/ck/ - Food & Cooking

I was being a moron on my Honda Foreman and hit the corner of my house and knocked a tooth out Monday.

Was supposed to go to the orthodontist today but got drunk instead

Luckily the damage to the house or the ATV isn't bad

I am the person I want to be after a few drinks.
There is. Warmth that takes over me, I become talkative, confident, my social anxiety mostly gos away.

I'm not addicted to drink, but I love it. I drink on certain days of the week (3 days to be exact) and those days are the days I look forwards to.

At work on a Friday morning when I decide to take 6 shots before going in, I do my best work, people have noticed my more upbeat attitude too said its because "its Friday."

EVERYTHING feels right with a few drinks in me. I know I'm not addicted, I'm too afraid of being that way but knowing the best version of myself is at the end of the bottle is annoying.

So many times while drinking people have said "you don't seem drunk..." When I am . its because with liquor I am so much better. It stops the dams of anxiety. Without of I am just waiting around annoyed and solitary for my next drinking day.

>>10254583
i need a ride to the store i'm sick of walking help me out you twats
yes i'm buying beer

>>10254692
This is how it started for me. Now drink 3-6 high ABV beers a night just to be able to sleep.

>>10254699
I've been going about 1.5 year drinking 3 days a week (wed, fri and Saturday) , never going over 60 units. I drink alone too, I like it that way.

When in drink, its vodka with water and a splash of diliute juice.

Myt tolerance hasn't shifted in this time. I hope it stays that way. I'm good where I am.

>>10254699
>>10254709
you're both probably fine for now but if that shit escalates any or you get into a depressed state and start drinking more, you really should stop. irreversible liver damage happens way faster than people realize, and a lot of it is the luck of genetics. for example my dad drinks probably 4 or 5 shots of vodka per day and has been doing so for 35 years, no problems. my maternal grandfather drank about the same and was dead from cirrhosis in 10 years.

so I spend insane amounts of money on beer, at least for a student, mostly due to my incredibly high standards, usually I end up buying 650ml craft beer, I drink probably 5/7 days of the week, but I never really get drunk, just a little buzzed, am I on my way to alcoholism or is there a comfortable medium I can sit at enjoying daily beer or maybe some whiskey if I keep it to one drink a day.

>>10254583
What is your tried and true?

I want to kill myself but I’m scared I’ll wake up reborn as a child of Honduran refugees and have to work as a part-time roofer in Mexico City

Repost cuz last thread died

>>10254788
What is the most cost-effective boxed wine?

>>10254795
I would assume franzia in US but I’m basing that on absolutely nothing except I know the boxes are big and cheap

>>10254788
-cheap
-7.9%
-tastes quite good
-the only dark beer at this abv you're getting for this price (in canada)

>>10254809
When I visit Europe I hit that shit so hard

Hahha I ended up putting like 35 empties In the nightstand drawer at my hotel in Paris, housekeeping must have enjoyed that

Ugh dark days honestly

>>10254583
hoping f/15-E dude shows up tonight
i like talking about planes and i will do it until you're fucking sick of it

>>10254845
I own a breitling and it came with a table coaster with a picture of a pilot on it, so you can totally talk to me. It’s an Instrument for Professionals.

>>10254845
Ah that was a nice conversation between you two. Cheers

>>10254809

I've never seen the dark kind before, I've only had the Crest that's like 10% or something and it tastes horrible so I usually drink pic related as my canuck bum beer

>>10254886

>>10254891
faxe has a very strong malt liqour flavor, 86 is much better to me even if they are both malt based "low tier" beers.

found some Hennessey and I found some sprite, so I guess that's what is on the menu for the evening

>>10254692
this is a very appropriate second post for this thread, this is exactly how i started around age 20. now im 30, multiple ER trips and rehab trips under my belt, still cracking open cold ones after work

welcome to hell nigger

damn, i wanted to down a sick pack tonight after lifting, but my wife wants to fuck and i don't want to make her feel bad for rejecting her
drinking after fucking isn't an option either, I have to wake up early

>>10254692
Thats crazy, have any neat stories?

>>10254934
I am not him but I am in literally the same position, nothing interesting, but the first time I felt like I could actually interact with and enjoy my time with a girl was when I got piss drunk on the beach with some friends on coke and kraken. I was connecting with her and having a conversation where I didn't have to bring up shit like video games to pass the time, I asked more questions about her. it was wierd. now I have a boyfriend who I met online not when I was drunk and I guess I lucked out because if I didn't meet him I'd probably be drinking a lot more trying to get the confidence and laid back attitude to meet someone. some people just can't have that laid back easy conversational attitude without alcohol, I am one of them.

>>10254946
do u have a peen or a vajoo?

>>10254957
penis, I smash tight boypussy weekly.

>>10254960
>Reply
kys faggot

...

>>10254987
God I wish that were me

(Its gonna be me in about 3 hours kek)

>>10254987
All the more JUST when you realize this picture was taken during daylight.

Look at the light trying to seep in through the curtain sides

>>10254873
too bad i'll never be a pilot. money, dui, no market except for hobbyists....fuck,
i wish i'd just joined the military

>>10255014
>..
i don't have any judgments except for on fags who leave deodorant on their desks and shit
that crap belongs in the bathroom it's like leaving your douche out in the living room or something.
i feel so strongly about this i cannot express it. bathroom item only.

stop drinking you shits

>>10255139
I would if I could.

>>10255126

i keep my deodorant in my room because i usually feel queasy in the morning (when I'm showering) and spraying deodorant in the bathroom where there isn't enough space for it to properly vent so that i inevitably inhale a tiny bit of it and spend 5 minutes retching is not a good time

>>10255139
and what, do crossword puzzles for six hours after work while pondering my life mistakes and my lack of love life?

literally FUCK YOUR OWN FACE

I’m in the bath you fascist pigs

>>10254583

Ive trained myself to leave notes on my phone so that I know what I've done while blackout drunk. It's like having a convo with a whole nother person.

>>10254607

I've chipped the shit out of my front teeth after getting into drunken brawls and I still can't be assed to go and get them fixed.

>>10255186
You better be you dirty commie

>>10254788

Handles of Popov. It used to be Stoli but the normies caught on and now it's gotten too expensive.

>>10255206
the irony is i voted for trump and literally heinz guderian is my waifu, i just like calling people fascist pigs

>>10255220
Stoli has been normified for decades.

Try Luksusowa. good and cheap and better than that Svedka trash

sick of it desu, don't think if I enjoy drinking past the first four pints but I can't stop myself after then and I feel really irritable, anxious and edgy if I abstain from drinking unless I'm at work or have something that satisfies my full attention.

not a dependent on alcohol physically but I can't stop.

>tfw you feel tfw no gf but you remember that your shit probably isnt that fucked up atm if youre worrying about a lack of intimacy

>>10254987
Me most weekends, though I at least look more kept. Old roommate used to take snapchats of me and send them to me and other people every weekend. Loved waking up to that in the morning...
>>10255014
That happens to me too because I stay up until 2-3 am and spend the rest of the night in my chair. Sometimes wake up when it's light out, move over to bed, then try to sleep past the worst part of the hangover.

>>10255252
>tfw no gf
>realise I could get one if I unfucked my shit
>then remember how shit I am and incapable of unfucking up my shit
>reside myself to drinking more because I've probably given up

she blocked my number and im in love with her

>>10255277
well that's a bit rude of her

>>10255291
...at least she cares enough to block me??

wtf does that even mean, i am a turbo faggot

>>10255273
plot twist: you can still bang girls if youre a piece of shit
you just cant be socially retarded

>tfw got blackout last night
>called my brother
>took an uber to his house
>when he was showering I made an inappropriate comment to his wife (who's a fucking dime)
>she got pissed and asked me to leave
>she text me this morning "you should lighten up on your drinking"


Welp....

>>10255305
did she love you back or were you just being creepy?

