/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Day 11 faggots. Yesterday was a tough, had a really long exhausting day and the urge to drink was stronger than usual. I just ignored it and it went away

Celebrating the 99th birthday

Well I guess that's just an excuse since I've been drinking daily

>The daily dose no longer works and you have to dose higher
Fucking tolerance go kill yourself

>Need to take more amphetamines so I could enjoy the tunes and rock to the tunes and solve sudokus and feel happy

By happy I mean mean neutral because I never feel happy, but then again I don't feel sad either, but since it pumps my state up, I guess that would be considered happy? Or am I still in the neutral state and it just makes me ecstatic, in some way?

Got a DWI.

With no college degree how fucked am i in getting a job?

Girlfriend telling me to quit drinking. I'm thinking of leaving her and moving to London.

Why does every alchy and addict who posts here act like a huge faggot?

see >>8612442
and
>>8612484

>>8612509

Explain your position in more detail

>>8612502
It doesn't harm your prospects as much as you would think. Virtually no first time offender is ever convicted of a DUI/DWI. You settle in court for something called a Continuance Without Finding (your state may have a different name for it) which is a low-key agreement to complete some alcohol education course, complete a year of probation, and stay out of trouble. After the probationary period, the charge is essentially dismissed. There will be no conviction on your criminal record. Really the only thing you need to worry about is if you have a local paper that reports on arrests as they'll publish your name and shit online which will show up on search results.

Also, the arrest will show up on your driving record which is completely separate from a criminal record. You can't do anything about the driving record. It will be there and your insurance rates will go up and any employer that pulls your driving record will be able to see it. Obviously this only happens for driving related jobs (delivery, Uber/Lyft, etc...)

You're looking at $6k~ out the pocket for a lawyer, court fees, probation costs, license costs, etc...

>>8612431

How do I stay skinny as an alcohol? I was a chubby, ugly teen and am currently decently attractive and too vain to let that slide too. The calories are just fucking insane, which is why I rarely drink beer, but pounding one to two bottles of wine a day isn't doing wonders either.

Problem is I still function and want to keep on doing that, yet I love food and don't intent to reach the "I feed solely on ethanol" final stage. How do you do it, fellas?

>>8612484

As someone who has been on (prescribed) amphetamines for over a decade now, it's more like a slightly manic "focus". Wouldn't call it ecstatic, it doesn't really influence my moods at least.

>>8612431
If you were needing a drink and some girl gave you a bottle of wine, telling you that the two of you would drink it together in 20 years, but had recently told you that you were no longer welcome in her life, would you just drink the wine?

Should I feel guilty? I've held this thing for 12 years and it feels bad to drink it 8 years early but she's kicked me out of her life. It seems unlikely she even remembers she gave it to me, let alone made a promise we would drink it together when we were 40.

>>8612720
Keep your opinions to yourself.

I cracked the bottle.

>>8612765
How does it taste?

>>8612508
Leave to Las Vegas

>>8612780
It's actually pretty goddamn damn nice. Ironically the website for the vineyard specifies 12 years which would make it now for the peak. If my life weren't tumbling down a hole I guess it'd be true.

But it really is tasty. I just feel depressed for opening it.

Doesn't help I'm listening to sad songs while I drink it.

I had three(3) glasses of wine last night.

>>8612691
If you're that much of a normie fucking faggot just stop drinking holy shit.
Yeah I mean I lost some of my looks but I fucking expected to after a while.

>>8612781
This.

>>8612827

What is this, /r9k/? I expect to lose mine too, eventually, I just want to delay my aesthetic demise. Is that such a weird notion to grasp?

>>8612820

Wow. How wild.

>>8612502


You'll be able to work in call centers for the rest of your life.

>>8612850
I'm an extreme lightweight. I don't mind, it's cheap for me to get drunk.

Day 6.

Once I got through the withdrawals after Day 3, I felt better. Still had dry skin, smelled bad, trash all over but I opened the windows, changed the sheets, did laundry and actually was productive at work. I've spent the last few days cleaning the place and cooking real meals.

I'm doing well now. Got up early for work, worked out and played some video games. Girlfriend is coming by after work and we're making Chicken Cacciatore. That should be fun.

>>8612869

Godspeed anon. What kind of work do you do? How bad were your withdrawals?

>>8612440
Keep it up mang. Drunk af here and feel like shit.

>>8612502
Just got my second DUI. Narrowly avoided prison, but 3yr ban and a big fine.
Determined to never get arrested for it again. Soooo I bought a CBR900RR and took the number plate off.
>chug, vroom

>>8612880

Real estate management.

Not the worst. Last time I was trying to pull through I had a seizure in public and it dismayed me so much I kept drinking to stave it off.

This time it was just dry-heaving, really itchy dry skin and mouth from dehydration. I didn't sleep for 48 hours after I stopped and when I did I had nightmares and woke up covered in sweat and shaking. Some moderate tremors as well as not being able to even take a drink without my stomach trying to burp every single second.

Now it's good though, I'm eating normally. The best thing that helped was simply forcing myself to consume as much water as possible, to force myself to eat food, and do little things to make me happy. I kept a 48oz Nalgene next to me while I used one of my girlfriend's bathbombs and just chilled with Netflix for over an hour. Even that dumb chick shit made me feel better.

Man people said alcohol and xanax withdrawals were the worst and they were right.

>>8612905
Get a bicycle instead so when you crash you only kill yourself, fucking scum

>>8612911
Good to hear you are getting through this. How much were you drinking a night?

>>8612937

2-3 bottles of wine a night, give or take. Usually could finish 3.

almost got a DUI last night

scared as shit until he pulled me over because I had my high beams on by accident

really dodged a bullet there

>>8612987
Yeah DUIs are shit. Lifetime ban from entering some countries, like Canada for example, ridiculous insurance costs and the police will always be looking out for you. Especially after the second one. Get a third and you almost certainly going to prison. Feelsbadyo.

>>8612781
why the fuck would I? that's a shithole.

>>8613107
Dude means kys, but he meant it in the most affectionate way possible.

>>8613016
my brother actually has two duis and he's still driving. He's my mothers little perfect angel though, so she shelled out 20k each time to get the best lawyer and he essentially bought his way out of it. He's even failed probation drug tests and fucking nothing has come out of it. I hope he drives into a fucking ditch one of these days

I drank two beers last night.
Said to my wife, "You don't mind if I drink, right? I know you get annoyed when I'm drunk sometimes."

"Not at all," she said. So I drank two beers.
Then we went to bed and I got up and drank two more beers. My speech began to slur and become unfocused. I'm not a lightweight, just an alcoholic, so it doesn't take much for me to get drunk anymore.
My wife said "You really are drunk all the time."
And I went to bed feeling like an asshole. Woke up and she accused me of pissing the bed, but it was dry for once, so that's good.

