/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Never been on this board before... Surprised to see all of these faggots with eating disorders


When I was 15-16, I struggled with mild anorexia as well as bulimia. A sample of my eating schedule:

>Wake up
>Eat nothing
>Lunch time
>Eat nothing
>Be in a culinary class as well
>Convincing myself not to indulge was nearly impossible
>Still managed somehow
>So hungry...
>Grades were shit because aside from the lack of proper nutrition, all I could think about was food
>"Why aren't you eating, anon?"
>"Not hungry"
>Get home
>House full of food
>lolnope
>Supper time
>Eat something like 3 servings of fried chicken, qt. mashed taters swimming in gravy, mac and cheese, a half-gallon of ice-cream, small cake, Hershey's chocolate bars, whatever sweets I could find
>Eat until I was in physical pain
>Still felt good as fuck
>3 hours later
>Doubled over toilet for 20 minutes
>Bye bye food
>Initial happiness from purging is quickly dashed
>Feel guilty
>Go to bed miserable
>Mind starts racing
>My life has gone to shit because I let myself get put of control
>Stare at the ceiling for a couple of hours
>Finally close my eyes
>Stomach starts to rumble
>Still hungry
>I won't let myself eat...
>Lie in bed crying from from all the emotional and physical pain

All I wanted was to be happy...