worst but other than that I don't got much.

>>8715381

Been sober since start of febuary. Before that I only drank 3 nights since the new years. Deffinately the most sober nights ive had in years. After a lot of emotional ups and downs I feel like im starting to become more baseline. The depression and anxiety seem to be getting better. Still struggling to get a good nights sleep but I'm deff seeing improvement so Im pretty happy about that.

did all the other withdrawalers die or what someone fucking help me

>>8718458
I'm here anon, still throwing up constantly, shaking, feverish and petrified of the most harmless things. I'm still 100% sober. Very very rare for me to manage a whole day, but today it happens. 7pm. Nice.
How are your symptoms?
May fall asleep btw, I'm here every day though

>>8718486
that fear and impending sense of doom is one of the worst parts for me I'm meant to be tapering but I feel like I'm just gunna drink past it and fuck off again

>>8718500
The fear is easily the worst it, especially when coupled with fucking hallucinations and constant nightmares. Right there with you on that.
Don't drink, bro. Remember why you started this. You know fully well if you drink tonight, it will be the beginning of another fucking nightmarish binge. Stick with it man

you know what man little cesears pizza is very constipating

Can an alcoholic start drinking in moderation rather than stop cold-turkey? I don't want to give up drinking permanently, but I don't wanna kill myself yet.

Searching in google only brings up the fucking AA site.

>>8718568
you can try

>>8718568
That's what Ive been doing for a month. I only drink on saturdays. So far so good for me, but most people will say it's not possible and u will relapse

Omfg what am I gonna do with my life? Without alcohol I won't be able to hide from my fucking endless, horrific problems. I wish I could believe in god or something. I am FUCKED.

>>8718568

Depends how much of an alchy you are.

Hardcore alchies shouldn't try cold turkey, its dangereous. It would probably be less shitty to wean yourself off , then possibly quit entirely. Why do you not want to give up drinking? I said the same thing and I know for me it was because it was basically the only thing keeping me happy and I could not see myself being happy. after getting sober for several months I started feeling better and started realizing I don't really need the booze to be happy, and that life offer's plenty of shit other then drugs to keep oneself happy. its a chemical addiction though so you won't be able to see it untill you've rewired your brain which takes months of sobriety. and that includes by the way, COMPLETE sobriety. I used other drugs as a crutch when I quit booze , mainly smoking weed everyday, thinking to myself, well its just weed at least i'm not drinking. Then i dropped the weed but kept drinking coffee, and felt I needed it too.
but only once I dropped absolutely everything for a decent while did I really start to feel like I dont need drugs to be happy. Its also very helpful to have a supporting family or partner, and genuinely reaching out to them.

5 hours about to get some more booze shortly and cook a red Baron pizza

>>8715381
Got drunk this morning around 9AM and fell asleep. Counting my change now to go back up and get more.

>>8718629
is red baron good? I love pizza and need to save money because liquor and wellllll

>>8718629
>>8718794
Red Baron french bread pizza is nice. It's microwavable but I wouldn't suggest it since they changed the microwave tray to not have sides anymore, to catch the spilloff.

>>8718804
>having a microwave

okay rich folk fuck of

>>8718794
It's like $4 (they just made it $4.50 here) and pretty much top of the line in the frozen pizza section. I love them, they're the only ones I buy, and you won't lose a ton of money if you go try one out.

Just make sure to get pepperoncinis (hot as possible) or you'll end up a lost soul crunching on a pizza that seems to be missing something

I've been drinking a lot more for the past several months, maybe 6 or more? I don't know. Not too hard, only puked once recently for the first time, never passed out. There's this thing I like and it's pretty cheap, so it's often this, 15.5% and pretty sweet, around half a bottle at a time. Definitely several times a week, sometimes every day for a few days in a row. Obviously I know it can't go on forever. How long until it becomes a health issue? Should I go do blood tests or something?

>>8718500
Did you drink?
I didn't. That's 1 full day with nothing. Amazing. Feel like shit, but every time I've managed 1 day I've gone on to manage 2. I'm escaping.

>>8718925

Don't break the chain. We're rooting for you.

