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Don't drink as much anymore but steadily, slowly drink for 12 hours at a time these days throughout what I'm doing.

THERE'D STILL BE JETS, THERE'D STILL BE SUPERCOMPUTERS AND SO ON

>wake up
>eat some leftovers
>go back to sleep

living the life

having my lunchtime drink :) the staff are so nice, I just walk in and they pour a stella and a double bells, no questions asked. altho I live in constant fear of someone from the office walking in and seeing me

Any of you guys got alcoholic psychosis?

I have to keep it together and wait for the landlord's maintenance guy to come through my flat in the next hour or so. Feeling pretty smug that I recently cleaned the place up and I don't have to be ashamed.

>these are the wins I take these days

I did a lot of bad shit last night

>>10497301
kek how bad? I managed to keep it civilised for a change last night

I wish I had a friend to watch movies with while drunk

>tfw you are about two hours away from the start of this feel

I live 400km away on both sides almost exactly to a capital city and I have my new car. I don't want to be here in the morning due to an argument. decisions decisions.

What extract available at Walfart does Al/ck/ recommend? Can't get liquor due to circumstances.

>>10497301
I know that feel. Couple of weeks ago I drunkenly texted a guy that I was in rehab with who knew I was gay and had a giant penis and would like to show it off and asked him to send me a pic. Remembered the next morning and proceeded to delete his number and masturbate. I still cringe when I think about it.

Just get drunk again and turn your phone off. Eventually you'll forget it or you'll just get drunk again and forget it.

>>10497359

Lol faggots are gross

>>10497367
Oh shit, you really wounded my feelings.

I think I'll, continue drinking and shitpost on a mongolian pencil drawing website.

>>10497359
The first time I went into a detox program I was introduced to this skinny tweaker first then went to my room and got set up as he was leaving. The second guy I spoke to was a heroin addict getting detoxed for jail who commented 'I hope you didn't shake hands with that weird queer faggot who left'. Having done meth I totally understand that statement. Keep your fucking filthy hands off people ya filthy faggots. I don't want your GAIDS.

I'm finally doing it, I'm going to a meeting. Its getting out of hand, and I just got pulled over for the third time and now my long time girlfriend won't talk to me and is just calling me a liar.

I'm finally admitting I have a problem but I'm afraid its going to be too late. I've lost so many friends, starting to hear people are getting worried but don't say anything to my face, and have had a number of issues at jobs because of it. But now I'm afraid the love of my life is abandoning me and I should not have been a coward and admitted this a long time ago.

>>10497370

Considering the speed of response, I think I did.

>>10497444
No one will ever love a quitter

I'm doing good so far not drinking. As long as I keep busy. I have a ton of college shit to work on and its the last week of finals. No time for drinking. I can make it past this week and then who knows where I can go? I'm thinking I'm free.

I had two glasses of beer yesterday at a dinner but that was it. Enough is enough, I have put on like thirty -five pounds in two years.

Uni break is over so I better stop the binges.

>>10497444

You type like you're drunk right now. Just a guess. But it's probably obvious to everyone around you. Don't delude yourself for a second.

Do it. Do the right thing, don't lose the important things. Do what you know in your heart to be right. I believe in you, anon, I want you to be a good, happy person.

just got a message saying I don't have to work til wednesday. that shit had me on edge, I was waiting to be called in like right now. now I can relax I'm going to hit the shop for some rum and a sandwich and slide messily into the evening

>>10497444
AA is good in my experience. Haven't started the program yet but it's valuable to meet other people who know what it's like. Good luck buddy, I hope you make the most of it.

>>10497453
She still loved me after the first DUI, the second time I ran into something and I dont know what it was, and this third time getting pulled over but I was lucky enough to have a gold card on me, but she had to come out on a Thursday night to pick my drunk ass up.

This of course does not even count the numerous fights we've had over a six year time period, some that got even physical.

>>10497470
I'm not drunk right now, but I'm afraid that it won't even matter, but I still have to do it no matter what happens and stick with it because I can never stop drinking once I start. Even after the pullover incident and my girlfriend throwing me into bed, I woke up the next day and immediately started drinking, of course I had to rummage through the house because she hid the booze. I was afraid she would find out so my drunk mind thought I could pull the old highschool drink and just add some water to it to thin it out, but of fucking course she wasn't fooled. I should've sought help years ago.

>>10497482
>gold card
Is that a car thing? Like a road service or insurance?

>>10497498
No, its a honorary card thing that some police departments do, and generally indicate a familial relationship with a cop and essentially means that the cop vouches for you in the case you get into a bind with another cop. Most of the time if you're not doing anything really shitty, the cops will left you off with a soft warning. Gold cards are a lifetime thing, unless you fuck up badly like I did again.

>>10497533
Damn. That is kinda cool but kinda crazy. Please be kond to yourself but AA works.

>>10497186
You can do better than bells m8

haha! it's enough that I won't die!

>>10497533
How the fuck is that allowed?

>>10497562
It varies state to state, but God bless New Jersey. I was actually surprised when I learned that this didn't happen much elsewhere in the US.

Succesful taper, wake up with no pounding heart and 2 beers, oh well, now on beer 5 and want to get more, will try and hold on.
Damn I want to aim for another 14 day break and start going to the gym.

Those that said switch to red wine, it fucks my stomach, no one should drink red wine when it is over 25C, also one bottle isn't enough and I ended up mixing it with beer, perhaps thats why i got a dogey stomach, hangovers and dehydration.

I can drink 5-6 litres of beer and not get hangovers.

>>10497571
Beer has more nutritional value than wine in terms of fibre, iron, B vitamins etc, and more fluid per unit of alcohol means you're staying more hydrated.

who /thirdshift/ here? just got off of work at 7, enjoying some brews while the sun rises before I sleep later, it's a really comfy feel

>>10497399
It's GRID if you want to use antiquated terms.

>>10497452
You responded to my initial post much faster than I responded to yours, but go ahead and project dipshit.

>>10497549

>a bean hot pocket

What the FUCK is it with Brits and beans? Jesus.