>>10255315
LOL this is literally alcoholism in a nutshell

good luck man, we're all here for you but know that those goddamn normies think you're a fuckwit

seriously though dont feel too bad we've all been there or worse

i pissed on my best friend's wife at the beach

>>10255315
>accidentally reminded someone they are reproductively valuable/attractive

not a big deal despite what anyone says

>>10255322
no she broke up with me because i lied to her about smoking cigarettes (who does that)

>>10255328
Thanks man.


She's super conservative so drinking more than one glass of wine on a Saturday is like blasphemy. So drinking during the week or being a flat out alcoholic like me is like being a drug dealer in her eyes

Pls greentext the pissing on your friends wife, I gotta hear that lol

>>10255331
I agree, If someone said something about me being attractive I would be flattered. Even if I was married

My brother didn't even care.....He didn't say one word to me, Or ask me to leave.

>>10255334
id bet money if you repelled a girl it wasnt because you smoke, or even that you lied, but that you might have given off limp-wristed spineless beta vibes. You might have said "sorry" which is often a mistake. draws attention to your weakness

>>10255338
Tell her you’re going to lay hands on her.

>>10255357
In a sexual way? Or violent way?

>>10255338
>grad school summer vacation
>go to north carolina coast, north myrtle beach
>get a condo with a bunch of other undergrads and grad students
>shit goes off the hook, some ex-football players are railing adderall while playing cards, others are getting high, others are just drinking
>being an alkie, im just drinking, smoking the occasional cig
>go out to beach to look at the moon with some other people
>friend goes into ocean with some others to skinny dip
>im still on the beach with a few others, including friend's wife (they are both biochemistry grad students>
>drunk as a fucking russian, tell grad student friends wife that i like her and she's cute
>she smiles and caresses my neck and says she knows already
>kiss each other
>i roll back onto sand and tell her i feel bad about it because her husband is my friend
>she nuzzles closer and says its okay, she's had feelings for me
>i roll over and we start making out
>eventually make out and we both fall asleep (we're both super drunk)
>friend/husband comes back from the ocean
>screams
>apparenly i pised on her while i was asleep

now im alone forever

>the Chad alcoholic vs. the Virgin Adderall snorter

>>10255372
why do americans get married so young?

>>10255372
lol'd hard.


But seriously man....I can relate. I've never pissed on someone before but I've pissed someone elses bed and on numerous friends couches.


I'm guessing you're older now and you don't even know them anymore?

Who gives a shit.

I try to brown out everything I've done in blackouts, Just drink it away man...Just drink all those memories away

>>10255401
Kek what's this photo from?

They all look like they belong getting auctioned off to gay pedos at a Hollywood party.

>tfw got drunk with other people for a change
>tfw told classmates I have a crush on classmate with a boyfriend

Fuck I really hope they don't say anything, would make life even more awkward

>>10255351

Is there way to keep that buzz going all the time without getting "drunk" per se?

I'm like OP.

If I could keep my buzz I'd be the nest version of myself.

>>10255472
>I say "sorry" to girls who will barely even bang me

>>10255481
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lIv96reVlAE

>>10255481
no, it always fades and you're left with the leftover anxiety caused by your body compensating for the presence of alcohol by stimulating glutamate and norepinephrine release

welcome to hell kid, SEE YOU ON THE BOARDS

>>10255492
i wasn't the op you replied to

anyone else play uncharted?

>>10255509
I unironically liked Lost Legacy better than 4.

>>10255481
drinking light beer slowly

>>10255338
Reminds me of one time my buddy got a tinder date with some super christian homeschool girl. He invited her to a bonfire, she was 21-22 and brought her 16-17 year old sister there as a fucking chaperone. I got insanely drunk on rum and was super belligerent, fighting a buddy who was way bigger and way more sober than me and yelling at him to hit me but I guess was just him wrestling me down gently (from what I was told, I was blackout.) So my buddy drove me and his tinder date/her sister back and apparently they were horrified of me. Makes me lol thinking back on it, he wasn't the type to date a kissless homeschool girl (she wanted the first kiss to be on wedding day, that kind of brainwashed) because he got around a lot, they stopped seeing each other soon after, and now he's married to a more relatable chick. I guess my alcoholism did someone a favor after all by cutting that off quickly.

Roommate was a bro, didn't give much of a shit about my drinking habits and would just tell me what I did the next morning while laughing as I was also laughing. Some good times there.

>>10255186
might as well drop a bath bomb in there and post it on instagram like every other whore out there

>>10255509
that Chloe ass kept me coming back for the sequels

>>10255639
lol


Damn man....


That was a good story, Thank god though right? You saved a mans life in a way....

I met one of those super christian chicks on a dating app years ago, The type of super christian that only wera those ankle long skirts and won't even drink alcohol..I luckily showed up to her house hammered drunk and her dad gave me a stern talking to then made me leave lol

Overall, I think drinking helped both of us in those instances

How do i stop feeling shame and cringe on waking up after a night of heavy drinking

>>10255853

I have asked myself this question countless times. Progressing through a vodka 750 ml right now, playing HotS and not thinking about girls. Hope to God I will wake up tomorrow feeling okay. I know what you mean...

I have been in bed all morning. (1:50PM Now.)
I have an ice pack on my stomach, but it’s not helping much.
Had my last bottle of wine at 7am but threw most of it up so couldn’t even sleep today.
Need to get some food into me so I can go buy more wine and get rid of this fucking horrible hangover.

About to run out of booze. I hate this feel

>>10255747
Irony is that I was also homeschooled, just that parents wanted me homeschooled because they hated the schools in my area, not because they were christian. I hung out with a lot of other homeschooled people through groups made for socialization basically, some super christian still, some went off the walls rebellion against their upbringing as soon as they went to college.

Bad thing was that my stay at home mom didn't actually teach me anything, just gave me books and told me to go at it. Lazy fuck did nothing but sit around browsing the internet reading about the reality TV show "Big Brother" and expecting her 11 and 8 year old kids to magically do schoolwork. When you start at homeschooling a kid that young, don't expect them to be self-motivated. I just played video games on silent all day while doing the extremely small amount of work she told us to do to not have the consoles/PC (when I got older and built one) taken away. I didn't even understand algebra 1 level of math until I was 16-17 years old, then blazed through that, geometry, algebra 2, and some pre-calc type stuff in about 6 months to get a good SAT score for college. I guess worked out because I got full ride scholarships because of my scores, but my lack of study habits in college gave me an absolute shit 2.8 GPA because I'd rather sleep in through classes every day then do homework last minute for the deadlines since that is what I was used to from homeschooling lol. Got a nice paying job right now though so no big deal, just some nightmares after going on a binge then cutting off for the next night, all nightmares involve my family life growing up and being dependent on my parents for living. Waking up makes me so grateful to be completely financially independent of my mom so she can't hold anything over me anymore.

>>10256033
Tell your mom you love her

Does it count as drinking alone if I’m drinking while posting on 4chan?

>>10256115
no. it's far worse.

>>10254692
Bro, I'm only telling you this because I could have written what you wrote when I was 21-22. You can only pull that off around immature, unperceptive or otherwise low quality people. Your sociability is probably not of a high quality and anyone with a head on their shoulders can tell when someone's had six shots. Sure, you can be goofy and outgoing but what does that really get you in life?

I'm not some teetotaler but drinking in moderation around former drinking buddies (and not having to deal with crushing hangovers) gave me a lot of awareness of how sad and delusional drinking culture can be. Why not be the man you want to be rather than feeding your delusions with a depressant?

I managed to kiss a 40+ yo waitress in a shitty bar i go to
I told her i want to fuck her and be her boy tou and apologised in advance but explained that she was attractive to me. I got her number as well prior to that, i dont know if she gave it to me for texting as if she is a teenage girl or some shit, or if i need a reservation. She is a 7/10 milf, but deteriorated from booze and cigarettes no makeup can hide it.
I felt severe shame and cringe when i woke up after all that, in my cum drenched bed because i jacked it like a maniac thinking i can fuck her if she let me kiss her.
She just stood still and opened her mouth slightly, didnt even tilt her head
I still want to fuck her

>>10256189
>anyone with a head on their shoulders can tell when someone's had six shots
>"tolerance doesn't exist"

>>10256113
I say that every time I call to check in every few months to make her happy. Wish I said it more to my alcoholic father who killed himself during a month long drinking episode though....

