/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>10247396
I would call liver disease and ending ride, OP you degenerate.

>>10247400
I'm probably the biggest degenerate I know.

>>10247396
I had the equivalent of a six pack yesterday, slept pretty well. Maybe I'll do the same today.

Daily reminder that you're all pussies

only 6 of 24 beers left. it's not tolerance, it's stamina....

>>10247396
Hey sorry I couldn't think of a better place to ask this but what should I try as my first alcohol?(my religion for most of my life prohibited it) I was thinking beer because its pretty weak (I heard) or vodka because its cheap and I can mix it with other shit or maybe go all out Jagermiester because its really popular where I live and I heard it tastes good?

>>10247495
No one cares. Either about what you think, or being perceived as a pussy.

>>10247511
First time ever? Drink beer or wine, but don't do vodka. You'll get fucked.

>>10247511
Don't start with yeager, that's too weird.
Have a beer. Try whiskey if you want something stronger.
Also never take any advice beyond this from alcoholics.

>>10247521
Alright, I plan to do it in a social setting outdoors near a pool so what type of shit can I expect? Do I drink it (beer) all at once or slowly? I really dont wanna lose control or black out so any tips are appreciated

>>10247511
shit mohammed give them all a go just like your religion accepts everyone

>>10247533
I'd drink your first beer not too fast. 10-20 minutes for your first beer would be good. After that, you can pretty much indicate how many beers more you can handle. First time i drank alcohol (which was a red wine) i already felt tipsy after 1 glass.

where my Auscunts at?

what's the cheapest case of beer you can all get and where are you? not asking about proper booze cos of "self controlss"

Gonna go to Narcotics anonymous tonight. People on here recommended I go because I'm young and they will more likely be around my age rather than AA, which is full of old cunts.

Is it okay if I go even if I am not physically addicted to alcohol and never have been? It said addicts only, if anything I just have a psychological dependence on alcohol.

>>10247561
bro you're on a rock floating though space. choose whether this path makes you happy. you're still on the rock in space at the end of the day

>>10247563
Hi Joe. Love the podcast buddy

>>10247563
bruh

>>10247554
Like $12 a 30 rack. For my "self control," I get Busch Light for $16 a case. My 'lism waxes and wanes, but having a dozen light beers a day is a lot better than where I used to be.

>>10247567
hi cunt, love your manpussy. cheers, Australia

>>10247578
just got the cheapest 24 case of my life today besides theft. $30 aussie for 24 X 4.7%

>>10247576
fuckin space man always getting in the way of progress

>>10247578
congrats on the reduction son, life better??

>>10247620
Better than having physical symptoms like feeling terrible every morning, waking up drunk, sense of dread, and anxiety for entire days out of nowhere, but I still have a inner self-loathing, shitty socialization skills, and seem to still be making 0 progress in my life. So, yes and no.

>>10247632
dude don't worry that's just all part of being an honest human at this stage in the game. give it time and it will pass but is it worth it? you don't really want to be them, so relish being us

>>10247649
>but is it worth it? do you really want to be them?

Of course, despite this thread and this site, I still want to be normal. Part of me wants to do well by myself, my family, my God, my community and my peers, climb my career, become more intertwined with my hobbies, and raise a loving family. The other half wants to forget all that mess, crawl into a bottle and snort cocaine while eating percocet and molly, playing video games.

This is the dichotomy of the human condition, body and soul. The body wants to fuse with the world, while soul wants to escape from it, and this is the primary internal tension that causes inner struggle and conflict. To destroy one to keep the other is a fake solution, at the cost of being a mutilated human being.

Now excuse me while I go grab a beer.

>>10247511

Malt liquor, chilled

>>10247793
ah my man! once you've know such pleasures a measure of normalcy will never compete. you need to play each against the other. i don't know how old you are or where you are but you know you know how to think, so get on the bus or drive it into a wall. it's all you anon.. what beer you drinking?

Holy fuck beer is so expensive in Ontario. What's the cheapest here?

>need to drink the shakes off
>digestive tract is completely fucked and would probably vomit anything back up

what do?

>>10247854
$7.00 for a diggle

>>10247869
not done it but anus drinks sounds like your savior. good lucks

>>10247906
wouldn't I shit it right back out? I don't feel like sitting on the toilet all day

>>10247836
It's true, either shit, get off the pot, or in your analogy keep spinning in circles until you choke on the carbon monoxide. Inaction is always the insidious third choice that's easiest for us alchies to make, where staying the course leads you to drink more upon self reflection. And Busch Light, naturally.

>>10247912
like i said, never done it. mechanics check out though. got anything to lose?

>>10247888
Sorry, not familiar with that term.

>>10247919
life never throws up a third choice man, not historically anyway - plow a field this morning? kill your breakfast? didn't think so - society and your ability to think past it brought you here. is there an end - yes> but a lot of people have to die. your problem? that's the question man. drinking hollandia beers here

>>10247933
apologies canadia, i was drunks.

>>10247920
>got anything to lose?
his life

ha ha

>>10248056
fuckin gold. no booze up our butbutts

>>10248069
real talk, that shit is dangerous

probably less so when you're a serious alcoholic but still

>>10248074
shit man try figuring out a point on a spectrum when you're a fucking robot. noot noot!

>>10247561
yeah it's fine they won't know or care, and anyway you're an addict if you say you're an addict by their standards.
i've found plenty of young people in aa and plenty of old people in na though

>cut down on drinking
>hungry as fuck all fucking day
>liver starts hurting

>>10248126
mmm organ pains all over...eh

>>10248145
>>10248126
I'm in so fucking much agony since I cut down. Kind of scared to even find out why. Can't fully inhale a breathe because it stresses... something... and my chest and back hurt like hell. It's horrific at night, every time I need to move it wakes me up because the pain is so fucking intense. Like I'm getting cramp in muscles above both kidneys, lungs are being torn and whole spine/halfway down legs are numb/tight. 8-10 grams of paracetamol daily, plus tramadol and sumatriptan and i'm still limping around like i've been in a car crash.

>>10247396
good morning fwends > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M9Bqu81QrIA

anybody made hooch? I just made some and it's getting me crazy drunk, after a few glasses. I usually drink 2-3 natty daddies a night.

>>10248194
>8-10 grams of paracetamol daily
that probably explains it, you're taking over double the recommended daily dose and that shit is worse for the liver than drinking

>>10248214
i started taking them for the pain, they can't have caused it.

>>10248218
They're probably not doing you any good either though, not at that high a dose.

>>10248239
Well within 20 mins I can at least sit down. I am taking the damn things near-constantly, but without them I'd just be laying down too uncomfortable to move. Legit worried that something within me is deeply fucked, I mean there's no explanation for the pain, didn't injure myself or anything, but it's ferocious.

im tipsy and eating pizza rolls now what

>>10248214
>>10248239
This.
Literally worse for you than than opiates.
Talk to your doctor about getting on a different painkiller, man.