>>8718964
Thanks anon, and nope, I'm not touching one single molecule for… Well, hopefully forever but I think we all know I've said that to myself before. I really, really hope this is the end, none of us deserve this grotesque torture.

>>8718627
I drink diesel 153 every other day until I can't walk without being up against a wall for balance. hangover next morning, rinse and repeat.

>>8715493
it happens m8. personally, i started with just one beer only, maybe a few times. then the voice in your head is like "well, you can handle this, you can handle 2/3" then it's all downhill from there. if you do, keep it at one

>>8719002

One day at a time. Only Sith talk in absolutes!

>>8715381
Been sober for about 15 hours.
Just took out all my empties for recycling and had to make at least 10 trips... I always think I'm drinking less and less each month but I realise it's the opposite when it comes to me having to take the recycling out.

I get money again tomorrow and I'm absolutely determined to not buy booze to sit in my room and drink alone.

>have first shower in 2 months. "fuck this chore is dull"
>first clean clothes in like 3 weeks
>almost immediately shit self
>oh I see. ok then
>walk to bathroom like john Wayne, hand down pants cupping and holding enough warm diarrhoea to feed a forest for a month
>bathroom light is gone. pitch black
>cautiously lower shit-strewn jeans, sit in toilet, can feel the squelch of turd cover toilet seat, and drip from my legs to the floor. shit EVERYWHERE
>shit with such godlike ferocity that it almost lifts me clean off toilet seat
>hurl jeans complete with their payload into bath, fuck it too drunk, deal with later
>Proceed to wiping stage
>Accidentally knock only toilet roll into bath. Feel around for it in pitch black darkness rage level becoming precarious
>feel a solid object. Toilet roll Soaked. Ruined.
>almost begin to cry with anger, grab a nearby wet towel,wipe with that
>Make my way back to the bedroom, throw on new jeans. Stink like shit. Don't care
>go to bed
>shit self
Ok.

>>8717962
Not subject to it myself, but apparently there isn't much you can do beside pissing before going to bed. And not sleeping wasted obviously.

>>8718139
Smoked for 15 years, about 1.5 packs a day for the last 10 years, switched to vaping last month. So far it's a miracle.
Also since when does nicotine helps reduce alcohol intake? It sounds like the opposite to me, they go together well.

>>8718178
Usual for me was
>Drink daily, eating very little
>Drink daily, don't eat
>Pain starts, then puking
>Spend a few days with pancreatitis and withdrawals. Truly a moment of bliss and felicity. Eating yogurts to make my stomach able to hold some vodka diluted in water with some sugar to lessen the nightmares.

>>8718189
Sublingual?

>>8718207
I've done that daily for months.
Life is suffering.

>>8719439
god fucking damn dude

>>8719439
a GOD

>>8719439
tis is what the romans dreamed of

>>8719439
Your body hates you.
I'd tell you to live naked and stop shitting in jeans, but you'd shit your furnitures.

got hepatitis lol

I feel like I'm never going to be able to sleep again. And holy shit problems feel vivid and insurmountable while sober at night.
>>8719696
Sad to hear that anon. What's the prognosis?

>>8719966
You will sleep soon, it takes a few days.
And you will have beautiful dreams filled with plenty of things that are not crawling, not menacing, not frightening.

>get drunk on my own and watch Tokyo Drift again
>overdo it
>end up puking all over my bed while I'm asleep
cool

>>8720007
easy mode

try being so withdrawal drunk enough to be throwing up into your own mouth and choking on it and dying.

youtr bonham and keith moon die that

>>8720091
your friends john bonham(led zep) and Keith Moon(the who)

fixed

>>8715386
This

I honestly think that were it not for al/ck/ I'd have committed suicide by now. I am so fucking alone it's unreal.

>>8715399
Hey me too! I'm trying to take it until Friday, at which point I'll grill a couple steaks with some friends and have a few beers. WIll be the longest I've gone without alcohol in a while. Don't think I'm an alcoholic but I'm trying to stop drinking on the weekdays. Feels like a bad idea.

anyone else drink two of these a night?