Anyway, I want to drink again tonight and I don't think anyone will be able to convince me that's a bad idea :)

>>8613119
Watching this (again) r n.
I dated a 19yo former hooker in my younger years. She and I were the only people who had any love for either of us. We'd have kil for each other.
Naturally, being the alchie of the two, I fucked... uh, like 7 other grils and eventually even she gave up on me. Still, best days of my fkn life.

>>8613119
>posting the blu-ray cover rather than a movie poster
times have changed

>>8613016
Don't drive when you're fucking drunk then. I'm an alcoholic too but I have no right to make it anybody else's business, and neither do you.

>>8612869
Jesus... sober life is just so dull.
I wouldn't have started drinking in the first place, if I got any sort of pleasure or amusement out of everyday things like cooking chicken with my girlfriend or doing chores lol

>>8613119

I just watched this two weeks ago and holy shit do I relate. Very unsettling. Cage as an actor is like playing Russian Roulette, 5/6 you get a shit deal but once in every sixth you get the sweet release of magnificence.

I'm more of a bookfag than a kinoguy but if anyone here wants to relate to some literature I highly suggest "The Lost Weekend", "Under the Volcano" and Venedikt Yerofeyev's book which has many different translations as title. In mine it was translated to "Moscow on Formaldehyde". All great reads. Stay literate until you perish, anons, and keep the romanticized view of alcoholism alive.

>>8613155
Gave me the real feels.
Chin chin, anon.
>chug

>>8613173

Cheers to you too, mate. Anything particular that's bringing you down?

>>8613183
Ah the normal stuff. Court soon, again, might be going to prison for six months (just stupid drunken shit, I've never hurt anybody and never want to) miss 'her' a LOT, in debt, allllways drunk, blah etc. Just the norm i spose. Sure you could tell a similarly tearful tale so I won't bleat on.

>>8613192

What did you do mate? I've done some stupid shit myself too, never with the intention (and luckily never the effect) to hurt anyone else, but I had my (juvy) jail too. You American? They don't throw incarceration around as much in here so it made me wonder - or did you really do some off the fucking rails dumb shit? Feel safe to bleat, please.

>>8613218
Got involved with crack and smack some time ago, got involved with criminal gangs in London not long thereafter. Been jailed thrice in 15 months.
All I did was drive, and I've now just got a 3yr ban so my car is gone, won't be fucking up again.
Sorry to be so ambiguous, I don't really like to think about this shit. I'm basically fine, just gotta distance myself from insane people. I once had to beat the crap out of a person then jump out of a first-storey window to avoid being stabbed again (would have been the fourth knife wound in 30 seconds)
Brb huge amounts of vodka. Eurgh, hate thinking about this stuff.
>chug af

>>8613234

Well that's a different ballpark then. I'm a literal 1% child so my experiences are way less intense and/or grave. I mean I've been stabbed once but it was a pencil in a schoolfight, and it sure as shit didn't occur four times within the span of a minute so I should call myself lucky here.
Do you have any prospects at all? I thrive on misdirected nepotism, for which I am grateful as fuck, but even without that there might be an out for you. If you have skills and good working ethics moving to Dublin is an option, for example.

>>8613265
I love Dublin.
I'll be alright here in England though. I'm almost 40, never worked for an employer in my life, but own my home, only drink premium booze and just bought a superbike. Could be worse. Besides, even if I end up homeless, at 6ft3 people tend to be nice to me and as long as I'm drunk, I could sleep on a bed of razors and queefs in an Antarctic blizzard. S'all good

Day 12, had a fight with gf, drove to Lidl and got 0.7L of Smirnoff for 9 euroshekels. Had to go to 3 different stores to get some tonic water though. Cheers.

I've tried drinking four times now and I still don't feel like I've been properly drunk. The first and last times I was dizzy, and those same times things seemed slightly funnier (more so the first time), and the last time the dizziness would come back every time I tried to walk; also I didn't have a hangover at any point. I'm not sure where to go from here; I was thinking either it's not for me or increase it a bit more and then see. The first time I had a bunch of mixed drinks, the second time I had a little 50 ml bottle, the third time I had two 50 ml bottles, and the fourth time I had three little bottles. I was thinking maybe bump it up to a fifth and if that doesn't do then that's it. At least I've discovered to some degree what's more palatable to me and what's less palatable. (Do wine and beer always smell some other drink that's spoiled?)

>>8613373
Throw everything its not too late, plus just an argument is not enough to justify relapsing

>>8613413
yes it is

Really don't know if I should see my friend at his bar later tonight, buy a bottle on my way home from work and drink while I cook dinner and play vidya, or remain sober for the day and take it easy with a walk. Feeling physically and mentally tired today, but I don't know if it's better to be alone or try socializing.

>>8613413
Yeah it's too late. Would've drunk on sunday anyway. Thanks for your concern, though.

I raise my glass to Smirnoff Dude

>>8612861
>3 glasses of wine
>drunk
Yeah, I think you got the wrong place buddy

>>8613426
Not the dude to whom you're responding, but I've been called "Smirnoff dude" here.
Enjoy your nectar, dude. Smirnoff really is the only way imo. If we're gonna drink ourselves to death, may as well do it in style. Chin chin, anon.
>falls over

>>8613508
Yeah I meant you. I'm a vodka man myself but only pick up smirnoff when it's on offer. Pic related is one of my favs and a bit cheaper then smirnoff. The glass is also my favorite drinking glass.

ive been doing pretty good keeping drinking under control. i only binge once a week on average these days. a year and a half ago or so i was pretty bad and ended up in the hospital a few times before i decided to seriously cut back. more out of fear than anything else

for the last 5 days ive been off work to work on my bands album and every day ive had multiple drinks. never to the point that i actually got drunk or had a hangover but still enough that i feel guilty about it

kinda scares me because i thought i was doing alot better but without work to keep me honest and in check i could easily just say fuck it and go back to the way it was before, which was really miserable

end blogpost

>>8613533
I tried crystal skull vodka recently, that was surprisingly nice. I thought it'd be generic crap wrapped up in a nice packaging, but nope, really quite impressed. Bit pricey but… Fuck it.
Hope things work out with your girl, anon. Enjoy your red label.

>>8613555
>reddit spacing

>>8613560
I remember those crystal skulls from airport shops... can't imagine a bottle of vodka being worth that much.
And thanks... it always works out and if it doesn't, so be it...

Work is hell, how do I put up with it over the long term without sweet scotchy scotch to come home to

My coworkers and clients were all full on faggots

>>8614238
you don't. pound it back

If it wasn't for alcohol I would likely kill myself, is alcohol really bad?

>>8614346

yes

>>8614363
How can something make you feel so good and then be bad? I drink a lot and I have never hurt anyone. Alcohol is not an excuse.

>>8614379

apologize to your pancreas and liver

>>8614386
They took one for the team. We are gonna die together.

