/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>10602659
underage b&

>>10602659
this was 4 years ago, fuck off cunt, this actually happened when i was 19 too before he decided to go away

>>10602678
meant for you, cunt
>>10602670

>too stupid to respond to the correct post
Kill yourself retard

>>10602683
maybe get drunk a little more, youd understand, mistakes happen. kinda like your birth

>>10602659
My best friend that I grew up with has let drinking destroy his life. It's all my fault. I got him started with his first beer 5 years ago. He has since
>Lost his job
>Begged on the corner for money so he can afford his next high on booze
>Assaulted multi-able police officers while stumbling out of a bar.
>Caught him sucking off numerous dudes in a park station bathroom for some spare booze change.
>Done prison time
I just picked him up friday. He's recently been released from prison. He did a year and a half on multi-able charges but it's manly because he got drunk one night and jerked off onto his neighbors van. Turns out his neighbors security camera caught the whole thing. He broke down to me on the freeway ride home but not before he filled himself with some four loco from a 7/11. He cried and cried, telling me that he was orally and anally raped numerous time for owing guys on the inside. I guess he built up quite the large tab inside. Don't drink guys, even now as I type this I can hear him sobbing 2 doors down from me..

>>10602691
Is that bubba

>Hur I'm addicted to drinking
>Better keep posting alcoholic generals to justify my drinking and stay cool

Just stop being a faggot, piece of piss.

>>10602694
>Hurr i got nothing better to do than troll online.
How about you, piece of shit, these threads helped many overcome and realize what it is to be an alcoholic, and helped stay away. You havent been in our shoes you can fuck right off you fucking neet

>>10602693
Yeah, yeah that's bubba.

>>10602691
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUSCiZwQh-0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xr6lVPhwB4k

>tfw not putting Al/ck/ in the Name field

>>10602703
wow, hope the time he did let him learn to how to be sober, and from his mistakes. thats just sad man

>>10602711
shit, im drunk, id do it if i can edit. sorry i let you down my fellow al/ck/s

>>10602715
s'ok mang, you got the silhouette so drunkards can find the thread easily, ctrl+F will work and you linked this thread in the last one so people know it exists. s'all al/ck/ really needs i think. might wanna wait until the old thread is on page 8 or 9 though before posting new ones in the future.

>>10602810
Yeah, hit the bump limit for awhile and just wanted people to talk to, I only use the catalog too, water you up to man?

>>10602837
Oh shit, I forgot, it shows on the bottom, I'll take that advice for next time

>>10602837
not much. smoking some ridiculously strong weed, drafting a letter to my MP to call him a cunt for not supporting legalisation and waiting for college to chuck out so my road is flooded with teenage grils. walking down the road with a joint burning sometimes results in eager gineys.

>>10602691
You're not talking about yourself anon, are you?

School's over and I passed everything. Been drunk for a week straight now. Without the fear and anxiety driving me I'm just empty. Work again tomorrow though.

>>10602849
Nice, kinda wish I still got weed, that's why I picked the bottle up, I'm not even sure who I am sober anymore. Best of luck to ya brother

200 ug of lsd
now we play the waiting game...

>>10602954
i should probably use it again. it always makes my problems seem really trivial even where previously insurmountable. wears off after 2-3 days but still, flicking a switch in your brain which makes you realise you don't need booze, that's pretty awesome.

>>10603025
never done it before
just seemed like the perfect drug for me, as i would prefer to be stoned out of my mind anyway

>>10603036
weed really is the only solution if you're trying to replace booze with another drug. the others are way too savage to be used all day every day.

>>10603040
what's best is after days of constantly being high, you start to live in your mind
pretty relaxing

>>10603049
Yeah that's calle psychosis. Trust me, that doesn't end well.

Just went to Irish up my coffee a tad on the train and hit a bump on the track, now it's 90% vodka. Comfy afternoon incoming

>>10603049
Get help

>>10603117
>>10603155
alright mother

>>10603049
yeah it's nice to escape into a comfy world of fascinating adventures and cosy feels, when doing exactly the same things while sober would be so boring you'd want to die, and doing it drunk will relatively soon in you actually dying. haven't really stopped smoking since 1996, but i've never had anything but a cough and an empty pocket as far as negatives go. being arrested and charged would have fucked me pretty nicely, guess that one might still be to come. the law is by far the most damaging thing about cannabis.

I keep having mini "binders" of 4-5 drinks a day for a week and feel guilty about it, then I read these threads and feel better so I keep drinking. How dangerous is this?

>>10603224
and the stigma that goes with it
hate my moron english bf who drinks 6 pints a day to sleep

>>10603228
You continue doing it for months or years you will definitely realize how destructive this stupid fucking liquid is to your life

>>10603232
Tell him to taper, maybe switch to weed? Can't fix someone who don't want to be fixed, like many of us here

>>10601763
>4 ODs in the past few months

you are like a little baby..
http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/125-drug-overdose-deaths-january-2018-1.4564582

>>10603243
he's a hypocryte who's not fine with me smoking it
but fine with his friends etc

>>10603255
Sounds like you don't have a compatible road ahead, honestly

never really been much of a drinker. just drank a 350ml smirnoff, god im so high right now. this is great!

>>10603262
hardcore alcoholism right here.
careful using spirits if you're not sure what you're doing. one shot too many and assuming you survive, you'll wish you were dead.

>>10602866
You getting drug tested or unable to find a dealer? I started using weed almost every day, and my desire to drink tapered off almost completely. It's much safer/healthier than alc imo (especially if you can avoid smoking by vaping/edibles). I can function/think/feel much better on weed. Can't be more degenerate than being an alcohol.

First brew of the day, I am going to take my own advice and just maintain at, 1.5litres of beer a day.
No pressure to quit, not to taxing on my organs.
We will see how long this lasts, probably until Saturday.

>>10603295

>and just maintain at, 1.5litres of beer a day.

how do you do it? i have a drinking problem (not a daily user but i go on 4-5 day benders if i do drink, have experienced DTs / auditory halucinations after a few so safe to say im probably technicaly an alcoholic) and if i have more than two cans i cant help myself until im blacked out. restraint just goes out the window once ive started. its either all the way or nothing at all for me, luckily its been nothing at all for about 3 weeks now.

well im pretty high on acid

>>10603259
yeah, maybe

>>10603303
I'm maintaining at about 500ml of vodka a day spread throughout the day now after being a 'guaranteed insane binge' drinker like that for like 15 years. What made the difference for me was how I start off- I used to pour and neck a load of doubles right away and then go from there, which was what led to that 'fuck it down the hatch' kind of attitude and then to blackouts because you immediately feel incredible and hyped up. Now I measure one out and sit nursing it for half an hour to get started. Don't get that 'high' and end up going to bed early while still just nicely buzzed. Still drinking way too much and trying to taper off but I've avoided getting in any messes for a while.

>>10602691
"Multiple" you fucking retard.

