/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>12774283
holy shit that sounds like my family

I did

>>10773596
why

Have a girlfriend for close to six years, 5 years living together.
She knew right form the beggining the fact that I'm an alck, didn't mind at first years. Then came few bad years, when I became abusive with her when I was drunk, but only when SUPER drunk. Once a month. Not physically, but emotionally. Shit like saying get out of my house and so on. Didn't leave because she really loves me. But it stopped, and all is well.
However, I think I am about to loose myself soon.
When my girlfriend is home, I drink 2-3 times a week, 4 beers or bottle of wine at time, for just a slight buzz. Occasionally get fucked with friends when she's around.
When she's out of town I drink every single day she's gone.
And now her job requires her to move around a lot, a week there, a week here, sometimes more time away.
And as I've said, I drink everyday she's away, 90% of times alone. But I don't drink til I get tipsy or drunk, I drink til I get DESTROYED. Last night I drank 12 beers and 3 wine bottles. the day before it was worse. And I had no off days from work, and my collegues didn't even notice, because I am in constant state of being hungover, they think that is my normal state of being.
I think I'm digging my own grave, and digging it super fast.

>decided to make rice pudding with some day old rice I have
>boil milk with a bit of starch and add to it the rice
>it won't thicken
>add to it more corn starch (prepared and heated seperately)
>still won't thicken

pls help its been boiling for 40 minutes now

i'm so hungry

Sloppy joe sauce with a cap of Hot Sauce from Hell hot sauce. Kabasi saussage. Boiled for 40 min.

It gud mang. It real gud.

>>8362697
But I'm lactose intolerant, anon