/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>6968919
I can't even hate myself or anything anymore. I feel nothing, good or bad. I can't even be enough of a human to feel depressed, angry, or agitated. I can't be happy, excited, or curious either. I used to have so much life, for better or worse. I'd get mad, I'd have enough spark to learn things I found interesting. I had friends to hug and enemies to fight. Now I just don't and it isn't even bad. I've mostly quit drinking, sometimes I do. I can't even find the motivation to kill myself because I've internally killed any feeling or motivating drive to take on something so meaningful.