>>10256189
One time late at night i got a call from my friends to come out and go clubbing with them.
I did. They were all hammered ready for the clubs, both the boys and girls.
I was sober. It was like i decended into hell. One of the worse experiences in my life. I had to down a 2l just set myself into shape.
Next time, my friend was in the same situation, but he was on some hard pills and couldnt consume alcohol, said the exact same thing. Told me how i behave drunk, how demonic everything feels, how i look at people and what shit i say to them and how, how i poke people with a burning cigarette on their skin, how fast i chug beer and the faces i make

>>10256217
Unless you are really overweight, 6 shots taken rapidly will make you drunk even if you have high tolerance. I have been drinking a shitload every day for the past 4 years and I can barely hang onto people 60lbs heavier than me who basically only drink when I visit every few months.Can drink more before puking and everything because my body is used to me, but the slurring of speech is really noticeable to anyone who's encountered drunks in their life.

How does one deal with the drunk honor and denial
Im not fucking drunk, here ill fix it right now, look

>>10256238
Being around drunk people while sober is one of the biggest reasons I want to drink. Being the designated driver is no longer an option, I'd rather pay for an uber to get everyone home and pay an uber to drive me to my car the next day than go to a bar or party sober. Drunk normies are so fucking annoying unless you're drunker than them.

The other night I told my wife the last two years together have been shit.
She knew I was just drunk like I am every night but brought it up the next day bc she knew I was blackout drunk and wouldn’t remember.

I am a real asshole, and I don’t deserve her.

>>10256217
"Guys, people totally can't smell six shots of liqour on my breath!"

t. >>10254987

My only consolation is that these times of degeneracy will cleanse the volk before we begin our beautiful new order. You could have strove for beauty and meaning but you gave into the most base of human vices. Now your body and your mental health will pay the price.

REPENT!

>>10256271
I hate the fatties who claim "genetics" for being obese but... I have a family history of alcoholics. I can control my eating really well. I'm normal BMI and all. Maybe it's because I hate fatties more than drunks. Maybe you don't understand how fucking good the hormones feel in the brain of an alcoholic when they get drunk You can claim mental toughness but unless you know exactly how it feels to get drunk as an alcoholic, you have no frame of reference.

>>10256217
2 liters of beer, no matter how much you tolerate, you are drunk after 2l of beer
6 shots, same story

You nkow how a stoner can see that someone is clearly an heron addict?
its the subtle things one cant really put his finger on, but they get noticed.
So does being tipsy/drunk. Its mostly in things you say. You are the drunkest when you think you arent

>>10256289
I believed for some time that he happiest and the most right man is the one who is drunk.

>>10256289
My grandmother and uncle died of alcoholism, my dad went to AA before I was born. I work full time, hit the gym everyday and write on the side all without having any close friends or womanly companionship. It's a lonely world and the temptation to escape is always there. I know how nice the warmth from those first few shots are and how all my anxieties go away when I've downed a 40oz. It really is nice to turn my mind off momentarily.

That being said I limit myself to 4 beers a weekend. If someone is dealing with severe depression or loss of a family member that is a different story and I highly encourage people to talk to a therapist. That being said I do know how alcohol feels to the mind of an alcoholic, I just chose to cut it off before it destroyed me.

My voice and personhood will not be silenced by my compulsions.

>>10256271
when you're an alcoholic it can be quite easy to go under the radar about drinking. I drank heavy for 4 years and nobody suspected a thing. Not once was I caught or called out. Most normies can't tell.

The only time I got called out was because of weight gain. Fortunately if you eat normally and just stop drinking for a while, it's like easy mode for weight loss.

If i could ever wake up, I might be dangerous. sleep a lot.

drinking 8.5% beer for a change. what's everyone up to?

>>10256317
You fucking did it right, man. I think ironpill is the only way to fix alcoholics. It is something that you can spend an obsessive amount of time with (at the gym and cooking) to preoccupy time that could be drinking and will help you go to sleep at night from being worn the fuck out from lifting. It can also help the anxiety most alcoholics get when you're built and all your adrenaline is used on lifting rather than social interactions. I've had social anxiety and shakiness well before starting to drink, the drinks just help that go away and make me feel more comfortable. If you use that adrenaline in gym and have that extra confidence from larger muscles, I think the social anxiety will go away.

Problem is getting us alcoholics to start going to the gym every day. Might easier to get that dopamine hit from jacking off and drinking than to head to the local gym. I think for myself I would be much better if I had a home gym because I fucking hate weighting for faggots finishing curls at the squat rack. Hardest part of going to the gym is putting on your shoes and going there, not the lifting itself.

>>10256361
trying to down a six pack (I'm this guy
>>10254932) but I took 10mg of melatonin and 25mg of benadryl, so I guess I'll drink just three beers and fall asleep in 40 minutes from now

>>10256402
And you can tell from spelling/grammatical errors in my post that I'm drunk.

>>10256307
I can take 6 shots and barely even feel it. How old are you? 20? Gain some age and go to some bars, you'll learn how much people actually drink. You're basing this off of the college babies surrounding you.

Also, I'd love you to point out heroin addicts. I'm a former one and most people had no clue unless I told them. I even had a hard time telling many other addicts. Not all heroin addicts look strung-out 100% of the time. Stoners are ignorant as shit when it comes to other druggies.

>>10256430
Not him but even in college I would go on a night of a binge drinking, shower, brush teeth, and people who drank moderately could still smell the alcohol on me. Unless you're obese (so have a crazy alcohol tolerance without even drinking much vs normal weight person who drinks a lot regularly) you're going to be slurring your words noticeably after 6 shots.

>>10256402
>Hardest part of going to the gym is putting on your shoes and going there, not the lifting itself.
THEN YOU GOTTA ADD MORE WEIGHT BROTHER

Rather drunk in a coffee shop right now chugging coffee so I come to my senses.

>>10256518
I actually really enjoy the euphoria after lifting at my max. Started lifting 3-4 years ago, stopped a year after that after that when making the good first year great gains, now whenever I lift I do shit like try to squat 1/2 to 3/4 of the weight I did when I regularly lifted and always hurt my back so stop to let it heal, which ends with me not trying again for 6 months at least. It's always so discouraging to start right at the beginning again when you have a lot of friends who lift a lot as well at the same gym. If it was strangers then I wouldn't give a fuck, but even if they act like they're supportive at the gym you know as a man that they will judge you on your lifts. Home gym would definitely be ideal, but even buying equipment for a basic barbell setup for squat, deadlift, and bench is $1k+.

>>10256573
yeah i would kill for a home gym. my problem is always going on benders and not going to the gym for a month or more at a time. I used to squat lmao2pl8 and now after going back for a week squatting not even 1pl8 is leaving me sore. all I can do is stay sober and keep hittin it though.

Just looked up my.old ex. She's say out of my league but we were together for 5 years (teenage love). She's now with someone even worse looking than me who is into similar stuff I am after browsing through his fb. She's completely over me (she cheated on me with a handsome cunt ngl I'd probably have fucked him too). I need to get my shit together. Currently no job no cash nothing. I nearly had it last year boys...I had a good job and bought a gym membership. I went once and pussied out, next day brought vodka and went back down the road of alcoholism and lost my job. The thought of what if, what if i kept going to the gym and saved my cash I might be able to contact her again. I'm ashamed even after 3 years to even try and contact her. I've had other girls but I want her back. Not possible though. I just want to have money.get shredded. Make her notice me. I'm a fucking loser.

>>10256589
I got a 2pl8 squat after about 10 months of working out after being a skinnyfag, I was so happy about it because of /fit/ memes and also critiquing faggots at the gym putting on way more weight than that but barely bending their knees (3/4 or less) on the lift when with their gf there.

