/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>10696394
>https://downwithjackscalfani.wordpress.com/jack-scalfanis-atrocious-behaviour/

OH MY

>>10697435
It's alright. Been doing the program. A lot of mumbo jumbo, but they talk about this "psychic change" aka mental change and I do think there is something to that, albeit maybe not as grand as they make it out to be. I feel like a different person, not like better/more moral or anything like that but I just feel like I'm operating on a different system. I still think about drinking all the time. I finally built a PC recently and I had huge cravings to just get bombed and play the vidya I had been wanting for years. (could never afford new shit because I was always drunk). I'm able to see the alcoholism more clearly now. Like I can kind of pinpoint my thinking processes and go "yup, that's the alcoholic part of my brain talking". I can sort of distance from them.

First week was awful. I couldn't sleep, pissing out my ass, woke up gasping in the middle of the night, anxiety, anhedonia, all that shit. After about a week or so the physical symptoms sort of subsided and I was just left feeling bored and empty. Felt pretty disconnected and still sort of feel that way. 2-3 weeks the biggest thing was boredom for sure. I couldn't enjoy shit. Sitting through a movie was impossible. I would basically just shift between cooking youtube videos for hours.

I'm getting to the point now where I don't think about it as much and I'm starting to be able to enjoy things. I'm not bloated anymore. Still have to go to the doc and get checked out, but otherwise okay.

I'm pretty terrified about drinking again. I don't know what would happen. I got engaged recently and don't want to fuck it up.

Have you had any sober breaks at all? Week 2-3 is the fucking danger zone because you start feeling better physically but mentally you're still all fucked up.

Thanks for letting me blogpost btw

>>10696500
I sorta wonder this too.

I think it's a hard question because "cooking" encapsulates so much. Some people can cook meat, but their knife skills are shit. Some people now how to match flavors but they couldn't make any of the five mother sauces if their life depended on it.

I'd say you're "good" at cooking when:
>knife skills on point, can make quick work out of veggies and trimming meats
>Can cook fish, beef, chicken to varying levels of doneness as requested and being able to reproduce it.
>Can make sauces without them breaking, including the five mother sauces.
>Knowing how to season, what works, what doesn't, knowing when to add acid, salt, fat, etc.

just my two cents
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