>>8614386
Livers are gay

A thread for alchies should be more interesting. No one has anything to say? I just sneezed and nearly bit my tongue off. That was mildly interesting. How many drinkers DON'T smoke?

>>8614475
i don't. though i must admit having a smoke while you're smashed is an excellent experience

>>8614505
Did you mean weed? I'm talking 20 cigs and a bottle of rum.

>>8614346

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K46P7loICXY

Listen to this. It's funny and resonant and... I don't know, maybe helpful? But it involves a story of alcohol saving his (alcoholic) life. Some fifteen years sober by the time of the monologue, and that was 10 years ago.

>>8614544
Eh, your forcing a Scotsman to listen to a Scotsman polluted by yanks. No thanks. Thanks for the thought though.

>>8614526
i'm talking cigarettes. used to chain smoke while i drank but i havent had a smoke in a year or so now. i miss it a lot but meh

>>8614559

Forcing an alkie to listen to an alkie polluted by sobriety, more like. It's a good clip, though.

>>8614568
Saying it is an excellent experience seems odd, I would have wagered you ment weed. Seems I was wrong.

>>8614570
Nah man, it was a sad man trying to appeal to yanks, he claims it wasn't for money but I have never heard of him in Scotland.

what are >we drinking tonight

I'm not drunk enough. I need to reduce my consciousness to a pinprick.

>>8614977
Beer and whisky just like every night nigga
ah i don't know why I said nigga I'm not black

My bad guys!!

>>8614584

Fuck off, your shitty lump of coal island always sends your entertainment industry detritus over here to tell us what to think

>>8614993
A country so shit they send the worst to yank land and they are successful. Really makes you think.

>>8615005

Scotland used to seem cool. Why are you a bunch of commie hipsters now?

>>8615013
Honestly, it is 50% fucking with England and 50% fucking students thinking internet things.

>>8615018

I grew up with a couple kids who went to St. Andrews for college and they were yuppy jerks. I guess when we're sending our people we aren't sending our best.

>5 dollars in bank account
>dont get paid til next friday
>only enough alcohol for tomorrow mornings first sip of the day

im gonna die

https://gfycat
.com/shadyslushybluewhale

its me

>>8615032
I assume you mean uni, Madras college is the school in St A's (I went there but grew up in Dundee). The uni is absolutely filled with wankers. Fucking prince whatever went there. You can have a great night out though and shag some proper classy tarts.They love an accent.

>>8615049
Seen this a few times irl sadly

>>8615049
Oh shit, is that aikmans?

>>8615049
Hahah they're so mad.

>>8615034
Do you not have family you can sponge off?

I bet if you measured the amount of shitposts on saturday and friday nights it would be double the amount of shitposts on weekdays and nights

>>8615628
Neat observation

>wake
>withdrawal
>frantically feel around bed for any form of alcohol
>find bottle, isn't empty, body and mind relax, chug like fuck
>it's piss
>body less relaxed. Vomit ilazers approaching critical pressure levels, mind combination of sorrow and fear
>stand, throw on clothes, grab penny jar... TO THE SHOP.
>rumble from stomach. Oh fuck. Shitfactory critical, hazard warning
>run/stumble/fall back to house
>asshole pressure critical, physically hold asscheeks closed while waddling up stairs to turd receptacle
>fall backwards onto toilet, aim sphincter expertly on descent - the shitstorm has begun before cheeks hit the pan
>vomit defences weakening - both orifices want to unload
>empty asshole with such force I'm practically lifted off toilet seat
>use entire toilet roll to wipe... shit still EVERYWHERE
>NEED DRINK
>pull trousers back up, realise they're on backwards- don't care
>fall back outside,make clown-like journey to shop, have about 24 different hairstyles at once, covered in shit, about to throw up
>arrive at shop, mumblepuke incomprehensible babble
>shopkeep pulls out 2 bottles of Smirnoff - he already knew
>fall home
>fall on floor
>CHHHHUUUUIUIGGGGGGGAAARRRRGGGGHHHH C C C H H H H H U U U U U G G G G G
>ahhh, feels good man
>piss self
>post this
Morning all.

>>8615713
yeah but could you do it on a cold rainy night in stoke?

>tfw you've gotten to the point where you can drink until you get sick but the buzz just doesn't come so you just go to bed feeling like shit
How long until the tolerance goes back down?

>>8615772
different for everyone but i took a month and a half off and was getting pretty drunk on a moderate amount again

>>8615772
Are you drinking beer? This is difficult on wine, and practically impossible on spirits.

>>8615778
Whiskey, rakia and rum most often. Sometimes vodka.

>>8615783
Damn. Are you drinking them near? If not maybe you're adding too much dilution.
Maybe just try drinking faster? I tend to get at least 35cl inside me asap, then reduce to a slow sip all day, finished with a heavy hitting sesh just before bed, to zonk me out for the night.
Not being able to get smashed on spirits has gotta be a bad sign. Perhaps an organ is giving up? Making you feel ill when you further poison it. I'd tell a Doc...

>>8615791
>near
*neat

I hate my life.

>>8615797
yeah but

>>8615797
Same

>>8615791
Yeah, I always go neat. I'll try to get through a month sober and then see if there's any change. If not, I will see a doctor.

>>8615809
Dude if you can go an entire month without, I'd urge you to do two months, then three, then… Well, never fucking drink again. I've only ever managed more than one month once in my adult life time, and that was 13 years ago.
Anyway, good luck.

Just bought me a German shepherd pupper!
Have a garden, fields, woodland and beaches nearby... I hope muh pupper becomes happy dogger. Gives me a reason to do something other than lay in bed all day pissing myself.

I've been busy as fuck the last 2 nights and tonight , finishing really late and needing to drive long distances. I just really wanna get fucking mangled god fucking dammit

I can't even remember If I have any homework due or anything I need to submit, I've just been listening to tunes and doing sudokus while drinking, then passing out and repeating the entire process.
Fuck

Going through a minor withdrawal right now. I still have half a bottle of everclear in the freezer but if I don't detox a bit, it will be 10x worse.

Have a but of Smirnoff leftover from yesterday and a couple of liters of good German beer. I'll just drink this weekend, right?

Spent too much on wine yesterday. I guess it's potatoes for the next few days.

I'm borderline al/ck/ and you guys keep me from drinking every day. Unironically thank you, lads.

Damn and I thought I was bad. This thread makes me feel good about my situation holy shit.

Missed one shift and got fired from my job while my other coworkers pull that shit and nothing happens. Fucking favoritism.

>>8615713
I know this feeling my man, except for the piss bottles part. Also, I'd at least let the shower run over me for a couple minutes; I think you hit rock bottom.

Its not alcohol

Its the anxiety ive had since forever

3 months sober here, feels good bros. I was never as bad as some of you here, but I could easily see it turning to that. Get out while you still can

Welp, it's almost 3, time to start drinking I guess

>>8617472
this

>>8617488
What's your poison of choice?