My drunken advice is to squat conservatively then use the leg machine until your legs are just fucking done for. For squats and deadlifts, always be conservative so you don't fuck your back unless you're doing it professionally with good trainers helping you along the way.

vodka pairs pretty well with pickle juie

>>10256651
>critiquing faggots at the gym putting on way more weight than that but barely bending their knees
kek i love seeing faggots who have a squat depth that keeps getting shallower as they add more weight
I used to doodly close to 3pl8 with no real problem, just recorded myself and made sure i wasn't catbacking. never was big on machines, just squat then OHP or BP then deads, then some accessories.

How long can you drink 750 ml (anything, really, but let's say vodka) every night, NO daydrinking but every night, before having withdrawals? Not asking for a friend: asking for me, balls to the wall. I am anxious and curious to know. Tell me what you know.

>>10256693
Assuming you have a job you'll decide to stop working and pretend to yourself that you'll find a new one with the savings you have and then 5 weeks later after drinking every day realise you have no money left and frantically look for a job to no avail because you're a bloated disgusting ambitiousless mess.

>>10256677
Yeah, that just made me mad seeing that shit but I am not large enough to go and offer suggestions lol. When I lifted I saw people put on a good 100lbs more than I did but would put the the actual bar just a few inches down before going back up. I understand that some professional athletes will do exercises like that (basketball players trying to get explosive energy in a few inches of motion) but these were just 5' 8" guys trying to squat way more than they could actually handle so they could tell their buddies they can squat 3pl8 with no awareness that it wasn't an actual squat.

A real 3pl8 squat is pretty admirable though, especially if you're an alcoholic. Are you still at that level or stopped with booze?

>>10256704
That is really me, without much money indeed. Thanks for the advice. I'm not *that* far deep, but the ''far deep'' comments always give some perspective. I am not far. I'm getting closer.

Meaning: I'm not drunk when I work, but spending a sober evening is now a feat. I wonder if I can spend a sober evening this month. Nothing is written. Who knows...

>>10256711
been sober almost a couple weeks, managed a few months when i was in treatment/just got out. stopped going to the gym for a good 3-4 months though so im starting at the beginning basically. at least this time i know my form a lot better and its a lot easier to remake gains you already had. and i was squatting just over 2pl8, deadlifting almost 3.

>>10256693
dude you drink like that you are going to have withdrawls pretty much guaranteed. coming off of a long bender is like hell for around 2 days. you just have to shut yourself in, drink a bunch of water, and nap through it if you can. If you aren't day drinking than it shouldn't be as bad. You're gonna sweat a lot, have really shitty nightmares, and probably have fucked up sleep in general for a while. this is 100% personal experience as someone who quit doing that like 4 times.

>>10256720
Seriously mate, just try and cut it to your days off. I've done this 3 fucking times now. I somehow rationalise with myself to quit and chill and find a new job later. It never ever fucking works out and I end up drinking vodka every day until I have nothing left. I'm sure I'll get another job soon and decide to have a drink with my first pay check, feel fine and convince myself to drink again then slowly go back to a liter a night until I someone manage to manipulate myself to quit again. Absolutely fucking horrendous agony having such a fucking pathetic will power. Don't go down this route mate. Cut down starting now and yourself in 2 months will suck your dick.

>>10256693

Don't be stupid. I tried this, I thought that I was being slick because "oh my body gets rid of the alcohol way before I start drinking again so I won't get physical addiction symptoms". Yea, doesn't work like that. Our bodies have a fuckton of biochemical pathways that synchronize to patterns in our environment. Drink 3 days in a row like that and I guarantee if you try to sleep on the 4th day your heart will be pounding, you'll be completely unable to sleep no matter how tired you are, and you'll feel anxious as fuck.

Your body starts to expect alcohol even if you've cleared it out of your system.

Seriously dude, don't do it, it's idiotic.

>>10256727
Good on you. My advice is to take it slow building up the weight again so you don't have a reason to stop lifting. If you focus your energy purely on lifting I know you'll get past the alcohol shit. Just start slow so you don't have an injury that gives you an excuse to lay back and get drunk. I've been at that point of 2pl8 squat 3pl8 deadlift but stopped and it is really hard to get back there after you quit.

>>10256765
yeah i only add 5-10lbs every time i go, and go every other day. been going to AA and talking to my sponsor and shit so sobriety has been going good this time around. also got some phenibut so i take that rarely if i really need to.

>>10256736
>>10256746
>>10256757

The will to drink is strong but I have bookmarked the thread so I can re-read your anwers in a better state tomorrow. Your words will not be in vain, anons. Thank you. I'm holyshit drunk but even in that state I can recognize that. Cheers.

I just shat non-stop from 08:00 to 08:27. No point trying to stop, every ten second my stomach would hurt like hell again, then another tablespoon of explosive shart blasted out, accompanied by a hot, rippling detonation of ass thunder. My toilet is situated 4 feet away from my neighbour's lounge, could hear them laughing and gagging.

>>10256773
If you can still add 5-10lbs every time you lift you're still early in. You will plateau but please don't let it discourage you. It's just a sign that you need a new routine, or alternatively you can keep the same routine and just be patient because honestly here none of us are going to be world class bodybuilders, just people trying to stay in shape. No overkill for us normies not trying to bodybuild, just keep doing things that work for you to get you a good night of sleep.

>>10256816
yeah man i have been lifting on and off for a couple years, i know the plateau feel. all you can do at that point is either go down a bit and come back up in weight, or other such things. i even have microplates i got off amazon.

>>10254809
>bavaria 8.6
>actually 7.9

>>10255401
>Mark Wahlberg second from the right

>>10255252
>>10255273

>tfw no qt gf

Nah fuck that. Then I start remembering all the times having a gf sucks. I'd rather die desu.

Thoughts?

have cut my drinking down to 3 or 4 nights a week, as opposed to every day
>once I start getting buzzed I will drink anything with alcohol to keep it going
>last night had white zinfandel, 1tall boy and 3 shots of bourbon
>I know better than to mix beer and wine, but i only care about getting drunk
>wake up violently vomiting with the most intense headache of my life
>bedridden all day

Anyone else get their shit completely fucked up from hangovers?
I've I'd this happen from 5 glasses of red alone before. Especially if i haven't been drinking much that week

>>10254692

Alcohol boosts dopamine and gaba. It's basically like an opiate and benzos combo pack which is why it both removes anxiety (gaba) and boosts your mood (dopamine)

It won't last forever. I was in your shoes and thought the same thing. Eventually the effect runs out and you need more. Then you start adding in other drugs. Then the tolerance keeps going up and the anxiety and low mood between highs is even worse. I was doing 100 mg, oxycodone, 50mg valium and drinking a 6pack plus shots mixed in daily at my worst and the resulting anxiety from quitting everything cold turkey left me with severe panic attacks that eventually lead to chronic depersonalization which I still suffer from despite being mostly sober for the better part of 2 years. Tread lightly

>>10256926
yeah it truly does. i think most humans want love, but when you attain it its very pleasant. if anything maybe just a girl who wants to hang out, and not start a fucking dedicated relationship. i do not mean fucking around behind each other back, but just a friend to fool around with, but even then i do not know.

PBR is unironically a good beer. Cheap, decent tasting and very refreshing, also isn't sickly sweet like other cheap lagers. Any more recommendations for beers like this? Hate the sweet taste a lot have.

>>10257008
rolling cock,busch

>>10257027
Unfortunately rolling rock isn't even cheap here in Canada.

>>10257008
Rolling Rock is tolerable and cheapest where I live.

I'm too drunk but am gonna keep drinking. I don't know how many of these nights I have left.

>>10257033
Wew, >>10257034 here, tough. It's $6 + tax for a 6 pack of tallboys where I live, and I live in a city with a high cost of living. Canada honestly has it fucked. I can sympathize, my state has the most rigid liquor laws in the U.S., but even beer seems significantly more expensive there. Probably best off finding a preferred domestic.

>>10254845
I lurk alot of threads around 4chan but mainly post on these.
Definitely enjoyed the past few al/ck/ threads. Especially his replies and the conversation between the two of you.
At least from what I remember I'm pretty sure I enjoyed it.
Days are blending together hard.