>>10497663
we do like beans I don't know eitgher it's just what we do. and it's like thick puff pastry, not shitty thin batter like a hotpocket

everyone in earshot can suck it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=af59U2BRRAU

>>10497549
damn I wanna try this

woof lads I bought another bit to come down with but it's waking me up and making me feel drunk again.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr8ljRgcJNM

>>10497546
true, but I used to drink it a lot when I was younger so I enjoy the familiar taste

>>10497301
and i hope karma avenges by crippling you and robbing you every last drop of will to live

seeing mate not seen in a while tonight so ill be boozing
when the night is done need to come home and go to bed instead of wondering around for another pub thats open or carrying on when i get home till 5am
bring on the spleen and chest pains

>>10497929
not that you asked lad but I'd advise you try and take it easy. take him somehwere good to eat and have a few expensive beers or something instead of getting annihilated. I wish I'd done the same when my mates got back in touch but now they all think I'm a drunk retard, which I am

>>10497567
Of course it's new Jersey
No one else likes you goobers

>>10497352
Parents won't buy it for you?

>>10497939

the only a couple of pints while watching football and chatting shit is easy
its when he leaves and im left to make my own entertainment - thats when it might go to shit

>>10497960
Yeah its called being an alcoholic welcome to the club. If you got to go out, put yourself in a situation that forces you to mind yourself. only bring a certain amount of hard cash and leave debit cards at home etc.

>>10497969
listen to this guy and drink as much water as you can stomach. And just, I dunno, behave yourself

>>10497979
>I dunno, behave yourself.

If you've got an actual problem, you literally can't.

>>10497982
well try then, fucksake

>>10497986
I'm >>10497444

And trust me, just trying doesn't cut it after awhile.

>>10497988
just trying isn't enough, you need some structure behind it, but obviously that doesn't mean you stop trying altogether. cheer up man

pissed myself and vomitted everywhere, it was a good night.

>>10498072
>everywhere

my room is clean, you have failed

Is world too much for you people?

>>10498129
yes world is too much please explain further

>>10498146
There's a finnish saying that goes something like: "if the world is too much for you drink alcohol. If the world isn't enough then you use drugs."

Do you really not understand what is meant with world being too much? Are you stupid

>>10498167
What does it mean when I drink an unhealthy amount and dabble in drugs?
It makes me normal?

>>10498167

stop bullying, its pushing me to drink

>>10498207
I don't fucking know I'm no shrink. I guess you can't stand being sober. World is too much for you but then you try to see it through a different lens from time to time and then you return to booze.

>>10498208
Sorry senpai. It means something like you're tired of it all want to feel numb, can't be sober as it feels too close to reality or some shit like that I don't know. It's from an old tv show

>girl comes over
>start drinking
>normie tolerance leaves her FUCKED UP pretty quickly
>just have to act as fucked up even though I feel basically sober
>can get away with whatever I want

Being an alcoholic is BASED as long as you're young

>>10497306
I kept it civilised last night too for once, didn't do a single thing that was fucked up but I drank for longer and drank more, ironically.

>>10497678
Damn. What a classic. I mean, Herzeleid is still their best album, not even remotely kidding, but it's been a real long time since 2005 with this album. Fuck.

Been much better straying off the sauce lately, but all it too was a few glasses of wine with someone I was hosting on Tuesday and here I am next week Monday having just managed to ween myself over this morning. I wish i could be normal and just enjoy alcohol like a normal person without every time turning into a 5 day bender, but it does something to me that makes me just keep carrying on. Its a miracle I havent been arrested either, for some reason alcohol makes me do ballsy shoplifting which I would never do sober. I also woke up surrounded by 6 boxes of co-codamol and promethazine which I dont remember taking, so I must have been high on as well as being drunk, and it looks like it took a stupid amount as well, probably not a great idea combining 3 CNS depressants together I would think.

And thank you to whoever enlightened me about phenibut on this board. The WDs this morning were like hell, shaking, heart palpitations, the lot, but I took 3 grams of the stuff I just received from nootropics depot and the fear was gone. Its not quite as effective as xanax for WDs but the fact I can order it online without having to go on the dark web makes it a fantastic discovery.

Been on a shitload of opiates for the last year and stopped cold turkey last week to see if I could.
I can, but fucking hell, it's no picnic. Not at all.
That shit you read about oxycodone being "redneck heroin" ain't no joke. I was very obviously an actual addict.
I'd rather deal with the pain than go back on that shit.
Couldn't even keep down a few shots of whisky for the first couple days. It's better now (day 6) but the stomach is churning.

Do not, do NOT, get hooked on this shit as well as or instead of the boose.

Next month will be six months sober. You can do this. Don't punish yourself like this.
I was watching this Nextflix documentary, Britains Fattest People. And we are just like them. I was laughing at them and I realized I am no different. They can't control how much they eat just like I can't control how much I drink.
Anyways, life gets better. Try being sober for just two weeks. Give yourself two weeks and if you don't like it go back to the bottle. Obviously taper or detox first so you don't see the shadow people.

>>10497704
The Keine Lust video is an all time classic video as well.

>>10497567
Used to live in NJ. Of course family of the cops need them. The cops are out to get you there. I'm glad I live in Florida where the cops only come when you call them.

>>10497049
Link it if you would please, I've been being eluded by this thing. I just want to see where it comes from.

>>10498167
I was only joking mate I'm just finshing up a bender and feeling silly as fuck. No harm intended

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr8ljRgcJNM

honestly how much vodka does it take to put me down. I feel like a big white rhino stumbling around full of tranquiliser darts. just let me rest you shits

just stop drinking you retards

>>10498518
by jove she's got it

>>10498518

So do the rest of you drink every day? Im probably technically an alcoholic but I drink in benders then give it a week or so, once I get to day 5 of a bender I cant drink a beer without throwing it back up, I also start crapping my pants after about 5 days so the indignity of that makes me realise what the hell I'm doing and stop.

>>10498518
do have a phd in medicines?

I went to a bar last night with my sister and apparently made an ass out of myself.

She told me I made a joke about raping some woman at the bar and dropped too many redpills at the bartender.

