/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>be 18
>get the guts to ask a girl on a date (we had been grouped up in a project and so I was basically forced to talk to her, the only girl I spoke to during my entire time at university)
>she accepts
>go to restaurant
>accidentally accept waiter's offer of bottled, expensive water
>girl tells me that was a mistake, get embarrassed
>hand is literally shaking a I pour the water into the glasses
>hand continues to shake uncontrollably for the rest of the dinner
>also become unable to bend my neck (?)
>to drink, I have to take minute sips contort my neck slightly
>girl is just politely making conversation that I'm barely following
>finish half my meal (a lasagna), get the cheque, leave
>extremely uncomfortable atmosphere, barely make eye contact
>say goodbye, no hug or anything
>avoid her from then on
>slowly transition from that, to just being on hi terms, to just being on nodding terms, to ignoring each other
didn't have another date, let alone get anywhere with any woman, for another 8 years. I also believe now that, considering how I presented myself back then (ill-fitting clothes, uncut hair, traces of acne, lame glasses, all from a "I don't care how I look" attitude), that the girl only accepted to go out to a meal with me on the assumption that I couldn't possibly be asking her on an actual date, and that she thought I was just trying to be friends or something. Most likely, though, is that she just pitied me.

>rinse cold water over cooked pasta to stop it from sticking
>dad yells "what are you DOING??"
>explain
>gives me a disappointed look
THANKS GUYS...

>get the guts to invite a hot girl for dinner
>go to dinner
>shitting myself with anxiety
>order drinks
>realize I can no longer move my neck
>raise drink to mouth really unnaturally
>just adjusting the angle of my jaw enough to sip takes a huge amount of effort and also makes my head SHAKE
>my arm also shakes
>am so preoccupied with this that I barely make conversation
>after this, never spoke to her again and was a virgin for 5 more years

>tfw literally everything about the autist is true about you