>>10248278
I know paracetamol is no good for the liver, but my doc has me on this 'drug seeker' list; a database of people whom GPs suspect might have addictive personalities, so it's pointless asking her for anything. Lucky to get what I do.
A doc in detox once told me that safe levels of paracetamol don't damage the liver, and i'm not drinking for a change, so even twice the recommended daily dose is probably damaging my liver less than is the norm. There's something new and horrifying wrong with me these last couple of months. Firmly blame alcohol, bound to be the cause somehow.

day 4 sober coming off basically a bender since october and i didnt realize how much time i have when i don't drink but now im in a spot where i cant be productive musically and its killing me. i need to start reading or something. any time filler suggestions?

>>10248312
What do you play anon? I work second shift and all my roommates work first, so I never have time to play guitar

>>10248305
>i'm not drinking for a change, so even twice the recommended daily dose is probably damaging my liver less than is the norm

Probably not, paracetamol is the #1 cause for acute liver damage while alcohol generally takes 1-2 decades of heavy drinking to bring on liver disease

>>10248273
hopefully with ranch dressing

>>10247511
don't drink

>>10248305
>safe levels of paracetamol don't damage the liver
That's true but you're eating more than twice the safe levels and have the alcohol as a compounding factor. Even if you're not drinking now the fact that you used to puts you at higher risk.

I know doctors won't give you a damned thing once you're on that list, though.

>>10248218
It's called a rapidly developing dependency, brother

>>10247511
yeah just drink jager straight it's great

>>10248370
Are you from the Midwest?

>>10247969
What is a diggle?

How do you guys stay sober for work?

>>10249025
I don't

>>10249025
ha ha...

>>10249025
At work seems easy enough for me, if I really need it I can go have a beer in my car.

>>10249025
the true question is how to hide being drunk at work

>>10249025
what's work?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcv6xgl47Gg

>>10249184
I could easily do that....Just do the same thing I do around my family. Drink vodka out of a water bottle and eat breath minds and smoke.

The problem is I have to drive an hour each way to and from work and I'm 100% against drunk driving, I won't drive if I've had two drinks. If I didn't have to drive....I would just drink at work

>>10247511
have a drink, it's the natural order of things. maybe a nice rum? it all does the same thing.

>mfw less than 24 hours to my first drinking day of the week

>>10247511
that depends, have you injected any marijuanas today?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvF0n2s-RBI

>>10249427
Black label and pringles. High class.

>>10249025
I switched to being a beer alck and found a 6-month internship in the literal middle of buttfucking nowhere. It's an IT job so human contact is very limited, I have no car and no driver's license, and there are no bus lines either. The nearest town is at an hour and a half on foot, so I can't go buy alcohol. The company's hotel has a strict rule on not serving interns alcohol at the restaurant's bar, and it is constantly recorded by a camera. So no fucking alcohol at all for six months. And the cherry on top of the irony sundae ? I work at a motherfucking wine company.

>>10248312
>mfw fucking around on my DAW and synth while drunk.

So Much fun. Producing some hilarious results too. Discovered an entire custom kit I made comprised of shoots and sounds I'd made with my own voice. Good times.

>>10249466
sorry guy. thats some no fun shit.

>>10249466
Why the fuck would a company dictate what its employees do during off time when it's a legal activity?

>>10249362
Public transport my man.

>>10249502
At least I've been dry for a month except when I saw my parents last weekend and drank a decent amount of lighter-than-usual beer so I kept my drinking under control for the first time in God knows how many years. Also anhedonia has mostly faded away but my focusing capacity and short-term memory are completely fucked and I still have brain fog. Still way better than usual.
>>10249509
Because I'm not a full-fledged employee, just a paid intern. I have no paid vacation either so when I take a day off it's taken from my pay. Also they don't want interns to drink at the bar because it's only meant for clients, and employees once in a while. It's not that terrible tho, they give us 2 good free meals 5 days a week and I can live on site for free.

Have had this dull tightness in my back about 5 inches above my butt crack and 2 inches to the left. Had this for a week or so is this something I should worry about? Anyone else have this?

>>10249585
Penis papules. Everyone who drinks gets them sooner or later.

>>10249585
it's the cancer nigga, you a gonner.

drank a fifth and almost shot myself last night. I think it's time for me to get off the ride.

>>10249652
na but i had some lower pains and they stopped. I also had this weird thing where my legs hurt, but it stopped. like it never happen, i can't even replicate it. something about sleeping with your feet over the couch leg. so the body does weird shit.

>>10249669
it's not worth shooting your self.

>>10249692
are you quite sure about that

>>10249694
yeah it would have to be something diabolical to shot your self.

>>10249697
your not hitler are you? then i'm sure your fine.

>>10249694
what would be worth shooting your self?

>>10248346
Guitar bass keys vox. Anything but drum because I don't have a set to learn on.

>>10249468
I would hop on my daw more but I have to really be in a mood for it. Other wise I dick around. Listen to things I've made already then lose interest.

>>10249669
Sold my gun a few months back because I was legitimately afraid I'd do the same (only because I have a kid). Down to a six pack a day now, from a fifth of vodka a day. Doing my best to claw my way outta this hellhole.

shit, i bite my tongue hard, that will be a week to heal.

>>10249797
a six pack a day isn't bad.

>>10249810
you should just hold there and try to relax.

I don't know how some of you guys hold jobs and make money. I'm unemployed right now and doing school, but I could sure as hell not hold down a job or a family. Too goddamn hungover all the time

>>10249835
the trick is to delay the hangover when you're at work (i.e. keep a buzz going with some "bathroom breaks")

>>10248126
I hate the increased hunger, I'm just sitting there like Christ my calorie intake is probably 1,500 less on days I don't drink.

>go on bender
>sober up
>go through withdrawal for 2-3 days
>feel like absolute shit
>promise myself I'm never going to drink again
>write myself notes to read once I'm craving alcohol again to make me stay away
>6 or 7 days post bender, feeling amazing again
>"I should drink again, what could it hurt?"
>disregard notes I wrote because I was just being a pussy going through withdrawal
>get shitfaced for a few days
>repeat

such is the cycle of life

>tfw blacked out for the first time ever last night

>>10250322
>>go on bender
>>sober up
>>go through withdrawal for 2-3 days
>>feel like absolute shit
>>promise myself I'm never going to drink again
>>write myself notes to read once I'm craving alcohol again to make me stay away
>>6 or 7 days post bender, feeling amazing again
>>"I should drink again, what could it hurt?"
>>disregard notes I wrote because I was just being a pussy going through withdrawal
>>get shitfaced for a few days
>>repeat
>such is the cycle of life
fuck, isn't this the truth

>>10250334
do anything stupid?

>>10250294
I eat a lot more when not drinking, makes me hungrier because I don't have all the calories and fullness from beer. Probably less calories overall but much more useful/substantial calories. I still try to eat full meals when I drink because I read somewhere that shakiness can happen when your body is primarily using calories from alcohol (seems to help my shakes a lot when I eat good foods too, so don't know if it's that or just correcting mineral deficiencies.) Helps hangovers overall when I eat full meals and chug water before bed even though I piss most of the water out, and I can even wake up without the fuzzies if I don't down a stupid amount of liquor and eat salty enough foods to make me need water.