THIS is why I never go to bars, I need to be alone and in my house when I'm drinking

>>10498841

you didn't kill anyone, it'll be fine

>>10498872
can you imagine waking from a blackout, to micromemories of having killed someone? maybe waking in a cell? gah, why does booze make us feel like it's the last night on earth

>>10498872
>>10498881
I have killed. But I was sober at the time and I guess it's part of why I drink.
It's not as haunting as you might expect. It's more about people expecting you to be haunted by it I guess.

>>10498906
ok Frank simmer down

>>10498906
i wouldn't necessarily be that haunted desu. it's the legal consequences which would horrify me.

>>10497015

>>10497015
>>10498976

>>10497015
>>10498976
>>10498983
SMOKE WEED

>>10498915
I don't get it
>>10498926
Yeah, I don't have to worry about some cops arresting me for it but that really would make me nervous.
>>10498976
Nobody here thinks he's improving his health, retard

>>10498990
No weed makes me paranoid and vomit suck my dick.

>>10498997
Yeah, I wish weed could mellow me out but I puke like a motherfucker on that stuff.
It's either alcohol or opiates for me. Weed would be way less damaging.

>>10498990
someone should edit the weed to be shreds of grass

>>10497444
They're not that bad. I go about 3-4 times a week. Get connected with some people you identify with and it's pretty helpful. I'll have 2 months tomorrow.

Don't let the first meeting throw you off. A lot of people say really dumb shit and just repeat slogans that seem pretty empty to me. I can't stress how important it is to get connected with people as soon as possible. If you're really an alcoholic you'll start to feel better after a few weeks, convince yourself that WD's and shit wasn't that bad and you'll go back. When you go back the drinking will be worse.

A lot of the shit seems pretty strange at first. Calling random people to check in, reading a book with a grown man, doing shit you don't want to etc. It seems silly but what it's doing is changing how you think and your risk/reward system.

Good luck anon.

>>10498990
caffeine or kratom would be the "most helpful", but enjoy your little weed phase, Jaiden

>>10497982
>literally can't

Fuck off, you make your choices.

>>10497015
Okay I need to forgot someone, that I'll never see again.
What do I need to drink?

>>10499511
>A lot of the shit seems pretty strange at first. Calling random people to check in, reading a book with a grown man, doing shit you don't want to etc. It seems silly but what it's doing is changing how you think and your risk/reward system.
lol I'd rather die a slow alcohol soaked death

>>10499775
It's pretty gay at times, not gonna lie, but i'm better than I was while drinking and i actually have money for once.

>>10499775
agreed
it's so bad

Any simple recommendations for white rum drinks?

>>10499915
College guy with a limited budget.

>>10499915
Rum + enough water to not burn your mouth and throat.

>>10497444
>but I'm afraid its going to be too late.

Dude...go to a meeting. There's people who have literally lost EVERYTHING there, I mean, not just a few either, a fucking lot of them. I mean, everything including limbs and organs and skin. I'm not a big meeting guy, but one thing they're good for is you will ALWAYS find somebody who's way worse off than you, who can still stay sober.

>>10499915
rum
are you some type of pussy?

>>10499915
add ginger beer

>>10499915

add vodka

Got an interview planned tomorrow. Drink or no?

>>10500051
I want to experiment a bit. I usually stick with whiskey and vodka.

>>10500090

You're going to drink either way, idiot.

Fell in love with the bartender girl. Thinking about asking her out on a date on thursday. Should i do it? Im around a lot of vert attractive women, but i really like this particular girl.

>>10500090
Just have a couple

>>10500119
If she says no would you feel awkward going back to that same bar?

>>10500138
No, I will not feel awkward because I won't feel heart broken if she says no. I have the sense though that she probably already has a bf.

just quit a 8mg a day xanax habit in ten days. only had one seizure.

>>10498235
dude don't fucking rape people

>>10500119
its worth a shot
dont ask her though, tell her "hey im doing X tomorrow so if you got time you should join me"

>>10499511
>someone saved my shitpost about your dick still working at the alck party

>>10500013
>find somebody who's way worse off than you, who can still stay sober
This is absolutely, unequivocally true. If this can be a motivator to you, you will find that motivator.

>tfw you ruined another carpet by vomiting on it

First meeting went well enough, the thought of permanently being sober sucks kinda but it's important enough to me to never fuck up again.

Who else here Dan Murphy's every day?

feeling some quite heavy aftermath lads. I really appreciate these threads, it actually makes some difference having you guys to talk to

>>10497015

I'm tapping out for now lads. I've spent a good portion of the past 5 years blacked out and my body and mind are paying for it. I think I need a good 2-3 month break before I can drink a few and not feel like my liver is swelling.

>>10497482
Fucking hell, man. Get your shit together or you could kose her forever, stop fighting over inane shit and seek solutions rather than drowning in problems.

>>10500752
It's gay, but that whole "1 day at a time" thing sorta helps. It's the one slogan there that sort of helps for me. Don't think about forever. Just work on staying sober for today.

As of right now I've got 2 months sober with going to a few meetings a week. What freaks me out is that I keep forgetting I'm an alcoholic. Like I feel pretty normal for the most part. I can't forget though, because one drink and the fucking roller coaster starts all over.

Glad that first meeting went well anon. Keep it up.

>>10501210
you could lose any woman at any time forever just by being yourself, drinking or not drinking

Anyone else date women and then turn them into temporary alcoholics?

Dated one chick for a year: she always liked to drink and may have a problem but with me she gained like 30 pounds and was a total wreck. The whole meme about having a goofy al/ck/ gf quickly becomes very annoyoing when they are constantly slouched over drunk and getting pissed about retarded women things.

Every single thread I get tons of you guys asking what my favorite beer is. I'll finally tell you, it's Pabst Blue Ribbon™ of course!

>Anyone else date women

No

Swamp Living is the lowest state of living. You are addicted, sick at all times and you're stagnant in life. Swamp Living is killing me.

>>10501268

Only if you're naturally a piece of shit.