Also I don't have hiv, did manage to get a test at a free clinic. I'll be going back in a couple months.

>>10257041
Rolling Rock is like 15 CAD for a 6 pack of tall boys. Cheapest beer you can find is around 12 for a 6 of tall boys at least around me.

>>10257055
good lord

>>10257058
Yeah it's tragic. You might get better value if you bought like 24 packs but I've never done the math. Also 26 CAD for a fifth of shit vodka.

>I lost a day from my memory again

>>10257043
Yeah the that pilot guy was awesome. Most of these threads are turning into gay romance stories about not being able to hold liqour. Even the drunken stories are tame.

>been drinking and eating way more
>feel fatter
>weight self
>lost 20 lbs since Christmas without even trying or realizing

How fucked am I?

approx 3l of 5% beer most nights for a decade or so.. binge sometimes on weekends adding spirits to the mix.. last blood count had high liver enzimes and have been getting random abdominal pains for the last 6 months or so. is my liver kill? hoping being primarily a beer drinker helps? Eat heaps of fast food too :(

Was about to drink close to / higher than my ceiling and felt depressed as fuck, wanted to kill myself, crying etc. But then I remembered I had a can of engine starter. I don't want to kill myself anymore, nor do I want to go for the extra drink.

Maybe it can be a replacement.

>>10257543
>approx 3l of 5% beer most nights for a decade or so
>heaps of fast tood
Not an optimal combination, still probably better overall than drinking lots of liquor and barely eating. I'm no doctor (obviously) but considering your liver enzymes were elevated I'd guess you probably have a fatty liver.

>>10256573
check craigslist lots of people get full benches that have spent years as clothes racks. got a full bench that converts into a squat rack with proper bar and 275lbs of plates for free from someone who was moving last summer

>>10257480
all signs point to cancer
sorry, lad

>>10257771
well the perfect gf will probably dump me soon so i suppose the timing is right

>>10254891
oh fuck... dark times with these

>>10257660
test was around 6 montha ago and haven't been able to slow down. hope i haven't fuks myself beyond repair. Peob about 2.5l deep in kiran and hej eken cans and just clocked a variety pizza hut combo. Retarded shhit.. thanks for the reply mate

>>10258074
it takes years. you should stop now though. not something to gamble with and starting/stopping think you can avoid damage is just a really bad way to treat yourself.

I switched to losalt which is two thirds potassium because my blood pressure felt high enough already and I suspect it also made my hangovers way less bad

Thanks based electrolytes

>wake up
>can't find wallet
>need booze
>scrounge $4.50 in change
>drive to liquor store where i dont need ID to buy a pint of vodka
>drink it in 2 hours
>need more
>drive back
>go out of my way to say i walked there to the clerk
>"good, cause if i knew you were driving i was going to call the cops"
>i was driving
>speed home with my pint to post on /ck/

Close call, bros.

Fs, been to dentist and found out I have a gum infection, tablets they've given me say definitely no drinking but it's 5 days worth.. Will I still be OK to drink do you reckon?

>>10258363
should never go back to those traitorous cucks

>>10254799
I remember getting tanked a few times on franzia 10 years ago when I had just started college. Very comfy cheap drinking right there especially if you have a few people to shoot the shit with.

>>10256313
If he's young enough and actually intelligent then maybe.
Aside from that though drunks are probably just drunks.

Any of you guys ever experimented with jenkem?

>>10258363
>drunk driving
kill yourself

>>10258439
>kill yourself
what do you think he's doing

>>10258456
being a drunk dumbass while he could be just a drunk

>>10258439
You're in a shithole of a shithole, breh. You think you get to judge other peoples behavior when you're in the asshole of the asshole of the internet? Check yourself. Most of us are shaking and dying. If i wasn't strong enough to successfully drive a vehicle i wouldn't. You should look in the mirror before you spite a guy on a Vietnamese carpet munching forum

Drinking cab sav from the office bar at 11:30 waiting for tightass doctor to call in my benzo refill

>>10258482
Made this suicidal alkie laugh thanks bro

>>10258482
you shouldn't drink and drive, bro, don't even try to rationalize it

>>10258482
Slowly kill yourself alone with liquor all you want but don't risk other peoples lives doing it.

>>10258587
>>10258545
Not trying to be an edgelord, I too am anti drunk driving.

The problem though is that alkies, especially when they get in deep enough, literally do not care. We lose absolutely all sense of morality.

We should all be gassed honestly.

>>10258595

I'm honestly a better driver when I've been drinking, and even when I haven't I still feel like half the people on the road are more dangerous than I am; always looking at their fucking phones, never using turn signals, not turning on their headlights even though it's pouring rain.

>>10258602
>I'm honestly a better driver when I've been drinking
don't kid yourself

Why do I get Forest Whitaker eye when I drink?

>>10258669
Because ur a NIGGGGGGGERRRRRTT

>>10258669
I used to now that I think of it. It went away after years and years and doesn't happen anymore. I don't get drunk like I did in college anymore either though because I'm getting to old for it. I raged for like 10 years but I'm slowing down a lot now, I just can't take it.

>>10258617

I literally need to pull over and do some breathing exercises if I happen upon a road over 40mph when sober.

>>10258669
because booze dessicates the fuck out of you plus shrinks your capillaries. raging too hard makes your face look like shit.

>>10258813
>shrinks your capillaries
I thought it dilated them and that's why it makes you feel warm even if you're not?

>>10258823
Yes you’re right but everything alcohol does while it’s in your system is reversed hardcore when it leaves. Heart rate blood pressure mood etc

What's the most desperate thing you've done for a drink, al/ck/?

Lied?
Stolen?
Mouth wash?

>>10258852
Ah right. I thought we were talking about during, not after.

>>10258865

>name fag so incompetent he can't even poor a fucking beer

Typical.

>>10258861
I drank a bottle of white vermouth once. It was fucking awful.

>>10258861
Lied
Never stolen it’s too damn cheap
Never mouth wash I always plan ahead

A better question is worst thing I’ve ever done while drunk. The answer is I punched my dad who is a surgeon and a wonderful person and has never been anything but kind and supportive to me

>>10258919
Same here, "stole" it, too.

>>10258919

I've done that many times because I usually have a bottle in the fridge for cooking; there are far worse things.

>>10258861
sold all of my memes, and a 51% stake in my meme farm and all future memes.

I fell off my roof drunk yesterday, Sore as fuck.

Luckily my concrete driveway broke my fall


Going to drink the pain away

1.75l anon here
>drive sister five hours to get new car
>don’t drink except one shot in the morning while shit/shower/shaving
>two and a half hours in I can barely drive because shaking
>pull over, make excuse about being tired, she takes over driving
>cue two and a half hours of masked misery
>we stop for lunch once we get there and I waste $30 on drinks at an Applebee’s
>oh thank Christ I can think straight again
>walk her (and the woman selling the car) through the process of private seller-private buyer transaction/ take her to the dmv
>takes forever because woman has no idea about it and keeps calling her senile husband with questions I’ve answered four times
>part ways
>stop at liquor store and buy five Smirnoff miniatures
>drink ONE PER HOUR to fight wd on my five hour drive home
Holy shit that was an awful trip.

>>10258992
Why were you on the roof in the first place?

>>10258861
when i lived with my parents i told them i was going to an AA meeting when really i went to a bar

only thing i've "stolen" has been change for a cheap pint of vodka in the morning

mouthwash once. i'd do it again if i had to

>>10259077
But I am now mondo comfy, it’s a new day and I am off work. I haven’t moved from my couch (3:30 pm), and have half a handle left. I’m debating walking around the corner to get some ribs from the dank ghetto shack a block away, but other than that I’m breddy content. I stumbled upon three seasons of Archer I haven’t yet watched, so I’m binging that today.
Who else /comfy/ here? I’ve got a bowl, my vodka, my kitty, and I don’t have to be troubled by finding new media. Feelsgood.jpg.

>>10259089
Fixing my dish because a tree limb fell off during a snow storm and struck it

Owww my fucking dick ouch oww

It's miller time.