>>10603332

so is it the same level of buzz maintained throughout the day with that method? my problem is in the back of my head theres always this itching to just go a level higher when i drink, even if im at a nice plateau while drinking its even just the compulsion of having a beer in my hand i get insane cravings for, like i need to be in the act of drinking constantly once ive started if that makes sense, and that's probably why ive been to the hospital 4 times and a police cell twice. i really do envy those people who can have a beer or two with friends after work or a nice bottle of wine to share on a date, i have to pro-actively stop myself from indulging in such things now because i know too well how it ends

my bum is pretty sore from cheap toilet rolls and the boxed wine the other day
not in a good way

well lsd is nice
consistent feelings that have a long duration

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cZW770CKrk

I fucking love getting smashed to this album

>>10602659
I need help al/ck/, 90% of the time I drink I end up getting blackout and I vomit everywhere. How do I avoid this and be less overzealous when binging? I still want to get drunk, but I don’t want to ever have to scrape vomit off my bed again

>>10603486
buckle up sunshine

>>10603303
>>10603359
Holy fuck you’re me! It’s almost like someone who snorts heroin vs someone who IVs, I’ve become addicted to that rush of a rapidly increasing blood alcohol rate.

>>10603491
watchu mean? I’m sure there’s a way of minimizing vomiting when drinking
>tfw alcoholic before 21
>feels bad man

>>10603512
well know thyself dumbo

>>10603319
post pupils

>>10603282
I'm in the states, only dealer I had moved across the country

>>10603610

Do you guys ever get drunk and then not remember a large portion of what happened during that time? This has been happening to me lately and I'm genuinely worried about it. I literally don't remember large chunks of things that happened. Creepy shit.

>>10603802
called blackouts. and yeah every time i drink. worst bit is 'coming to' from one in a jail cell and not knowing why.

The worse part isn't the withdrawals, it's pulling yourself out of them only to have it happen again and again.

Psychosis is pretty bad this time but a 24 oz Miller certainly is helping. Shame I'm just gonna feel like an insane person again in a few hours.

>>10603839
>it's pulling yourself out of them only to have it happen again and again.
worse than that is finally managing to stay sober, and hating life just as much as before.

>>10603802
i'm never sure if half my life happened or if it was a dream

so now that i am devoid of all wants and needs on lsd
what do i do

>>10604051
who knows?
but you are now manually breathing

>>10604051
Put on some noise and lay on the carpet

>>10604066
>>10604072
good advice

>>10602659
Today I used my alcoholism as an excuse to skip work. Can't do it too much but now I have the whole day to drink. Hooray?

So how bad of a case of delirium tremens has everyone here had? I used to think DTs just meant the shaking and anxiety that follow a week long bender, until recently when 2 days after a week long bender I had music looping in my ears for 12 hours straight (not an ear worm, like a full on auditory hallucination that sounded like music was coming out of the walls) followed by a constant sound of airplanes circling overhead, light hallucinations in the corner of my eyes that looked like faces and the feeling of a cold air blower blowing on my limbs constantly. I always used to think DTs were just the feeling of crushing anxiety and horror after drinking but little did I know withdrawals could turn into something akin to a bad acid trip. Ive cut down on my drinking significantly since, it was a horrific experience but it was more the fact that it actually happened to me at the age of 26 that served as a huge wake up call.

Been having very sharp pain in my right side, groin, and stomach the last week.


3 handles a week for 9 years finally caught up to me like i knew it would


Oh well...just going to drink more to numb the pain

I'm sitting here wiping a shart from my crusted asscheeks after having an explosive liquor shit. All with a smile on face, I really must enjoy being pathetic it's pathetic

>>10604563
Cheer up buddy

a gentle breeze
from hushabye mountain
softly... blows...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMmM5cTOPgA

ah not that clip
this clip instead https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tP6j2ddicP4

>>10602659
Well I tried covering up my alcoholism under the guise of being a musician. But it's become pretty blatant and people are finding out, so here's for you al/ck/

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1HJ07MrqJGeLCi1XS8Uhh-yvob85IdyxV/view

Who hungover here? Anyway, I think I'm seriously going to quit drinking. I did a lot of embarrassing things last night

>drank a lot last night and did a bunch of blow
>took dog to the beach
>took dog on a hike
>went to spa with old friend
>wake up this morning and fiance wont talk to me
>about 2 shots of alc left
>message fiance and she still wont talk to me
should i just postmates/doordash more alcohol?

>>10605141

https://youtu.be/YM0w6CgRjKc

I fell 16ft off my off last night, Cleaning my gutters when I was drunk.

A truck bed broke my fall, I'm sore as fuck.

Almost certain I broke something, Severe throbbing pain in my groin. Sitting here with an ice pack on my balls and drinking vodka. Pretty sore

>>10605367
>off
I mean my roof*

>>10605367
Kek, just be glad your not paralyzed. You should get checked out by a doctor and get a x ray

>>10605435
I don't have insurance, It's either buy alcohol and pay a months rent. Or go to a doctor

Anyone ever gotten off withdrawals in 13 hours, does weed help?

4 weeks sober today unless you count having a single beer at a restaurant a couple of times

Once you've been sober for long enough you start to realize just how much brainfog being an alcoholic gives you

>>10605452
Weed helps with the insomnia.

>>10605438
Go to a free clinic. Just be prepared to wait a while to be seen

>>10605452
Weed will not help with withdrawals. In fact, getting stoned while withdrawing will probably make your anxiety and heart rate even worse. Although weed could be pretty useful once you've detoxed to deal with the boredom and stress. I know it helped me

>>10603359
At the moment I'm either at maybe a 4/10 light buzz or antsy thinking about the next one when I have to be sober at work and so on. Like I say I was the same as you for years and years but I started getting full blown DTs and losing weeks at a time and stuff, that in combination with having some more stuff to look forward to in life than I used to scared me badly enough that I actually feel anxious if I even think about getting that drunk again now. I'm not suggesting that you should do what I'm doing mind you, if you can just quit then do it and don't look back. I know I'm still seriously playing with fire drinking at all but I'm doing it to stop my nervous system shitting the bed until I can get some professional help with it.

>>10604359
i dunno how to gauge it really, it's so unlike anything else. a trip gone bad is pretty damn similar though for sure. don't want to talk about what happened, don't want to think about it even, but i once ran out of fucking hospital so terrified that i didn't even take my phone or clothes. just opened the door and ran like hell until i had a bottle.

>>10602659
If that's all it takes for your friends not to talk to you anymore, they were never your friends to begin with.

>>10605452
ive perfected the system. get ativan and some CBD. take turmeric for inflammation (the bloating that happens to your liver and face from binge drinking goes away). get a dog or be active. exercise + sleep = no withdrawal. I know its hard to imagine running or going on a fast paced walk. but for me at least, it is the cure.

>>10605935
same post. anxiety is a killer for me, but just running helps with the shakes.

>>10603813
this is bad. what if we hurt someone in this state and don't remember it

>>10603876
right in the feels

>>10604119
what if you get fired? do you care or would you rather just get drunk?