I'm so wired and hungry. I can almost hear this hangover bearing down on me in the distance. the next few hours are going to be deeply unpleasant

>>10501351
or an average guy
being a piece of shit isnt much of a dealbreaker if youre already fucking her

>>10501369
>i am hungry and about to have a hangover

thats not how hangovers work, unless your hangovers are the opposite of mine and everyone else's

>>10501395
don't you get hungry after drinking? I feel like I could eat an entire other person

>>10501395
Not him, sometimes I wake up feeling awesome after drinking and opt to go to work and sober up. At that point, you know that you should be feeling like shit, or at least dry and tired. You can just feel it bearing down on you, and no amount of greasy eggs, multivitamins, or liters of water you pound will completely mitigate it.

And no, don't be a hardass and turn your daily drinking into a bender. Homeostasis is a neurological system's friend.

Time to "taper" a bit heh heh heh...

You guys ever think you're the only one with your sense of humor? Like I laugh and enjoy things even sober that other people just dont. Everyone is such a humorless fuckhead and people only laugh at super obvious things or corny shit. I guess it's okay because I can make them laugh but I don't know... just saying sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who really laughs at things and everyone else is dead inside, or psychopaths who laugh out of nervousness like doctor hibert. Fuck, people are corny.

>>10498762
I'm a pisser not a shitter

>>10500742
my poor friend, i owe him like three carpets
more like i owe his exgirlfriend three carpet cleaning fees
she was a saint

What the fuck is that noise outside at night? It's like this constant low pitched drone.

how DARE you accuse me of masturbating?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xtnlUP9aZM

>>10501504
>tfw shiny polished patch on the carpet by my bed from cleaning it up so many times

Is he /ourguy/?

>>10501402
>>10501406
a hangover for me is nausea, headache and weakness to the point where i cant exert much energy without puking, but after the puking and rehydration i get much better. It doesnt start with hunger and energy and get to this point

>>10501526
>3 times the legal limit
You mean to drive? That's small beans.

>>10501509
Unexplained hums are common paranormal phenomena. Some believe it's haarp others think it's deep underground machinery or vents running in underground bases

is there any better feeling than landing softly from a bender? got a whole day to just sip water and smoke a couple of bowls and I didn't do anything retarded. maximum comfy

>>10501602
>he tells himself
Yeah man so comfy and rewarding that you have to share with us.
>fruit_loops_rick_morty_weed.jpeg

>>10501602
water-chugging masterrace

tapering off the binge
typically consume a half a handle in a night
gonna shoot for a quarter with some salty soup and water
tomorrow night just beer
Will this work?

>>10501623
whatever man, lighten up

>>10501526
So he consumed 3 beers all together

>>10501630
Just saying, you're kind of a fag.

>>10501648
nah

>>10501647
I'm actually kinda jealous, imagine all of the money i'd save on alcohol if I was that small

>>10498976
>>10498983
>>10498990

You know none of this really gets to me, and I think there's probably more people in my situation (regular problem drinker i.e. binge drinker) than full blown perma-drunks.

What has been working recently is that I've just gotten really tired of wasting my whole weekend sitting in front of my computer in a drunken or hungover haze. I always plan so much shit for the weekend, then I say alright I'll drink at night but wake up early and get shit done.

Nope, weekend is gone and I'm wasting my best years being a lonely drunk. That's what's getting to me. You have to really be a perma-drunk for a while for any of the disease shit to hit you, unless you're super unlucky genetically.

Literally always bored if I'm not out with people partying and getting fucked up, to the point where it's really affecting my college grades because I don't go to class and don'/can't study.

I also ruin 90% of my relationships with friends and 100% of them with women because I get bored of them and sperg out causing drama, either doing so autistically or just being a dick.

What can I do to become normal and content with just chilling low key? If I'm not distracting myself with shit like the above/getting fucked up I'm not necessarily depressed but there is a nagging feeling in the back of my mind that I have to push down. Is there to fix this?

>>10502014

Oh look, another retard party boy thinks he's an alcoholic. Cute.

You're unhappy by yourself because you're a boring person.

>>10502047
i don't think im an alcoholic, ppl in this thread just generally give each other advice thought someone could help me

>crippling nightmare hangover
>become incredibly horned up

every time

>>10502061

Lot of angry alcoholics in these threads, it's always true.

Alcohol floods your brain with dopamine, so if you enjoy doing thing X, but then you develop a habit of always doing thing X with alcohol, your brain is going to get used to the extra dopamine from the alcohol, so then when you go to do thing X without alcohol your brain will say "huh, this isn't right, this feels boring now". It's a phase, you've gotten your brain too used to alcohol. Take a month completely sober and you'll reset your system, and you'll find that the boredom goes away.

>>10498442
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84bWaHnAtqM

>>10502076
>you've gotten your brain too used to alcohol.
you say that like a human brain is a pet that gets restless and chews up furniture if it doesn't get its 10am walkie

>>10502292
That's actually like not what he's saying, but what he's saying is true.

Starting drinking beer because I'm trying to cut down on my drinking and I drink beer slower than I drink spirits.

>>10502309
you're just going to start drinking it faster and be fat as well as drunk. these 'solutions' never do a thing

>>10501330
BASED

>>10501284
I've never been on a date or had a gf or sex in my life. I'm 28.

>Take a month completely sober and you'll reset your system, and you'll find that the boredom goes away.
PAWS lasts months/years.

>>10502361
oops didn't link. >>10502076

>>10502076
alcohol is a known mood enhancer you dingus, even if it's the first drink you've ever had, your highs and lows are going to be more extreme after a few beers than while sober

gtfo of here with your broscience shit, next you'll be going on about cutting out soy and doing nofap and eating more onions

>>10502315
I know. You're not wrong.

just lost a week, I'm going to try and get back on track now. got that horrible anxious guilty feeling but I'll be busy from tomorrow and it'll fade soon enough I guess. this last year has been rough as fuck, it really does get worse as you age.

>>10502391
>that horrible anxious guilty feeling
it's the absolute worst. starts the second i wake, a powerful, deep loathing and regret in my chest.

>>10502432
it's like a physical weight crushing you, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

My mom is coming over to lend me 20 bucks in a few hours. I'm shaking pretty bad. Lots of anxiety. I'm such a waste of space. I'm turning into one of those guysf rom that show Intervention.

