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>>19978198
I’ve been living in my house since 2019 when I was diagnosed with severe dry eyes that give me pain and light intolerance at the end of years of suffering from mistery symptoms and all the doctors told me that it was anxiety and stress, then in the last 5 years I started having other auto immune shit like dermatitis, never ending cervical pain that gives me constant problems to eyesight and I feel
Like I’m drunk, my neck is blocked forward even though I did exercises and physiotherapy, all my skin is dry and my scalp and face is constantly peeling, I’m always cold and my hands are dead cold as ice, have constant sensation of shit blocking my esophagus since 2 months and so on, on top of a severe depression that lasts since 13 year.

I stopped functioning like a normal human being, I’m a living corpse that is waiting for his death.

If only I could cure my eyes my depression would be way better, but no…the more I read about this illness the more I have the confirmation that I’m stuck like this forever, and I’m only 33 years old…not 63.

The female doctor I don’t know, she’s better than the other ones but I go there twice a month because she’s expensive and when I’m there time flies away literally, also since I’m alone without friends and female company, I started having feels for her despite perfectly knowing that she’s my therapist and nothing more, but I can’t help it because my subconscious has decided to act this way.

Either way everything I do ends up fucking me even harder, I must have done something horrible in my past lives.

The flair won’t save me, sadly.