/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Pt 1 of 3
Not a date but fuck it, this cringe has been haunting me for 20 years, might as well make you guys feel better about yourselves. I'm shitty at green texting so forgive if I don't do it right.
>be me child of the 80's, parents hyper religious (mothers parents were missionaries to the indians living in caves in arizona)
>get taken to paid events where a 50+ year old man preaches for a weekend how women are the bait of satan and we should live like the puritans
>make me read these books about a girl that lives alone in a mansion until her dad chooses a husband for her
>be watching a tv show with the family and an in show married couple kiss and my mom jumps up and covers the screen with her body while screaming don't look boys
>I regularly am forced to sleep in the basement or outside because of some sin or something
>I don't have a single interaction with girls outside of church and my private school where boys and girls are mostly separate
>discover masturbation accidentally at 14
>terrified that I am going to hell because I have thoughts about a girl at church
>she is an angel, my type in every way
>we become friends somehow even though we have nothing in common
>she comes from a rich family, goes to the best school in the state, perfect grades, a smile countries would go to war to protect, genuinely a good person, sweet, caring, basically everything 4chan memes about what they want their girl to be
>We get closer over high school, talk on the phone for hours every night (this is mid 90's no internet)
>I dream about a life with her, my world revolves around being with her.
>I didn't recognize it because of my tism but she is giving me all of the signs of being in love with me

>>11754140
Not organic, doesn't apply jesus christ are you even trying?

>>11383152
>https://frywall.com/