>>10249835
i couldn't even do school. currently unemployed.

>>10250345
I'm going to assume you're at the peak of your bender right now anon

>>10250334
If that's your first time then just don't make it habit and you likely won't get addicted.

>>10250353
Withdrawing right now

>go to strip club with my brother yesterday
>fully nude clubs here don't serve alcohol because of state law
>get drunk with my brother before we go then take an uber to the club
>took 2 pints of vodka and taped them to my leg because they don't do pat downs
>standing outside the club at 2am
>buzz wearing off
>decide to drink half a pint real quick
>take it off my leg and start chugging
>feel tap on my shoulder
>turn around
>it's a cop
>"your not supposed to be drinking in public buddy"
>sorry sir
>"try to be more discreet...." and starts to walk away
>Thank you sir
>"I was young once too...Be safe tonight buddy"

There are good cops.......

>>10249835
I fly jets for a living. I can control my drinking to not drink much the night before a flight (Sundays are much harder because I'm hungover from Fri/Sat and drinking cures the hangover and helps me sleep from staying in bed past noon) but after a flying day I generally down a six pack of a high ABV IPA (9% or so) because I'm just so excited to get drunk again. 12 hours bottle to throttle I've been able to do fine, but not always following the "without any effects of alcohol" thing since I've had very slight hangovers that turn much worse when at high altitude. AIr Force has such a crazy drinking culture that is doesn't help any either, but it's better than 60 years ago where people would regularly drink all night, get 4 hours of sleep, try to chug coffee and smoke cigarettes to sober up, then crash aircraft at an incredibly high rate.

>>10250367
rip

>used to hit the bottle everyday
>came into work hungover
>was depressed everyday
>started growing tits
>started watching Peterson
>inspired me to live up to my potential
>stopped drinking during the week
>signed up to the gym, now I go 3-4 times a week
It's been a month now, I feel great, look better, starting to feel my abs coming in, I don't studder when I speak to hot chicks
The only problem is I crave a drink everyday, and when the weekend comes, I hit the bottle hard

>it's only Tuesday

>>10247854
Tsingtao, a 6 pack is 10 bucks. Anything Portuguese is the cheapest at the LCBO, beer or wine. Try Sherry too, cheap and strong.

>>10250378
all cops are good cops
only times i've ever had run ins was when they were for serious concerned for my safety, i've even had rides home from across town, including one following a dui accident
that guy was a real cool guy, he didn't say it but i know the only alternative was a stay in sleepoff then a sixteen mile walk home

>>10250399
how do i learn to navigate in microsoft flight sim x?
do i have to download maps of VOR towers and shit? i just never got that, i've been doing it for twenty years and i have no clue

>>10250347
Nothing too interesting, tried to make food apparently and spilled it all over the floor before going to sleep on the ground.

>>10250452
and i guess i could get with the times and use the gps but
that stuff didn't exist when i started and i'm stubborn

>>10250448
>all cops are good cops

For the most part. I know multiple cops, and almost all of them pound beers like crazy on the weekend. The biggest thing is to just show them some respect. A lot of them get into it because they either A) enjoy a power trip, or B) were disrespected when they were young and want respect. So basically, just don't be an asshole and you'll almost always get off lighter

Super, super drunk. Been drinking bourbon on an empty stomach since yesterday. Had a guy come in to fix a broken spring on my garage door so I could get out to buy more cigarettes. Offered him a taste of bourbon for the ride home, he respectfully declined.

Woo-hoo! I still have a bottle to kill, two packs of cigarettes, and nothing to do tomorrow! Man, I miss just being a pot smoker. Alcohol's a pain in the ass.

I got some triple sec pic related. Lemon seltzer and cranberry juice. What ratio besides 1:0:0 would al/ck/ suggest?

>>10250459
Not all....

Some want to help people.

My brother is a LT in the state police, Genuinely a good dude even though I don't like his career choice. He saved two peoples lives before he ever thought about becoming a cop (as a teenager). Was never bullied, was never a dick growing up.

You could call him every name in the book and he would still try to help you the best he could. Not all people become police officers because they are power tripping or were bullied as kids.


I asked him once "what gets you off or a warning if you're caught doing something illegal" and he said "honesty".

>>10250378
lucky for you

I got a public intoxication citation simply for slurring my words a little while buying some cigs at 7/11 and a cop inside happened to notice
Lawyer fees cost me about $2500 and a lot of inconvenience, but thankfully it eventually got deferred

>>10250459
yeah, the thing is i have nothing but respect for them and the one showed disbelief when i told him the other was giving me a ride home, and the ride cop said "yeah he's been beyond cooperative"
i could never do the shit they do so i have monster respect for those guys

>>10250478
Which is why I said "for the most part", and "a lot of them get into it because". It wasn't a blanket statement, I'm just stating the tendencies of a large majority of cops I know. Sure, there's some good dudes who do it as well

>>10250496
Oh gotcha!

Sorry I skimmed that and didn't read it fully, I'm drunk...Sorry

need fuckers to buy my gift cards so i can in turn buy more booze

>>10250487
Ya I have a cousin who's a state trooper, and it's eye opening to hear the difference in traffic stops depending on how a person acts. As long as someone cooperates and is friendly and honest, he almost always just gives a warning (unless it's like 20+mph over the speed limit). If they give him an attitude, or make a joke about how he's got better things to do, like go eat donuts (which they hear every day), by god you can be sure that guy's getting the highest ticket amount possible under the law

>>10250503
no worries bro, drunk here too. Nothing but respect toward our boys in blue

Trying to taper off of ~12 standard drinks a day


Should I knock off 2 drinks per day like 10, 8, 6, 4, 2, 0?
And be done in 5-6 days with no withdrawal?

>>10250458
Sorry man, I have FSX which I messed around with before pilot training but haven't played since then. I bet youtube has decent tutorials for it but it will probably take a lot of time watching and learning. Honestly the hardest part of IFR flying for me was listening to instructions from controllers and remembering it and being able to speak well on the radio, but that's not really a problem in a flight sim. Reading the charts is super easy when you figure it out.

If you're looking for charts, go to skyvector.com. You can plot routes from VORTAC to VORTAC by typing in beginning destination and each VORTAC identifier along the way, it is super nice. You can look at every type of chart there is (recommend world lo if looking for VORTACS and V routes, doing it old school, world hi if using higher altitude for more major VORTACS.) I admire that you're trying to use the old ways, but most times now everything is GPS direct nowadays because it is far more efficient since it is a straight line. Might have to fly a STAR if going into a heavily populated area like class B airspace but other than that it is point to point by GPS. Hilarious when USAF is conducting GPS jamming exercises because none of the airline pilots remember how to use VORs for navigation and their GPS antennaes aren't military grade to protect against jamming, so lots of bitching.

>>10250520
not that it would change the way i would act, but i watch a lot of cop shows on tv and yeah, pretty much everyone is like that except for a few real assholes. and i'm sure that's a very small number in real life. they're people, not cops. until you force them to be cops.