>>10602659
Anyone tasted these? 29GBP puts both in my kitchen this weekend. I've tried rum and bourbon before and liked both so I'm tempted to buy them.

>>10604119
you fucked up dude. You've got one or two free passes but now that you've admitted you have a problem you will be expected to seek treatment. You could have kept your mouth shut and sucked it up but now you've severley limited your choices.

idiot

>>10606233
I doubt that he said "My alcoholism is preventing me from coming in today." I would wager he made up a different excuse.

I wonder if taking too many apple cider vinegar shots can wreck my stomach? With my retarded brain, I get the same rush off it as actual alcohol

Regardless my stomach is fucked anyway

>>10606344
best to dilute it with water or else yeah it will fuck up your stomach and teeth and throat

>>10606358
I usually dilute it. Half a shot glass of it and the rest water. Still probably too strong though

>day one of detox
>feeling like i need a drink

what do!?

>>10606344
Funnily enough I used to take one or two shots a day when I was trying to stay completely sober. I think if you're taking more than that even though you are diluting it it's probably going to end up being too much. It's just unnecessary and probably will upset you.

>>10606233
Obviously I didn't use the alcoholism itself as an excuse. I made up some sob story about how "my friend" was a drug addict and how I had to go take care of her. Obviously I can't do it often at all but fortunately I have the day today.

I woke up very recently. Apparently it's 8pm already? On a Tuesday? Jesus Christ I'm already losing days

>>10606558
>still mentions anything around you having to do with drug addiction, even anyone you know
Damn dude.

>>10602659
Is it still considered /alch/ if you function better in public with it?

>>10606826
That's basically the definition of being and alcoholic anon

>>10606843
But I mean like, you're not technically an alcoholic if no one knows you're an alcoholic, right?

>>10606826
I started using alcohol to "function" better in public, which essentially means you're using it as a means to combat social anxiety. It's a long dark road, don't do it.

>3am
>wake for no reason
>winch pain-saturated corpse out of bed
>trip over piss jug, fall comfily broken by piles of glass bottles
now this is what i call comfy.

>go to bar
>don't talk to anyone
>just drink and put money in the digital jukebox
This happen to anyone else?

>drink more than I ever should every single day of the week
>think I'm a piece of shit
>browse al/ck/
>realize it could be much worse
Thanks bros, you guys are true friends

>>10605527
And when you've been sober even longer you start to remember why you started fucking drinking in the first place

>society wants addicts to admit they have a problem and seek help
>once you admit you have a problem you are black listed from numerous jobs, barred from getting guns without an assload of work, every medical record from that day forward will mention your addiction and all their opinions will be you fell off the wagon, friends and family have to walk on eggshells or not drink at all you become a pariah

This is bullshit. It is better to dance in the thin jagged line of functioning alcoholic then to seek help. Life would be far off worse being known as an addict then just showing up to work not piss drunk and making it work.

>>10607004
the pain when you get older though becomes unbearable and you have to get help. drinking yourself to actual death has to be ferociously shit.

>huge pangs of regret
>Would drink a 12 pack to myself at least every other day.
>Would get behind the wheel often.
>Drank even more on weekends.
>Health problems began to appear
>Marriage began to suffer
>Realized I had a problem
>Sought help
>Began therapy sessions
>Realized alcoholism is nothing to be ashamed of.
>More people are than you'd think
>You don't need to be passed out behind a dumpster covered in jizz soaked dollar bills for beer to be an alcoholic.
>Many people don't even realize they are.

I've gone almost 2 years without a drink. I get high about once or twice a month and it helps. The first six months were awful. Depression , cravings, sleepless nights, I got off easy on the withdrawal symptoms. Others I know weren't so lucky. I look back and think it's a miracle I'm not dead or in jail for it.

You can quit if you really want to anon. You might need help but it's worth it. I had my fun and I hope to never go back and I hope you whoever s reading this will realize the same and get help. There's a way out of it. And don't let douchebags tell you you're not an addict just because you're not drinking a 5th for breakfast everyday, that shit infuriated me when I opened up to some friends about it.

>>10607050
Shit like this concerns me. I by all means should be a falling down alcoholic. Like 6 liters a week for 2 years. I quit about a week ago after throwing up my intestines for a day after drinking way too much. I'm having trouble sleeping but nothing else. I don't even crave it. I was just drinking to have fun. My liver has got to be ruined but none of the symptoms are showing. Why am I not falling to pieces?

>>1060707

Then you stopped it before it became a problem and hopefully before any real damage was done. You sound like you might have been a "problem drinker" more than likely. It's the stage before alcoholic. You don't need to quit if you're able to moderate, talk to your general practitioner about it to get your vitals if you want to be certain. Maybe see a counselor if you think you'll fall back into it. 2 years isn't too long, so you might be good and caught yourself early, but it's different for everybody. Addiction is insideous like that, you usually don't realize it it until it's too late, and most people won't bring it up because they're too scared or are in denial about it.

Keep it up Anon.

>>10607050
>12 pack
That's a cute buzz, my friend

I can't stop constantly blinking don't know what it means

>>10603802
My 21 birthday I only remember 30 mins of it, drank so much that day, started drinking at noon and I don't remember anythin past 22:00 apparently the party ended at 4 am

>>10607386
The worst part is that I recorded the whole thing recorded but I can't make it past the first 30 mins, I drank wine, beer, tequila, mezcal, vodka, brandy, whisky and some weird drinks my crush made, the thing that killed me was when she told me, you have to drink this (the drink made with tequila and sprite and two other things) for the number of years, and she made made me spin around for the same number

For me? Gotta say it's Pabst. Stop asking me what my favorite beer is, you finally know!

>>10607346
You're dehydrated.

Should I get the Hennessy? Never tried it and I'm usually more of a tequila guy.

>>10603049
i already maintain conversations with myself in my head like i'm lecturing a class or explaining something to a friend, i think being high would make that worse

why the FUCK is liquor so expensive in ontario

what's the cheapest thing I can get at LCBO

I'm breaking out lads
I'm doing it

I drink every other day. And when I drink that night, I go run and exercise

I'm done with being fat and useless
Sometime soon I will stop drinking at all
Fuck you. Fuck drunking

>tfw no money for booze
the 1nd cant come soon enough lads

startin a new job, gonna have a nice navy training sail under my belt for once this year, ill finally be financially solvent once more and can resume wasting all my money on Labatt 10.1

>>10607609
because ontario is a shithole country

t. quebec

>>10607609
I've done the math and as far as I can tell the cheapest thing per alcohol content is Colt 45

>>10607642
Colt 45 is probably your best bet, I just started noticing them around and they're **almost** as cost effective as 10.1 Labatt/Molson, but Colt 45 is so often on sale it usually becomes better

I wish i could have an alcohol IV.

>pass out drunk and comfy
>wake up 5 hours later once alcohol starts wearing off
>feel awful

off topic but does anyone else believe in the paranormal?