>>10502531
I hope things look up for you. Don't put yourself down, it doesn't help.

>>10502531
>that show Intervention
worst bit by far is making it through detox, through months of sobriety, and everyone still hating you.

>life isn't even that bad
>run out of alcohol
>enter a state of terror for no fucking reason

when will this stop? it's exhausting

>>10502773
happening to me too. My mom just says to be patient but each moment is terror while I wait for 20 dollars.

>>10502773
how hard is it for you to get more? i mean if you run out, are you guaranteed more? i pretty much am, and it takes seconds to walk to buy some. weed on the other hand, because it's such a pain to get, i panic every time it's running low. it makes it much harder to stop if you have a frantic craving every time you don't have it available in abundance.

>>10502773
Withdrawal, mate.
That's just the beginning and it gets far worse

>>10502918
how bad is it if I feel hot flashes, shaking and mild hallucinations. Can I wait an hour to get more booze or should I call 911?

>>10502951
different anon, but if it's just an hour, i'd wait. true that withdrawals escalate fast as fuck, it comes on in waves, so one moment you feel ok then another wave hits, and all of a sudden it's 50 times more powerful and you end up fucked... but if you've felt basically ok up to this point and it's only an hour, i'd just wait. no way you'll get to see a doc within an hour either way.

>>10502951
just ride it out man
it'll probably get worse but i've never died yet and it's been real real fucking bad
it's not bad if you have a recliner, blanket, pillow, water bottle, and tv and can just hang out for about four days

Kill me

>>10503032
You're doing a pretty good job of it yourself Anon.

>>10503045
I dont shit solids anymore

>>10503106
same

>>10503106
me either it's annoying and it's many times a day

im not an alcoholic with a physical addiction but it's definitely an unhealthy coping method, among many others just as unhealthy

i just want to be happy and fulfilled like everyone else, instead i gotta drink Colt 45 and cry on the internet to strangers and indulge weird fetishes just to get at a baseline to get through the nights

>>10502071
oh fuck, the most hungover I've been (not an alcoholic and it was probably nothing compared to what other people have been through) I jerked off 4 times that day even though I was so fucked with nausea and dizziness I could hardly eat

right if I can't keep this shit down then I give up until tomorrow

>>10503266
>shitty noodles and a heavily processed "creamy cheese sauce"
m8 i dont think i could keep that down sober.

>>10503278
yeah it's not great but I'm living out of a shitty corner shop and it's probably the most 'real' food they have.

>>10497015
Drank 4 loko last night and blacked out. I think I am going to stay away from alcohol for awhile.

>>10503391
4loko is incredibly sweet and makes for really rapid dehydration, would not recommend for binge drinking unless you're in the habit of also drinking lots of water when you drink (which literally no one is)

>>10503416
is it bad i drink sweet cider everyday? I get the shits all day long and I wake up the worst hangovers/withdrawal. I buy it cause it's the cheapest thing.

>>10503266
i eat one meal a day, a cup of noodles. How long till i need to be hospitalized for malnutrition?

>>10503419
cheap cider hangovers are fucking brutal

>>10503419
hangovers are often more about dehydration than alcohol shock so yeah drinking what is essentially fortified apple juice is probably gonna kill you the morning after

>>10501627
just drink enough so you dont sweat or shake. thats how to taper. beer is good for tapering.

I almost died from a meth overdose + alcohol withdrawal at the same time, I don't remember if it was almost having or actually having a heart attack. I had severe chest pain and very irregular and fast heart rate. 160-180. I haven't done any meth in 3 days but I still drink. Stay away from meth kids. When I asked the doctor if i was going to die he said "we'll try our best". Scariest moment of my life.

I had pizza while high boys

I'm a naughty punk bitch

>>10503439
I learned this the hard way, special shout out to Smith & Forge

>>10503579
if you had an actual heart attack, the doc would have told you

>>10502901
It's not very hard for me to get more but I am destroying my chances of not being a poorfag.
I caved in and while I'm still a nervous wreck, I at least don't want to die anymore.

>>10503266
does this actually exist?

>>10503579
he was just fucking with you
doctors despise druggies and alcoholics
i get treated like human dog shit every time i'm in the hospital, they want you the fuck out of there to make room for actual cases

>>10503804
Why was there 4 nurses looking after me then?

>>10503851
I should add they kept s aying things like "stop smoking crack" and I was like "i don't msoke crack"

Start a new job today. Need to fund my addiction.

>>10503032
what are you hiding from, anon?

Feeling shitty tonight, buckaroos.
I have a government application out there and pending. Been there for a while. Every time I ask for an update, they dutifully say "Later".
I'm feeling shit about a lot of things
I want to go out and be something. But that lack of response is killing me.

I'm feeling nostalgic for my teen years. Almost 10 years.
Music I listened to then. Friends I had.
Things have changed, but not for the better.

I just want that job to come through. So I can devote myself to it. Through and through. It's all I want

has anyone tried to replace alcohol with ciggies?

was it worth it?
like if i kept it to one every few days

>>10497015
Something completely bizarre happened to me the other night and I was wondering if anyone else had anything similar happen to them
>have fairly high alcohol tolerance and know my limits
>go out to dinner at Chinese restaurant with friend
>have three small bottles of beer
>go to pub afterwards and have two jugs between us
>blank
>vague memories of some sort of argument
>blank
>I'm walking down a street in the opposite direction of my home, about an hours walk away from the restaurant
>feel almost completely sober
>try calling friend to find out what happened, he's blocked me
I've since talked to him and apparently I just turned into a complete cunt and was abusing him and tried to punched him so he walked away. I'm just confused as hell what happened, I've had blackouts before but never from such a small amount of alcohol. Even when blind drunk I've never had any difficulty finding my way home from town, and I really didn't feel anymore than slightly tipsy when I came to

>>10504200
Attempted date rape
Also how much is in a jug

>>10504157
Cigarettes only smell good if I'm drinking

>>10504211
1140ml, so really not a lot at all.

