/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Well day five no drink April is coming up, I don't really like anything, but I don't really care much either. I'm trying to exercise and whatever, but I've noticed girls literally leave me and my phone alone when I'm not drunk, so that's a dickjob. I feel like I'm losing the plot here.

I've passed into a different phase of alcoholism guys.... I used to drink tons just to blackout and be gone, now I'm so used to withdrawaling, I've started living for the dreams. It's a roulette wheel whether I get nightmare/fantasy, but the good dreams are so real and amazing, I never want to wake up. It's better than real life. I drink to fucktard status just to get back to WD dreams..... what the fuck have I become...

>>10264990
I wish i was more scared about my liver failing and dying, but i just kinda want to die desu

>fuck girl the other night that I've known forever
>cum in her
Girl: "Are you happy?"
>look at wall
>look at empty bottle of whiskey
"No"
>put pants and walk to store for more.

Dude I dunno what the fuck I'm supposed to give a shit about anymore.

>>10166033
No fucking shit, every time I try to quit smoking/drinking I end up uncomfterble/sweaty for 3-4 days and then have a smoke/beer anyway because it's the only thing I could reward myself with since my brain barely seems to respond to other stimuli.