>>10250540
Depends how long you've been drinking 12/day. If it has been years, I'd double that timeframe. If just a couple months or so, ya that should work

>>10250547
i think that answers my question, if i want to do it old school with vor stuff, i just have to spend the time it takes to do it old school, ie looking at charts and planning routes by hand, like in real life. thanks.

>>10250550
Maybe a year of ~8-9 drinks/day followed by 4 months of ~12 drinks/day with few breaks

>>10250549
>they're people, not cops. until you force them to be cops

Damn, that was an unexpectedly profound statement in a drunk thread. So freakin' true, especially when they broadcast those cops in situations where they end up shooting an armed person, and everyone in the media goes nuts calling them racist and whatnot . In reality, most of them are just guys trying to do their best to make life good for everyone, and make it back to their family's for dinner that night

>>10250562
That's fairly long. If you're able to handle the self control, I'd recommend knocking one off per day. 12, 11, 10, 9 etc. Even though 12 a day isn't huge in alkie terms, doing that for a year really conditions your body for it, if you're able to control it and taper slowly, you'll have a lot less withdrawal symptoms

you guys want a greentext of total retardation

>30 years old
>clean 3 months (had several years before but relapsed)
>no sex in 1.5 years
>meet amazing fucking girl, soul mate material, go completely disgustingly ga-ga over her
>she says one of her "deal breakers" is smoking
>have of course been ripping through packs of marlboro 27's for sober coping
>lie
>first date
>don't want to be a puss or lay the "im an alcoholic" card on the table
>things go great, better than great
>we meet again
>we meet again
>honestly falling in love, she's almost filling the hole in my heart that booze left
>she catches me smoking
>immediately walks out the door, calls me a liar and a coward and cuts all contact
>tonight im on 2 mg xanax and 6 beers

Still have that bottle of dalwhinnie, that i didn't drink up till now. Gonna bring it over to my moms place tomorrow just in case and buy some weed so i can catch up some sleep.

Also got myself a bench press so i'll be using that before i start smoking.

>>10250580
That sucks bro, but you can only hold your vices so long in the dating world before they find out. I've found I'm able to keep my drinking habits a secret for the first 2-3 months, but after that everything starts to come forward and she's either on board, or it's a deal breaker

>>10250558
Honestly the reading charts isn't that bad, once you figure it out it's easy. In skyvector plotting a route, set KSAT as departure (San Antonio) and KOKC (Oklahoma City) as destination. Type SAT V163 JEN V17 IRW in the route and it gets you all the way, which you can see those routes by looking at the world lo and seeing the most direct route. Skyvector will then give an outlined route the entire way with VORTACs at each area and can look at the lines to see the course to set for each segment and the lines also tell you when to switch from one VORTAC to the next.

>>10250591
yeah man
it's just so fucking ironic
i'm lonely as shit and enjoying a few cigs on the patio at night, while she's probably riding the cock carousel on tinder
she meets me and it's like OH FUCK YOU HAVE A COPING MECHANISM FOR GETTING THROUGH LIFE, GTFO

Fags

>>10250580
Here's some advice I've learned over the years.


Never go into a relationship hiding anything or lying about anything, It will never work out in the long run.

My brother is getting a divorce and is going to lose about ~210k dollars this year between the house and a car they bought together because he lied about things and refused to change for his wife.

You'll meet a woman who doesn't give a shit about smoking or smokes herself, Don't change for anyone.

>>10250609
thanks man, honestly

>>10250615
No sweat bro, Don't let this woman hurt you.

Just move on....


When I've come out of a hard breakup, What helps is alcohol (duh) and hooking up.

Try tinder, POF, adult friend finder, ect

Any hookup sites will help you out, Goodluck man...Seriously

>>10250620
thanks so much
also your brother's tale of woe puts things in perspective for me, so i appreciate that. hope it goes okay for him.

>>10250591
On about 6 months with current girl and she doesn't know I drink as much as I do and she doesn't know I dip either. Lives about an hour away so only see each other during weekends normally. Every time I drive to see her I'm on the tobacco but drink an energy drink as well along the way to overpower the tobacco taste, when she drives here I brush my teeth when I know she's 10 minutes away or so. When we're together I can be fine with 1-2 beers for the night but when she leaves or when I drive back home I immediately drink to make up for it and put a dip in between each drink to keep me awake until I pass out at my computer pretty much. If we spend an entire weekend together (uncommon because of her work) it gets really difficult towards the end and I can't wait until she's gone so I can get some tobacco and alcohol in.

>>10250571
the only time they're gonna shoot is if you're going to kill them, or others. sometimes not even then.
i'm getting too drunk and weepy right now so i'll sign off.
thanks cop bros

>>10250631
yeah dude same here
i am weaker than you and went out to my car to smoke like a fucking DUMB SHIT and thought i could duck into the bathroom for a toothbrush and some Tom Ford but she was standing right there

>>10250631
> Lives about an hour away so only see each other during weekends normally

Ya, but that's not a normal relationship man. Sure it's easy to hide drinking and dipping in that scenario, but any normal situation where 2 people dating are in the same town, it always comes out

>>10250596
i guess that's why most people who do flight sims have multiple monitors.
thanks so much for the help
what do you fly, where, and why (what/who do you carry)

>>10250644
Yeah, certainly easier to put a dip in while taking a shower and brushing teeth right after. Maybe you should try dipping instead of cigs lol, you'll probably get a better buzz until your body no longer gets anything out of tobacco because of constant use.
>>10250645
I understand that, it makes it scary thinking about a future with her. It sucks because she's a really sweet girl, but she's really never had any vices. Spent school never partying, has never blacked out, only puked once and from a very small amount of drinks, has a doctorate, so we're not the same at all. I think she loves me enough now that I could tell her about my vices and it would be okay for a bit but maybe not forever, she's very infatuated with me. Of course that infatuation will only last so long, so maybe better to confess my vices now rather than later.

>>10250653
F-15Es, not gonna say where, carry missiles and bombs (though I haven't ever deployed yet, so that's not true.) When I'm busy working 12 hour days flying a shitload I can get away from the booze easily since I'm mentally and physically exhausted after a sortie and sleep like a baby, just lately been flying once or twice a week because of lack of working jets so not many long days. Maintenance is super undermanned and it's showing hard.

>>10250691
ever fly any prop planes?

>>10250691
also do they put dummy bombs and shit on your planes, or does that weight not really make a difference

just discovered homebrewing. i don't want to become an alcoholic

>>10250691
>F-15E
wew that's some tom cruise shit, didn't they retire those yet

>>10250704
wait 7 days and you'lll change your mind back

>>10250704
That looks awesome. Just wish it was that easy with rum.. :(

time to black out on glenfarclas

>>10250695
>>10250697
Flew props back in the day, started with C172 and C152 when I was 17. Started from the bottom now I'm here. Also the T-6 that USAF uses for UPT is an 1100HP turboprop, quite a shitload of torque on that so lots of rudder required, lot's of fun though for aerobatics.