>>8715381
7 months. Funny theres a liquor store a little more than a block away from my place.

>>8720441
never tried it. there's a regular here who drinks 1.4-2.1 liters of Smirnoff a night though. he's going cold turkey right now, handcuffed to railings, sat in a tent. lolalcohol.

>>8720441
more like 3 times a week. every night is a bit fucking intense.

>>8720497
fuck off if your gunn make fun of smirnoff bro.

I'm as bad if no worse

I hope all of you die from this disease

>tfw wasn't going to drink tonight
>had groceries to pick up
>picked up booze out of habit

This girl I used to be kind of sort of with (without sex) that I was working to get with for real this time just told me she's in a relationship now. Reeee, etc. At least I'm drinking.

>>8720441

Saturday night I had a big can and a double shot of apple brandy. Tasty, But I've got to quit drinking every other night as the booze is giving me a gut, and my newly sedentary lifestyle has killed my endurance.

Getting warm soon, exercise soon too.

>>8720515
sounds like you're just jealous that you're not old enough to drink tbqh
>>8720514
how much do you drink? and do you ever have a night off it?

>>8715850
>started using Kratom.

BRO! you might as well go find an opiate because that shit fucks you up just the same.

I'm 21days clean from Kratom. In the first week the withdrawls were so bad that I had a seizure and tore a lower back muscle.

I'm still feeling slight detox symptoms three weeks later. At night I sweat so hard I soak the bed.

I was using a kilo a week, it took me 6 months to get that habit starting with an ounce or two a week.

>might as well try heroin.

>>8715381
This is the soundtrack for this thread

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8rfDvpfC2bw

>>8716930
Know those feels

>>8720717
Alcohol withdrawal will hurt a lot more than booze, I've been addicted to just about every bastard thing at some point in my life. Coming off heroin is just a case of laying in bed for a week feeling like you've got influenza. If kratom is worse than booze then like fuck am I ever touching the shit. Gotta say I'm surprised it's so bad though, loads of kids recommend the stuff, and isn't it even legal?

>>8720751
*alcohol withdrawal will hurt a lot more than heroin

>>8720732
Seconded

>>8719439
Holy fucking shit dude

>>8720717

how did you get to the kilo a week point? that seems insane. do you have prior history with opiates? I've heard SOME horror stories but for most people it seems so benign, even when they stop.

What do you alcoholfags think of Rolling Rock?

>>8719439
I'm sorry but that's the funniest thing I have ever fucking read

>>8719480
>>8719493
>>8719540
>>8719696
jesus fuck

>>8720751
Yes it's legal which is why I was able to maintain such a quickly escalating habbit. Alcohol is probably worst then kratom. People can die from Alc detox. Sure I had a seizure and couldn't move/sleep for 7 day, but I was at no risk of dieing

>>8720771
Yes I have a prior history with opiates which is why I took to kratom so furiously. But really anyone with a history of substance abuse is at risk for developing the habit I had if they're getting a kilo of premo shit each week for $100 off the internet.

>>8715826
I smoked every day for the past year and i've just run dry. The most i've felt is "man i've got nothing to do. I wish i could get high and do the dishes." I ended up playing runescape and cooking fried rice instead. Not having weed isn't even as bad as not having internet. Now there's my real problem.

>>8720875
I'm pretty sure the dude has to have been trolling

>>8720912
>pic
Just drink it all yourself, none for al/ck/

>>8718321
At least you somehow manage to complete your work...

: (

i fail at everything

feelsbadman.

>Drinking and doing sudokus again

zzzz

>>8720969
Well it looks okay for the moment, but it has been like this for almost a year now and somehow it keeps working. So I'm sort of betting that it will work this time as well, but I just keep waiting for the time when it won't.

I did fail before the excessive drinking and the only advice I can give is to keep trying. Some chance is better than none.

I don't know if it's a mental illness but i'm afraid of addictions.

Like, even browsing this thread is making me anxious.

I think it's because i don't trust myself.

>>8715386
Well done.

I'm planning (hoping) to make this my last drink for a long time. I turn 32 on Monday and to quote Ennis from Brokeback Mountain, "I'm nothing, I'm nowhere."