>>10259077
This is the honest to god reason I never venture further than around 30 miles from my house.

>>10259128
Archer has declined a lot in quality after S3 though, or maybe it's me who got used to the humour, what do I know.
Also pretty comfy, all is done for the day and I'm off the wagon again after 2 days of sobriety.

>>10259129
>keeping your dishes on the roof
weird

>>10255853
Convince yourself that it really wasn't as bad as you are making it out to be.

>>10256033
Holy shit, you are literally me. Minus the homeschooling thing. I also have nightmares about spiders sometimes. Very bad ones.

>>10259167
I don’t blame you. I strategically make sure wherever I move is within walking or cycling distance of any basic amenities that I could need on a dime because of this.
>>10259173
I agree, however it is still pretty good. Plus with it switching to FXX they threw in a scene of him and Lana banging which... Everyone wanted to see. I only wish Aisha Tyler was as fine as her irl.
Put your feet up, anon. There’s nothing better than that feel with nothing to do, food to eat, and plenty of liquor. I often set up my “battlestation” by getting everything I could possibly desire and adorning my table with it before I sit down for a few hours.
I’m not even fat, I just like being comfy.
I’ll probably get fat one day at this rate, though. Thank god I bike places.

>>10254583
I had a nightmare last night that I woke up after a bender, shirtless, covered in blood, glass everywhere, the mirror in my bathroom smashed, my file cabinet soaked in blood, cuts all over my body, my bed stripped of all its bedding, clothes and garbage strewn about the floor

I was pretty glad when I woke up and realized I wasn't dying

How do you know you are drunk opposed to being buzzed?

>>10259179
I was trying to think of a “
>The year 200+ 1818 years
>still having dish for tv
“ joke, but yours is honestly better.

>>10259247
Dude, right? I have the most insane nightmares where I completely RUIN my life (tenfold worse than I could ever do on a bender) and then are haunted by them all day and they render me an anxious mess. I often wonder if they mean anything.

>>10259244
They really did a NSFW scene? Guess the ratings are plummeting.
Other shows you might enjoy, if you don't already know them, are Trailer Park Boys, Peep Show and Silicon Valley.
I also swore to myself to only drink and smoke when pic related releases his batch of videos but here I am.

>>10259247
>tfw you are scared to get up and look because maybe it wasn't a dream
lol I don't miss that shit

>>10259297
It’s not necessarily NSFW, but it shows a lot more than they have in previous seasons. And yeah, I watched all of TPB ten years ago, and kept up with it when they released new stuff. The new seasons blow. Out Of The Park was okay. I also got an HBO subscription just for Silicon Valley. Good taste, anon.
I couldn’t get into Peep Show, though...

>>10259280
I keep having these ones where I get in massive yelling matches with my family and sometimes end up killing one of them and having to hide from the police. Once I woke up half drunk and was convinced it was real and the cops were coming and contemplated suicide for a moment before I achieved a moment of clarity and went back to bed

>>10259307
Agree on all points, TPB went donhill after S4, Silicon Valley holding up until now. Peep Show is really worth it though once you get past the ego perspective and the cringe, but it also loses quality over time.

Feeling goood brudda's. Playing a shooter on a noob account. everyone thinks im hacking.

>>10254583
Drank way more than I wanted to last night at the bar. Towards the end of the night I ended up puking out my dinner in the bathroom before going back to finish my beer and leave. First time ever puking in a bar bathroom. I once passed out in that same bathroom too. Hopefully no one noticed. Last week I made the bartender agree that she would not serve me more than two drinks that night. That seemed to work and I might try it again.

I always tell myself i'm just going to have one or two beers, then it turns into 6 or 7 beers plus a few shots along the way. I can't help it. All my friends (bar regulars) start filtering in, we start shooting the shit and I just don't want to leave.

>>10259360
I once decided to start learning how to play sniper on tf2 so I took a bunch of speed, started on my favorite server, left and fucked around for ten hours on another and got good, went back to my favorite and everyone thought I was hacking because I was basically the Waffen-SS on day 2 of the Blitzkrieg at that point

>>10259309
My detox nightmares are usually pretty bad but last night I just dreamed I banged Vladimir Putin's daughter. Wasn't his actual daughter and looked about twenty with perfect tits. It was like screwing a horny little refrigerator since I'd kicked the covers off. Sure beats the normal ones where everything has this blue-black tinge to it and people are poking me in the eyes, neck, and groin. Or the ones where people have no face and are screaming at me in ancient dead languages.

>>10259538
I generally just get auditory hallucinations and startling wakeups. Withdrawl sucks.

>>10259538
i usually dream about being uncontrollably shaky in an embarrassing public situation. usually my mom's there.

>>10258861
Imo mouthwash is really basic and not even desperate if we want to bring real desperation onto the table. I can think of ways it can get a lot worse. I've never stolen anything but I've lied about drinking so much over the course of my life it can't possibly matter anymore. Luckily I still have my friends and parents and I can be honest with them and they know what's up. Everyone knows I'm a fucked guy and honestly it doesn't feel bad. Everyone treats me like a real person.

>>10259538
the one with no faces isn't from drugs. you have some dark shit in your past

>>10258897
>>10258865
you're a faggot nigger, this is how you pour this kind of beer, get gud or keep drinking your piss swill

>>10258861
drinking really old and nasty oxidized beer or wine that was basically vinegar

>tfw about to drink some old shitty beer I swapped out of a bevmo soon

Got antibiotics for a gum infection, will I still be able to drink? I've had a few and feel OK but they said not to drink on them. Plan to stop tomorrow and drink Saturday and then stop for a week after that.

Haven't had a drink in 3 days, really really could do with one right now, but the anxiety's gotten so bad that I can't bear the walk to the shops, It was the exact same thing yesterday, it's getting shit now

>>10259621
How deep into the mess are you? Maybe just have a beer in the morning to keep the withdrawals at bay but you should focus on fighting the infection.

>>10258897
>>10259614
It was slightly overfermented and practically burst out of the can soon as I popped it.
Cry more, though.

>>10258897
maybe his glass and beer were both warm

>>10259538
>those fun recurring nightmares where I'm trying to kill my dad but he won't die and he's just laughing as I stab him or something

>>10259538
>never have sex dreams
>finally become sexually active
>still don't have sex dreams

RRRREEEEEEEEEEEEE

Post alckies' rooms.

Why is Nickelback considered a bad band? I sometimes enjoy them while getting drunk.

>>10259694
I just moved. Have the essentials unpacked, though.

>>10259708
Nice sick bucket.

>>10259708
Make a great home, anon.

My sleeping room, tidy right now, but tomorrow it's friday, aka binging start. Who's ready?

>>10259722
Anywhere else people would assume I had crisps or something in there. Hah.

I can control my drinking enough to not get sick but my painkillers sometimes get the better of me. After a day of carrying in boxes I took a little more than I should have and then I needed my bowl.

>>10259744
do you have to share the computer time with the cat? do you ever check the browser history after the cat uses the computer?

>>10259400
Ahh the speed really helps with focussing doesn't it? Did you still retain your skills after being suber? Tf2 is a hard game. I tried it once. Kinda sucked.

>>10259673
They are highly recommended. I fugged Kristen Bell the other day :^)

>>10259749

She doesn't use the internet, just likes to watch Bergman's movies with me

>>10259694
>>10259708
>>10259744
I’m pretty impressed with the cleanliness of these al/ck/ rooms. Maybe it’s something that runs deep in us, because I’m a minimalist myself. I would post a picture of my room but gf has so much shit that I’m ashamed of it.

>>10259694
Nickelback is bad because they are generic and uninteresting, 4 chord rock, but not in the cool way like the Ramones

A couple of people on AA told me that their heads 'cleared up' like a couple of months after not drinking alcohol. Is there any substance to this?

I was wondering if I could get away with just drinking at home, but I haven't gone one week without drinking heavily for so long I don't actually know if my mind is how it should be.