>>10504216
Can someone tell me why this is so fucking true? I hate the smell and taste of cigs when I'm sober but have smoked spirt blacks while drunk

>>10504230
Because senses are dulled when you're drunk and what you consider "sober" is really hungover, and senses, especially smell is heightened while hugover

>>10504200
Possible your liver is shot. People with cirrhosis are known to get drunk far more easily than normal people. Like an order of magnitude. Be careful.

Got severely drunk and hit my roommate in the Jaw. Feel like absolute shit for it.
They are giving me 27 days to see if I straighten up and get into counseling.

I really hope I don't end up homeless sleeping in my car, I'll just end up on heroin again. I know it. So now it's cold turkey boys.

>>10504200
Sounds possibly your tolerance is dropping from drinking so long but I'm only guessing.

>>10504371
Talk to your friends/roommates if you can
Being alone makes things a lot harder

Distraction is good too.
Books, video games, Netflix.
Try something

>>10504157
Cigarettes are fucking evil in a whole other way. Imagine having to drink a couple beers every hour. The habit is excruciating. Smokers are constantly trying to quit. I thank myself all the time for stopping. It was devastating my blood pressure and making me drink even more because the two things go hand in hand. In fact quitting cigs made such a positive effect I started drinking without seeing it as being bad to me because compared to drinking AND smoking it's another level.

I'm so fat. And I feel like I'm getting old at 30. Shit is scary. I know I can turn it around but I can never go back to when I was 5 years younger and 80 lbs lighter and still had girls looking at me. Done fucked up. Long road ahead.

how the fuck do you guys deal with the regret, anxiety, and shame everyday and remembering pieces of recent embarrassing moments in public?

oh wait ill drink more

>in really long line at shitty 711
>drunk and smell like stale steel reserve
>cant wait longer so put my beer back and walk out
>immediately get stopped by a cop who accuses me of shoplifting
>cant find shit because i didnt take anything. runs my id and sees ive never been in trouble
>walk home pissed but find some leftover new amsterdam
my social retardation and anxiety is too much for this shit. why cant i live somwhere that delivers alcohol and not in a shitty flyover college city. this post sucks

>>10500752
Its a common thought. Don't do it. Its all about why today was better, not 5 years from now.
It was my biggest problem during iop.
I'm drunk right now though so maybe don't listen to me

>>10504469
Ugh that sounds rough. I know that feeling of "fuck this why did I even come here" in slow lines.

It's amazing how antisocial alc has made me. I just want to be left alone and interact and cross paths with minimal people, but I've gone that route before and it was pretty bad for me. Right now I only have to interact with 2 to 3 people daily not including cashiers and it seems just right. But even then.... I long for the cabin in the woods.

>>10504433
when you have autism your whole life is embarrassing

>18 year old american college student
>not a normie so i don't have access to alcohol unless i'm visiting parents
guess i'll just order moonshine from a darknet vendor. heroin is my drug of choice but it's nice to vary things and alcohol is fun as fuck

maybe next semester i'll join some clubs and start socializing

>>10504433

Work two jobs, one second shift and the other third. Never see the light of day. I love it

How do you even get started on something like meth or heroin? Did you go out looking for it specifically? I never understood that.

>>10504568
>look at me I'm still a baby and throwing my life away
Fuck off. You are why hope in gen z is a meme.

Save last two shots for work or drink them right now??

>>10504623
honestly iawtp.

>>10504568
you dont have real problems, you're just looking for attention. fine. here's your (you). now fuck off
>muh darknet
>muh moonshine
>lel 18 so hard 2 buy booze haha
take it to /trash/ and the garbo possum thread you little shit. adults are trying to bond, here

>roommate is boomer
>baking pizza
>smells like gas
>know there is no point bringing up this possibly mortal threat because boomers don't listen to anyone and he would just say some shit about it being nothing to worry about
Can't wait to have my own place.

>>10504649
Why can't kids just be happy with a sneaky cig here or smoking some pot? I used to room with college kids in a party house and the amount of shit they got up to including alcohol really made me sad for them. The worst part is they drag pretty young girls into it too.

Oh shit I sound like a boomer.

>>10504662
>Why can't kids just be happy with a sneaky cig here or smoking some pot?
because that's not cool enough for Redd*t

>30 soon
>NEET unless making a worthless $200 a month on mechanicalturk
>no connections
>still stuck in miserable shithole flyover hometown
>alcoholism is my only skill
oops

>>10504583
Friend says he deals, asks what he says "meth" try it. Get addicted.

if you're talking about locating a dealer, i have no experience with that because i order it online. but from what i've heard regarding heroin, you approach people from dodgy neighborhoods

otherwise, it just makes a lot of sense as a recreational drug based on the research i've done on it.
>>10504649
>>muh darknet
>>muh moonshine
i don't see how you consider that as being edgy

>>10504713
Just ask punk rock kids.

>>10504211
>>10504382
>>10504365
You got me alarmed enough to go to the doctor, apparently I don't look jaundiced but he's ordered blood tests for me. He actually raised the possibility of being drugged but I just don't see it as likely. He did say that these things sometimes happen and there's no apparent explanation for them

Last night I drank 18 Heinekens, then went into the kitchen and polished off a half bottle of this expensive maple liqueur we got from Vermont, almost a full bottle of Rum Chata (fucking disgusting), and then upended the huge Jim Beam and just kept going. My self control was absolutely none existent. My wife told me I recited about a half hour of Sopranos quotes and watched old movies, threw up all over myself and the floor, and tried to lay the whole thing off on the fucking cat. I am too all-or-nothing when it comes to drinking. I should probably stop.

>>10504668
Exactly. The worst is seeing how many of them take ecstasy under all these gay new names and it's permanently destroying their ability to feel happiness under any condition. They're making alcoholics look like mormons.

Just ate an entire stuffed crust meat trio to myself.
Feeling pretty good. I hate forgetting to ear all day.

>>10504738
Holy shit, how did you not have alcohol poisoning?
Well I guess you did actually that's why you ralphed.

My only hobbies are getting drunk and shit posting on 4chan every day.

>>10504850
Do you have a job?
I do, and it tricks me into thinking it's okay to have no hobbies. At least you feel something is off.
At least you feel.