I can't go on like this. I wasted so many opportunities so get stuck in this quagmire of despair. I need to wade out of it while I still can, if possible.

I stocked up on steak, chicken, sausage and junk food and bought a litre of Wild Turkey and a slab of beer.

Possibly little less than I would usually go through in a weekend but beer makes it easier to stretch out and I want to ensure I have absolutely no booze in the house on Sunday morning. Might buy another small bottle on Saturday to stretch it out but we'll see how it goes.

Planning to spend all Sunday fapping, watching football and eating junk food with a hangover and come Monday I start getting my life sorted. I'm looking at turning 32 as the turning of a new page and a chance for a fresh start.

>>8721313
You are adequately conscious about your health?
You have a form of PTSD with addiction as a trigger since daddy beat you or since mommy fondled you when drunk?

Your life sound less horrible than ours. Try meditation for your self confidence. Sorry for you not being able to enjoy Bojak Horseman or Rick and Morty, they are cool shows.

a ketogenic diet "cured" my alcoholism

I now get drunk (as in slightly slurring my words drunk) off 6-8 beers. whereas before i could drink a 750ml bottle of bourbon no problem and still hold things together.

It's probably because the alcohol is making me slightly hypoglycemic. but oh well i feel drunk and my liver is in good condition

>>8721359
>You are adequately conscious about your health?
Extremely.
>You have a form of PTSD with addiction as a trigger since daddy beat you or since mommy fondled you when drunk?
No.

>>8721257
you've become pretty well known on al/ck/

>>8721257
Have you tried other similar games Sudokanon?
conceptispuzzles.com has some interesting ones, with some free examples and weekly free puzzles. They have apps on mobile too.
I used to do sudoku too, but it's nice to have some variation. Keeps the mind entertained.

>>8721528

I used to do nongrams, nonograms.org
I tried some others, like bridges and nurikabe, but only sudokus and nonograms really fit me
About nonograms, it really irks me so much when the dimensions aren't divisible by 5, like 13x18, fuck that, or when it's super long or high like 8x40, fucking hell

>>8721536

Fuck wrong site, it's webpbn.com , the previous one I used to use before but it sucks

>>8721536
Conceptis have nonograms, that's how I found them.
Nonogram is one of the first game I ever remember playing and enjoying. (I think I was still trying to build the highest tower in tetris before that).
Mario Picross, 1995. 22 years ago.
Childhood was simple and happy...

I see your point with dimensions multiples of 5, it's a pain to count from the right and bottom when it's not. I like larger ones, like 40x50 on a computer screen, when the interface is good enough to let me take notes of what parts are filled in the hints (and can point my errors on pieces that takes hours to complete). Not sure about exotic sizes.

>>8721575

The really big ones are a pain since I'm on a laptop with low resolution, and I just can't deal with the entire puzzle not fitting on my screen

What kind of alcohol do I put in one of those short classic glasses rich people are always drinking from in media

>>8721584

Really expensive scotch, which is a complete waste of money

>>8721586
what is the poor substitute for really expensive scotch

>>8721588

Nothing if you want to pretend to live in a mad men fantasy
Just get decent enough (but cheap) vodka, they're the same strength anyway, and you don't drink strong alcohol for it's taste

>>8721579
I used a site that had gigantic ones (like 1000x500) divided in smaller parts (typically a screen, including smaller ones). I don't remember why I stopped using it, I think the interface was shit on another point.

>>8721584
Apple juice, eventually some food colouring. It's what they use as prop whiskey in TV and movie sets to avoid actors being dead on the 50th take of the 12th scene.
Good light on set, colour correction in post-prod, and you're a James Bond villain.
>>8721588
>what is the poor substitute for really expensive scotch
>really expensive scotch
Really cheap scotch.

>>8721620
>divided in smaller parts

How does that work, small puzzles you solve like normal and in the end they make up one large picture?

Though I never really care about the picture, it's just the puzzle and figuring it out and solving it

>>8721536
>nonograms
Thanks anon, forgot these existed. Now my night won't suck so much.

