/ck/ - Food & Cooking

New to these threads. In pretty bad shape in some ways. Relapse. Was 5 months sober.

I had replaced alcohol with prostitution. Now though, I'm in Medical School and moved and there are no whores in my area, so I go to the strip club and I started drinking again there when a nasty little slut filled her mouth with vodka and put her tongue down my throat.

I now go to the strip club 2-3 times a week, on days when I don't, I drink a 5th and eat Burger King. In those 5 months I had lost 80 lbs, gained back 10 so far. Feels bad man.

Its like I NEED a vice. It excites me. I also feel giddy that I'm performing well in my medical school and people think I'm a great guy but they don't know I fuck hookers and drink on the weekends.

I feel like I'm on a negative path where I'm psychologically addicted to doing "bad" things.

I'm even masturbating to nastier porn while drunk and losing my fucking mind. On really crazy nights I'll drink 1.5 L and puke and pass out and skip morning classes.

This is all so FUCKED. I need to find access to whores, so I can stop going to the strip club and stop drinking.

Gambling my life.