We always fly with inert missiles on, and the inert AIM-9 has a real seeker in it so you can uncage the missile and see if it actually locks onto the heat source with a valid tone and see if it is flare rejecting or not. That's useful for validation in "kills" called. We also sometimes fly with concrete bombs for real target practice without the explosive fillers due to range restrictions. Even put laser guidance kits and GPS/INS guidance kits on the concrete bombs sometimes too, so dropping a 200 dollar piece of concrete with 50k-100k dollars of electronics strapped onto it for practice and validation of the accuracy of the bombs. The weight and drag makes a HUGE difference for flying.

>>10250708
Won't be retired for the foreseeable future. Only US asset that can carry something like 20 small diameter bombs (250lbs very high accuracy bombs) or 7 JDAMS (6 500lbs, 1 2000lbs) and also carry 4 air to air missiles. Can fight your way into the target area, drop, and fight your way out pretty easily when against other 4th gen assets. I love this jet.

>>10250768
isn't there rudder trim on a t-6?
is there rudder trim on anything? i don't 100% know what i'm talking about, i just know it took me days in il-2 trying to figure out why i kept veering off the runway and crashing to the same side every time

>>10250778
T-6 has a somewhat automatic rudder trim but you still have to use a ton of rudder during takeoff with the p-factor. You can manually set rudder trim too but I never used it much. With high powered prop planes you just develop a feel for using rudder to counteract p-factor, definitely more difficult in flight sims when you don't have the real feeling of the forces acting on you.

>>10250795
>when you don't have the real feeling of the forces acting on you
i know that's a huge issue, i remember reading an article about airbus developing their weird side joystick and the pilots noped out unless there was a really expensive complicated force feedback type thing on it.
i think i have flying all figured out but i know the moment i hopped in a plane i'd have to relearn everything all over again.

>>10247396
Anyone here ever made a Cowboy? I was trying some whiskey mixed drinks and I thought it completely muddied any taste. I used 2 parts whiskey and 1 part half and half, did I make it wrong?

>>10250609
great advice, seriously. we all fail to follow it sometimes, but it's very important.

>>10250609
question: how do you go about this with alcoholism? i believe you, but i have been seeing my ex and avoiding trying to find new women in part because i'm a bit ashamed of how i'm an unemployed alchie. (getting better with drinking after ~3 years drinking every day, i think, but still very problematic.) i have to solve the unemployment bit on my own, but how do you go about expressing that you're an alcoholic?

>>10250731
jelly. which one?

>>10249362
Get a bike my dude I show up hammered everyday and if I slip on the ice and under a bus atleast this charade finally ends.

>>10251076
the basic tier glenfarclas, blue and red bottle...12 year?

>>10250540
don't try to stick to a schedule, just buy a load and take one if and only if the symptoms become too intense.

honest question, yes i know im a shitbag

when you're a hardocre al/ck/ and essentially tremor-free and panic-free at .15 ABV is it that fucking horrible to drive 2.5 miles and back to the store for your hooch?

yes, i know im going to hell

>>10250448
T. White (((Goy)))

>>10251310
YEEEEE BOY WE FOUND THE GOY

I vomited this morning lads

I didn't even drink that much

>>10251319
comes with the territory, welcome to the club

im typing this with one eye closed to reduce the double vision

god damn i have been WORKING this glen farclas 12 year
no im not a casual i have three years sobriety under my belt and multiple ER visits and detoxes

>>10247396
1/2 - Oh but the ride does end.. either way you loose but alcohol sure speeds up your appointment with death and makes the meeting horrifically painful.

Am stil in a clinic recovering from my last severe dehydration and poisoning. Was two days in the ICU just to have my heart stabilized. Took days to re-hydrate me.

I buy a lot of alcohol and hardly ever leave my "bed" because of depression-light. My room is dark, filthy and depressing - and there I stay, drinking bottle after bottle, sometimes two bottles per day. Its not the first time I land in the hospital (or psychiatry or jail) but this time was a very close call.

My friend, who is a doctor is very well aware of my severe drinking problem and has a key to my apartment - for those times where I am too retarded to operate a cellphone and anser his calls.

Had 'bunkered' well up with whisky and was drinking hard for several days and after a week or so, I became to weak to get out of bed for water. Had not eaten in days. Only liquid I had around me was whiskey. After dehydration begun setting in, I shouted for help - but my cries for help were not heard beyond those thick concrete walls.

>>10251374
2/2 - Day two of the dehydration was horribly painful and I tried crawl out of the mattress to the toilet to get water - but passed out right next to the mattress on the cold, hard floor. Gained consciousness but half my body was paralyzed from laying on the hard floor. Blood flow was restricted and nerves were being pinched.

I kept on crying for help and managed to drag myself back onto the mattress at day three - by now, I was in a very bad state. It was at this point where my doctor and friend locked himself into my apartment and when he found me, he called the ambulance right away. I remember flashes and sparks of the coming 48 hours.

Hospital did an amazing job of getting me on my feet but the 'hell' I went through was truly terrifying. I had bad hallucinations and the doctors pumped me full of benzodiazepines via the IV drip. The doctors gave me barbiturates to knock me out – those backfired and made the hallucinations a lot worse.

Have had myself some very bad days, yet, I am more determined than ever to fight my alcoholism. The clinic I am at is providing excellent counseling and rehabilitation. I am not depressed and I will make it. I will make it.

>>10247396
I used to drink a bottle a day for about 7 years, I would take a day or 2 off every couple weeks when I got too sick. I got a job working in the oil field at dry camps for 3 weeks on 1 week off. Now I buy a bottle of cheap vodka and a bottle of nice scotch when I get home. I sometimes don't even finish both by the time it's time to go back to work. If I ever work a normal job again I could possibly relapse but I just don't feel the need to drink the way I used to. I think the ride is pretty slow now.

>Blood flow was restricted and nerves were being pinched.
>I kept on crying for help and managed to drag myself back onto the mattress at day three - by now, I was in a very bad state. It was at this point where my doctor and friend locked himself into my apartment and when he found me, he called the ambulance right away. I remember flashes and sparks of the coming 48 hours.

this is Twilight-tier fanfiction
millions of middle-aged women across the globe could rub their cracked-dry clits to this

>>10251411
None of this if fiction. I am currently in a clinic, recovering. Two weeks of hospitalization.

>>10251429
nice socks.
are you american? if so i assume you're gonna have to declare bankruptcy

So i stopped drinking like 4 days ago but i still feel like shit. why

>>10251440
Those are anti slip socks - am not steady on my legs. Balance is coming back though - recovering well. No, not American.

>>10251165
yup, 12 year. beats the 10, probably. i was considering picking that up next time i have the cash for decent scotch, but that probably won't be a while. i was looking for something fruity, possibly sherried to try out.

>>10251374
>>10251377
>>10251429
>>10251457
Lmao why didn't you just drink some water silly?

>>10251440

>be american
>have 95% of assests in bankruptcy-proof investments
>get into massive debt by being an idiot
>declare bankruptcy, erase debt
>still rich

The system works.

>>10251474
If you drink 1-2 bottles of whiskey / vodka per day then you might just find out why I did not drink water. I was incapable of operating a cellphone let alone dragging myself to the toilet for some water.