>>8721669

Cheers

I want to stop to see if i can make something of my life.

How long does it take to fully stop and be normal again?

>>8718624
Yeah I'm on the same boat. Total despair

>>8721640
You solve four 30x20 and the final picture is 60x40.

I don't care much about the final picture, but it's pleasant when you finish one to see what you did, and a larger one is more impressive than a small one. Plus you solve puzzles several times before solving the bigger one, so it's several small moments of joy.

>>8721994
'bout a week of withdrawals, a month to stabilise sleep and things a bit, and a year of PAWS.

I was sober all morning.

Then I woke up.

I don't usually drink.

im going to die

>>8722375
We are all going to die.
Withdrawals?

>>8715381

I had two dry days this week, but I think I'm getting drunk today.

I don't feel good about it anymore, but I guess I feel less bad with a belly full of shitty wine.

Day 2: Conquered. DTs bad, but no seizures, desire to drink very low.
Getting there.

>tfw wife bought a breathalyzer to randomly test me
>drank 2 of these after she went to bed last night at around 2am
>she tested me at noon today and I still blew a .03
Wtf? I thought I'd blow .00 after 10 fucking hours. They're 10% abv but that's still only like 5 normal 5% 12oz beers.

>>8722188
a YEAR!!! wtf why do they not warn you about this in school. I assumed it would be like a couple months, I had never heard of this.

>>8721333
If you are going to stop, then stop right now. Don't fool yourself with the "1 more drink then i'll stop" or "I'll drink today, but after that i stop for good".
It doesn't matter if you have already had a drink today, if you want to stop, just stop. If it's too hard seek help AA did wonders with me.

I am experiencing shortness of breath and coughing fits that often lead to nausea and gagging, which leads to vomiting. Could this be caused by some sort of esophageal or stomach damage related to excessive drinking?

>>8722638
What an addict. When your fucken wife is buying you a breathalyzer, it's time to divorce her or kill yourself.

>>8722705
Get some anti depressants from yer Doc, dude.

>>8720800
>Sure I had a seizure and couldn't move/sleep for 7 day, but I was at no risk of dieing
somehow this strikes me as not particularly true

>>8719439
i'm crying lmao

I've been sober 2 weeks. Going to break it tonight probably. I'm hoping my tolerance is down a bit! I never intended quitting forever.

i tend to drink as soon as i have a couple of free days from work.

Each fucking time i promise myself to not drink day before i go to work, i fucking do it and end up feeling like a total shit.

The hangovers are getting so bad, i sometimes wonder if its worth it

Those of you who drink, raise your glass to smirnoff bro, who's probably shackled up in a tent in his brothers garden right now. I'll have a camomille tea.

Should I get vodka and soda, or should I get premixed drinks?

>>8723303
Mix it yourself, you can determine the strength of the drink then, plus it's probably cheaper. I prefer tonic water and sometimes ginger ale with vodka, but basically anything goes.

>>8723297
>raises a bucket of ethanol

It's fucking insane how much some people drink without dying on the spot.

>>8723312
What brand of vodka has less of a nasty after taste?

>>8723318
If the bottle is more than $15, it's probably fine.

>>8723318
I'm not a burger so I don't know what's good over there but go for the mid-range stuff like Absolut or Smirnoff. Also prevents hangovers.

>>8723297
sounds like he's going to die

>>8723327
Didn't mean it to sound that way, I'm not a native speaker.

>>8723297
dunno why he even tries, hes gonna be back on the bottle in no time lmao

Just got out of a detox program, been in there for two and a half days. They would just give me some Atizans and some stuff for sleep. Now they're giving me some Naltrexone for alcohol cravings. What am I in for? Am I still at risk for delirium tremens?

>>8723446
depends how much and how long you've been drinking. Most likely not, it's fairly rare. I've never had it and I drink a fuck load. A proper detox centre would have kept you bit a longer though. 4 days on benzos is standard.

>>8723453
I'm 21 and have been drinking between 6-10 beers daily for about 7 months. The alcohol specialist there said that for someone like me 2-5 days should be enough to stop the withdrawals.