>>10259750
tf2 was unique at the time in the sense that you had to work as a team to win. People who played snipers did so because that was the best class that translated from things like unreal and CoD or Halo. They didn't know how to play support or anything. A real great game back in the day. Overwatch and Fortnite are kindof taking it over, which is good, tf2 is played out

>>10259757
God damn it, even though she is like 5’1” I would still destroy that. Mostly into more buxom and tall women.
She is 16 years older than me, but I still melt just at the sight of her smile.

>>10259747
From the thumbnail I did think maybe just for snacks but then I saw it was completely clean and I just knew.

I'm never sick from booze nowadays but I always keep the bucket handy just in case.

1.75l fag here. I’m about to take three shots and walk to go get ribs before they close.
Wish me luck.

>>10259834
sounds like a great plan imo

>>10255369
yes

>>10259780
http://canoe.com/entertainment/celebrity/kristen-bell-battling-more-pinworms

>>10259780
she's a nasty girl

I stump my cigs on my shoes heel. Is this considered okay?

I stump my cigs on the bottom of my shoe. Is this considered okay?

>>10259634
I'm quite deep. I'm drunk now, but the after effects of the tablets I'm not feeling mate. Does the alcohol stop the antibiotic from working?

>>10259634
And just to state, I can't have a few beers...my addiction isn't dependancy, it's that when I have a beer I can't stop until I'm drunk. So I have to go full clean.

>>10259929
outside I hope

>>10259929
No, since I know you just chuck the butts on the ground anyways

>>10258992
i fell off a roof a few weeks ago too. think my arm is still a little broken from it. shit sucks

>>10259934
Alcohol doesn't stop anti-biotics from working but they exacerbate the side effects.

>>10259934
It can interfere with autoimmune functions and regeneration.

>>10259934
What antibiotic?

>>10259943
that sounds like alcoholisms to me friend

haha

>5th day sober
>Heart palpitations gone
>Shaking calmed down
>No more vomiting
I'm g-g-gonna make

>>10260214
yeah man after a week ur good dude. I mean sleep is shit still for a month but still

I managed topauze for 17 days but i'm at it again.mom is comming visit tomorrow, butthe house is a fucking mess.. hmm...

I hate sober dreams. Slept sober last night and I dreamt that was I was doing something in the kitchen and that the cupboards are full.
Went out and did my shit today and came back and found that they were empty.

>>10260216
Yeah, man. My sleeping has been shit. 3-4 hours a night if I'm lucky and it never feels like a deep sleep either.
>The nightmares
The horror, the horror

>>10260234
>it never feels like a deep sleep either.
That's how it is when you're drunk too except that we're too drunk to notice.
We don't have full REM cycles till we're fully sober.

It's one of the reasons why dying out sucks for a bit. You can't sleep properly like when you're still drinking but without the oblivion that makes it tolerable

>>10260247
Yeah, that's true. I can deal with it until it passes. This is maybe the 3rd time in 13 years I've managed over 4 days.
This time is the time though (probably the 2nd time I've actually attempted to be sober) It's been way too crazy recently. It has to stop.

>>10260234
You can take benadryl 150mg or so, it will knock you out but dont drink on it or you could go psycho. There's a bit of a hangover the next day in the way of a hazy feeling but since you're already an alchy ur used to that shit so I recommend that path. Also, get it in the sleep aid section as diphenhydramine, same shit, 1/3 the price

>>10260261
You can make it bud. It's the little things that you forget. Like just taking a proper shit. Or having your eyes as sharp as when you were a kid. Or just not feeling fucked up in some way all the time.
If my life weren't so boring, I'd have no problem being sober. But it is so I'm not

>>10260266
make sure it doesn't have acetaminophen in it tho

>>10260266
I used to be really in to benzos. I might source some and keep myself on 20mg for a week just to get me over the hump

>>10260272
>proper shit
My bowels are in shock. That first proper shit. I know what you mean by vision, not only that but my hearing feels sharp as a tack too. Like I have awareness back. I didn't realise it would get good this fast
>boredom
Tell me about it, man. It's the boredom that really pulls me back to the sauce.

Holy shit. By change got on my old clan site (i did not master the site but i i did create the clan but left after 4 years). Started it in 2006.

The nostalgia. Damn. I fucking left them. They carried on. I do the same in real life. I abandon everyone.

>>10260291
Sense of smell is really strong for me on days I take a break. I can be across the house and still smell the residue on the plates in the kitchen sink.

Funny you should mention hearing. Sometimes I hear phantom music when I'm drying out. Like music that's just out of hearing but you can still tell its there. Drives me fucking nuts. Like my phone might be ringing in another room

Came to work this morning expecting that in still had half a bottle of whiskey left, but I must have drank it all. Got another bottle just after lunch time and now that's almost gone and in not even home yet. Gonna stay home tonight and not go to the bar. Tomorrow in bartending for a gig and I'll probably get shitfaced doing it.

May just be depression speaking, but I kind of feel like I deserve to be this way. In constant state of dying of pain or numb

>>10260410
Oh man, that image may as well be called hangover.jpg
Fucking sucks.

And yeah, I do feel that way sometimes. Like this is punishment for being shitty and squandering every opportunity I've ever had.
But you can counter that with something to hope for in the future. Like "I feel like shit now but it's all just penance for my real life later on"
That sounds AS deluded but it keeps me going.
I will get out of this. I will be better. I will have a nice career. I will go to work and be happy to do so. I will come home and cook myself a nice meal, watch some TV, read a book. Then I'll go to bed. Without a drop. On the weekend I'll see my friends. And maybe we'll have a few beers. But not too many.

I don't think it's too much to believe in.

>>10260410
oh man I've been using "the fear" all wrong. Well mostly wrong, anyways

Which is worse?
>drinking more but slower over a longer period in the day
>drinking less overall but in a much shorter time
I like to start drinking at like 2pm but I'm worried that's worse then starting at night. Just having a beer every so often and keeping a nice little buzz going for hours is a lot more enjoyable then getting rather drunk over only a few hours.

>>10260471
well much like cigarettes total consumption is what matters so if you get tanked in an hour and pass out after 8 shots vs 12 hours of drinking 15 beers the 8 shots is better for you

>>10260422
I do feel like if you drink in company of others exclusively u cant be a rezl alcohlic, or at least some part is forgiven. But when u do drugs all by yourself u know so ething is wrong.

>>10260492
Not too sure about that. I have a quite good understanding of how the body works. Lets say you lift weights for a long period of time at very easy weight compared to heavy lifting at almost your max. Your muscles will have more damage at the heavy lifting part.

>>10260571
listen buddy, I'm a physician, your liver does not work like your muscles

>>10260578
Fair point, but i just can't see why heavydrinking would be less damaging. I've never read a study comparing it.

>>10260578

then explain metabolizing ethanol, ethyl acetate and the other products of distillation.

>>10260578
You sure? I thought it's worse to drink in a short amount of time.

got a job guys
probably gonna be in a camp for a month straight at a time, good way to stay sober i guess

>>10260594

You'll develop acidosis, That's a blood disorder that the kidneys need to deal with. Not the liver.

>>10260595
Tree planter?

>>10256402
Honestly back in the day, I had the same issue with initial motivation. My friend had to drag me there when I was 23. That's when I finally started lifting.

Also, >>>/fit/ is the best board on this site. Go there, you will be inspired (and possibly turn gay).

>told myself it is time, I'm done drinking.
>gonna drink 5 or 6 of these tall boys tonight and probably fight the urge to vomit because it tastes and smells so disgusting


Hopefully i dont say anything retarded on messenger tonight that makes me paranoid and depressed for the entire next week.

>>10260622
nah oilfield shit

>>10260638
How'd you get into that?
I've thought about it for a while, but I never knew how to start

>>10260605
Why does drinking over a longer period of the day give you acidosis?

>>10260653
I live in alberta so it's not super hard, have a bit of a background. wish I got more seriously into it 4-5 years ago, could have been making 6 figures ez by now. just doing safety watch shit at the moment but since im not a retard they're training me in some tech shit. downside is its pretty seasonal, this contract im going on is 10 weeks long i guess, no idea how rotation or anything is going to work.
if i had got on as a process operator back in the day though, i would be fucking set. though probably fired for my drinking so eh.