I moved into a house 5 months ago that I recently learned from a neighbor two people were killed in (murder suicide).

Hear constant unexplained noises, Especially at night.

Kinda scared right now, I just heard mystery noise from my bedroom and I can't find the source, Sounded like someone dropping a glass

>>10607779
I don't believe in the paranormal
.You think that in the 20 years that cell phone cameras have been the reg that no one has have ever taken a single photo/video of a "ghost"?

Nah. Shit does not exist. Fear of the dark and hallus exist.

Nigga, you're a drunk. You're getting hallus and the Fear.
Recognize that and get over it.

>>10607779
there's no such thing as ghosts and the most likely thing is that your house is shittily built, like all american houses

>>10607692
wait until you get the bright idea of butt chugging vodka with soaked tampons at work

>>10607794
it took me a few tries to read this and figure out wtf it meant because i kept missing "butt" for some reason

>>10607779
What's more likely:

that souls exist, and that there is some in-between world overlapping ours where they then spend eternity making noises in your house just to spook you a little

or: your house has things that make noise

Tried to drown myself while drunk and my sister and law called the popo. Got sent to a hospital psychiatric ward for 8 days and then immediately got drunk the following 6 days. Psych's are so fucking dumb sometimes, they should not have discharged me.

>>10607997
>that souls exist, and that there is some in-between world overlapping ours where they then spend eternity making noises in your house just to spook you a little


I unironically believe this.

I'm a pretty logical person but I just cannot explain some of the noises in this house

>>10608004
Trying to drown yourself is the most retarded way to try to kill yourself.

Jesus Christ, you should be in a hospital. Not because you are a danger to yourself. But because you need basic education

>>10608009
I mean, you're not exactly the smartest while you're wasted out of your mind. I don't have many other means of an hero'ing.

>look up some of my ex's while drunk
>all successful, married, and happy
>i'm living alone, drinking every single day, and my father pays all my bills
>all the feels come back as soon as I see their faces


don't look up your ex's

Hello again my alcoholic friends.

Binge/Problem drinker here again. Usually go through a stupid amount of alc on the weekends (a handle is not uncommon) but mostly abstain on weekdays. Well, that's not good enough it turns out. Life has been slowly but steadily getting worse since I've been drinking. The comfy few hours of drinking and vidya on the weekends is not worth the loss of productivity, weight gain, health decline, and social isolation.

Sober now for 5 days, WDs are gone, not planning on drinking anytime soon. If I do it'll be in strict moderation. Join me brothers.

>>10606393
Keep on detoxing, dingus. Go to sleep, helps speed up the process

>>10608013
I can think of a dozen ways right now.
I'm not going to say them because hey you might try them .

I'm drunk off my ass now too. I'm going to bed now. Not kill myself.

You know that women attempt suicide more than men? But men have 10x the success rate than women?
It's because women do it for attention. Men do it because they want to fucking die.

I'd never try to kill myself unless I wanted to do it right.
Since you clearly were not thinking along those lines, maybe you have something to live for.

I once was in a bad place. A real bad one. I dropped out of college. Not formally. I just stopped going.
I was feeling like shit.

Anyways, I got out of that hole by reading books in a park during the summer.
If you're feeling bad now, I recommend the same. Go to your library. Take out some books.
Read under trees and watch the sky be gloriously blue.

Go read some books outside, man. While you're reading, everything will seem ok

>>10608031
Well, she only found out because my fiance wasn't home and my sister in law works in mental health, so my fiance freaked out and called her.

Either way, I was just in a bad mindset at the time and didn't know what else to do. Thanks for your concern.

Serious question here, how do you guys deal with visceral fat? I couldn't understand why I was only getting fat in the stomach and later learned it's because alcohol and sugar are basically always converted to visceral fat rather than regular fat, that's why you get beer guts. Any other fat fucks here? I'm drinking because of the shame right now.

>>10608046
Pretty sure it just goes away after a while of not drinking.

>>10604787
Dude, that serious you? Nice

Welp, just broke up with a gf of 2 years. This has happened several times before so I know what to expect emotionally. Cheers homies

>>10608226
cheers anon. I have 4.5 hours til the packy opens up. What are you drinking?

>>10608026
10 days dry here, I might be making it a rule to just not keep alcohol in the house

>>10608297
drinking some red wine but I'm going to switch to beer after this glass. hope it's not cold where you're waiting.

>>10603344
No he had it right you fucking retard. You sound too drunk to notice though. low life piece of shit. speak American. Damn Euro trash

>>10602659
>spend all my high school years drinking weekends
>convinced I don't black out
>some persons change his attitude towards me all mondays
>whatever, retards
>one day a friend just explodes "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU SAID THAT, ANON"
>wut.jpg
>then it all comes
>so i have blackouts, huh
>horrible realisation.jpg

I am a little scared about talking with old friends and classmates now

>>10608352
it's not listening to music and waiting. And posting Spatula

>>10603344
Heh, get a load of this guy. Trying to spell right on the internet for internet points. I feel so amazing calling you out on your faggotry that im sexually thrusting my cock into my computer monitor in a sick sexual primal lust. LOL get fucked fag. You must feel like a real fucking moron right now. Man it sucks to be you

>>10608371
Have another drink.

>>10608383
Hey thanks man, I think I'll do that.

I'm the anon who posted a while ago about being gay and not able to deal with it so I drink to suppress it etc etc -- wanted to say that I'm sorry I didn't respond in that thread and I'm glad there are other gay people out here. I appreciate most of the responses but I disagree fundamentally with most of them. Thanks anyway for the commiseration. Cheers to all of you

>>10602691
That's an extreme example.

And I know this will trigger the "DUDE WEED LMAO" fags but I know a guy who sucked cock for weed multiple fucking times.

>>10603243
>maybe switch to weed

DUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE

>>10603439
That's not the walkmen song I know but it's fucking crazy seeing you bring this up.

>>10608416
>That's an extreme example.
this. I like to drink and know many who do. Never known anyone who sucked dick for beer money

>>10603802
It's called blacking out you child.

>>10606233
He obviously didn't fucking use drinking as an excuse to his co workers you moron.

i went out, pre-drinked etc last thing i remember was going to the bar with my gf and her ordering two drinks then me being like no it'll be four then bam wake up with no pants at 10am. found out i vomited all over myself and down my pants. broke my shoes and was walking around with my heels dragging behind my ankles. smashed my ankles bleeding everywhere etc. so fucked couldnt walk and had to be dragged. I'm thinking I should just switch to drugs maybe

>>10602659

>coming home from shopping at like 9pm to make dinner
>random drunk sitting by a road sign mumbling the most random shit and literally sitting in his own vomit/piss

was it one of you guys?

Guys, first time posting here. Somehow my daily intake has crept up to a half bottle (70cl) a night. Do I need to be worried? Is this enough to start causing problem with my body? It been going on and increasing for a little over a year.