>>8723463
Oh okay, yeah I don't think you're at risk of anything serious happening.

Did you even get drunk on that much? Seems like your tolerance would prevent anything from happening at all.

>>8723463
lolllllllllllllllllllllllll

>>8723468
I'm a literal lightweight like 120 lbs.

>>8723471
What's so funny?

>>8723463
Hey Ive been drinking 6-10 beers daily for about 18 years!

absolutely drinking tomorrow

life is a special kind of hell

>>8723503
I decided to drink tonight. Good decision imo. Sober life is so fucking BORING.

>>8715381

Been sober for eight months now. I don't regret it one bit either. After you get through the first two months and find a way to fill your time productively, it gets much easier. That was my problem, I always felt bored at first.

Then the night sweats and cravings will eventually subside. Every now and again I'll get a craving to drink, but I normally substitute the alcoholic beverage with a soda (I gave up soda too, so when I feel like getting drunk, I "treat" myself with a soda I can enjoy).

This only works if you don't drink soda regularl

>>8723533
I figure once I buy a guitar, I will drink less. That's my plan anyway. At the moment my only real hobby is drinking.

I'm setting myself up for failure, and consuming what otherwise productive time I would have with drinking beer HAHA!

>>8723297
I hope he's going to make it.

>>8723468
They gave you lorazepam (Atizan), it's the benzo they give to stop withdrawals. You will be alright on that.
Take care of not starting again. I always did fast after detox until the one where I staid for an entire month (only one week of withdrawal prevention mode without phone/internet, and 3 of learning to live not drunk with occasional moments when I wanted to drink and had to not drink.)
It gets easier, but the first month is tricky. Try to find a group (or two if the first one sucks. You may as well ask the first one, they may know their typical default and where to redirect you.)

>wasn't going to drink tonight
>got really depressed today
>picked up a few tall boys, killed the few pints in my fridge, and am almost done with the tallboys

I still have a little wine left if I get desparate.

>a year ago, I was planning to be married and on my way to being a dad with a job in my degree field by now
>I am now graduated, working a suicide inducing job outside my field because the market dried up around here, without the woman I wanted to marry
>people wonder why I drink

>>8720732
>not Whiskey for the Holy Ghost

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8lmLMf-l9Kg&list=PLVVxH2NV7UU98ID3g3OVI0jrGO7GiHfbF

>>8718568
Depends on the person, but I'd say no. I've gone through periods of sobriety, followed by attempts at drinking in moderation. It starts off fine, just having a couple beers while out with friends/family and calling it good. Then slowly it'll change to "what's the hurt in having just one more once I get home before bed?", and it stays at that for a while. Then 2 when I get home, then 3, and slowly I'm back to thinking "might as well just have a couple vodkas instead, it's quicker and less calories", and then I'm back to drinking as much as before. It's not like I go from sober, to one drink and "AWH FUCK I'M OFF THE WAGON". It's a slow build up just like when I first started drinking. But in the long run I can't just drink in moderation

>>8720773
Only time I've ever had it was at a party where the (asshole) who was drinking Rolling Rock had his beer knocked over outside on concrete smoking. He took a sip, and it was full of glass shards. He took it inside and ran the glass out with a coffee filter. Rolling Rock makes me think of drinking glass.

>>8723539
ha ha, I thought this too, now I can't hear a good song without getting triggered into wanting to get drunk.

>>8721994
It's up and down. The first couple months of sobriety seem great, you feel like you finally got a hold of your addiction. You pick up exercise, music, or whatever you use to cope and feel excellent. Then months 3 to 5 your brain is still rewiring itself and you start to feel bored, depressed, and the cravings come back even more. If you make it 5 months your chances of staying sober go way up, lots of people relapse during 3-5 months. This is according to personal experience as well as what I've heard from my therapist who's an addiction specialist and has seen hundreds of shits like me

>>8718627
I'm glad that happened for you dude, that's really cool. I've never had a partner though and I honestly don't think I can into it anymore without some kind of crazy stroke of luck. At least I have my family and friends.

>>8715381
4 days i only drink on the weekends

>>8724039
Oh neat, I only drink for days.