>>8617506
alberta premium whisky. same shit for the past 7 years. you?

>>8617619
All I have is half a bottle of everclear and fruit juice. Please pray for me.

>drink a few sips of cheap herbal liqueur and cheap vodka mixed with stuff every evening
>can't stop the urge to do so even if I know how things will turn out if I increase the amount
>begin the crave for more in the eveningd

Fuck it, I think I'm at the turning point of becoming an al/ck/. Life went downhill the last few days and my urge to drink to forgot has risen to an all-time high. Any al/ck/s here who still drink and work, maybe some of you even in a social workspace? How do you manage your shit? I'm always nervous that my chef spots my drinking habits (even if only drinking after work in the evening/night, but you know, after effets and being paranoid/behaving like some maniac) and that gets me fired.

Give me advice, anons.

>>8617686
Oh, you're in for a ride.
>>8617619
Have one for me Anon, I'm staying dry tonight.

>>8618384
Dont drink to forget, you will regret it.

Find a hobby to keep you interested, start exercising, talk to a friend about your feelings etc.

Alcohol is not a replacement for living, it really sucks to not remember years of your life.

t. 10 year alcoholic who used to drink to forget

>>8618384
>>begin the crave for more in the eveningd
Soon enough you'll crave earlier in the evening, you'll feel like shit during the last few hours of your job. Then you'll have a beer at lunch, and feel horrible and shaky when you don't.
A bit later you'll be this guy >>8618419 wondering what exactly happened during this ellipsis, but having no clear recollection.

Why does holding a bottle of whiskey send so many people to the shadow realm?

>>8618575

Vodka is for parties.

Wine is for dinner.

Rum is for mixing and people on boats.

Gin is for hipsters.

Scotch is for dads.

Whiskey is for remembering all the terrible shit happening in your life and drinking to forget.

>>8618575
are there levels to the shadow realm? i want to go to like the first level, maybe the second after moving into my new place with my gf, but i don't want to go deeper

>>8618652
I'm with you but scotch is super good breh

Drank a fifth tonight. Liquor store is closed tomorrow. I don't usually go to bed for like 3 more hours and i'm already dry. DT's are gonna hit me hard tomorrow. Is there anything I can do except go to a hospital? I can't tell them i'm an alcoholic or im going to get my gun rights stripped.

Lord deliver me from this wretched curse

>>8619326
somebody halp

>>8619336

>>8619348

>>8619336

you could drive to the next county or whatever where the liquor stores are open

or you could ask to borrow a bottle of wine from a friend family member or neighbor, say you have to go to a dinner party and none of the stores are open

>>8619326

>gonna get my gun rights stripped

Kek. Sounds good, flyover loser.

I just got accepted into a top 10 PhD program in my field. It was really nerve-wracking because I got in trouble for public intoxication two years ago and had to disclose that. They offered us drinks during the interview weekend but I refused even though I was super anxious and really wanted one. On the last day, one of the current students got really wasted at lunch which I think distracted from my awkwardness. I'm glad it wasn't me who got wasted. I ended up drinking at the airport bar, though. I'm only drinking like once a month or so compared to when I was drinking every day two years ago. Feels weird.

>>8619397
grats dude thats awesome

>>8619393
I live in oklahoma, its state wide.

I have a buddy thats going to give me some xanax. Hopefully itll work out.

>>8619403
Yeah, it feels really surreal. Like, two years ago I wasn't even sure if I even wanted to be a biologist and now I actually might have a chance.

All the more reason to go easy on the sauce, I guess.

s m a s h e d

Go wild

>>8619822
what a load of shit

>>8618655
Hehe, I'm usually somewhere between the 2nd and 3rd level.

>>8619336
Any way you can get some benzos? I don't know how severe your situation is but I've gone through withdrawals with just aspirin and fruit juice(it helps the shakes). If you can, get something to sip; you'll still feel like shit but it'll be less deadly.

>>8619408
Try to find some Valium or Librium m8.

Redpill me on mixing very high doses of ritalin with very high doses of alcohol

For some hours I don't have to think about anything except daydreaming about good things, things that could have been, but never were.

For those hours, none of the misery enters my consciousness, they might as well not exist, since I won't even think about them, and thus they never enter.

And yet it is those hours that continue making the problem worse

>>8620050
You're gonna get euphoric and you're not going to realize how drunk you've gotten. It's the functioning alcoholics perfect combo. Could also just man up and buy some proper amph.

A few days ago a day 10 was planning to drink at a social event this WE, I imagine yesterday.

Will you drink today as well?

>>8620435
>Could also just man up and buy some proper amph.

Do you even know how cheap these pills are for me?
It's less than half a buck for a pill.
There's no way I'm going to trade that

>>8612431
this is my shelf. it cost about seventy bucks. How long should it last? Hopefully a month. Also, for some reason Long Island Iced tea mix is cheaper than vodka.

>>8612502
People who drive while clearly intoxicated to the point where they physically can't drive deserve to die. I hope the next time you drive drunk you fucking kill yourself because that is what you deserve.

Hey al/ck/.
How many of you are tortured writers and artists? I bet it's like 95%.
Are you hot and with a sexy stubble that looks sorta immaculate despite signaling that you haven't groomed in a while?

Should I tell my psychiatrist?

>>8620558

I don't shave because I don't care, it looks shit, well who cares, I don't.

>>8620558
>27
>NEET
>virgin
The only interests and talents I have at all pertain to art.

I have enough money to never stop and only 3 days of work per week, which I have done drunk

Im gonna start a new life next week I swear

>>8620575
what kinda art?
Do you have a burning passion for sculpting? are you the kinda guy that'd see something special in an awkward college girl and pay her to be your model, leading to a steamy romance?

>>8620592
Music mostly. I can play a few instruments and do some writing as well. I hate where I live so I didn't want to work for the paper and be trapped there forever, but it looks like I'm going to be anyway no matter what I do.
I really am fucked.

>>8620601
on the bright side you probably won't last that long as an alcoholic regardless of where you go.

>>8620606
While I certainly am alcoholic and do drink everyday, I'm not that hardcore about it. I used to drink shit tons of liquor daily but I was able to stop doing that. Mostly beer and wine to a degree in which I don't have to be completely stone cold sober for too long. I do still pretty much rely on drinking to be able to sleep though.

>>8620519
a-are you posting through the quantum flux from the year 1955?

>>8620640
no...

>>8620656
oh well. looks like hemingway's liquor shelf from cuba or something

>>8620564

>Should I inform my doctor about my life threatening illness

hmmm, very tough decision I agree, what ever will you do?

I spend around 25€ per day on alcohol

Then there people who say that 10€ per month on netflix is too much

>>8620823
I've slowly dropped everything. Netflix, Xbox live, whatever. I literally only spend money on food, rent, bus tickets, cellphone and alcohol. I've also dropped by alcohol purchasing a lot.