>>10260661

Liver metabolites that aren't purged fast enough. You'll get cramping, dehydration, just an entire bunch of shit

Drink a lot of water all the time to the point you want to get sick.

>>10260637
>Hopefully i dont say anything retarded on messenger tonight that makes me paranoid and depressed for the entire next week.
I do this every week, mostly message my ex at 2-4pm asking if she's still awake like a fucking retard.

>>10258861
I did a lot of stupid shit when I lived with people in college. I'd steal booze when the maintenance guy was in the apartment, then blame it on him. I'd get my over 21 friend to buy me booze saying I was having a party, then down 2 handles on my own the next couple days. Then I ran out of excuses and just flat out stole booze from my roommates, which lead to them all living without me the next year

>>10260674
Figured you was Albertan.
Should have known from the start due to being in al/ck/
Gonna be 1000s of suicides when those oil sands dry up.

I hope you don't fuck up your money though. I hear the stereotypes. Like the military. Get a lot of cash, marry and spend it all on a fucking car.
Put that shit in the bank. Invest it maybe

Wish there was something like that here in Quebec. Young strong man with nothing lose. lol be a dishwasher all your fucking life

>>10260637
I live in Wisconsin, and can get a 4 pack of those 211s for $1.95, my alcoholism will never end

>>10260699
>Gonna be 1000s of suicides when those oil sands dry up.
more like a great migration back to the east to go on pogey. and yeah i kinda fucked up by not having a job for awhile and drinking all my savings away. but the rig workers are all retarded faggots who make shit tons and blow it all then don't want to work a job where they don't make tons of money to waste on dumb shit.

>>10260705
>pogey
Oh shit nigger, you a maritimer?

>>10260678
So just drink water while day drinking and I'll be fine?

>go on bender
>sober up
>feel like shit
>go through withdrawals for multiple days
>tell myself I'm never going to drink again
>write notes to self about how shitty I feel, so I never end up like this again
>day 6 or 7 start feeling great again
>convince myself withdrawal wasn't a big deal
>buy more booze
>repeat cycle

I'm currently in the "repeat cycle" phase, and know I'm going to feel like shit for the next week. But the alcohol makes me say I don't care

Xanax script was refilled, bye bye morning shakes and terror

>>10260719
You must be an old faggot.
I'm raring to go around day 2 or 3 of my "I'm never going to do this again" streak

>>10260709
no been in alberta all my life(born in sk though kek, fucking lloydminster). they just come invade our province to steal our jearbs.

>>10260725
Ayup, not much out there that gives jobs no more. Fisheries are all fucked.
If there are a lot of maritimers out in AB, get you some Newf friends. Best lot of lads you can have.

>>10260678
so assuming I quit for good, how long till the fatty liver goes away? heavy drinker been clean about a week or so now, I have all the symptoms

>>10260723
Well then you must not really drink. 2 or 3 days of "I'm never going to do this again" is just a hangover. 5+ days is "my god, I'm an alcoholic. I literally cannot function unless I have some alcohol"

>>10260741
I guess you're right. I'm glad to hear that I'm not so far gone yet.

I really do want to stop. Sometime. Not today though

>>10260684
Does she ever reply?

>>10260744
Hate to break it to you kid, but it sounds like you're going to get here some day. Welcome to the club

>>10260758
Nah, I just need my life to turn around. It's going to happen. Then I won't need to drink. Because I'll feel happy just living.
I'll get a phone call tomorrow saying that one of the resumes I sent out got picked up. I'll have a career. Everything will be ok.
This last year, 2 years, 3 years of drinking has just been tiding me off till my real life begins

>>10260770
kek i would never get a call back about any jobs until i was absolutely tanked and missed the calls cause i was passed out
if i stayed sober i would never hear shit

>>10257008
Coors is the way to go

>>10260747
The next day. Saying she was already asleep, and then we small-talk. I can't bring myself to telling her i still have feelings for her, since she already has a new boyfriend. Though, she was the most special person in my life. She was an angel.

>>10259772
yeah ur head clears up leaving you with a lucid understanding of how fucking awful life is

enjoy

>>10256021
Sailor Jerry, you could have bought more of something else for less.

>>10260821
I sort of know that feel bro. Hang in there

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>>10260637
>Hopefully i dont say anything retarded on messenger tonight that makes me paranoid and depressed for the entire next week.

God fucking damn I do that same shit. Either text, snapchat, or fb messenger. Whenever I wake up after a night of drinking and see my phone flashing with notifications I'm scared of turning on the screen to see wtf it is. I hate posting redpill stuff on kikebook but when I'm drunk I do it right away and of course it gets comments right away lol.

>>10260970
>only on page 4

>>10255065
There’s a massive worldwide pilot shortage rn my dude. I’m going to college for aviation in the fall.

was supposed to call my sponsor tonight to meet up tomorrow
9pm and haven't done it

>>10261020
I wanted to be a pilot or at least an ACSO
My eyes were too shit for it.

It's ironic. Reading as a kid fucks your eyes. But only university nerds can be pilots.

>>10261037
Do it mate. Say you're late. Forgot. Had a flat.
Whatever

Just do it. Having a bud you can talk to wholly is worth a lot. Don't squander it

>>10261067
eh no use lying
ill just call him tomorrow morning or something

>>10261087
Nah, don't lie.
Tell him you're drunk now.
That's what he's there for. No point in having a sponsor if you don't use him when you need him.

Getting sober isn't about trickery. That's what being drunk is about. We hide what we're doing because we know it's bad.
If we're trying to get better, we open it up to the light.
Your sponsor cares about you. It sucks but sometimes it's better to live with being a disappointment than succeeding as a liar

>>10261105
im not drunk though....
i just want to sleep in a bit tomorrow

>>10254845
I'm here bro, but migrate to the next thread
>10260968

>>10261129
Sorry,
>>10260968

>>10261127
Come on man
You're sober and can't keep commitments?
You're better than this

>>10261141

>>10261020
Have fun paying $200k for the hours to get an ATP then working for less than minimum wage to get hours for a respectable airline.
>>10261066
USAF allows prk and lasik so there's no excuse anymore, unless you are unfortunate enough to be colorblind. The scene in little miss sunshine hurts when the kid who wants to be a test pilot finds out he is colorblind... can't imagine being denied something so important to him for a genetic defect.

>>10261173
I actually asked about lasik.
They said they won't accept lasik unless you're already in.

If you don't have 20/40 going in, you won't be a pilot. Pretty much just like that.
I'm also 6'0 so that might be an issue. Manlets only pilots are.

>>10254583
I had to throw in the towel. I poured all my booze down the skin because of what I did last weekend.

>Be super depressed on a saturday
>Get fifth of jim beam and panda express, its the only food I've eaten since 7 the night before
>Get home, drink 1/4 of the bottle in a go, eat 2 spring rolls
>Set food down but keep bottle and go to bullshit with roommates in the dining room
>Hangout and progressively kill bottle in under 1hr
>Passout and fall out of chair completely blacked out
>Wake up later that night and try to get up
>Fall down and everyone comes up to investigate
>First thing they see when they come into the room is me get violently ill and puke all over the floor
>Everyone is shocked but it gets worse
>I start to unbuckle my pants and apologize for what im about to do, attempt piss all over the floor
>Cant pull pants down and shamefully piss myself
>Get put on bathroom floor and everyone cleans up my mess
>Wake up next day in my bed
>Go to take a morning piss then put on my pants
>First foot into pant leg, pants are completely soaked
>Ask first roommate I see what happened and they give me the rundown of the destruction I caused

>>10259663
Probably not a good sign this made me laugh super hard.

Last night I got black out drunk in my car where I sleep and posted vocaroos on britpol about all the gay shit I did in the army and now I'm hiding under a blanket in a car park while people walk all around me because I don't want to deal with life right now

>>10258861
all those
also cooking wine and Vanilla extract (40%)