>>8722638
Your wife bought a breathalyzer? Why would you be ok with that? Have you cheated on her and blamed alcohol?

>>8724107
I can't blame her really, booze came really close to killing me last summer. I was drinking around a fifth of vodka a day plus beers on top of that. I was hospitalized for 5 weeks and all of the doctors thought I wasn't going to make it out alive. She has caught me sneaking beers 3 times since Christmas. I'm a piece of shit.

>>8715381
9 months to the day.

Feels good, man.

>>8715381
I had been sober since the 20th but I bought a half bottle of Jameson's and drank it all

Just got a bottle of this, discount disaronno is pretty damn good on ice.

Any drinks you guys like making with amaretto?

>>8724239
You aren't a piece of shit, you have an addiction. She's trying to help you, and if she didn't understand and forgive you sneaking beers, She wouldn't still be with you.

>tfw shaking so much can't type pin number to buy more
SEND HELP

almost 5 years sober here

>>8724876
Voice recognition software.

>>8724886
No my PIN number, I can't use my debit card at the corner shop without it, I already tried, then ran away because I was about to throw up in his shop. again.

Fuck, 12p short of enough to buy 1 can. Gonna search the street for pennies

>>8724889
Just tell him your pin number, buy a shitton, then cancel your card so he can't use it.

>>8724885
Why are you in this thread? I'm not saying you shouldn't be, just curious.

>Keep pushing my teeth with my tongue
>They're starting to hurt

I can't stop, I'm gonna fuck up all of my teeth aren't I

What are your plans for tonight?

>>8725212
I'm going to pick up a bottle of cheap gin with my last $20, hope it lasts me until payday. I might see about hitting a bar with some friends, maybe they'll let me mooch a bit.

>>8724979
Brush, and use interdental brushes (or floss).

>>8725229

That won't matter if I keep pushing them with my tongue, which is the problem

I was thinking about the twisted logic we have and thought we could share.

>Going home from Uni before noon
>Looking at watching thinking that I need to go to the store for alcohol
>Figure out that I can start drinking between 12-13 some time
>Think to self, I'm doing so good not drinking before noon
>I'm doing so well..
>And the next though is, that probably isn't normal

>>8716692
How much do you take?

>>8725218
My best friend always offered to pay for my drinks but I needed to tell him with thankfulness and respect that when I go out to drink, I want to drink as much as I want and I don't want him to foot THAT bill so I'd rather stay home

>>8715381
Since day before yesterday. I started to become really self-conscious about my big gut and late night drunken rambling I did by myself in my apartment.
Went for a brisk jog first time in almost a year in the morning and did some kettlebell exercises in the afternoon. Been eating only carrots and apples the whole day too so I guess things are looking better if I can keep this up.

>>8725243
Get hammered at home before you go out

>>8725254
I was referring to the situation of being broke, so there wouldn't be any drink at home. If I have something to drink I rather stay at home anyway, I get nothing out of being at a bar anymore.

Does anyone else feel like a bad person?

>>8725243
I got the gin, I hope I can stretch it out until Thursday. Which reminds me that I'm low on cigarettes.

>>8725260
Almost always, but not for drinking.

>>8725264
Damn... I hope that's a big ass bottle of gin, it's almost a week

>>8725267
I've only been drinking for a year or so, so I think my alcohol tolerance was pretty low. On the other hand, a few shots of vodka in the afternoon have been doing nothing for me as of late. I might be able to scrounge together enough for another bottle before then.

>>8725265
Why?

>>8725289
Smoking, lying, fucked up porn, general apathy, the usual stuff.

>>8725260
Somewhere between I'm better than everybody and simultaneously hating myself for the person I'm.

Are there any women alcoholics? No trannies.

>>8725310
Yes but a heavy drinking couple is a bad combination.

>>8725310
Yes. I lurk these threads almost 24/7 for the past 4 or 5 years. I'm almost always drunk when I'm not working.