>>10608554
Half bottle of whisky*

>>10602659
This is me right now al/ck
Fucking wasted in hospital right now, on the good stuff.
AMA?

week sober. my side is starting to not hurt anymore. I most likely have liver damage. I can't keep relapsing. I know I've taken years off my life. what to do today though?

took 1.5x more lsd than yesterday
spaced .5 and 1 over a few hours (tolerance builds up fast)
smoked one joint of left up bits
planning to drink 3 beers
subscribe to my sciencedirect journal articles for more

>>10608554
dont let it keep creeping.

>>10608559
whyd you go to the hospital?

>>10608570
get a job? do SOMETHING

Anyone else really scared to go to the doctor or get bloodwork done? I know I'm in bad shape but just having that reality laid out in front of me is just terrifying. I worry that i'll go in and they'll tell me I've got a week to live or some shit like that and I'd rather not even know. If I die, I die. I don't want to know when its coming.

>>10608619
yup

>>10608619
my mother had asked me to do it, i was at most borderline for a few issues, but overall good

>>10608597
I had to come to the hospital for pancreatitis.
Catheter up mah dik, never fun.
If I were a Bert man I’d bet 100-1 thatpancrestic cancer gets me in the end. Once you get that it’s about 6 months and then lights out.

>>10608648
how old are you?

>>10608648
My uncle died of pancreatic cancer and he hung in there for a few years but he was in constant, constant pain. Lost the ability to even talk in his last days, it was just terrible to watch.

>>10608592
That's not how lsd works moron your body has an immense tolerance to it for a couple weeks after you dose

>>10608666
>immense
you can take the same dose as you're coming down and trip again. I've done it. not that guy btw

Bip here. When on my high streaks, I retort to booze to calm me down. Not doing really well lately with my meds, nor with my lifestyle. Got some blood test done, and surprisingly everything is okey (blood test done just after a 4 day bender).

I try to use valium and lorazepam to calm me down when not in booze. Always go to the street pennyless to avoid the temptation. Been in rehab (twice). There's one point when it is it or you. I think I've reached that point.

>>10608666
thanks satan glad you care about my research into drugs x

Took this new job where I have to get up at 5.30 every morning. So not only can I not drink during the week anymore (too much risk of sleeping in and getting fired), I've also discovered I am physically incapable of falling asleep before midnight no matter how tired I am.

Been at it a couple months now and I'm seriously going insane, 5 hours sleep a day is simply not enough for me. Forcing myself to go to sleep and then dragging myself out of bed when the sun isn't even up is ultra torture. Fuck this gay earth

>>10608046
Stop drinking at your metabolism will fix it

>>10608331
That's always a good idea. At least in my case.

BTW congrats

>tfw sober and proud of my big solid shits

>>10608701
Do you practise proper sleep hygiene? Good diet, exercise, no caffeine 12 hours before going to bed, lights dimmed and no use of screens an hour before bed et cetera?

>>10608701
Exact same situation here. After three months my immune system was so fucked from lack of sleep that when I got the flu I was in bed for a week. At least I'm not an alcoholic anymore (I think)

>>10608619
Just get it over with. I've been drinking for around 11 years heavily and I was the one in the psych ward for 8 days. I had alcohol induced hepatitis and pancreas damage, plus my immune system was weak. Within a week of being there my levels dropped drastically and I felt way fucking better.

Needless to say I'm sober again and I pray to fuck I don't relapse again. Fuck I hate alcohol.

>>10608824
>>10608701
>no use of screens
Look up f.lux. Did wonders for me.

>>10608651
I’m 40
>>10608658
Yeah I hear it’s horrible.
Third time for me and the recent scan showed a thumbnail sized ‘growth’ there.
Once I heal, I’ll have to get it checked if benign.

Last Thursday night I got really drunk and apparently I was blasting techno at full volume at midnight.
My neighbor said he was knocking on my door and telling me to turn it down and she looked through the window and saw that I was passed out on the couch. She let herself in and turned off my stereo.
I wish she never told me, I'd never had remembered.

>>10608885
>She let herself in and turned off my stereo.
You don't lock your damn doors? What is it with people who do this, you're just asking for it.

>>10608648
>Doctor Loon
well that's unfortunate

>>10608885
>>10608967
This, lock your damn door.

>>10608967
Not much crime happens where I live

>>10608967
If it wasn’t for my wife, my back door would never be locked either.

>NEETbux day
>Liquor store is full of boozebags and derelicts at 10am
>tfw I am now one of them

>>10609013
Do you mingle with them?

>>10609020
Nah, I don't think I have sunk that far yet, I still try to look respectable by showering, shaving, wearing clean clothes and whatnot.

>>10602659
At this point I've stopped reading my text messages. I already know I said something stupid so I'd rather save myself the embarrassment of remembering

>>10609041
When I drunk chat with people I never look at them when I'm sober. It's like reading shit from a completely different person.

>>10609048
Hey, it's okay when you abuse somebody because you're drunk.

>>10609005
what did he mean by this?

>>10609070
I don't abuse people, I just get really dumb and emotional.

>>10609072
I mean I don’t care if the back door is locked or not but my AWLAYS LOCKS IT.

These threads are more pathetic then any r9k thread

>im such an alkie xdd
>another day another handle!!!
>haha fuck my life amirite

Complete degenerates.

>>10609178
There are plenty of alcoholics on /r9k/.

>>10606852
>You don't have cancer if nobody knows you have cancer right

It seems a dry day has passed. Thank God

>>10609178
nah nah r9k is much worse

they literally have people mass murdering others because they are incels

I've stopped drinking for a month and a half now and I still miss it dearly. I can't tell if I'm supposed to miss it or that I hate myself that much that even quitting has not made me feel better. I've been doing more things, I can tell that much but other then that I feel all my relationships are going to shit because I feel they only liked me when I was drunk and they don't like this new sober me.

Someone remind me why drinking sucks.

>>10609048
fucking hell, this. eventually I just started deleting them before I sobered up. fuck knows what people have got sitting in their chat logs from me

>>10602691
So you were following him with a suspicion that he was sucking dicks for booze and you didn't intervene?

>>10609726
You will be depressive for some time after quitting alcohol. It was your mate, your friend in parties, in social events, in sorrow...always offering its malicious shoulder. It's like loosing a "good" friend, but for your own good. It will pass. Stay centered.

>>10609695
step 1 done. onwards!
just remember that each time you manage it but then fuck it up, it trivialises your effort and you'll find it harder and harder, especially with all the brain damage and constant poisonings. hope you can stick with it

>>10609712
i swear if hookers were just legal there'd be no problem. i get stressed as hell if i go long without any delicious gril nutrients, but i can just call one of the thousands of hookers on adultwork and they'll literally be fucking me within an hour for like £120.

Praise the holy chalice! Praise the magic moon water!

>>10606909
Not to me, but it's fairly common. Dual abuse problem: drinking and gambling. Bad news for you, sorry.