>>10504877
I have a full time office job. I get hammered as soon as I get home.

usually drink vodka but decided to try some beer before drinking my vodka. got me some canned Guinness, it's alright i guess. /blog

>>10504887
I wish I had the balls to do that anymore or trusted my health enough. Used to be so fun. Trying to taper now because shit is getting scary healthwise. I'm never going to taper my shitposting though.

>>10504904
BEER BEFORE LIQUOR NEVER SICKER
Is what normies say.

>when 15-30 standard units in light beer per day is a reasonable compromise
>when you switch from craft beer to light beer to the lowest possible carb/calorie/al/ck/ combo beer
>when you want to just drink liquor diluted with water but know you'd just start drinking it neat if it were available...

>when working from home all day everyday is a six figure lifestyle choice and the daily struggle is what channel to watch on cytube while you work

i'm lucky to have what i do and i refuse to lose what ive gained at this point, even if growth is stagnating; i'm 29.

>>10504965
Cytube is cool, I miss my randomchan days on synchtube and whatever was before that, forgot the name. Used to stream supersize vs superskinny for/fit/. Good times.

You trading from home or something?

A 12 pack 2-3 days a week isn't that bad, right?

>>10504904
i've always wondered if 2-part pouring guinness at pubs is a meme or not

>>10504977
It qualifies as alcoholism.

>>10504975

nah fairly regular 9-5 stuff, just pays fairly well cause niche, kinda technical and they want a life sciences degree...data manager for clinical trials, or more recently clinical registries post-approval. at the risk of overexposing myself, it's been especially nice to work for a CA company while living on the east coast, where I wake up at 10 and it's still two hours before most people get in. making a move to a new analyst programmer position the week after next though...will be staying in NC for two weeks so the BBQ thread currently running is super interesting to me.

...3 beers left.

>alcoholic
>literally drink and get drunk every day
>"anon, wanna grab a beer after the shift?"
>"n-no thanks I don't like drinking"
>I genuinely hate drinking with others
autism my friends.

>>10504993
Neat. I do miss working remotely and having my own clients.
I think without having to go to the office right now though I would fall apart.

>>10505006
Eh, you're note alone. 6 years ago I used to love getting drunk with coworkers, or anyone for that matter, because it was my channel for feeling comfortable in social situations.

I'll still drink with friends, but I know I'm likely to get carried away, so itsa a bad idea with coworkers or new acquaintances. I'd still fuck with it for special occasions with strangers tho,

>>10505006
That's very common, like super obese people not wanting to eat in public. It's not because of antisocial really, it's about shame.

>>10505006
>go to bar
>feel lonelier than you did before, and pay more to do it

>>10504986
But I don't want to be an alcoholic and still want to drink around that amount.

>>10505029
my uncle is 400 lbs. I"ve never seen him eat more than a tiny portion. One time though, I saw him shovel peanutbutter into his fat mouth at night when everyone was sleeping. lol

>>10505025

honestly the only thing that keeps it together is the wifey who works from home also. without her presence i'd dissolve into complete degeneracy, no doubt.

i'm at least accountable for basic self-respect standards and am even occasionally inspired to do something exceptional, be it meal prep or acting on my ambitions or whatever, Even without that, the company is probably the most important aspect (having bought this cabin in the middle of nowhere) and the sex, while increasingly spartan, is enjoyable/critical. Pretty much realized at 27 that I either needed a partner or needed to get along with dying faster....

>>10505046
Then don't use the word "alcoholic". It works just the same as gender pronouns.

Anybody else here a medical student? Looking to someone who can understand this feel. The pressure is so fucking much.

>the sex, while increasingly spartan, is enjoyable/critical
>the sex is critical

>>10505071
dunno dude, if i wasn't having sex with her I'd eventually be trying to have sex with someone else, and it'd probably lead to shittier people and relationships to juggle and maintain...yikes, especially around here. I had to import this from across the country.

>>10497015
Anybody here try some of that canned wine they have at Trader Joes, Simpler Wines? I really like the Rose Wine variety.

>>10505066
I'll be anything after a handle.

160 days today. And I am back off the wagon. Feels good, niggas!

>>10505066
i made it through nursing school
shit was really stressful and gloomy for a while since you're reduced to a scantron essentially. years of uncertainty, years of being tested because clearly you havent proven yourself enough after being tested for 10+ years

>>10505091
So cool. Inspiring, even. Gonna watch Killing Eve now. Love ya. God Bless.

>>10505046
Oh well. You can ignore the definition if you want.

I did and now look at me...

LOOK AT ME!!
LOOK AT MEEEEE!!!!! ablublubblub oh God WHY
WHY GOD I could have been one of your GREATEST athletes one of your GREATEST minds

REEEE

>>10505051
>Pretty much realized at 27 that I either needed a partner or needed to get along with dying faster....
Oh fuck. Must ignore. Mustnt look back.
Is this how I have become this? I never should have left her... I should have married her...

NOW LOOK AT ME
LOOK AT MEEEEE
REEEEEEEEE

>>10505112
Why would marrying someone whilst've having an addiction make anything better?

>>10505117
I wasn't so bad back then. She even had me on the verge of quitting tobacco and alcohol which would have been easy. And I nearly did. But got cold feet at the idea of letting a girl change me. 2 years of growth and love, threw it all away to be "free".
And now look at me
NOW LOOK AT M- ah what's the use. You guys get it.

>>10505131
>2 years of growth and love
It's always 2 years, then I move on to the next girl to manipulate and drain. I love it. I truly get a kick out of watching a persons personality deteriorate.

>>10505140
i think you might have a personality disorder/be a psychopath or something faggot. surely someone will correct me.

>>10505117

Eh OP referenced in >>10505112 here; by way of an explanation as to "Why would marrying someone whilst've having an addiction make anything better?"