I'm drinking as we speak. poison of choice: odell brewing co IPA. America has the best craft beer in the world so it's kinda hard to resist the temptation

>>8725241
>We are going to a party in a few hours
>Guess I have to sober up a bit until then

>>8725320
where at? I am the alcohol

>When you start sobering up before falling asleep

The only thing worse than that is not having any alcohol in the first place, but that's debatable

>>8725508

>>8718568
Well, look it this way: If you're really an alcoholic, then there is a certain level of intoxication that you obsess over getting to. No lower intoxication than that will ever satisfy you. If you can't reach that level by drinking moderately, you will either end up quitting altogether or saying fuck it and drink however much you want until the consequences drive you back to trying to moderate again. Then the cycle repeats.

Tldr; No, probably not.

>>8725304
I feel ya bro

>>8718568
Generally, no.

>>8725304
God Damnit you got me

>>8725260

I know I am one since I'm mentally ill but I don't feel like it.
You know how you can know what emotions someone might feel but you don't actually feel them or care at all? It's like that

>>8725638
Just to expand on that, that's not an end-all be-all objective truth, but more of an anecdote about my own experience. My stepdad was a huge problem-drinker in his 20s but now drinks reasonably. AA will tell you that's impossible, but that's just kind of their sort of fool-proof way of lying to themselves to stay sober. I do fuck with the program, to be fair, but I see where they're right AND wrong.

>>8725831
yo man we wasted shut up

>smoked 5 grams of weed in 2 days

At least it's better than shitting myself in bed

I've been pretty good lately. Only drinking on the weekends, dont drink until the sun goes down, I dont overdo it and I havent been on a bender in months
I think i'm gonna make it bros

>>8725948
no

>>8725959

>>8715381
>How long you been sober so far?

What time is it now?

>>8725948
>I think i'm gonna make it bros

Make what? Sounds fucking boring.

I don't know what possessed me to try it, but a shot of Gin with a generous helping of Tabasco is fucking incredible.

>>8726130
is this you

>>8726182
???

Throwing a personal luau waiting people to get off work.

What is this thread's opinion on vodka mixed with 7up?

>>8726200
personally I really hate mixing and/or chasing with clear sodas but if its the only thing I have ill do it

>>8726200
sweetness of alcohol plus sweetness of plain sodas always strikes me as cloying
tonic water is sweetened a lot, but the fact that it's got a bitter flavoring makes for a better contrast that goes down easier. crisp.

What are you looking in alcohol ? Is this addiction, an habit, looking for escapism ?

>>8726305
WTF ARE YOU LOOKIN AT NIGGER

>>8725378
No, anon. Sorry.

>>8726305
All 3.

>>8726382
This.

>>8726305
I was drinking around 40oz of liquor/week for all of last year, but I don't really consider myself an alcoholic. I quit drinking at new years because I am training for a sport event in May. I haven't had any issues at all staying sober. I will probably go back to drinking in June.

Alcohol is just escapism for me, both because I live in a city that is boring and ugly as shit, and because I have chronic skeletal/muscle pain that goes away entirely when I drink.

>>8725212

nonograms.org and bill burr podcasts till 2am
least im not drinking

>>8726305
for me its just about relaxing on the weekends. Nothing better than having some drinks playing some vidya making/ordering a good pizza and surfing the chans while listening to music
drinking just makes all that better and more fun

>>8726465
Yes but you're conditioning yourself for higher consumption and / or eventual addiction.

>>8726026

>what year is it?

>>8715381
I would like to get drunk, but I'm having a period of hypochondriac panic attacks. Can't imagine those tastes would go well together.

>>8726488
naaah dude you drink to forget that kind of faggot shit. try it out is gravy.
pic relate me on the morning trying to get back to normal drunk

>>8726473
I'm a binge drinker I dont think my consumption can go any higher than it already is

>>8726182
Is that a fat lady shitting orange diarrhoea?

>>8726548
Are you drinking 3 bottles of vodka per day, every day? If not, your consumption can go higher.

>>8725884
I thought i was the only one that drinking did that to. Glad I'm not alone.

>>8725310
reeeee

I'll have 6 years April 3rd.

>>8715381
January 4th. Slowly it gets better but I still get cravings.

What do ausfag alcoholics drink here?