>>10251486

You're gonna make it bro. Keep us updated in these threads, i'll be looking for you.

>>10251486
Yeah but just drink some water while drinking those 2 bottles of whiskey obviously

>>10251508
For it to be effective for all alchies, you'd have to drink it from the holy grail.

>>10247396
"I should go to be.. holyshit cool it's only 2:44am, time for at least one or two more drinks."

>>10251508
Planning is not my strong side when intoxicated. Should have kept a lot of water-bottles next to my mattress. Hopefully, this will never become an issue.

I stopped drinking for around 5 days, and now im having gargantuan shits every time i go to the toilet. For years my shits were just loose mush, and as a result my anus is probably tight as hell from never being stretched by normal turds. Now they're literal footlongs which are painful and clog my fucking toilet, im literally dreading every time i have to take a dump now because its like getting raped by a dragon dildo. I think i might start drinking again just to get those loose stools back.

>>10251733
Never heard of Duloclax? Or even just plain mineral oil?

Anyone have the link to the mibbit IRC alck channel?

>>10251448
Withdrawals, obviously.

2 months no drinking, got past the sweats. nausea and vivid dreams. starting to feel good

however being sober is really boring

what do

>>10247511
Skip beer, it's bullshit. Just about any straight liquor is good, though vodka tends to lack flavor of its own and is better mixed with something. Don't slam shots liked a stupid wasted degenerate, get a small amount in a glass and and savor.

>>10251733
>he doesn't enjoy the feeling of a 9x5 inch turd coming out of his ass at full force
>he doesn't climax the moment it starts to rip his asshole

Hue Hue Hue

>>10247854
A six pack here in the states is starting to close in on $10. FML.

>>10251983
Damn, What state?

A 24 pack is only 12-14 dollars for domestic beer

>>10247396
Found this place through that alcohol threat on /tv/. Jesus christ, are you guys larping? This is some heavy shit.

>>10252012
Kentucky.

I can get a 30 pack of Busch or Pabst for $18-$24, but idk what gives. Maybe it's floor space or packaging or ?? A 6 pack of Bud is $8, Sam Adams is $10-$12, and craft is $14+

>>10248312

Learn a language, pick up chess, read some classics. Lots of constructive things you can do in your spare time.

at what point should I start considering myself an actual alcoholic and start thinking about going to meetings and shit. if I don't bother to stop myself I'll drink about a fifth, over the course of a night, every 2-4 days. If I bother, about once a week, with longer stretches if life isn't going like shit

>>10252097
btw I have I've never been dependant, or at least I've never gone through withdrawals (I think)

630 am, first drink of the day

>>10252059
>Learn a language
I think I'll try this.

>>10251874
Make youtube video's about topics that interest you or take up a hobby as a photograper.

hey this coolaid wine is pretty good.

>>10252128
Cute

>>10252175
sadly, that's Spatula The Wizard Mouse, who died later that day

>go to my cities home brewing club
>bring my own beer to get feed back
>vets are actually really surprised by how good it is
>a lot of people are looking forward to what i bring next month

Anyone else brew beer better than they can buy?

>>10252191
Reminds me of how a tiny bird looked at me and just dropped his head down before he died in my hands, after it was attacked by a cat. Maybe i shouldn't have tries to save it. Then it would've been in less pain.

>>10247589
Emu Bitter or what anon?

>>10252193
I used to in college when I had time. Got a few fair ribbons too and then I got dreams of being a head brewer. Then I became an alck and landed a shit desk job and depression.

>>10247396
Got drunk and passed out last night while my wife and MIL were at their house. Woke up to 10 missed calls. They broke a water pipe and had no clue how to shut it off.

Bahahahahahaha

didn't drink last night

feels good man

it's like the day is twice as long

Guinness lad reporting in, about to finish my 3rd can.. But it's only 1:55pm. Think I need to slow down.. Got another 9 cans left but I'm going to see her tomorrow, first time I've seen her for 4 months, and the reason we stopped talking? I got into a drunken brawl with my brother and beat him up. Why do we drink at the wrong times lads?

Yall are losers

>>10252336
>yall
Fuck off you American scum. The British will colonise this thread soon.

>>10252336
preach sista

>>10252326
good for you, man! keep at it!

>>10247589
>
aldi beer brah

>>10251874
occupy yourself with different shit you might find amusing or whatever, something like cooking might do the trick.

>>10251448
Other than withdrawal effects, you might have personal shit to deal with.

>>10252356
Not him, but I'm having the same problems. I have depression also, had it before I started drinking, so motivation to do things is non existent. However, I find that as long as I can open my front door and take one step out, I can walk for hours and hours on end. That really helps for me anyway, but each to their own.
>>10252360
Got hospitalised on my last withdrawals. Ended up dizzy, paranoid, throwing up constantly with no appetite, feelings of dread and that I was going to die..

Question to everyone though, after stopping drinking, do the shakes ever stop? I stopped for 2 years and still had the shakes, how do you treat them? I literally cannot go on dates with people or even see friends because I can't hold a glass with one hand.

How do you guys deal with anxiety when you can't drink?

I get crippling anxiety around people when I'm not drunk, Especially around women.

>>10252390
Do you get this a day or 2 after your last drink? After drinking, for a few days it's normal to suffer from anxiety and paranoia, but if you've been a while without a drink, the underlying cause could be poor self esteem.

>>10252399
I drink everyday. I only don't drink when I have to work twice a week, But after I get home I pound it to bring me the calm.

I haven't gone more than 24hrs without drinking in over 5 years

Fuckin' goon yah cunts!!!

>>10252410
Then that's where the anxiety comes from bud. You need to keep off the drink and suffer a few days for it to disappear.

Does anyone get this the day after drinking? No attention span whatsoever, could put on a YouTube video or a dvd, 25 seconds in I'm fed up and annoyed and turn it on to another one, only to keep doing the same.

>>10252424
lol no.

I'd rather deal with the anxiety twice a week than quit, In fact I'd rather die than quit.

Thanks for the input though man

>>10252428
Each to their own mate. I'm an alcoholic but not dependant, I just have to black out when I do start drinking, and can't stop and will do anything to get to blackout. Try xanax for the anxiety, or try to keep away from situations that make you anxious sober.

Been looking at some videos yesterday how to brew your own rum/vodka, though i don't remember it very well cus the dude had a very un-understandable accent
Is it cost-effective though? Let's say you already had all the equipment. Just not the sugar and yeast and shit.

About to relapse, after 7 days off aa. Please help

>>10252426
same. my short term memory is also atrocious which affects the kitchen terribly.

oh and my life.

So NA sucked. Everyone there was rude and relapsed within a month of the meeting anyway, think I'll be going back to AA. This shit actually helps though, knowing I have a few meetings a week to go to eases my mind. Really think I'm gonna do it this time

Well bros

I relapsed after 63 days, drank a pint of vodka in less than 90 minutes.

Where do i go from here?

>>10252620
Buy a half gallon and make it worth your effort

>>10252487
Go back to aa?