Saving money hand over fist though. Used to only even work four days a week, but I work five now and I must save about a thousand dollars a month

>friend says he hasn't been drunk in a while and insists we do so
>I've got a nice little sobriety streak going, like 4 days! don't really wanna wreck it, try to say no
>
>
>
>I'm pretty sure at some point during the night I ended up shittng myself on his lawn and trying to wipe with fistfuls of grass

I got out of the every day routine and have been only drinking one day a week. I'm feeling so much better but I'm afraid I'll fall back into the routine. Has anyone successfully cut back from everyday drunk to moderation?

>>8620810
>>8620564

isn't it illegal not to?

>>8621034
Im at day 10 and my goal is modération: 1 day à week.

How many sober days did you have before switching to one day a week?

>chronic back pain and various pain all over due to bad posture and fucked up back
>can never know if its the back or if it's a heart attack

I guess if I black out completely I'll know for certain

>>8620558

I'm a mechanic

>>8620558

mall drinker here

sup lads

>>8621138
>drinking and decide I need to go to Barnes and Noble at my local mall
>start kicking up shit that there are no far leftist texts in the politics or econ section
>website says they have the Marx engels reader in stock but they don't
>get a pretzel and hit on the girls in zumiez
Hell yeah my dude

>>8621050
Basically a month of detox where I took a lot of Kratom to ease the urges. Kratom is a miracle drug and I love it almost as much as booze. I used to black out every night but after a couple of fights and ruined relationships I basically stopped to completely focus on my work and university. I had only been like that for almost two years so physical addiction wasn't too bad. No seizures just shakes and the intense feeling of withdrawal. I actually felt bad enough where I didn't actually want to drink but didn't feel bad enough to feel like I was dying. I was lucky enough to be on a sweet spot where it didn't hurt a fraction of what it could have.

>>8621161

I'm the guy from before who shit on his friend's lawn
my plan for today to make myself feel less guilty is to drink a bunch of kratom tea and read On the Road
I've only taken kratom once, very low dose (2g) so today I'm gonna see how it actually feels (took 4g)
talk to me about kratom, I have plenty of it but don't know much about it

>>8621160

I love drunk shopping

well done irl shit posting anon

>>8621161
I have a social event on day 13, Ill drink that day.

Do you think 2 weeks of detox are enough?

>>8621181
Keruoac was a jock proto hipster faggot. What an awful writer

I'm considering completely manipulating my mom into doing some shit, basically forcing her into doing something by using emotional and manipulative arguments, (nothing sexual you freaks)
You normal people with working empathy, where does this land on the fucked up scale?

>>8621187

I was in a detox center and I think the max you were allowed there was 10 or 11 days

physically you should be fine. mentally is a whole different story

>>8621192

I'm not blind to how stereotypical it is
but a nice lady told me I should read it so I'm gonna

>>8613409
just drink beer dude, nobody likes it at first

>>8621208
If you're anything like me it'll make you resent her but you'll still pretend it was good to not ruin your chances of fucking and also maybe ending the loneliness

>>8621228

b-but she's already ending the loneliness!
we went on a road trip for our first date
she scares me but she makes me want to try

>>8621237
Good luck. Sincerely

ITT - LARPing faggots that don't even drink

Yesterday I had the brilliant idea to go for a drive after drinking all night, and to bring with me in my car a bottle of wine.
I woke up with the coppers looking over me, I had parked my car in a fucking ditch, a dirt road in the middle of nowhere near a fucking mountain.
They didn't alchohol test me or get my licence lmao.
But yeah don't drink and drive and don't drink WHILE driving

>>8612431
>General

>>8621203

I'm really starting to lose touch with reality, and ethics and morals suddenly are just words, fucking drug and alcohol abuse has completely messed up my brain, which is why I am asking you NORMAL people

>>8621259
I never got that because I am allowed to have a beer and then drive, because I didn't pass the legal limit, but if I decide to drink that one beer while I drive suddenly the world ends.

>>8612839
If you think beer has significantly more calories than wine, you deserve to be fat and ugly.
Calories in, calories out, and ethanol is very caloric. You do the fucking maths.

>>8621253
found a (You) in my pocket for ya bro

>>8621269
I think that some states allow having an open alchohol container in your car

>>8621294
>implying I live in facist, riot ridden, racist america

>>8621181
Feels like a very mild opiate. Buzzes me just enough to where I don't feel like I need to take anything else. Dosage wise you need to feel it out yourself. When I take too much I get a bit of dissociation but not too bad. Try it out and see if it's for you. Drinking will basically kill the kratom effects so I wouldn't drink if you can handle it.

>>8612691

>Eats shit loads of food
>Drinks shit loads of alcohol
>Asks how to stay/become skinny

Are you fucking retarded?
Eat less or drink less, preferably both, fucking fatties I swear, all so god damned stupid, did you really fucking need someone else to spell out to you to STOP FUCKING EATING SO MUCH

>>8621314
I have no experiences with opiates, never had any painkillers stronger than a tylenol before
I wouldn't want to drink on it
Took 4 grams this time, I know you have to find your "sweet spot)
Physically a little uncoordinated, but I'm lying in bed listening to soft music (Bleecker Street, Simon and Garfunkel)
I feel very peaceful, and VERY emotional. Which... Is nice, actually. I think I might usually be too emotionally closed-off. If there's one thing I like most about it so far, that's it. I would really like a hug. And I want to tell the people in my life that I love them. I like this.

>>8620050
A heartattack.

>>8621839

Oh shit, really?

Fuck.

>>8613508
>Chin chin, anon.
What countries says that for cheers? Is it a French thing?

>>8621203
What kind of shit? It sounds fucked up, but it might be excusable.

>>8621389
>I feel very peaceful, and VERY emotional.
Feeling things is what scares me about total sobriety. Sadness, happiness, everything is just so strong. It's like not having any goggle or sun glasses at winter sports, it's so fucking bright it hurts.
That's why I always numb myself in alcohol or cannabis.

How does that makes you feel peaceful?

>>8622246
because it feels like a breath of fresh air. as it is, I've been emotionally deadened for probably years now, and at times it's gotten really really bad. I can see the downside of having overwhelming emotions, but emotions are a part of life, there's beauty in them, even the bad ones.
instead of the only emotion being occasional blind-rage.

After I wrote that post, I told my best friend that I loved him and wept openly. It was amazing. Very cathartic. Honestly, if I could cry more often, I wouldn't drink.

Alright, chumps.

How do you feel about bars and pubs? Are they a good place to make casual friends with strangers or regulars?

I'm really just looking for reasons to get out of the house more often and I'm known to be more talkative and engaging after a couple of drinks. I'm not looking for a party, I just don't want to drink alone all the time for a change.