Here, the problem is worse, for those who complain about booze prices: a 33cl can is 0,24 euros. So, with 3.60 euros you have your 15 cans, 12 for the day through, 3 for the hair of the doggie while you go to refill tanks, at 3.60 per 15 cans. Cheaper than bread or water.

>>10602670
Exactly what makes you think that?

>>10610173
how the hell is that worse than giving a shitload of money to some millionaire cunt politician every time i get drunk?

>>10610183
I said worse in the sense of being so economically easy to achieve the habit of drunkeness on a daily and economically sustainable basis.

>>10610192
i'd have achieved it some way or another, evidently. fuck paying £16 for 70cl (60p/unit (10ml ethanol)) of vodka though even if it did keep a few poor people sober.
which actually it wouldn't have, because they get drunk for 23p/unit on shit like frosty jacks. they do however spend literally all of their money on it, eat exclusively from foodbanks and live generally horrific lives. taxing those people is retarded, they won't stop, it'll just make their lives a lot harder and poorer and make them want to drink more. i bet shoplifting and hard drug use is rocketing in scotland right now after their stupid new booze tax.

>>10610221
I must humbly agree with you on that point. The poor need to have some kind of legal drug. Their lives are too miserable to be stood being dry.

>>10610247
i don't understand why any drugs are illegal tbqh. i mean it's not like people aren't using them all anyway, criminalising them means the drug quality/purity control in the hands of criminals, that the most unhappy, damaged people in society are put in prison in the hope that all that years of punishment will make them happier, society spends hundreds of millions on policing and imprisoning people, and people have their entire careers ruined because they got arrested aged 17 with a joint. the wart on drugs is the most embarrassing failure in human history, the law on drugs is more harmful than all of the drugs combined.

Well, in my country drug possession of any kind up to certain amounts, depending on the drug, is not a serious offence. Dealing it is. Anyhow, I am sure you agree with me in the fact that drug abuse, including legal drugs, brings serious social problems. Behaveoural, clinical (which are a big budget eater on clinical public services), etc. So, what's the solution? Hard on drugs has proven not to be (let's examine the inmate population growth in the US). Paliative care, taking it as a case of someone with a chronic illness seems to prove better results, and expels more people from the drug world (which we all know is an underworld). Anyhow, it's a deep and difficult issue, involving many actors in society. And it could happen that none of them are legit.

>>10610340
I meant "not all of them"

>>10610340
>>drug abuse bring social problems.
I'm not sure it's so simple. A lot of people turn to drugs *because* of problems. And a lot of the problems with drugs have to do with the fact that they are illegal and thus of unknown potency and purity.

Does melatonin actually help you guys sleep? Because I've taken it before and all it did was make me wake up in about 4 hours with insane psychosis.

>>10610356
Never tried it. The traditional approach is taking long acting benzos such as valium or zolpidem on a controlled basis, and then taper them off. Then healthy lifestyle and healthy social relationships.

>>10610340
I think we should stop pedestalizing ignorant politicians who know fuck all about drug addiction, but to whom we give absolute power over drug law. Science-based policy is non-existent, it's all just on the whim of the millionaire Etonian fuckhead who happens to be in office. The last time a scientist showed something non-damning about drugs, Professor David Nutt it was, they fired him. They use science to try to prove that it's harmful, it's policy based science, not science based policy. Besides, the damn stats speak for themselves, drug laws cost so fucking much that every person in the damn country will probably retire a decade later than they otherwise could were we not paying for this shit. Criminalising drug use and having the police deal with addicts is utterly retarded anyway. It makes them worse every time, it fills the world with increasingly unhappy recidivists, all at great expense to the taxpayer.
People already have access to drugs. If they want to use them they will. Forcing them to buy poor quality shit of unknown purity from some random criminal on the street, then putting them in prison and giving them a criminal record. No reason for it, no benefit to it, extremely expensive, responsible for the criminalisation of tens of thousands of otherwise law-abiding citizens in the uk, plus it doesn't fucking work anyway, people still use drugs, just more dangerous and more expensive ones than they would if they were legal.

>>10610353
I agree with you. It's the snake biting its own tail on that.

>>10610353
>unknown potency and purity.
yeah it's savage. only the strongest, most easy to conceal shit gets smuggled. same with alcohol prohibition, people no longer chilled with a beer, it was 90 proof moonshine every time, sometimes with some nice methanol mixed in. if you want to chill with a couple of light opiates, you can't. all dealers have is heroin, and increasingly, fentanyl and even carfentanyl, an elephant tranquilliser which will kill you if you so much as touch it. this shit gets mixed with heroin in uncontrolled amounts, and it's ridiculously easy to overdose, i've done so myself. can't dose safely if you don't know what the dose is. same old shit every time, make it illegal and the quality goes down, price goes up, and you've very little control over what you're getting.

Dude the psychosis is so bad I'm barely holding face in front of my family. No sleep no food for days and I'm still hitting the bottle.

If I wasnt a jobless burger with no insurance, would probably have checked into the hospital already. My mental faculties are gone beyond holding half a conversation.

>>10610520
You should check into one anyway. I've done so while shit faced out of my goddamn mind. I could barely even speak.

>>10610529
What's worse is one second I feel slightly coherent and even good, then a minute later my mind blanks the fuck out. And I'm scared of everyone my grandmother even made my nerves go insane when she came through the door.

Gonna drive my young cousin to tutoring and try not to kill us both.

>>10610520
buy a pack of valium on derpweeb, throw away all booze, buy a weeks worth of easy to prepare foods, post your bank card to yourself then lock the door. drinking when you're in that state will get you locked up

>>10610570
>Gonna drive my young cousin to tutoring and try not to kill us both.

>>10610604

Good luck with your DUI, your sleeping at the pen, the forever lasting impression on your cousin...and that in the best case scenario anon

fuck me. 'she' just emailed. its been 4 months since we spoke and the last thing i said to her was that if she contacted me again i'd kill her and her husband.

>>10610604
It's a mental test of will, and no one in the family likes him anyway. I'm not actually that hammered atm, just going insane.

>>10610643
you sound sane. i never realise at the time that i'm insane, it all feels perfectly justifiable, it's only after extended periods of sobriety that i can reflect on how completely batshit i'd become. you do sound on the brink though, isn't fun going over the edge, it's hard enough just watching someone else do it.

>>10610648
I can pull myself together somewhat around people like some weird social pressure. But by myself it's auditory hallucinations, screaming or blurting randomly out loud, and jumping at shit in the corner of my eye.

I'm not even that lonely either, have friends and family that care about me so can't chalk it up to robot prison insanity

>>10610641
...why did you put "she" in quotes anon

>>10610707
somebody got schlonged

>>10610707
because we've been into eachother for something like 12 years. she got married but months later still mails me, even when i threaten her if she doesn't fuck off. i've done pretty much exactly the same thing to her in the past. only girl i've loved, didn't even know what it was before her, certainly fucking did soon thereafter. we drive eachother crazy but even as the decades tick by we can't stay away. talking to her is probably more damaging than fucking drinking.