I spent a few years periodically travelling, generally fucking around with a successful career in sf and living an objectively hedonistic lifestyle and one day when i was 27 i realized that every time I came away from a subjectively important experience, no matter how much closer i felt to being a human, i still felt alone. so i met this one in a grocery shortly thereafter and decided/discovered she was close enough to everything i wanted out of a partner and after i heard her express the same to me i decided i would commit to making it work.

tldr; why? we are together

>>10505140
t. Satan

>>10505140
>>10505162

hardly satan. yuppie lawyer buddy of mine pulled the same trick...love as leverage is cruel but effective. anyway, i thin most people blamed it on some scorpio sadomasochistic impulse and eventually he got over it, at about 28 ironically.

>>10505140
Maybe 2 years is my natty limit. Just can't keep it going past that, but I haven't tested that theory. I can't keep a girl past 2 months now. I mean just look at me.
ROOOK ATA MEEEE

>>10505149
I'm starting to think meeting at the grocery or something like that is how I'll settle for my next one. If there is a next one. If I don't literally die before then....

>>10505172
i cant keep a girl past 15 minutes unless shes a ginger

>>10505180

For what it's worth, she came on to me while I was checking out the oakland lesbian in line in front of me; shje even casually passed me a business card at the end of the conversation. i was buying ingredients for carnitas and a fifth of whiskey for the night. she picked it up on the moto helmet.

The first litmus test was when i texted her after arriving home, asking if she knew what to do about rats in the wall...though it was otherwise a very nice apartment.

we had our first date at the gun range a few days later. the night before i had a small puke on the floor at this house party put on by a "certificate school" acquaintance who seemed to like me alot for some reason. we have not spoken since though im mostly grateful; for that,

nonetheless, i managed to make that gun date with future wifey although i was too booze-sick for dinner.

this was early nov 2015.

>>10505180
dunno about meeting at a store. I'll probably meet a girl on tinder and she'll only find out I'm an alcoholic when it's too late and she's invested.

>>10505214

To each his own i guess...I like the adrenaline rush of seeing their face during the first conversation.

>>10505089
congrats man, whatcha drinking?

post shit only truly forsaken alcoholics would understand

>when you finally bring yourself to eat actual food and you get so nauseous you start pouring sweat just trying not to puke it up

>when you gotta hide your fine motor actions from friends and colleagues or use both hands so they don't notice you shaking

>when you have alcohol on your breath after brushing your teeth 3 times

>when a firm, solid shit makes your week

>>10505340
>at line in subway buzzed on the ass end of a 4 day bender
>cannot for the life of me say "lettuce"
>stand there looking at it and wondering why I cant remember the fucking word
>"sir.. this?"
>"yes, that green shit"
This is when I know my brain cells are dying in droves

>>10505340
>when your coworker complains they are hungover and you pretend to be sympathetic when you've been hungover 99% of the days you have ever been at work

>>10505343
That's funny but also scary.

>>10505340
>When you don't know what being sober feels like anymore because you've been in a cycle of drunkenness/hangover with the occasional withdrawl for most of your adult life.

>>10505340
>Resisting the urge to steal roommates' booze
>Stealing your roommates' booze

Drinking is the only thing that makes me feel like a real person

I'm a broken human and I hate myself

I want to be dead

>>10504396
I'm trying. Ill be posting in these threads periodically. As I usually have the last few months.
Also got ahold of another old female friend. Had to break down again and apologize to her she might be infected as well..

>>10499915
lol how old are you? Rum+cola+squirt of lime, like 4:1 on the cola to rum

I drank a bottle of kahlua tonight since its all had left, my heart is racing from the all the sugar.

Fuck it I don't care no more.....

..!..

come, sweet death

And I'm breaking down again...

>>10504583
I used anything/everything in an attempt to stop drinking. a few days/weeks on smack and the bits of my body alcohol would hammer, would get a rest.

Man I don't know what the fuck going on lately bro

Breakfast, lunch and dinner in one.

>trying to find ANYTHING to do other than drink
should i buy Far Cry 5? fucking £50 and i'm fairly confident i'll play it for 20 minutes once, then never again. i do like how realistic it looks though. /v/?

>>10505854
>i'll play it for 20 minutes
Try playing vidoe games drunk, much more fun

>>10505859
typical. i only bought a gaming pc in an attempt to help me be sober

>>10505854
Just pirate it, it been cracked for about a week now

>drink a 12-pack of IPA and a bottle of wild turkey 101 relatively fast
>naturally become an incoherent asshole and get in a heated nonsensical argument with gf about pasta or some shit
>storm off to bedroom and go to sleep because I'm enraged
>wake up some unknown amount of time later
>I'm soaked
>the entire bedroom is soaked
>begin autistically screeching about her dumping water on me in my sleep as revenge
>she comes in, makes a disgusted face, and says it smells like urine
>suddenly realize I fucked up

>>10505920

These threads are great, because I feel in good company with you fuckups, but some of you really give me some perspective on how much worse my life could be. Thanks.

>>10505872
i think i'll just be lazy and watch a playthrough on youtube. just gotta find a gril gamer qt enough

>>10505931
y-you're welcome

>>10504738
>I recited about a half hour of Sopranos quotes ....and tried to lay the whole thing off on the fucking cat
based

>>10504738
>quoting Sopranos while drunk with an over the top terrible accent
Is there a single funner activity?

>>10504738
>I should probably stop.

>>10506010
kek

>>10504738
>18 heinekens

I can't even drink beer like that anymore the bloat alone makes me want to puke. Thank god for high proof liquor.

sponsor called me last night, kinda ditched him when i left town to go work in a camp for the past month and a half
and my night i mean day i guess since im working night shift 6 days a week

Fucked up again
>Drinking with friends 8 heavy beers and some white russians
>Ditch friends, go drunk to sister's house
>Her hipsters friends are there , drink a bottle of whiskey. Tried to red pill everyone. Her boyfriend guides me back home.
>Vomit everywhere , black out. Gf worried sick.
>Wake up can't remember anything literally everyone I care about is pissed.

Pic related my face and reaction when I'm drunk

i managed to quit drinking and my life is fucking worse. now i have nothing. at least when i was wasted i had hope that things could be much, much better. now i've no hope at all that things will. absolute fucking horseshit of a life.

Because the new OP's IQ is 49, I guess I'll have to link the new thread
>>10506373

>>10502374
>he faps, eats soy, and doesn't munch on onions
Probably why you're an alcoholic