>>8622302 here

>>8622246

I drink to try to feel something, I drink because I can't feel anything most of the time. That's its own flavor of hell, but I'm smarter than to think the grass is any greener on the other side.
Any drug that can help me get in touch with my emotions, let me feel something again, deserves a place at my table. Especially considering that kratom's so much safer and healthier than most drugs.

>>8622313
Used to hate the idea, saw it as a waste of money.
But after a trip out of town where I got real drunk and had a nice conversation with some locals, I've been occasionally sinking some beers and trying to recapture that magic.

Usually don't end up talking to anyone much, sometimes not at all. But it's nice to drink with some atmosphere. And sometimes it's pushed me to text a bunch of people I normally wouldn't in the hopes of finding something to do or somewhere to go, and that's led to a few nice nights.

Would recommend. As long as it's some dive with cheap beers. I don't condone expensive mixed drinks on a night out.

>>8622302
>I told my best friend that I loved him and wept openly. It was amazing. Very cathartic.
You sound like these guys :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NmtGltnASbo&t=15s
Subtitles : I love you, I love you, etc.

I get what you mean, it's what I've been saying last time I was fully sober, but I was thinking it was scary af. And it's overwhelming emotions that made me drink again each time.

Part of me wants to try kratom, part knows fully well I'll end up addicted to opiates in some times.

>>8622321
>I feel no emotion
Isn't it the textbook definition of psychopath? Or is it sociopath? I never remember.

>>8612431
haven;t had a drink today, instead I've been chugging water.. on glass #4. i usually have maybe 1 or 2 glasses a day (with many beers). had diarrhea earlier. gonna keep this up....

>>8622321

Why the hell would you want to feel emotions?
I was forced to suffer through having to feel empathy after I did LSD, I really can't see any reason why you would WANT to have emotions

>>8622515

It was nothing so dramatic. But having the volume on my emotions was nice. I guess I wouldn't say I feel NO emotion (although I have, at the worst parts of depression, felt that way) just that the volume is turned down. It's a defense mechanism.
And as for psychopaths and sociopaths, you're looking at
>>8622569 this guy
because it's not that they feel no emotion, it's that they feel no empathy.
Which, I have to say, is pretty disgusting. Empathy can be occasionally painful, but it's the most important characteristic of a good and happy person.

>>8622625
I'm not sure empathy counts as a regular emotion. It's quite essential to herd animals, fucked up not to want it.

Groan... I finished a binge about four days ago. Shakes have pretty much stopped, and I was able to eat today. Still dealing with huge depression and insomnia. Not looking forward to the apologies I've yet to make.
FML, I always say never another binge but I still end up jumping back into the fire. Hopefully this one was my last though.

reminder to everyone who hits withdrawal and can't access alcohol or xanax etc:

5-HTP can be used to replenish serotonin which will help offset (but not eliminate) withdrawal symptoms, and is sold over-the-counter at drug stores and some grocery stores

>>8619822
>step 1
>admit that you have no power over yourself and can't do anything on your own
>step 2
>god exists faggot
>step 3
>you're a christian now thanks and read a bible your autonomous life is over

>>8623093
I'm not an AA guy, but I've heard from everyone the whole world over, "Power greater than ourselves" does not necessarily mean anything religious.

>>8623159
almost all of the next 9 steps are basically religious indoctrination, the implication is clear

>>8620544
the majority of the population likely has at some point. Enjoy your small village of complete squares

>>8623200
Not >>8623159 but similar situation.
Some AA groups are all about Jesus, others replace God by "superior being" and people pick whatever they want, usually the AA group itself and their support, because they're not into God like many people.
There are other groups and organisations, I only know of vie libre (free life) in France, who are basically the AA without the 12 steps and any deity altogether.
I hope you don't live in the Bible belt or something.

>>8623292
Different anon, but praying to your AA group strikes me as a little weird

>>8623159
As a matter of fact, it was specifically established by Bill W. not to be religious. He even stated, choose a door knob as your higher power. It was really the most beautiful thing about it. Clearly it's principles are based on the Christian ethic, but Bill W. wanted no one excluded. Most atheists choose the AA group as the higher power, which makes a lot of sense.

It's awfully easy to look for excuses as to why you shouldn't try to quit, but saying AA demands adherence to theism won't hold water.

Having said that, there are groups, particularly in the evangelical south that use it as a platform to convert vulnerable people. In that case, you have to find another group.

>>8623333
He can say 'choose a doorknob' if he wants but I think most people wouldn't be able to convince themself that a doorknob could 'restore them to sanity'

>>8615034
this is me
i am doing ok

>>8623261
>making your alcoholism someone else's problem and possibly maiming or killing them in the process
>actually rationalising it by believing that almost everyone drives drunk

not even that guy, but you really should off yourself before you hurt someone if you're gonna be like that

>>8623333
Checked.
It's a common practice from sects and other groups to target weak individuals, and alcoholics having nobody to talk to about their struggles is an easy one.

>>8623353

Then don't choose a doorknob, choose your family, choose your community, choose the people who you can still help in trying to go sober as well. "A power larger than ourselves" is actually quite easy to find, one human mind is not very big.

I think the problem is, the doorknob is usually quite small.

>>8618384
don't continue. eventually you'll need to be drunk to work. don't let a material thing control your physical and mental well being!

>>8615713
you're fucked. taper off or get help.

Been drinking 3+ glasses of wine a night now, wish I could drink without feeling guilty about destroying my brain and liver

>>8620050
Fun as fuck but terrible for your body

>>8623353
No, but his point was, you don't have to proclaim allegiance to "God." You have to give him credit for that, really, since he was devoutly Christian. I live in the evangelical south and finding a group that isn't in your face, "Jesus is the only possible higher power, hallelujah!" is almost impossible. That's why I respect him so much. I was in several groups where they said I couldn't leave step 1 until I fell on my knees and confessed to Jyyeeessuss. That's how much further Bill W. was advanced than the rest.

>>8618575
My brother starts talking to himself and the demons in the room after a bottle or 2 of whiskey. He'll have conversations with people/things that don't exist, used to scare me when I was younger. Nothing else makes him crazy like that except whiskey.

>>8613131
War...
Has changed...

>>8618575
dude what?

pls explain because I drink tons of whiskey

>>8623569
Your brother is a retard. Fucking trailer trash "talking to demons", get the fuck out of here.

>>8623261
Enjoy getting a DUI and having to take the bus to your job at Walmart.

>>8623569
I talk to myself out loud all the damn time, wonder if my family thinks im bonkers.

At the liquor store 5 minutes before they open. Luckily its not one in my regular rotation

The plan for tonight is to get very, very drunk.

I've been unemployed for about three months, laid off temporarily due to the weather, and my employer has let me know that I'm guaranteed a position with the company now that the new season is starting. I just have to go in and meet with them, iron out the details and the job is mine.
It's absolutely retarded, but the anxiety about returning to a job I had previously held for over two years is killing me. I need the money, yeah, but I've been surviving on unemployment well enough so far and have found time to work on/do other things I actually like doing. The fact that this unexpected vacation is about to end has me feeling very unsure of myself.