>>10610724
Commendable that you're trying to get away at least mate. I've been there.

>>10610743
oh i need to get away. as soon as we start speaking again it all kicks off. i'm not drinking so far in 2018 so i'll probably be able to resist responding. if i was drunk now i'd probably be well on my way to being arrested.

>>10610763
You're on the right path. Don't mean to sound patronising but when she sends you shit, could you just delete it without reading it? I know it's not easy but curiosity killed the cat right?

>>10610724
>probably talking to her is worse than drinking

Been there, and you've just hit the point.

>>10602694
Sometimes it's nice to talk to people who can relate without being bombarded with pity/anger/judgement. There's plenty of that in real life.

>>10610787
i could i suppose. i fucking love her though mang, plus she's blatantly still into me. for all i know she's mailing me about her imminent divorce and need for comforting. plus it feels weird thinking she's gone forever.
nm. i've got loads of weed. i'm gonna see what happens if i smoke a gram of oil in one joint, maybe the throwing up will take my mind off her.

>>10608648
Fuck me. Moved to ICU today. Heart rate was almost 200.
Now I’m chilling at 130
Ama?

>>10610823
I don't know the story but even from what you've said here it sounds like you two are poison to each other. Even if she did call you tomorrow and say 'oh anon, it was you all along!' could you really see having any kind of normal life with her if you've been to the point of death threats? Just keep up what you've been doing and eventually time will heal it.

>>10610823
you're in deep shit my man, try to ride the wave

>>10610724
>talking to her is probably more damaging than fucking drinking.
They say relationships, being in love with someone and then losing them can be even harder than their death.

>>10610831
>200
jesus. i had a pulse rate of 180 twice in my life, once when i took steroids and ran up Marlow hill, and once after 2 days with no booze after binging for months. Tachycardia i think docs call it, it's a nice accompaniment to my palpitations and sleep apnea, all of which are massively exacerbated by drug/booze addiction. Love it

>>10603228
If you stayed at that amount, not horrible. Not healthy, but chances are you'd be ok.

It's really subtle how it progresses though, and you won't realize until you're drinking at least double that every day of every week and you're mentally fucked. But at that point it's the only reliable source of comfort in your miserable existence and you can't stop even though you know with every sip you're fucking yourself over.

>>10610845
i don't want her to die. i do want her to fuck off, but i don't want her to be uncomfy in doing so, and i do want there to be a teeny tiny micro-possibility that one day we'll be able to talk without trying to fuck eachother to death or just kill eachother.
whatever man, i have the short term memory of a goldfish when i'm high, so shortly i won't care.

>>10610845
It sounds melodramatic but it really is like grief that never quite goes away because you know they're still out there somewhere. Very tough to deal with, takes a long long time.

>>10607050
Therapy is very useful for those with little self-awareness or low intelligence.

>>10610892
even more so for lazy, intelligent people that couldn't be bothered to make anything of themselves. The only time therapy isn't useful is when you attempt it on a sociopath, a pathological liar or someone with borderline personality disorder

>>10610873
I'm not saying you want her to die, I'm just saying how painful it can be.

>>10610888
Yeah, it's a pretty awful feeling. I'm in no way suggesting someone dying is easy to deal with by any means, just that losing someone to break ups and whatnot can be absolutely excruciating.

I'm drinking a very scientific beer right now guys

>>10611003
do elaborate, professor

>>10610949

pedophiles are incurable as well.

>tfw drinking the warm, flat, stale half beers I've had open for days in my room

Does it get any better lads?

>>10611016
nothing an intensive course of lead administered to the cerebellum can't cure

>>10607076
Because people tend to experience things differently and it really depends on your immune system and how your body handles certain drugs. That said, perhaps a blood test is in order for you?

Got a job interview landed. No idea how I'll make rent, but whatever

>>10611013
It's called cause & effect
"a miracle of science"

Humorous how Hurricane High Gravity is the best tasting malt liquor I've tried. Always seen it as hobo swill, which it is, but it's leagues above shit like OE that only got popular because Eazy-E rapped about it.

>>10611017
You should just tighten the noose already m8

>>10611042
yeah old english is absolute trash. especially their high gravity equivalent. I do enjoy king cobra.

>>10611049
>t. spoiled millennial who feels no moral revulsion at wastefulness

I switched to drinking vodka and soda with a little lime because I'm counting calories and this shit is lethal. You actually feel less sick the more you drink. Vodka should not feel this healthy and refreshing.

>>10611070
>Vodka should not feel this healthy and refreshing.
Well it certainly isn't. I hate to burst your bubble.

>>10611070
Vodka actually makes me think more clearly

>>10611075
hence 'feel' and not 'actually be'

>>10602659
Think I might be drunk atm. tried twisting the cap off a bottle of gin for a few seconds then realized there was no cap on it.

>>10611098
Sounds like a pretty good indicator to me.

Has anyone ever spilled their booze in the middle of the night when the stores are closed? Worst shit ever.

>>10611119
That's why I always buy more than I can spill

>invite some friends over
>"Anon, do you just have us over for an excuse to drink?"
The jig is up.

>>10611143
>buy more than I can spill

I'm imagining your room literally packed wall to wall with bottles so there isn't enough space for any of them to go horizontal

>>10610570
Update. Dropped my cousin off successfully with no collisions or people honking at me. Now I just have to pick him up

>>10602659
stayed over at cousins and her husbands house, with there 3 kids over the weekend. I'm great with the kids, but drink heavily around them. they never said shit about the drinking the entire time, they even drank with me. so I wake up, and he is yelling that there is "water on the floor." I guess i pissed in the living room hard wood and passed out on there couch. but he says it didn't smell like piss. Anyways, long story short, I'm not allowed to go back there anymore, and I don't really give a shit. I gave them a lot of help when they needed it. Then sunday night i fooled around with my buddies girlfriend. it was fun as fuck at the time, but I have been overcome with guilt for the past few days and trying to lay low. We agreed to take this secret to out graves. I was just fuckin wasted. Oh ya, I punched some guy out that tried to pull my knapsack off me. I punched him out in the middle of a busy street. didn't get arrested thank god. someone was filming him fucking with me so there is that. my problem is my behavior gets significantly worse the more days i drink straight through. Like, on day 3, i'm really not myself. i say and do stupid things. fuck me

>>10611161
Good to know you're both alive.

>>10611166
goddamn my man slow it down a little. have a sandwich and a glass of water once in a while. funny though

>>10611042
my rule of thumb for hurricanes was to never start with it. Get a few beers deep and then switch over once you have enough of a buzz to drink it without overthinking the fact that you're chugging a malt liquor. Another controversial opinion, the regular 6% hurricane is superior to the 8.2% high gravity version

>>10611166
>on day 3, i'm really not myself.
yeah i get an increasingly irrational, angry buildup of rage the more i drink. symptomatic of some cumulative effect scream for help from an internal organ i expect.

