/ck/ - Food & Cooking

I went on drunken rampages both nights this weekend. Does anybody else get a huge twang of guilt for a few days after they hit *that* level? The one beyond drunk, beyond blackout, but punch drunk blackout retarded. I didn't even do anything stupid (besides spill my RL info to an internet pal, but I trust him). I just feel guilty when it happens. I blackout often enough, but it's when I go full beligerent with no respect for the next day's hangover, that I feel guilty. I have had 2 sober nights in 2018. I set up my new weight rack today. Tomorrow, I start lifting again after 3 months off, so I'm hoping that this will get me to cut off the sauce again.

I also really miss my only, despite being 23, ex. It's been 2 years, and she had a baby. But I miss her :( I've never connected like that with *anybody* in my life. I went on 2 dates after her, this year, with 1 girl. We didn't do anything, didn't start a relationship, and it was a fucking shoah of a shitshow bad. I can't feel anything for anybody anymore.