So, I'll drink until I stop thinking and worrying about it. Then, if I'm lucky, I'll still be a little buzzed in the morning when I go into the office and accept my old position at the lab.

>Tfw there's always the same 3 guys every day 15 minutes after the store opens

>>8618652
But it's literally all just alcohol, isn't it? The idea that different drinks do different things is just a meme and usually has more to do with when/why we're drinking the liquor versus what liquor we're drinking.

>inb4 some weak and retarded psuedo science about why different types of liquor affect us differently

okay so ive stopped drinking now how do i avoid killing myself out of boredom?

>>8618655
>tfw almost impossible to post while incredibly drunk anymore because of the captcha

>>8625023
Well... that's the worst part, isn't it?

All the nonsense about how much better life will be once you're off the drink is just that; nonsense.
You probably wouldn't have started drinking in the first place if you were having any fun, don't you think?

>>8624997
just make sure to take a shower first

>>8625080
That's not a bad idea at all.
I'm worried they're going to give me a paycut, even though I have no idea to think that.

On Saturday I drank 10 beers in 20 minutes and ate a bag of frozen chicken with mayonnaise.

:')

What are you drinking some shitty 0.25l beers you underage fuck?

So I have gone two full weeks now without drinking. 14 mother fucking days. I honestly don't know how I feel about it. I feel better, I guess. It's weird. I feel like I can just have a beer or two now and be fine and this whole alcoholism is really a non-issue. But who knows

>>8625638

Don't fall into that trap. You've done amazing so far man, congratulations!
Just keep it up. It's really, really not worth it.

I want to get a cane, wonder how much they cost

>>8625638
>I feel like I can just have a beer or two now and be fine
You'll be hammering liquor again in less than a week. Just don't.

>>8625638
>I feel like I can just have a beer or two now and be fine

Famous recurrent words of alcoholics.
I had to fuckign write alcohoklic 4 fucking times to get it right

I'm on day 3 of sobriety... made the mistake and got a bottle of vodka and scotch because a friend wants to have fun... I'm conflicted.

Had an introductory session with a therapist today. I do okay, good job and reputation just a secret headfuck. Bricking it about having to try falling asleep without the drink. Anyone know what to expect that first night?

>>8625979

I have diagnosed your problem.
It's wanting to have friends.
You obviously want them else you either wouldn't have them or you would have gotten rid of them.
Solution: Stop wanting friends

The worst problem about doing a really hard sudoku is when you finally figure out the one hurdle, all the other pieces instantly fall into place and all is left is inputting numbers, no thought required, but you can't just start a new one because you can never know if all the pieces actually did fall into place so you just have to play a data entry job

>>8626009
Hey,same guy. No... that's not the problem. It's wanting to be able to DRINK with my friends and play video games.

Thanks for the arm chair psychiatry, Sigmund Fuckface.

>>8626189

Well clearly you wouldn't have those problems if you, well, let's say... Didn't have any friends?

>>8626207
So I play games by myself and drink alone? I'm used to playing with myself but come on, think that shit through.

>>8626320

You were sober for 3 days and your friends made you want to buy booze.

>>8626330
So get rid of my friends because I'm weak?... Even though your argument isn't strong, it lead me to this thought so thank you.

>>8626358

Well that's just one reason to get rid of them, personally I don't see any reason to have friends at all, what can they give me?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7QoikcECHqM

been sober for four days and i really want to drink

considering loaning money for booze tomorrow since i already drank all my money

>>8612869
you know you dont have to suffer through withdrawals, right?

you can taper down. its MUCH easier. i did it the other day.

http://hams.cc/taper/

So I just bought month old beer at a massive discount

its kinda skunky but mostly drinkable, better than macrobrews

>>8619326
get a cab and pick up some beers. a lot of beers. begin an alcohol taper. its not hard.

I have a yellow-ish hue... been drinking hard for seven months, should I be worried?

>>8626606
post pic of eyeballs, we can probably tell if it's bad or not

>tfw not an alcoholic

>>8626625
pussy

>>8626638
I enjoy a good buzz on occasion
You faggots are suffering. You might as well kill yourselves right now.

>>8626619
Not me but its this colour kinda.

>>8626649
we suffer so the families of the distillers and brewers have a living you ignorant prick

>Should be sleeping
>Instead awake and sobering up because ran out
>No way to get more today

zzzzz

>>8626656

I hope you're not too attached to your liver

>>8626656
Nah man that's totally normal. Carry on.

Day 3. Starting to return to reality. Pic realated.

Great, stumbled upon a tune that I hadn't listened to in years, listening to it I was suddenly transported to an earlier time, a specific memory, when I was still happy, only lasted for about 10-15 seconds. Which only made me even more miserable when it ended.

I'm convinced the brain has a mechanism that intentionally wants to make you feel as bad as possible, should fuckign dedicate my entire life to finding that part so I could destory it

>>8626759
drink more

>>8625010
So many people believe it, and it works by placebo. It end up being true in effect.

>>8625638
Wait two more weeks before having a beer. Hey, you can even have two to celebrate your month of sobriety.
Since you kept your limit of three beer the previous day, you can have another drink, since you can so easily stop. It wasn't that hard after all, right? And you have to learn by yourself that relapsing is easy and alcohol is sneaky.

>>8625905
Cheapish ones are 15€ (for a minimum of quality, in a cane shop), goes up to 200€ for a very good weighted one.

>>8625979
If your "friend" knows you are stopping, he's an arsehole and shouldn't be your friend. You deserve some support, not people asking you to accompany them in their alcoholism.
Tell him to have fun without booze, 'cause that's what you'll do the rest of your life.

>>8626006
First night is the easiest. It get better after 3 to 5 days. You'll get a good sleep after some time of having a good sleep hygiene.

>>8626126
www.conceptispuzzles.com

>>8626649
>You might as well kill yourselves right now.
What do you think we're doing? We are literally poisoning ourselves to death.
Show me how it's done faggot, if you're so edgy.

>>8626752
Welcome back. I hope you enjoyed your ride.
Now stay strong Anon, if you don't want to ride it again. It doesn't get better.

>>8626656
that's jaundice dude

>>8612820
Shit man you go hard.

>>8612869
Sounds fucking boring.
Life is easier when you drink.

>>8626656
Looks fine to me.

I'm going to try to not drink for a couple weeks and see how I do.

Wish me luck

>>8627064
Lol you're going to drink tomorrow we all know this

>>8626918
Okay. Thanks. It's got to happen regardless. It's been years since properly sleeping as opposed to passing out.

>>8627064
Good luck famalam. We will be there tommorow drinking if you feel like life is shit

Protip : It is. You will drink again.