>>10611221
>symptomatic of some cumulative effect scream for help from an internal organ i expect.
kek, nice

>>10610949
First part is me. I just don't care enough to make something of myself and am uninterested in life beyond video games. It's a miracle I only drink and haven't turned to hard drugs yet just from the boredom of having to go through the motions of life. Keep wishing I just don't wake up but here I am. Side hurts so hopefully only a few more years of this before dying of "natural" causes.

I feel like my worldview has lightened up a lot the last few months lads. I'm still drinking too much but it's become fun again instead of just wallowing in bitterness and hatred at the world. I was pretty far gone too, amazing how these things cycle over as you go through life.

>be driving home from taking care of business
>start getting spasm in the back of my head
>realize im withdrawing
>stop at beer store to get a 6pack
>get home and immediately drink

ive reached this point in my life. When this is all over im not drinking heavily ever again, i may damn well just quit all together. i had no problem for nearly 7 hours, so i dont think im that bad. but these next few days may be difficult.

>>10608021
Wat the hell pay ur own damn bills u loser

>>10608969
How did a bird get through medical school without thumbs?

man my hearing is so shot. I'm wearing headphones like a good boy so the (((neighbours))) don't complain again and my computer just doesn't go loud enough. I need that 'punch' in my ears, this is like screwing with 3 condoms on

Am I the only one who alcohol launches further in life? It fans the flames on the fire of success and it just seems when I achieved something, I open a bottle to congratulate myself and get even more fired up.

I feel like most of this thread is full of people that use it for numbness instead of fueling off of emotions to burn forward path ahead.

>>10611324
I veer between what you're describing and the sad tramp life. You're right that these generals are full of self-indulgent sad sacks though, I put it down to relative inexperience.

>>10611338
Do you want to share?

I'm going to listen.

>>10611338
>these generals are full of self-indulgent sad sacks though
What exactly do you expect? not only are we on 4chan which is full of depressed people, but you throw in an alcohol addiction too and it tends to get worse.

>>10611407
nah I'm not in a bloo-blooing mood, feeling pretty good and plenty of stuff to plan for. I'm just borrowing some fun from tomorrow 'cause it's my day off. Thanks for asking though.

>>10611435
That wasn't a knock on you lads, this is the best general on 4chan. You have to admit though it is a bit of a pity party sometimes and I think most of us are seasoned enough to hold it together more than that.

>>10611451
I mean I guess. But it really does help to read other people's stories going through similar things.

this feel right

I have an important presentation tomorrow that I really need to ace, so I don't want to be drinking tonight. Yesterday I thought "well since I don't want to run the risk of fucking myself up tomorrow 'cause I know I'll try to drink if booze is available, why don't I finish off all my whiskey tonight so I won't be tempted to drink it tomorrow!"

I am a fucking idiot.

>>10611461
True, but equally I know from experience that going totally to jelly is not helpful unless you're really in the middle of a crisis. I dunno man, I know what I mean but now I just sound like an asshole going 'dur hur suck it up buttercups'. I just think it's important to hold at least a little bit back for the sake of personal pride.

>>10611476
How many hours have you got if you sleep now?

>>10611484
Oh, no, I did all that drinking yesterday, so I've already paid for it. The presentation is tomorrow. Still, I was really stupid for thinking that was a good idea.

>>10611324
Alcohol used to get me through plenty of obstacles but it doesn't work anymore. I still drink as much as I can basically though.

Is it true that alcohol tolerance is related to how much weight you have? That always sounded like bullshit to me, like I'm sure alcohol doesn't politely distribute itself across your mass, but I'm sure it hits me harder now I'm relatively thin and healthy. Maybe I was just such a fat stupid greasy cunt before I didn't notice the booze relative to all the sludge in my body anyway.

>>10611480
Nah, you don't sound like an asshole man. I get where you're coming from, but I think a lot of us just kind of use this place to vent. I know from personal experience trying to hold shit in can lead to a fucking nasty blowup.

>>10611619
I know, and chances are I'll be back here soon enough getting my misery on. I'm just feeling positive lately and I see so many people on here who are obviously pretty smart and put together aside from the 'lism pointlessly crying their nights away. It's like, just grit your teeth and deal right? I dunno.

>>10611592
you're an idiot. shut up.

>>10611672

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7syJJrsmrts

in the hospital right now. that car rekt me.

hospital overloaded with browns and fags. i take the back burner being an upstanding dope fiend. good thing I popped some hydro

>>10611760
sorry if you already told it but

>story time?

one more for good kessure

>>10610787
>curiosity killed the cat
but satisfaction brought him back

>>10611119
Lived with a hXc alky who was my gfs brother. Hated the kid. I also had a cat that was awesome. Spooky cat-she knew who liked and hated me. He would mix vodka and soda and freeze it so he could sip on it until the stores would open. Except kitty would hide and right when it was melted enough to drink she'd sneak out of nowhere and knock it over. And if he had ever laid a hand on that cat I would have shotgunned him in the face and he knew it. Still got the kitty and the girl. He's dying after being cured for hep twice. When people say that cats don't care about you-well maybe mine is an outlier but besides antagonizing my enemies she actually kept my house from burning down but that's another story.

>>10611903
>she actually kept my house from burning down

Def want to hear this one.

>>10611911
Checked. Do you care if it's greentext? Cuz I don't feel like doing that.

>>10611946
Would be preferred because I'm a bit buzzed right now but as long as it's not a messy wall of text

>>10611946
I always thought greentexting was easier to type out/read.

Im not drinking tonight even after all of the suicidal thoughts all day at work!

>>10611964
24 hours at a time lad.

>>10611984
NEW THEAD----->>
>>10611984
NEW THREAD----->>
>>10611984
NEW THREAD----->>

>>10611911
Fuck it.
My girl scored some benzos st her work-like 90 mils for 30 bux. I came home from work with a cube of Natty as a thank you from my boss for blasting out some shit work and a 50 dollar supermarket giftcard. Come home with beer and food-decided we could make fajitas. We eat a handful of Xanax and drink ice cold swill bux light and have a lot of fun. Didn't blackout but stumble into bed,we cuck hard and pass out. Left the fucking burners on high. Two of them. Kitty is meowing st the bedroom door. Fuck You kitty. She's never done it before but kitty figures out how to open the door and is batting me around and meowing. Fuck You kitty toss her away. Does it enough that I get up and she runs to the kitchen and sits in front of the stove. Heat hits me like a wall. FUCK-the bottom of the cabinets are singed. Turn off burners,open windows and pour water on the elements,give kitty a can of tuna which is rare because she gets addicted to human food and won't eat her food so she knows she did good. Go to sleep next to my girl with my other girl laying on my back. That cat is awesome.

>>10612063
The hero of the story.

What happens if you take a lot of tylenol and drink a lot of alcohol? Will I die? Will it be extremely painful?

>>10612218
yes it will be a long and very painful way to die