>>10252620
Accept that you slipped up and quit again.
You don't have to throw away everything you've achieved because you had one fuckup.

>>10252487
find something to occupy your time fool. what do you do besides drink? if you say video games you are a lost cause

>>10252674
I do have an essay to write, so i will just focus on that

>>10252674
>besides drink
That's the rub for me. I forgot what interests me. Drinking does.

>>10250399
Damn, I demand more drunken USAF pilot stories!

Got kicked out of the bar I went to last night, 10 beers deep when I got there then had assorted whiskey drinks. I got qt bartenders number and was waiting for her to get off, got fucking hammered waiting because I was bored. Was acting belligerent and started a fight with nice couple having dinner when I was told to get the fuck out. Also got qt in trouble. Went home still waiting for girl to get off, she got to my place 10 minutes after I passed out. Woke up to some nasty texts and went to work. How was your night?

I'm kind of proud of myself. After my weekend binge I actually had money left. I've had a relatively easy recovery period and I don't really feel the need to spend my remaining money on more drink. Maybe I will give a serious try to giving this up.

>>10252743
Waking up in a jail cell with a fractured eye socket because you mouthed off to the wrong person while fucked up will make you question your drinking. It'll happen sooner or later, believe me.

Tonight brothers.. tonight.

>>10252771
I've woken up in a hospital with a broken nose and my stomach pumped, wasnt even 21 yet. I should have stopped then but that was a decade ago and im still an alcoholic piece of shit. Ive gone through phases of quitting before but in the end I'll get bored or pissed of at life and fall right back into the cycle.

>>10252780
I don't know what that is but it looks expensive. I'm not interested in high end alcohol, I'm not a connoisseur I'm just a drunk, I want the cheap stuff and lots of it.

>>10252350
thanks

really feel like having a couple beers right now

Welp, spend the last of my money on beer and a handle of vodka even though I said I wouldn't.

>>10252780
I've had that. It's pretty good although maybe lacking a bit in character.
That is to say it's slightly boring. Not a bad bottle for the price at all, though.

>>10252933
A hundred years from now it won't mean jack shit.
Like sands through the hour glass, m8...

>>10252674
Not him but ironically I don't play videogames anymore even though I'm neet because I have no interest in new ones, and can't play old ones anymore without being drunk even though I like them more. I keep my systems and some games in my closet and these days I occasionally just like to look at them and reminisce for a minute.

>>10252962
>can't play old ones anymore without being drunk

Holy shitballs, are you me? I literally cannot enjoy video games anymore without being shitfaced. Especially online ones.

How do I get up and behave tomorrow lads?
I'm drunk, duh, but I have a meeting at about 10am with my family, its 17:18 as I type this, but I'm already drunk and have 3 cans or so to go, plus cider in an emergency that I'm not drunk. Does water before sleep really help?

>>10252978
Cancel it

>>10252978
Is this "meeting" an intervention?

Jack Daniels Old No. 7 tastes like spicy varnished wood.

Disgusting

>>10252988

Fucking hell, imagine running out of liquor the night before being hit with a 10am intervention.

>>10252970
Yeah, I'd like to enjoy them, but sober they all just finally seem pointless to me. I don't get wasted either anymore after 10 years because it's too physically and mentally damaging to me. I wouldn't call myself a mature or even maturing person however because I'm 28 and yet shirk every possible responsibility yet my parents don't hate me. It's probably because I'm their only child.
Also I'm a virgin and have never had a gf. My life is in the hardcore doldrums right now and I've lost the vision of ever living a normal life. My drinking is dying down though just because it simply has to and I can't take it anymore. I've exhausted my ability to do it after 10 years of foot to the floor liquor abuse, and all my best drinking days are behind me now. Thanks for listening to the blog.

>>10253037
Not him, but don't shy away from sharing your story. It's what this board is for.

I'm kinda a neet too. No work, nothing to make my mom proud. But i don't know. Life isn't always shit.

>>10250473
Neat or one rocks.

Whenever I drink everything becomes so much more interesting. Video games become more fun, music becomes better, conversations more interesting, movies become more engaging etc.

But when I'm sober everything is so dull and boring.

>>10253037
My doc told me I can quit drinking or my heart can stop. Still on the fence.

>>10253053
Having been way more sober recently, I don't think life is complete shit either, but for me it certainly is completely empty. Ever since my friends as well as I moved all over the country, I really have nothing in life besides my mom and dad. I feel too old and niche in my ways to ever think about making new friends once I start working again, and I honestly have no idea where to start with women still even though I've done a few things with a couple in college. Never sex or a real relationship though. Whenever I think about using the internet or something like Tinder to meet a girl in the future, I just hate the idea of it so much.
And aside from those things, I really don't enjoy anything anymore aside from playing music, I've done that for a long time and have a handful of instruments but my skills plateaued years ago and I never ever have been one to practice or try to improve. I just naturally got better and better until I stopped.
Still want to drink a couple of 5% seltzers in a day and sometimes a couple glasses of wine, and it makes a huge difference turning on my interest for things again, but I've just really got nothing, like jack shit going on. At least I'm not constantly consumed by panic and fear and sickness all the time though I guess.

>>10252487
maybe go to a meeting?

>>10253064
After years on the sauce there is nothing that becomes truer than this.

>>10253064
Pretty much this.

I'm in the early days of withdrawal, sitting in my room sweating bullets, itchy all over, irritable, vomiting every now and then, shaking like a leaf. Oh the joys.
I used to have a lot of interests years ago, which I am quite motivated to get back in to, since it really helped my the last time. Then I got injured, moved city and the sauce got a grip of me again.
I'm going to make it, r-right

>>10253074
Be careful man. I hope you can find a solution to prolong your life, and I wish you well.

>>10253247
Don't know anyone you can bum a few benzos off of?

>>10253323
Used to have a bit of a Benzo problem too. Finally tapered off of them last year. That will be my last resort.

just found out costco sells these for $13
press F to pay respects to my liver

Does anyone notice that their hangovers include a hell of a lot more anxiety than they used to?

>>10253447
The anxiety is the reason I don't really ever stop drinking. Anyone ever see a shrink for this shit? I'm actually considering it for the first time in my life. I'm starting to think I have PTSD too.

>>10253446
13 bucks wouldn't even get a pint here in Canada.

>>10253465
Whenever I'm sober I get 24/7 bombarded by negative thoughts, like how I'm a worthless piece of shit or how embarrassing that one thing I said 4 years was. So that's why I drink.

>>10252962
I can't play vidya when drunk. Keep crashing my car in GTA like total mad man. I don't feel bad, keep thinking I got this, and then, there is suddenly that other car... or some pedestrian.. BAM!


Can't do shit when you are drunk, yet complaining how boring sobriety is...

>>10247396
>>10253447
>>10253465

>been there
>threw up every morning for a year, from anxiety, even when not drinking the night before
>anxiety even if didn't drink
>only drinking cured the anxiety
>drank all the time, and then drank more for the anxiety


You gotta stop drinking to get rid of the anxiety. The anxiety will last for like 2 weeks after you stop drinking. Source: I'm a lawyer, and we drink too much.