>>8624370
That's just the term he uses when mumbles gibberish to himself, not trailer trash...just catholic indoctrination from a young age that hasn't gone away completely.

>>8626918
>Welcome back. I hope you enjoyed your ride.
>Now stay strong Anon, if you don't want to ride it again. It doesn't get better.

Thanks anon. I need to stop for probation. Im hoping the break will help me stop for good. I know i need it

>>8627163
>probation

Go on...

You're a bunch of sad lads.

>>8627166
Ill keep it short
>get blackout drunk
>wake up on the wrong side of the road smashed into another car
>.247 bac
>somehow no one was injured

>tfw went 2 weeks without drinking
>tfw the instant I start again I immediately fuck up something in my life severely


I hate this

I hate that despite this I had to really fight off the urge to buy more stuff to drink tonight

>>8627175
alcohol is about as addictive as heroin my dude, pair that with a culture that promotes its consumption and you get a whole lot of people with problems

POST #300

>>8626965
its never jaundice

Guys I'm genuinely scared here, I just slept for... uh... 62 hours. I shit you not. I did wake three times to piss and to drink water, and obv downed vodka to stop with drawers, but I'm really in trouble here. I'm drinking so fucking much it's insane, I've got messages from two doctors calling me back on my phone, but I don't remember calling them, I don't know why I did… I think I'm actually dying, I really think I will be dead within hours, maybe days.
Scared af, anons.
Wish I could afford a hooker r n. Scared as shit and feel in desperate need of some kind of affection. All friends and family gone. Everyone has given up on me.
Pic related is what I drank while sleeping those 60hrs. None now left. In horrendous withdrawal.
Bye anons. <3
I don't want to die.

>>8628550
>triple distilled

my nigga

>>8612797
meant to be man, 12 must be your lucky number

>>8628550
go for a walk and grab some food from a shop and eat it there, no phone mane

>>8628570
Can't stand up, mang. I just fall over.
Fuck. Fucking fuck.
I keep thinking about suicide.
Gah, nm. Ignore me. Managed to order alcohol. In about an hour I'll be too drunk to care about anything.
Stay safe, all.

>>8628550
yo i love you dude you're why i keep coming back here lol. pls stay alive

>>8628577
>tfw the only person left who doesn't hate me is an alchie anon on 4chan
Feels kinda bad, but hey thanks bro. Look after yourself anon, don't let yourself turn into me.

>Have some food
>Want to eat
>Need to ration due to only having money left for alcohol for a week

>try to eat a pea
>yes really, one fucking pea
>entire bed suddenly covered in vomit
Legit cannot remember the last time I ate. I order food, but I just cannot fucking stomach it, it just ends up mouldy and binned. How fucking long can I survive on nothing but calories from booze??

Few months

>>8628605
Ugh, iktfb. When I was still physically capable of eating, my primary source of food was a field next to my house in which a farmer grows cabbages. Now I simply... don't eat, or have maybe a bite of apple every few days.

>>8628584
you were clean for a bit tho right? what happen

>>8628625
Yeah, I managed 23 days with the help of lorazepam. Second longest I've ever managed. I can't even remember relapsing now, let alone why I did it. I really will die soon I think. Sigh.

>>8612431
11.30am
I spent the weekend with my father. Haveny seen him for a year
Got a big wine bag and am playing guitar
Managed a week sober before the weekend. Gotta try for a month after this.
Anyone around?

>Amphetamines = no hunger
>Alcohol = lots of hunger
>Amphetamines + alcohol = lots of hunger

This is undeniable proof that alcohol is a harder drug than amphetamines.

>>8628727
you forgot one.
>lots of alcohol = NO HUNGER EVER
Actually you forgot several.
>lots of alcohol
>no hunger
>no sex drive
>no money
>no friends
>no chance of escaping that smell of piss
Etc.
*hic*

>>8628730
lots of alcohol
>no hunger
>no sex drive
>no money
>no friends

Hey, that's me!

Why do my teeth feel like they're gonna fall out any minute, they're not even moving am I just being paranoid

>>8628730
>>no hunger
>>no friends

Fuck, I really need to start drinking more to get those things.

>>8628738
You HAVE to brush your teeth, dawg. No matter how rekt I am, I've always got water, toothpaste, a cup and a toothbrush within arms length.

Guys I just called an ambulance. Then fell asleep so he couldn't get in. So I called a priest. And donated 100 quid to the church. I'm agnostic.
I think I give up. I might be about to o.d.

>>8628788
>Guys I just called an ambulance. Then fell asleep so he couldn't get in

What the fuck, they would have broken in your door with the help of cops or come in through the window

>>8628822
Pretty sure that at this point they know to just ignore me. This isn't the first time I've fucked up and done this.
Legit don't even remember doing it.
Hm.
Yeah, this life is officially shit.

>5pm right now
>will wake up before 10am (when alcohol sale starts)

1) Listen to tunes and do sudokus
2) Take amphetamines and do 1) and fall asleep in 7 hours

I can't choose

Is shitting yourself a normal part of alcoholism? I've noticed I've been doing a lot more wet farts lately. Not sure if it's the alcohol or another part of my diet. But yeah, I go for what I think is a fart and a bit of liquid comes out and stains my shorts. Is that the alcohol or the increased amount of spicy food and curry I've been eating?

>>8629071
that's the alcohol killing your gut flora, making you fail to digest food properly

>>8629071
Fkn lol.
>>8629237
Also this.

What.a glamorous bunch we are.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cMZmNG_DRJA

>>8628865
Then they should know to get the fuck in even more so. Your stories sound like those by a fishy as fuck middle school gangster, look guys I'm the most fucked up! Why don't you just fucking die already you attention whore?

>>8629429
To fantasise about death is one thing, to actually be faced with the reality of it happening is apparently another.
I know I'm annoying. I'm genuinely scared. I can't help it.

>>8628550
You had bought some benzos in a shitty place, maybe that's linked to this extended blackout.
>Everyone has given up on me.
There's still a bunch of Anons here. Some of us are sober.
It's not the same, but it's already something.
Maybe you told the docs you had to stop and have an appointment soon?

>>8628611
1-3 months without food in theory, far less since you exhaust your body with booze. But pancreatitis will hit after a week or so.
I suggest either eating and easing down on booze, or going to the hospital asap. Because pancreatitis will send you there in terrible pain no matter what if you continue.

>>8628738
Brush teeth, get inter-dental brushettes or whatever they're called. It's probably the gums. Stop smoking, lol.

>>8629447
If you're not in a state to take an ambulance, try to get to the hospital by other means. Take a taxi or an uber. It's cheaper than ambulances.

I've been drinking 12-15 drinks a day for a month. If I quit will have withdrawal or not?

>>8630178
>>8630178
You'll probably have trouble sleeping but nothing major

>>8629018

I chose to take amphetamines and I fell asleep an hour later
This can't be healthy for me