Weed helps. I'm in a legalized state though. Seriously your only out is cold turkey and then drink in moderation (2 drinks max) after a year of clean living. Decent side effect is that you will lose 10-15 pounds almost instantly Also, no tolerance after cold turkey for a year, so a single glass of whiskey feels goooooood. Good luck.

any of you guys love the throwing up in your mouth after chugging shots because it makes the drunk hit faster? I dunno what this is but it's rad

>>10253492
You can get mickeys of shitty stuff here in BC for just over $10 and I thought we had some of the more expensive liquor prices in Canada (other than the territories)

>>10253723
>I know one of the people responsible for this.

I always shiver after my first few drinks. why?

Its so cosy. Drinking vodka and playing Ratchet and Clank remaster

I always feel a little out of place and crazy when i'm sober. Ican say the weirdest things that normies can't handle. But when i'm drunk i'm more sympatheticand hardly ever get rezlly upset.

>>10253446
F


I also recently stared buying costco kirkland vodka

About 14 a handle where I live, Plus there is a legal loophole in my state that prohibits "clubs" selling things to only certain people so I don't even need a costco membership.

>>10253446

The red one is much better.

FYI, Kratom has saved my fucking life. I haven’t drank in 6 months thanks to it

>>10253979
It helps for social anxiety and physical pain, But I just keep gravitating back to the bottle.

It deff helps on days I have to work because I have crippling social anxiety and I have a job that requires me to be sober as shit or I would lose it (I work a heavy equipment rental facility).

>>10253635
every time I quit I get fairly swollen, like retaining water. It goes away in a few days. It's bad in my fingers and stomach.

getting shitfaced all the time is fun but it's a young man's game. the toll on your health starts to get really bad at around 30. Shit slowly crept up on me to the point where I pretty much couldn't work. You don't realize it at the time but heavy drinking is insanely destructive to your ability to cognitively function.

>>10253247
take a antihistamine for the itching, like zyrtec. it's liver safe and really helps. there''s nothing you can do about the shakes or sweats other than tough it out or take benzos, which is honestly not that great an idea if you're an addict already. it might prevent you from having a seizure though.

worst part of withdrawl for me was the auditory hallucinations (can't sleep, noises startle you) and the sleep paralysis/mini-seizures. That shit only lasts a couple of days thankfully. I had one so bad that I fell out of my bed but couldn't move for like 20 minutes.

I wish I could keep drinking but it always ends up the same way. It's a fucking shit drug.

Gin blossoms from the motherboard guy here, I wrecked my car, but bikes are great, rode to the liquor, no one even questioned me. Life is okay for now, hopefully I stop or whatever

>>10253611
When I rarely do play games, I'm always better at them after drinking no matter what kind of game it is. It's actually not just hubris or me making shit up, you could see me play sober and when I'm drunk and you'd see a slight performance increase in drunk mode.

>>10254037
True, because you start playing unpredictable. Weed is a little different though. Weed either makes you really focused (having the others question if you're hacking) , or it really makes you play like an idiot.

So in basic statistics.

Sober is 6-9/10
Drunk is 8-9/10
Stoned is 4-12/10

>>10254030
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-0LfeX1Ibo


please watch, it's true

>>10254030
So how was the car wrecked. Any bad repercussions or just lose a car?

https://i.4cdn.org/gif/1520457371295.webm

>>10254066
I was on two handles of whiskey and took my shifter car out. SHifted on a turn and put it through a fence and a few trees. I'll try to sell it. Nah, no cops this time, but I had a DUI like a decade ago. I don't recommend this shit, but I have a fun time, even when I lose things.

>>10254058
Weed doesn't work for me. Too much existential nightmare shit about perception and reality. It's just overly cerebral for me if I take more than seriously 1 hit, can't help it.

>>10254083
>might be my first image

>>10254083
Glad you're ok and didn't get in bad trouble. Try to take it easy.

>>10254089
Yeah i feel ya. Once stoned i woke up in the middle of the night and thought i saw a head looking under the door and i woke up my gf at the time (now ex) like a madman. The way i acted was the same time how i almost punched a friend when we were hiding from the cops in a basement while we were on xtc and mdma.

We were with 4 people and one started riding his scooter, even though i begged him not to ride it. Copcar chased him. Rest of us went into the basement. There were little cracks in the wall, so you could look outside and isaw red/blue lights so i thought it was a police motorcycle and this friend wanted to go outside to check it out, soi grabbed him by his neck and held him up the wall like a madman telling him if he tried to go outside i'd wreck his shit. Damn i'mgoing offtopic.

Anyway, drugs are bad.

>>10253996
beautiful

>>10254129
Ah to clarify i'm not entirely crazy. I was renting a room. We thought our neighbour wanted to catch us on smoking weed; since its not allowed and my gf wasn't very polite to him, but drinking was allowed, he is/was probably here on this board as well, because he was a good cook and drank every day.

>>10254160
Don't worry I didn't think you were crazy dude. Especially in this thread I don't think others here would think so either.

>>10251429
well then you should have a go at writing fiction for retards and women.

>>10254089
Sounds like you need to hit some Benzos when you get high. That takes away any bad feelings/paranoia and you just feel mega baked.

>>10254187
Ah thanks man.

>>10254212
None of the things I shared are fiction. I am an 40 year old alcoholic. I have been in hospitals, locked up in the psychiatry and jailed countless times. This was my last visit to the ER - this time I will make it.

At that stage where food calories are replacing my booze calories and my shitting is fucking ghastly.

Plz send help.

What constitutes a bender?

>>10254350
Anywhere from 2 days to x years. 1 day is just a binge.

>>10254366
Of being constantly drunk without stopping?

>>10254432
I don't think that is possible. You need to sleep, so you will wake up in that hazy drunk/hungover way. I usually just start again in the early afternoon and a few drinks back in to it I'm feeling it again.

>>10254348
it's just going to suck for like 2 weeks. force yourself to eat stuff with lots of fiber and drink as much water as you can.

>>10254432
general cycle when I was drinking: start around 5 PM, drink continuously until around 1 AM, pass out stone cold drunk. Wake up the next day, piss about two liters of fluid out, chug water and coffee all day long to try and fight the booze coma. I only drank hard liquor. Beer turns your stomach inside out and wine leads to the worst hangovers imaginable. There's a sweet spot in this cycle where I was still able to hold a job for several years. With enough coffee I could dick around at work until feeling better around lunch and then get shit done.

>>10254350
>>10254366
I'm not trying to be an asshole but I've heard people say a week, but I would say it's just more than 3 days.

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>>10254583
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>>10253996


yeahh thats definately past the point when you want to stop drinking

>>10254445
>I don't think that is possible

In a bender you would go to sleep wasted, wake up with a noticeable buzz, then keep drinking all without ever returning to being sober. Repeat for x amount of days

>>10254592
That's exactly what I said

I want to kill myself but I’m scared I’ll wake up reborn as a child of Honduran refugees and have to work as a part-time roofer in Mexico City